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Walking (iii)

Walking (iii)

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I have been asking myself the question: how do we heal shame and guilt?

And I saw some interesting notes, talk about synchronicity!

Can there be coincidence in life?

Look at the messages i picked up along the way? Too beautiful and , coincidental!

I am reminded of one of the messages the community shared on this point

Guilt and Shame associated with lower back, root and sacral region—>affects imunne system, health issues, autoimmune prob, allergies,

Guilt and Shame, happening in our mind, creating mentally, your own story, you are running it and watching it, if keep doing this it does not serve any purpose, just feeling himself or herself, habit of looping and imagining, paying back with guilt and shame and hitting yourself.

Causes diseases, doesnt connect you to present,

Duality, another version of you , at war with yourself

immune system starts to get worse, neurological issues, autoimmune coz at war with yourself.

Things that have happened already past, there’s only present,

cannot change past, but can change present, then change past and future

Power of present, change in the present, past and future will change

we can connect with ourselves to present

dont connect to past anymore

you have power to change, in present power to connect and conceive

Release for back, inhale, got to cellular receptors, change vibration of being, release what baggage you are holding

Transformation: apply front and back, dont like the way you think, inhale

Royal Blend: Rose, Ylang ylang, royal Hawaiian sandalwood, jasmine, works instantly, apply front and back

Present Time, inhale , apply front and back, forehead

Aren’t they all answers for me?

Today after the rain, we went out walking. Was chatting with bf on healing. I asked him about his sessions and he shared some bits here and there, such as being led to a scene of the past and feeling what the younger self of him felt , what he would tell the boy.

I tried it as I walked. Applying these to my own experiences and I went back to the day before dad left. We were asked to get into his bedroom and dad said he had to go,

I asked myself how I felt-in there.

Apprehensive , lots of fear, what about us? Are you abandoning us? Is there any future? Are you leaving mom to this? How can you leave us -this way? What kind of father are you to be doing this to us? Do we deserve this at all?

There’s also anger, frustration, hatred, helplessness at how things have come on. All these were not expressed by the girl that was me.

Instead I saw her, sitting there, not really daring to face up and not wanting to hear what’s next or to know what is going on?

I shut down.

And if I shut down then, can I blame my dad for choosing to shut down too? Those ways we went–they seem to be the very ways we can afford with what circumstances and wisdom we had.

Instead of saying all those things, I shut down. And I allowed and consented to dad’s decision.

I actually allowed it and consented. This was my understanding as I walked today. At that time, by not saying anything, I have actually made a decision, I consented to letting him go, and taking up responsibility for and the uncertain future come what may!

Wow, what a realisation.

Wow

My soul chose it this way, and shouldered and soldiered on in the later years. Why I asked? Was there something I needed to learn? I thought about the concept of soul contract, like how we chose the people we were to meet before we came into this very existence for a certain fulfilment. I am proud to say then then my job is done and I tear away this soul contract with the soul who is my dad.

I think with this i can start embracing a new relationship with him, all over again, picking up from where we left off and I see myself being brought to the sandy beach or playground by dad.

I was asking myself how to heal guilt and shame, and i thought of a few ways, besides using essential oils to support and release, offering light to the areas of the body harbouring these and breathing in to these points . I thought of also building a new relationship or simply just making new experiences and memories with my father.

And to the girl then what would I say?

“辛苦你了。谢谢你！”

It been hard on you . Thank you for doing all you have done.

I remember – Mr Ng said it to me too.

And I m so proud to have come to this point.

As I walked, birds begin to swirl around playing in/with the sky. I am always touched by this sight. They reminded me of the time i was in the maldives and a server at The Alila told me this as he served me ice cold water at the sun deck.

“What is your name,” he asked.

“Yen, it means big bird”

“I think if you do what you like, you will be like flying in the sky”

Its so beautiful and so wise, it says so much. And later on, I have always, whenever possible to go on to include birds in my video works–to thank myself once again, for doing something I like.

Interestingly, in my shower I silently worded one of the above I saw by koya webb: to invite people places experiences that will support or uplift me

In the afternoon, HuaiHao was going to raindrop me as usual but my bottle of 3 Wise Men fell and broke

The essential oil spilled on the floor and not wanting to waste it. I was desperately trying to use both hands to wipe the oil up and to apply them- and the next moment, the word anoint came into mind.

Rather than getting angry or feeling like the oil is wasted, I m a breathing walking 3 wise men now.

Maybe I needed 3 Wise Men

I look forward to my next walk.

Old (ii)

Old (ii)

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Woke up in the morning with the sun on my left.

I recalled what I said to Huaihao yesterday night before we slept. I said that the moon is on my left at night and so is the sun in the morning, how nice is that to be with the moon at moon and the sun in the morning? And when you look out, lying down, its the skies you see, lit by moonlight.

