7 Jan
My Eiffel Tower — something I appreciate and enjoy something I look forward to so much, something which Carrie’s so much dreaminess, inspiration is totally wrecked
I really don’t know how to patch this up how to assimilate this all together
Where is the magic in this?
I just do not know how to reconcile everything
And this made me feel better
6 Jan
We rose early and hopped on the train to Paris.
But the gains we got by arriving in Paris at 10am was somehow made up for by a train we took to zone 5 down south of Paris w hi Ole gunning for our hotel in zone 2
I didn’t know why I booked that hotel- and only realised it’s so far away from the city center after payment was made
And then while making our way there we took a train which took us southwards before looking back west to Versailles chantiers
But I was hesitant to think that this is a mistake
And it made me see why. While bf was fussing over the error and worried I was all chill and relaxed. With him around, I can relax
It once again made me see what I have taken granted for – while complaining about it what I don’t see I want, I forgot about what a lot he has provided for – so I can be this way
He said, “ it could have been so near but we took the long route”
I was reminded of the bliss happiness the everything we have up close but we did not see because of our own myopia, we kept chasing for what we don’t have and forgot about cherishing what is with us
What is love ?
We took a walk at arc de triumph , champs de elysee, and all the way down to the le marais
He kept saying that he does not like the city and there is nothing to like it
He was asking why I would like this city and I was thinking to myself: I like it because when I found something nice , I wanted to share with someone I love
That culminated in this trip
But we finally got to Paris and I am certain he will find something nice
5 Jan
The day before bf said he wanted to sit down when we were shopping and l felt so worried
My imagination started running
And he was so tired he slept when we got back to the hotel and this made me see he’s not longer that young boy I knew
I kind of thought that way
So I told him to do what he wanted or liked and for him that was just to stroll and see people pass by, get an idea of their lives and reflect on ours
We woke up without the alarm and strolled around Lyon, visiting the old town and saw the charming orange hued old structures terraced on the slopes
Walked about town and chanced upon Bernachon
Searched for croissants at Boulangerie Saint Paul and Les Freres Barioz
We had lunch at Le Poivron Bleu
When we got tired we sat down in a church
And I had a chance to express my gratitude and thoughts for the divine guidance
We walked a bit crossed the River
Collected our luggage at Victorinox and headed for dinner at Les Flaconneurs Bistro
Strolling like this is new to me. I was always mapping out plans and reaching for them. For bf , this way of travelling is like marking attendance. He has repeated countless times that in travel , what he wants is to settle not chase after the next thing
So we kind of followed what he wanted- there were not much expectations but whenever we chanced upon nice things there was a simple simple joy. The day seemed empty, there were not great sights or monuments but a lot of learning for me. The greatest learning of all in the day is feeling love and loved.
The trip came about because one day I asked bf where he would like to go with me. And he said france
I replied that I was saving this for his 50th birthday and he said that there’s no need to keep
So we came and I asked him again in our stroll——why did he want to come to france with me? What did he want to do here because everyday there was no place nothing that he wanted to do. He was just sorting things out for me mapping things out so I could go to the places I want to .
And bf said to me, “ you like france so I come with you “
I was reminded of what I was made know of in one of my sessions early last year- that my husband really Really REALLY loves me. And he just wants me to be happy and he lives his life for me
The trip made what was not obvious to me previously- obvious.
So each time I found something nice and like, he would so, “ so now you happy?”
I said so if I m happy he is too- and he said yes. He is that simple and loves me that much. But along the way, I kind of forgot all that love
And was in fact, searching for love.
Everyday he did what he could for me.
And I remember in my last hair styling session, VC my stylist said- some husbands do the things they do so we can do the things we like. And that IS the biggest love we find
We chanced upon the Lyon Cathedral
And had a chance to say my thanks .
To all who showered me with love and light. I am so blessed!
4 Jan
Took a day trip out of Lyon to Perouges. the medieval town is a 20min walk from the train station.
You gently curve up stone clad paths and find yourself bumped into another time-space. Stone-clad houses lined with bricks, curved pebbles on the ground polished by time, this very small medieval village and one of the most beautiful in France, is straight out of the past.
It’s a place where the imagination comes alive.
We came back into this reality and headed to the Meximeux food market. I love produce – not that I cook well but the vibrant colours always nourish me
3 Jan
Headed to Lyon after Annecy and this is a city all about food.
Every boulangerie looks tempting, the. There’s endless Bouchons, Brasserie,Bistros not forgetting the boulangeries to check in into
Our first stop- Les Halles! SO MUCH FOOD!
We took a walk to Place Bellacour and saw the Sun King Louis IX’s statues we also walked over and saw The Little Prince’s statue
Then strolled slightly and checked out shops before heading to victorinox where we spent good time there. Had dinner at Le Casse Musseau before walking back
Lyon is lovely with a good balance of all the shopping alongside the quiet
2 Jan 23
We headed for Thonon Les Bains but there was not much to see and we missed our train to Evian Les Bains
After an hour of wait we got on the train to Evian and headed straight to Source Cachet and filled up my bottle of Evian!
