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Tag: Wisdom
Prayer of St Francis
Came across this while watching a clip on George Yeo. He spoke at the launch of his book and shared about the last chapter he wrote.
He wanted to find the meaning of life, and that equates somewhat to finding god . He said the quest to be spiritual – while it appears to be less important as science progresses, – should have been more, and he shared this prayer :
“Lord, make me an instrument of your peace: where there is hatred, let me sow love; where there is injury, pardon; where there is doubt, faith; where there is despair, hope; where there is darkness, light; where there is sadness, joy.
O Divine Master, grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console; to be understood as to understand; to be loved as to love.”
Inspirations From A Run (XII)
Still fascinated or having questions about the now.
So the practice follows the intention yesterday- to bring me to the now
And I was asking myself the question- what is in the now?
As I ran, the answers came.
Inspirations for my work. Questions I could ask newsmakers. Stories I could pitch. Things I can cook for lunch.
My mind was running everywhere in the now.
Then the wind came along. I used it to shower my body with the freshness it brought.
I asked it to cleanse me if the excessive energies and anything that no longer supports me.
I felt good with/ in the wind and that brought about feelings of gratitude. I thank my body for running with me, the divine for the opportunity and myself for showing up.
Running in the cool wind made me happy! Now brought me joy- if I am aware.
When I a bit lazy, I used the now to set the intention to plant this seed of healthfulness for my future.
And it appears to me- now is everything and anything. It’s emptiness but fullness or wholeness as well.
It’s where things are created and the future is paved.
Thank you for the practice opportunity!
Inspirations From A Run (VIII)
I had a conversation with the anxiety and fear I have been feeling in the last few days.
HuaiHao said he could feel it. I asked him how and he said “ there’s like an aura of it on me, like you are anticipating something.”
The feeling diminished slightly – not actually significantly after my virtual interview with CXXX
I guess I didn’t want it. So I felt relieved after the session
I told my family over dinner – that previously I had been preoccupied with sending out job applications
And now that I receiving echoes I am seriously wondering what my calling is or how I want my future to be
And I am getting the jitters because I’m not familiar with this point enough – or as much as I want to
Now writing about this made me appreciate the fear or concern I have been harbouring
It was really asking me to pause and to have a think with myself
I was just fidgety and anxious, impatient and jittery
During those few days, I realised that the energy it was bring me is stopping. Stopping me from advancing
And I didn’t understand it fully then until in the run and now really
The first thing I did was to acknowledge its presence and simply say to it. Hello dear, I see you, I feel you, I hear you.
And it was a good feeling. The feeling was opening up to it rather than suppressing it not wanting to see it abhorring it
The. I asked what the message it had for me and the response that came along was –
It is a habit and a highly reinforced energy- over the years. And in a bid to caution me, to alert me of possible pitfalls and that I needn’t be fearful of it.
So there are two things here: an automatic habit of feeling fear that kicks in once I sense myself encountering something different or what I m not used to
The other is my response to this habit – while I have been always afraid of it, I can listen in to it and use it to my advantage
Another response that came was to use this energy. To use it and fully so, on something new like in a new venture a new project or adventure . For these are innately arisen to support and help me. And I could really use them this way.
And I asked what I could do to resolve the habit .
And I find myself saying thank you and goodbye to this energy. It has been with me for 40 years and I was fearful of it, when all it wants is to help me and support me
Helping me come to where I have.
And I find it moving from the belly to my heart and that was where I said goodbye.
It’s a wonderful conversation
Inspirations From A Run (VII)
The intention was to get to know why the soul chose to come to earth? What was so attractive here that I wanted to explore so much I signed this contract?
I ask for the running practice session to help me find out.
And what did I hear ?
(I) to see and find out about light
All the times of perceived difficulty in worry and fear, each time I chose the way out – guided by light. I travelled in the direction of light once and again
(II) to find my magic my divinity
Each time of perceived difficulty worry and fear, I drew out from my core my being my soul my power my magic.