How easy is it? To find a unit like this. The unit finds you.

This morning I wanted to do some kriyas, and I did. Then reiki on myself. As usual, like how my teachers did, to set an intention and to ask the creator or angels or the gods who have been supporting me to preside over this session for healing and for myself.

When I moved to my heart center, understanding and realisation came to— me.

SH’s words of stepping up to take care of his daughters came to mind now that J is unwell. That sentence hit me when i heard it but i couldn’t say how and why. Until now in this session of self reiki. And it made me realise how powerful this session is and can be.

I was triggered not knowing until now.

I was in a similar situation. Mom was sick in hospital, in ICU as well, and that was when I needed direction, care and support, or love or security, —-I and probably my siblings wanted that —-so very much, even if I we did not verbalise it, dared not verbalise it, didn’t know how to verbalise this.

I remembered Mr Ng’s words: Always ask yourself—-why did this affect you? trigger you? what is it in this that is so affecting you? For other people this may not even matter. Because, just because you have something in you.

And so I have.

I find myself wanting SH to step up and do more, and asking myself if that is what J wants. Then it dawned on me—this is what I wanted in my time of that situation.

It does not matter what SH does or what J wants, TPY. I heard myself say.

Its what I want or wanted.

I wanted my dad to step up but I didn’t get that.

He failed me. He failed my expectations of him. I expected highly of him. But he didn’t reach my expectations. He didn’t take good care of mommy, he didn’t love her honour her appreciate her, he left it all to her and went away, when she passed on, i shouldered lots. He did not step up when I needed it most. Instead I had to cover for what was lacking. He didn’t do what I expected him to, what I expected him to.

He failed me considerably.

And I am ashamed to be his daughter I heard myself say.

That was what I felt then.

And I feel ashamed of having that feeling. I didn’t own it honour it. At that point in time.

And now I have come to.

And THIS, is BIG for me. This feeling then and now seeing this realisation.

And I have come to realise that what I did was to go on to cover up for this lack in my life as best I can. At work I went on to be the best and clinched the top position whenever I could, in person I made myself the goody the model I kept to standards and did the best I could—— even if I couldn’t and didn’t want to

Not knowing that this all stemmed from this lack.

And because the motivation was to cover up, to make up for a less illustrious past, I just couldn’t be proud of my achievements no matter how good how shining I was in my field. I was tired out because when I abandoned myself when I chose to adhere to standards or let some others have their way

Even if I were at the top, I was not proud of myself. Even when all were happy, I was not.

The motivation was just so wrong. To begin with. It was borne out of a lack and resulted in a less wholesome or fulfilling effect.

I heard myself rant at my dad for failing me, I ranted at him for his choices and I said all the things I might have some 20 years back, for failing me disappointing me, shaming me.

And that was me then. At that age with what knowledge of the world and what little wisdom I have.

In my habit, I tried to rationalize and go on to understanding my dad and why he did what he did. But do I have to really? As me at that point in time.

I took some moments to experience these and to allow them kin my body. All these that were not expressed or released then. I took the chance to allow them honour them. And—- let them go.

These realisations were huge. In a seemingly normal session, but so so so powerful. I thought of the headaches and mind fog I had.

I had been triggered unknowingly. And set myself into a state of dis-ease.

The old, it has a certain flavour in the mouth, something deep and difficult to rid of in the breath. In the mind, they arise as headaches, fogs, confusion, dis-ease and tiredness. And a feeling of blockage and inability to feel or numbness.

What was it? I kept asking.

And thinking wasn’t good.

Having a space to emptiness brought me answers and much needed relief and understanding to my pain and my needs.

Logically, I knew that my father had to make those choices because he only had those tools. Because so did I. I made those choices I had out of what little understanding I had out of the situation and —so did he.

If I wanted a way out badly, so did he.

For once, I felt I have succeeded at transcending and overcoming that hill of an experience. Like I climbed over a mountain.

I choose to forgive myself and to release all these ill informed or unwholesome intentions and actions and whatever has resulted from it all.

I give myself the opportunity to start afresh and in emptiness.

I m grateful for this session and this opportunity and I want to for once, right it. Too grateful and privileged to have the opportunity to restart, kickstart!

And now, I m and want to begin to be proud of myself——the point I start living and acting out of what I really want for myself, not because of the programs of habits or under the effect of experiences .

And i happen to see this: To deal with anything is to engage and entangle. Endless.—from John.

Sadhguru:”don’t make conclusions in your life”

It reminds me of what John says, “keep things open, once you make a conclusion, you collapse into only just one possibility, “

And so, I understand I have come into this because I wanted to be these situations to learn from them. And now, I cut away all karmic ties and connections, all spiritual contracts that I have made before this time.