I have always wanted to come to this place to see the magic behind Evian
And I am once again acquainted with the power of a wish or intention- if you want something enough it comes to you in a matter of time
We took a walk at Lake Geneva and caught the Fabulous Village in action
Then went towards Geneva, did a bit of shopping and headed back to Annecy for dinner.
1 Jan 23
Bf said happy new year to me in the morning and we hugged and it was good 😊
We checked out of Bern and headed to Annecy, Venice of the French Alps.
The city is lovely and charming with colored walls and quaint buildings. Canals thread the old town and the stroll was pleasant and pretty.
We just took time to stroll
Chanced upon tresa pain and we had really great pear apple and apricot tarts!
This region is famous for cheese. While we don’t particularly appreciate cheese, whiffs of it of diners having a good time with fondue could be had as we walked the cobbled path.
Most shops were closed for the holiday but people were up and about. We walked to Lake Annecy and sat by the lake seeing swans ducks mandarin ducks seagulls frolicking in the waters.
Bf is having a flu and we rested early for the night.
I was asking myself about 2022
It seemed empty at once
I did not attempt anything much professionally
But I covered so much path internally
Traverse mountains valleys and ranges in my inner world
Exploring highs and perhaps mostly lows
I learned to come back to the middle ground and to locate my center
It was a big learning curve
I think I did a lot coasting spirituality and energy work – perhaps I want to find out if that was for me
But now I think – I m happier simpler, lesser
The question that always found me in 2022 was – what do I want ? What do I really want? That was my work for 2022
I want to be happy – to live well and simple
I want to do my best for my family – helping them be well and feel well. And I know for that, I have to be well and healthy first
There are times I looked at bf and remember the boy who loved me and I love. Where is he now? He has gone through a lot too and has become this middle aged man already.
I look at myself – am I not the same?
We are each other’s reflection. We are each other. You are I. Me and I am in you.
If I want to see him rosy and happy, I first have to be . And I tell myself: let’s make love and peace everyday.
I want to shine bright- using what I see learn feel – for myself and my world. I sincerely hope that by living and feeling true to myself, I can inspire , warm and touch another person- and make another feel – let’s go again, let’s try once more, I can do it
2022’s December brought me to japan and europe and I couldn’t be more grateful coming to these places of beauty , feeling seeing breathing and experiencing it
Then expressing it outwards and getting all the echoes of resonance back
I never imagined crossing over a new year overseas, much less sledding and tobangganing or doing a thrill walk getting up close to mountains and zipping past alpine scenery
After staying stagnant for so long, I can’t be happier for the new places I go to, for the new experiences I bagged. There’s so much wonder in the new, each time allowing oneself to (be so willing as to) let go further of the past, to expand on one’s boundaries and go forth even more in consciousness.
I did something different and that’s so so good.
It’s a new beginning- May 2023 be filled moments after moments with loving light, magic and wonder. May 2023 be peaceful, healthy, joyful. Happy 2023!
31 Dec
We headed for Interlaken OST and made our way to Schiltorn. Bf was hesitant at first because a leg of the rail wasn’t covered by Eurail Global Pass
But I wanted to
So off we went
We took a train from Interlaken OST to Launterbrunnen and took a bus to Stechelberg. Here the cable car journey is split into a few legs and we progressed up
Birg at 2777 feet is where we did the thrill walk where you walk on steel railings and sometimes see through glass so you could see the mountains below
I did that with trepidation little by little
Then headed up to Schiltorn at 2970 feet
Schiltorn offers a view of the surroundings mountains , the Eiger, Monch, Jungfraujoch
There was a segment where you could walk on snow and feel the winds gushing at you
It’s nice. I m back here finally – I heard myself say. Finally! SO Happy!
Facing the sun and getting nearer to it then before
Having the winds gush and blowing at you
Seeing the mountains all around
I asked the winds to support the release of anything that no longer supports me
And I thanked TPY, for she has come such a long way. I thank her for putting in all the effort , persevering and believing and trusting enough amidst all to find her way here.
30 Dec
Is it 30 December 2022 already?
I am on the train from Chur to Bern. Traveling only rail is so pleasant in Switzerland, you weave past villages townships and meander around mountains in the golden sunshine – so brilliant it uplifts you immediately.
Having a cold hard bread easily put together with hummus and lettuce, and a vegan yoghurt makes it even better!
Traveling this way lets out lots of thoughts and emotions. You kind of meander into your inner world too.
And this lets me know that for a while in the past I have delved too much into a depth of my own far removed from nature.
Am I not glad to be in this spot now?
Not just glad but grateful happy joyful blessed! I know I am supported on all fronts.
This morning in my shower, I was talking to my body- let’s heal the keloids and everything else that need
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