I thanked myself for keeping on – with openness, with the willingness to try , once again. To persevere and not give up. To stake on myself and believe I can
No I did not come here to worry about health, that was me gone off course. And i steer myself back
(III) the miracle body
Everyone of us has this miracle body who takes such wonderful amazing care of us , supporting us healing is restoring us to keep us going
The way my body heals is instant miraculous and magic
Our bodies perform magic once and again on is for us- because it wants us to know that we have a bigger purpose and a lot of things to achieve and accomplish. Our bodies want us to do exactly what we want to come here for and so they support us so unconditionally so faithfully so committed – with so much love
I thank my body I thank my body. Thank you for loving me!
(IV) the magic is if I m well you are
If I m facing light and feeling all the wonders of it, why wouldn’t my daughter? Why wouldn’t you? Or he? She?
One of the most meaningful things I heard from Lee Harris the day before in his free podcast was that when you run( or do something) , you are carrying the energy for another too.
We are all parts of each other. Fractals of each other.
If I am well you are too.
(V) so go forth and do what gives you joy
Without a care
Inspirations From A Run (VI)
Gift from nature at the end of my run. How beautiful.
(1) Light years ahead
May anyone who sees this be inspired by the light captured this morning to go forth and activate your path
(2) Big and Beautiful
The chinese way for the word beauty is 美, made up of 羊 （sheep）and 大 （big）
This morning as I was running , there was places which were more open than the others
And like this
And the expanse is beautiful. Space is beautiful. And it brings me back to the word 美. The word is supported by 大 or big below. And it says quite a bit about beauty. Big is beautiful
(3) Wisdom of the Sun and Moon
I have been writing this for a few days now- 智慧有日月同光
It translates to having the wisdom of the sun and moon. Or having the wisdom or intelligence of the universe.
And I kind of paid attention to that as I ran. There is a small window of seeing the sim and moon together. If you did- at any point in time, celebrate! And I thought of the times where I made decisions like that. I want to make decisions like that.
I can’t help but thank the new moon for her companionship at night and the sun for showing it’s brilliance this morning.
It’s so beautiful and to witness this is bliss.
And when thoughts came, I reminded myself to just be here, to stay here with this beauty that is here.
Be here and listen in on the divine. What does it have to say? What is it saying to you?
With so much love and light here,
Inspirations From A Run (V)
The intention today is to work with the divine to receive healing. To restore .
And this was what that came up in the run.
(i) thankful to be here
I’m thankful to be here , to be running now and to be seeing this. To be given this opportunity to be here now, to receive
(ii) nothing to do
When thoughts came, immediately there is this idea that “There is nothing to do, nowhere to go but here.
To receive.
There is no thing to do but just to be here and we will receive. I m certain.
(iii) healing comes within
Towards the end of the run, I asked myself about healing. What does my womb want me to know? That it is out of balance . And what can I do to restore he balance? To write !
The body is actually made to support the soul and soul journey and development
When there is inner clarity, the body works it’s best to support the purpose
(iv) openness
If I m here and an opportunity lands on me , isn’t that part of the flow? isn’t that a gift? Just as everything around me in the run is?
I have been looking elsewhere and thinking about something similar I have done always and remained somewhat close to the opportunity that has landed.
What happens when I m being open to this all?
David Foster: Off The Record
Teacher Stephan sent me a reply
“Dear Pin Yen, I feel for you in the pain and thoughts.
We are all equal young people, old people, all people and all need to be respected.
Without the elderly (parants, grandparents, great grand parants etc) we would not be here.
They not only had to care for their families and survive wars, famines, atrocities, injustice and so on…stoically survive and move forward through the uncertainty of life and time. Building our nations, economies and then meet so that we are born.
Did you know if we look back the last 11 generations or about 300 years. There were at least 4094 people who had to meet, give birth to a child which would grow up and meet someone else to face the lifes challanges, bringing children etc.
Where did they come form?
How many wars, famines, atrocities have they survived or not survived?
But also how much love, joy, dreams have they had and send to us down the line.
And how much strenght, endurance, courage and resilience have they left in us to move ahead in our lifes.
All we can do is to honore these gifts and take up their courage and strenght to forge ahead and make our lifes.”
And I saw Sasha’s send of this pix that I liked immediately and immensely
I wonder why
I am not sure why but I just wanted to watch this that I watched a while ago.