Moving III

Moving III

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One more sleep and we are moving out of Redhill.

Moving is an exercise of marie kondo——you are given the opportunity to decide what to bring along to the next phase of your life, what to let go.

First of all, I let my childhood presents go. The watch and belt I had since I was perhaps 5 or 6? The koala bear that Stanley brother brought for me when he went to Australia for his honeymoon, the tie I wore to Hwa Chong JC, the Mickey Mouse tin box mommy gifted me when she went on a Japan trip with Dad when I was in primary school?

I keep the McDonalds book bundle though , Qinzhi could use it. Is it 30 years old?

I decided to let my holiday diaries and keepsakes go. The first time I did what my heart willed and went to Hokkaido, doing what I really want. The first time I travelled with bf, and all the other travels together to Aussie and etc. I let go of the Disney keepsake.

I decided to let the perfume my husband then boyfriend bought for me go.

And the ribbon that was on the bouquet he gave me on our wedding day.

I decided to let my diaries go.

I decided to let go of the drawings I made

Inner Child’s Lollipop 2 Aug 2013
Happy Birthdae 2013/ Mothering Me

I decided. Then all the MRI scan pictures.
I let go of lots of cookbooks that famous chefs signed for me. And a book I wrote.

I decided to let go of the house.

We finally let go of the house on 10.10.2020

The key is I decided

Lol. Why did I even hold on to them in the first place?

To hold on.

For fear of something someday that I may need.

Attachment.

Holding on to a past. Some identity. Some part of me.

Is it difficult to let these go?

Not really. I hear the old me almost reverting back to holding on. But being aware now,

———

This is actually a pause, a gap

A bardo.

That I m in, i m in the middle , between my past and my future , then and tomorrow.

I want to use the opportunity of this bardo, this pause this gap, to make it good. I must have told myself —- try something different. If I held on, how about opening my hands myself up and letting go?

I tried 😊

And it feels pretty good 😉

I don’t need them now. I want to be in the now. I kissed them packed them and imagine a fire consuming them as they dissolve into nothingness.

Amazingly I don’t have as much emotions as I thought I would have —- to leave this house.

Thank you! For sheltering me protecting me through all times , most of all for giving me the space to grow and develop to become me now. I remember all the me in all of those times, when we moved in, when Qinzhi and HuaiHao were little , when I was in fear, sadness, pain and desperation, when I pursued my dreams and soar, when I cooked , when I penned down my thoughts , did raindrop therapy for qinzhi etc

And I honour these all. They allowed me to stretch my malleability as a person as I went through all these experiences and emotions. Making me who I am now. Acknowledging and accepting these all, and the space, I pack all of these into bubbles and send all of them to the sun and to light.

Thank you and goodbye 😊

Loving this —- now I feel more ready than before to step up to now and tomorrow.

I thank the universe for this opportunity.

“Life is designed to provide your soul with the perfect tools, the perfect circumstances, the perfect conditions with which to realize and experience, announce and declare, fulfill and become Who You Really Are. “——- Neale Donald Walsch

Moving II

Moving II

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Before I knew, it’s just a matter of a few more days before I move out of my flat.

That I day I texted teacher to let him know that the latest check done on the cyst looked good.

To which teacher says, “Although many people have supported you and you are in my prayer everyday, this is result of your incesante and continuous work of self analysis, questioning and acceptance of yourself and your history. Unpeeling one layer after the other and filling and surrounding yourself with love, light and the transforming life force.

How do I know? I follow silently your blogs.
Continue with your marvellous work and cyst will vanish completely.”

How does he know?

Teacher asked me how it’s been on my end and I said, “ 2020 went about so quickly we are into October already. Time seems to be speeding up as if it’s bent on moving us forward

Yet at the daily level it feels like life’s slowed down a little but details magnified for me. I didn’t do a lot on the work front but there’s still a lot of creativity popping out of me whenever I do, making me feel like I want to contribute more

I did more on the personal development front though

Everyday after the kids go to school, I have my own time doing a little reiki, meditation or watching k pop drama

I followed a lot more people who are down the spiritual growth path such as deepak chopra and the like and getting acquainted with what they preach , experimenting and seeing if the things they propose work

But the biggest discovery for myself this year through all these exposure is that we are capable of shaping our own reality

And often the creation happens in the moments we tend to let slip by

Relationship with my husband is still volatile. Seems like the unpleasant parts are more than the pleasant ones and there are many times I want to just let it go

But through it all —- although I still get lots of anger and unhappiness and dissatisfaction, I find myself gradually becoming more balanced , using these opportunities to look deeper into myself

I think I grew up pretty much through these

A few opportunities have come along for me to do more work

Might start a little agency of sorts to help small entities with marketing and content creation tying in my connections in a meaningful way

And if it happens, I want to call my agency “ Mind the Gap”

The gap might be what challenges people
But more and more, I see that the gap can be a creative space to make good

In Tibetan Buddhism , the bardo is where —- if we are mindful enough—- we observe and pause and catalyze a transformation

I have been putting this agency idea off even if many pple have asked me to start out on my own

I remember what I told Mr Ng，I told him that going forward I wanted to do things to offer my light, to offer warmth, hope, to inspire as I build my own brand. Slowly but surely it seems I m getting into the flow. The big picture is somewhat there. And I am approaching it.

But I m taking it slow and going with how I feel

Still feeling my way around as I m moving house on 10/10

Talking about this, i wanted to do a closure on our experiences as a family in this space. To honour it and to thank the space for protecting and sheltering us and to let it go

Are there any simple practices in reiki for this?”

Teacher probed, “Are you moving house?
Or do you just want to close a chapter?”

It got me thinking.

“Moving temporarily to be with my maternal family at marine crescent for half a year before we move again to my new flat at marine parade

It would be a closure of sorts right?
The opportunity came for us to move to a slightly bigger space – an upgrade fr 4 room to 5. The price is right and we sold it

It was afterwards that I realized the significance

I m given the chance to create and shape my future my reality.

What do I want? Where m I going? Who are the people I will meet? What will I be doing? Why am I doing these?

I feel excited! Like something bubbling in me!

It is because we needed it we sent out an echo and the universe responded

It also means we r ready somewhat and has passed a test somewhat as a family

It means to me that the existing space and all it carries —- our lifestyle habits attitudes mindsets we have applied on this space that have served us in this space

Is in need of an upgrade too
The old that has served us can no longer
I wanted to honour and give my thanks—- and I can move on

I also think I have spent (more than ) enough time living my past and allowing myself to feel like i have been victimised and at the passive end. When in fact I could have actively lived in the present, embracing the present rather than reliving the past and feeling sorry for myself gain and again. If anything, YES, you are right, I want to actively close that chapter, quite an important one I must say

U started off that chapter picking up pieces and putting things back in place for my family, on the surface to make everything look fine
Then I progressed to physical issues and emotional discomfort
Learning about the relationship between these two
Feeling angry and upset or feeling unjust and unfair——-pitying myself that I was the suffering one, the victim who has been affected when I didnt do anything wrong and had to pick up all the pieces
And then learning to work those emotions and feeling them in my body and learning to see that through it all, I actually had a role to play in the unfolding of events, I had a responsibility to bringing myself to where I am now, and that i made many choices without awareness and wisdom

Still if not for these, I wouldn’t have met wonderful people like yourself

And I honour my path and want to close that chapter, like a long holiday or a dream I gave to myself,
and move on.”

From seeing them as hurt to seeing them as gifts I can use to make a meaningful difference ——- with gratitude that the universe is keeping me in mind, blessed

What a journey!

“Wonderfully said dear PY. And so you should approach the clousre.

Give thanks to the apartment to have given you a home for all that time and experience. That you are start a new chapter in your life, and wont need anything from the past.

Then visualise the all the experinces and emotions in that apartment ( symbolically as an ‘All experiences conscious and unconscious’), pack and seal them in a silver bubble or as many as it takes. And send them all into the sun.

For those past experiences and thoughts to be permanently disolved for ever.”

Then I saw this

It seems like this pretty much sums up my journey

Learning to understand and accept that there is a greater wisdom out there and we are but expressions of his higher wisdom, grace and beauty. It’s a humbling experience and definitely transformative when you become from big or important and egoistic to small. Small is beautiful!

I can only be grateful and thankful for what I have been given and how the divine has worked on me though me with me.

I remember what Mr Ng said—— that only when we are ourselves and express our light we live our best versions of ourselves. Fetching that which is untinted by experience that un spoilt boundless free nature. We are light. The experiences have let me go through a process of peeling open or unraveling the outside layers and revealing my light.

Om ma ne pad me hung

Moving

Moving

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On hindsight, I realised I didnt know enough then when I let my flat go.

Its now—when people ask me, that I realise the meaning of moving.

My HDB Flat . We got this flat and then got married and had Qinzhi and Huaihao. We have been here for 12 years.

Was it one month back? We let it go—–without even knowing where we will be next.

It came from a simple thought, that the kids were growing up and needing more space, we wanted an opportunity to set things that were not so right—-right. For example, a proper kitchen. A proper bedroom, everything in place at the right place. it seemed something basic, but pretty difficult to find in land scarce and expensive Singapore.

We wanted to upgrade. To a bigger space, a quieter spot with less disturbance of traffic, with a more pleasant environment, with proper space for the kitchen, the living area, and bedrooms.

But now—-as friends ask me—–it began to dawn on me that it is much much more.