Particularly the part on Whitney Houston and the hit “ I will always love you”
“And I hope life, will treat you kind
And I hope that you have all
That you ever dreamed of
Oh I do wish you joy
And I wish you happiness
But above all this
I wish you love
I love you
I will always love you”
And this kind of sums it up.
The question and the answer is the same: love.
Inspirations From A Run (III)
I was chatting to Widya at midnight and I felt good.
It made me think why.
I was running with the sun’s beam on my everywhere and it felt good.
The sun is a good on its own
And it dawned upon me that if we shine and be like us – very us, nothing but just us, every moment, we would be bright and brilliant, we would be a good for everyone everything around us
Just focus and keep on getting better
Keep running TPY
Inspirations From A Run (I)
It’s been quite a while since I last ran.
As usual, I intended this session as a practice for me get in touch with my heart. And it’s wonderful what came out of it.
(I) open
Allowing and practicing how to keep open. Each time thought comes- and they do, come back to openness.
This involves the willingness to come back – again and again.
(II) intelligence
What makes the sky blue and the clouds white? What makes the birds and butterflies fly? I saw a squirrel and followed it’s path across the greens and up a tree- so light so lighthearted.
Some kind of intelligence up there that I actually have sense of but could do more with.
If this is the very thing that is letting birds fly then what is it doing to me, I m in the same space in the same intelligence as the birds and bees.
I tried to tap into and use this for healing
This very intelligence that kept me alive and rescued me countless times. It’s the reason I am here for.
How can we with with this intelligence more. We do not do this enough.
I realize once again I have been many chances and opportunities by the divine . I spring back once and again . To life, for life. There is something else I want to do , need to do.
(III) surrender
The fact is the body is a superpower capable of healing- and we have to do all we can to support it. The body is on our side, always.
As I try and work with this intelligence, I offered and surrendered my problems and issues and allow the divine to take over.
(IV) power
If we are all expressions of the divine, and the divine is in us, it follows that we have the inherent divine abilities
We have the power- we are so powerful. This power is precious.
But I took me so long to see this . That we have the capacity and capability to bless ourselves. And this is what I did in the last few nights at bedtime, blessing my body wherever needed
Bf was sharing with me about powers . He believes that we should live according to our DNA or our gifts. If we do otherwise, it will be like a fish out of water.
What is your water? What and where is your power?
He says that and it made me think about mine. All along he always chided me for being emotional and I am always so led by emotions, frequently led and misled. They are powerful.
And I haven’t really consciously used them as a power. What if I do?
What if I do?
(V) believe belief
What do you / I believe in?
I just sharing with bf that during my secondary school days I wanted so much to get out of the strata I was in that I did my utmost and become one of the three who would get into Hwa Chong in that academic year.
Bf asked me what is it about my strata. What strata ?
I told him what I saw at that age. An age wheee womenfolk had to do their husband’s bidding and had no place . An age where my parents had to bow down to authority. An age where people felt they had no choice. An age of a lot of powerlessness and where parents had to submit and say “this is life” when they felt like they had no other choice
Even as a kid, I did not like hearing that
We have choices but we too often gave it away
I wanted to have choice I wanted to have freedom I wanted to decide for myself and I did my best with a silent resolve to get out. To get out of any situation where I would choose like my parents did.
To me then, to get out means to strive for a better life where there are other possibilities, at the very least, possibilities other than what I then have.
I believed in myself in working hard and being focused on my goals. And true enough, I got what I wanted.
And bf asked, “ so if you believed so much in yourself where did that believe go?”
I recounted the time in JC when dad started to ask for financial support and I started to care badly for my school
Now instead of blaming him, I could see that I made the choice yes I , to choose the east way out rather than push on, choose to submit and found myself back at the “strata”
And now I could answer what teacher asked- what did you not like about pinyen.
I did not like me giving up – on myself. Then.
I wonder now how it would have been if I pushed on.
Yet not any step of the way I have come is wasted.
The path I have taken has been so blessed by people angels buddhas god the divine and they have all supported to now.
And the questions I ask now – are not any different from the ones I asked when I was a teen . The desire to get out is the same.
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