As in, it’s precisely because we need—— and we have called out ——-that is why the universe, upon hearing us, have given us the opportunity to move, to shift.

It goes to show that what we have now cannot serve us any more, whether it be the space, or lifestyle or how we have lived.

It means it is timely or the time has come. It means we are ready. As if we have passed a certain test. And we are elevating together————-as a family unit.

But interestingly, the new hasn’t come yet

And I also think it’s because we havent firmed up or aligned as a family, we havent concretised together —-as a family, what we want enough yet.

And opportunities are there.

In fact, I m thankful for the time, we have been given as a family to ink our realities together. What do we want together? What are we looking out for —together? What can we learn and how can we grow together—-with ease and with joy and happiness everyday?

Up somewhere in the air, there’s a lot of space, and opportunities we can harness for creativity and cocreating together—–within ourselves, as a family, and with the universe.

I am just thankful for this opportunity but just dont really know how to go about it.

Going with the gut feel I guess, and with blessings and inspiration from the divine.

And more opportunities came.

A friend has asked me to start out a business in the line of my passion—-vegetables! Its a whole new realm, something I have not dabbled before. I asked John about it, because he once told me my path is spiritual, and is here to help people.

Just as I have done, settling back to myself , back onto the home front with my kids, and this opportunity came along to allow me room for growth and expansion. More so, to create. To build. To put my thoughts into reality.

All along, I have been holding back, I allow myself to be held back, I create situations to hold myself back.

John has this to say: “you are given a mission to educated chefs and food industry about conscious eating, everyone keeps talking about selection of ingredients. but do they really know about the selection of ingredients? the selection of ingredients starts from soil. if soil quality is not good, ingredients remain superficial. If your soul can channel this kind of work, there will be a lot of such opportunities coming to you, because you are really doing good for society and earth. I really want this to experience this for yourself, there will be a lot of benefit If you do good, If you take on this mission to educate people. People who eat in restaurants are also families, if you can help them eat well, you will have a lot of benefit in future.”

I asked him further: it seems i just started to go spiritual and healing on my own and now I m going back. How do I know if this abundance is for me or just to check my faith in going spiritual?

His reply is great as ever: “what makes you think spirituality is separated from business or business is opposite of spirituality. Its how you drive yourself in an area such that people benefit. Spirituality is not separating from day to day mundane things. Its not separating yourselves high up away from people”

What is stopping me?
I asked myself. Maybe just — not stepping up to it.

Thinking I cant, I am not deserving, I am not worthy.

I have been shying away all this while. The Michelin experience was great to position me a t a level befitting of my calling. But it is not what I really want or is good for me, and so the opportunity came for me to bye it away.

And I realised. In me telling myself I cant, doubting myself, giving excuses of being not enough, I have created all sorts of circumstances to stop myself from rising to the occasion.

In health, I created circumstances of lack. Sub par. Emotionally and in my marriage too, I created my own sub par reality. If anything, the person who would take responsibility for this reality is me.

Out of ignorance, speaking to my lower self, reinforcing habits and not having had the awareness to look beyond or deeper, i have circumstances reinforced my habits and belief system.

I brought myself here.

And all the recent changes opened me up to a new path, its like light at the end of a tunnel.

I just couldn’t see back then.

But now, i have been the one to create these realities. And I take full responsibility for all the emotional upheavals and rides I have been through.

Time and money or life that has been lost.

Is there regret?

No, because that’s the way I learnt. The path I chose.

And now I find myself standing at the end of the road. And given a priceless opportunity to choose my future.

And choose I will.

A departure from how we learned as a family in the past————-

I ask for a house so full of love , so perfect for all of us, that will allow us to learn and grow with ease together. We learn and grow in happiness and in joy. A house rich in abundance of well being, vitality, great energy, peace, joyful, harmony, wealth. We have all that we need to bask in our abundance so as to share our light and the truth of our being, so as to inspire change and make a meaningful difference to others.

Simply by living our truth and our abundance. By being the living example of what life really is or means.

What does it really mean to be in alignment with yourself? To be authentic?

The following videos have been pretty instrumental in culminating my thoughts.

In essence, once our vibration reaches a particular level we would be like messengers translating a higher wisdom using our own language to our fellow earthlings

Now I know why I had the chance to see the bashar video!

Creating My Future

Creating My Future

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I was speaking to Sasha over WhatsApp sharing about what I have been busy with——It seemed mundane but the extraordinary popped out of the ordinary.

So after living in my flat for 11 plus years, we are moving.

Sasha asked me what prompted the move and whereabouts I will be off to?

I said I m not sure yet! will bunk in with my maternal family first and i guess i need to have a vision first before the house will come. so what an exercise in creating the future huh! and grateful for the opportunity

I told her that at first we wanted more space as the kids are growing up and some practices such as not having own space, await to be revised.

but now to me, it really seems as if its an opportunity for me to—as i write — create my future, to have an opportunity to set things right, or maybe just, live the way i want/intend,

And in a way that is as close to the way i would like, to be aligned truly to what i feel deeper down. maybe subconsciously i intended to change , so the opportunity came!

The universe is at work.

The universe heard my call to reinvent myself

And it came with this reply as we sold off our flat and the new space hasn’t yet shown itself

Coincidentally (but in life , really, is there coincidence?), I saw a webinar hosted by Unsinkable’s Sonia Ricotti. She put down some points to show how we can make changes and one of the exercises was, what is your dream?

Yes. We forgot to dream. And dream BIG we forgot.

We forgot to heed that voice in the heart, always relinquishing it further , replacing it with something we think work much easily. We forgot magic! We forgot magic can happen.

So this I wrote :

My dream

is to have a nice house facing the sea.

Nice spacious white house, with all the space and fittings, support and resources I need for holistic clean and green living. Living that does not give pressure or burden to the earth nor myself. This house and the lifestyle I pursue best expresses me and the deeper of my soul’s pursuits , helps myself become light , become a light being, and also my loved ones. Like never before.

My health is in the pink and rosy, like never before

The cyst has disappeared, the keloids gone.

And there are no scars at all, there are NO SCARS AT ALL, there is not any clue to their once existence.

I have baby like skin, soft and tender to the touch, I radiate light. I glow from within, I m peace and at peace and ease. There is harmony within me and outside of me.

Because I m reconciled with my past and all of its experiences, and i now use them consciously to help myself and others become better.

I have become a life coach in my own little way, sharing my experiences

I dig into my experiences and tell others how or what I have done to change the quality of it

My other love is making videos that expound the values and beliefs of TPY, i have created a brand for myself. Better than this, the videos go a long way to touch and light up another’s life, inspiring another to look within and to bring out a better and better version of themselves.

They accept their truth like me and transform like me.

I see how the universe’s resonance and synchronicity works it’s magic that when we open up others are invited too on the same journey to be our authentic best

I m earning enough if not more than enough to spend as I wish on myself and others. Wealth is flowing and I m grateful

I find myself material things that echo my beliefs – artisan, handmade, honest genuine and authentic buys that support me

It is the best ppart and really the best days I have ever experienced that will go on for a very long time.

I have reconciled all worries and fears. I understand how and why they have come into my life and I m aligned with the universe and its abundance, its expression, its flow.

I m skilled at reiki and in touch with the divine’s blessings. I reach out for ease and receive with ease. I m open to receiving and giving and is grateful and appreciative of the connection and support.

Relationship with my children, my husband and my father is great, like never before.

Everything is ——–Like never before

I take in all the goodness and savour and appreciate each and every inch of it, and I share it outwards.

I have become aware and even more

The second exercise is—-Write out your own declaration

And this is mine: I dont know why I m experiencing all these, going through all this, I still have not figured out why I keep getting stuck in all of this.

Again and again, and again.

Until when?!

My grandparents, my parents, probably my ancestors and now me. Is it not enough?!

YET! I do not believe I will be stuck in this forever, I BELIEVE I have a way out, and my kids wont have to go through all I have, I BELIEVE I know the way out to resolve and reconcile all I have, and all the health issues emotional issues, relationship issues, money issues, people issues, judgmental issues——-will be gone in a whiff.

Some other points she mentioned :

-Reprogram your conscious mind

its the thought you have about an event that is not resolved and holding you back

Awareness is the first step to transformation

every situation has a silver lining

doors to take you to next level are always there , to turn things around but you are not open to these

all you have to do, to reprogram your conscious mind is to ask yourself-what m i thinking right now

you become aware of your thoughts

they are just thoughts and we can change those thoughts anytime we want to

they are not reality

in one part of your life that is not working, what is the story i have been telling myself again and again ?

your beliefs are determining your results, shift to empowering positive beliefs

money flows freely easily from everywhere

-Reprogram your subconscious mind

-Elevate your vibration to above 500 level

like attracts like

positive thoughts attract positive things and ppl into your life.

let go of the past, they are just thoughts

it happened in that moment but now its just a thought

but we are living it over and over again and the body is still feeling it and doesnt know its not happening

the future is a thought too

the only thing that is real is the present

forgive yourself and others

connect to higher self

You have all the answers, they are there within you. amidst all the fog and chaos. you just need to quiet down and listen

Correct View is Absence of View and other stories

Correct View is Absence of View and other stories

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One of those nights I chanced upon Deepak Chopra’s FB live and found lots of nourishment in there.

Sharing them here:

nourishing the quality of our attention and intention

all perspective is misleading

correct view is absence of view

transcend all perspective, then u see and is not perceiving

seeing is beyond perceptions and interpretations

seeing occurs when we transcend all perceptions

right view allows seeing instead of perceptions

when u see you become the original see-er

all points of view are wrong, because they are based on reality and is therefore misleading

realisation is when systems of thought go away

we explore reality thru assumptions eg matter is real is the first assumption. how do you know it exist?

yogis dont have assumptions

Give up being right

because what you are defending is a point of view

its a point of view, its not complete, its not seeing

the point of arrival is right now

the journey is the destination itself

Right Thinking

right thinking= thinking leading u to a place of no thinking yet all knowing : knowing without thought or thinking =pure mind, spontaneous mind and leads to spontaneous actions right speech

not bound by experience or karma

understanding beyond rational thought, its before you r given a name and identity you are it

illusion feels real

therefore its a real experience even tho its not fundamentally true

life as we experience is a continuum of experiences

 experiences include everything thats happening in our awareness,  changing mind, changing world, 

all perceptions are unreliable

since body is a perception so what you think of the body is also unreliable

nothing that you experience can be reliable but seems v real

thought has 4 stages of development

para: unmanifest potential of speech word etc to be manifest

pashanti: ideas have not become concrete, intuition sensing and feeling

madhirma: internal speech of thought, internal dialogue after thought has concretised into ideas: experience of thought

bakeri: speech that can be articulated in writing, symbolically expressed 

ability to change dreamscape 

freedom to create

movement fr illusion to reality’

freedom fr dreamscape, illusion, reality, conditioned minds, freedom to create—ultimate freedom

moksha=liberation, liberation from binding of experience called karma, 

witness all levels of reality as one

evolution of consciousness does not cease but identity as person ends

when illusions end akasha disappear

the movie can only be switch on when u want

you r free fr drama and movie

no more stage, light n dark gd and evil disappear along with dualities

pure consciousness without outside references and evolve

heal world by healing yourself

healing of oneself and world is entangled

whatever that arises in nature of arising subsides

honour entanglement

Karma 

  • Action
  • Every time u act u create karma 
  • Can be physical or emotional action or getting enraged 
  • Any activity perceptual physical mental emotional etc of consciousness creates karma 
  • Creates a memory of the experience becomes basis of desire tension that recycles 
  • Software of soul as we journey thru cosmic time
  • Relationship between karma and any relationship 
  • Deep connection or entanglement of stories thought emotions, two advancing together 
  • Any relationship is karmic
  • The purpose is what we call love , love as direct experience of unity 

Well being

  • of body . emotionally , mentally , spiritually
  • What does well being Feel like ? What is the experience of well being? Does body feel joyful and energetic?
  • Emotional : feel love compassion joy empathy peace ? 
  • Quiet reflective intuitive creative alert
  • Lightness of being
  • Unlimited 

Relationship is unity consciousness 

If any relationship that does not bring these qualities is limiting you karmically 

That fatigues u causes you distress and interferes transcendence

Entanglement of toxic relationships that prevents us from experiencing unity consciousness 

If recycled it increases entanglement 

Addiction 

It’s about who m I 

Light

All existence is light

Light:

-essentially electromagnetic activity

-visible light= 7 colours of rainbow

-blue light: most energetic light in terms of frequency and vibration, synchronises with circadian, seasonal gravitational tidal rhythms syncing with universe,

low frequency lights: red end of spectrum, beyond red, invisible light infra red, radio waves, television waves, microwaves

at other end of spectrum, ultraviolet light is also invisible light , bees and insects navigate thru ultraviolet light

High frequency: peer thru matter: x rays, gamma rays, cosmic rays

All existence is light

the essence of everything is light

light makes all experience possible

the essence of all existence is light

the essence does not change, what changes is form, just like water becomes ice

transformation of form based on essence

upon death, physical body dissolves into mental body which ultimately dissolves into awareness body

Rainbow colours: entanglement of colours that ultimately shows up as in our physical world as objects of experience

everything u see visually is an entanglement of colours

entanglement is in consciousness, we do that with every sensation, entanglement of fragrance as in smell of strawberry, etc

everything u experience is an entanglement of vibrations of light, and nothing else. Even thoughts ! Is the interaction of light with light

Light Beings: beings that know they are entangled light, awareness brings them ability to be in charge of entanglement of light which creates this reality

interaction of light creates this universe

RED: appears red because wavelength of light coming to eyes and interacting with retinal cells is creating the experience we call the colour red. red strawberry you are seeing is a unified process, is you experiencing all that is,

you are both the absolute and relative reality

you r both the essence and the changing form n both are timeless and eternal

no experience is separated from us, from our essence, you only need be aware and embrace

you and all existence –there’s no death, there’s only transformation

this is liberation

dont forget you are a light being and has a rainbow body. everything you see has a rainbow body

Light Beings Healing Love & Psychic Phenomena

Be in the light

Healing ： elimination of all suffering

All experience is entanglement of photons, visible and invisible

humans give off all kinds of vibrations,

when given off in higher than normal orbit, from high to normal energy,

biophotons are light particles generated fr our bodies, can be measured as they emanate fr our skin,

can see aura, have premonition eg remote hearing or vision or smelling or tasting

when we are willing to embrace unknown and dive inward, we have encounter with fundamental reality which is our own being, that we recognise that awareness is what transforms

all cells emit biophotons , biophotons are energy coming fr DNA, the key to communication, biophotons move at the speed of light

our body’s forms are changing at the speed of light , right now in brain , in mind , in body etc takes place eternally timelessly incessantly and now

form and phenomena change at the speed of light

transformation changes at speed of light

interactions at the speed of light ,

you are only to recognise and embrace this

this is psychic phenomena , non local infinite joy love healing

Lamps of Awareness:

-universe pervading light

-space of heart chamber

-nadis: only with heart can you touch the sky; the path with heart is the sacred/healing path

-perceptual activity: with awareness every perception becomes sacred / holy

-space between all objects in external world: when we are aware, there is luminous quality

-between subtle states of experience: the bardos, when filled with awareness,

across seas of light of awareness, are new raw materials to create a new world: go within

Conscious Evolution Light Being and the Alchemy of Existence

Light Beings know they are made of light= body is made of light, we are a stardust being or a light being. evertyhing physical you see is made of stardust

Light Beings know they and universe are made of light= every interaction is the interaction of light

Light Beings know their body mind is a rainbow body, an entanglement of visible light, held together by electromagnetic fields

Light Beings know every event, object, thought (movement of ions and charges moving at the speed of light), feeling, emotion, image, sensation is/have a rainbow body

Light Beings know all transformation is alchemy of entangled rainbow bodies

Light Beings understand all existence is alchemical and rearrangement of rainbow bodies evolves thru intention and evolution of universe. Intention is trigger for transformation, entanglement is happening at speed of light

Conscious evolution is path to enlightenment: Meta cognition, transcendence =awareness of sensory experience and activity as it is happening. every vibration has a symbolic representation . All objects are symbols of rainbow bodies

Shape shift at the speed of light= when u are conscious of it, you become a conscious shape shifter. Once symbols change, experience of reality change. Body is a symbol. Rainbow bodies are entangled symbols

You are the Light of the Universe

You see less than 1% of electromagnetic spectrum , less than 1% of acoustic spectrum

as you listen to me, we r travelling 220km per second across the galaxy

>90% of cells in body carry own microDNA, the atoms in body are 99.9999999999% empty space, none are the ones you r born with

they are originated in the belly of a star, you r a stardust being, light of the universe

human beings have 46 chromosomes, 2 less than a potato so u have 2 less chromosomes than a potato,

existence of a rainbow depends on photo receptors in eyes. to animals the rainbows does not exist. you dont just look at a rainbow, you create the rainbow. you are the creator of every experience. all the beautiful colours u see are less than 1% of the electromagnetic spectrum

-you r the light of the world, every cell in the body emanates light (except red blood cells)

-light is emitted fr DNA

-DNA is the alphabet of life, the genetic code for existence

-biological microbiome in skin, guts, eyes everywhere, trillions of genes, fungi etc as biological organisms we are entangled codes

-genetic codes are entanglement of light

-entanglement of light is entanglement of awareness

-entangled awareness is differentiation of pure awareness

-wholeness is generated or grounded in pure awareness

-being is existence, we r organic beings

-love and beauty are ultimate truth

relationship with organic beings is love, with inorganic beings is beauty

-sat chit ananda, truth, beauty, unlimited bliss

You are visible , invisible and infinite simultaneously

you can see less than 1% of electromagnetic spectrum, includes all forces of nature , gravity and reality is not in this category

you hear less than 1% of the acoustic spectrum

all our hearing and seeing is 1% of reality

as we speak you are travelling 220km in intergalactic space, 90% of cells in body carry their own genetic info or microbiome DNA

we are all intergalactic travellers

99.999999% of our atoms carry empty space, so the visible part of you is less than 0.00000001 % of the real you. Non of atoms in body you have right now are not the ones you are born with

human beings have 46 chromosomes, housing 3billion human genes,

existence of a rainbow depend on receptors in your eyes, you dont just look at rainbow you create it, with every act of perception, you create the world, the body, stars , galaxy and you create your experiences

this physical body is a changing symbolic signature of you and your experiences. the body is a photo, a snapshot,

the changing inner world is you. body responds, you respond according to thoughts feelings, imaginations, intention, attention, intuition, creativity, vision, compassion, joy etc the complexity that is creating a story in your internal life and this body is the printout ,

the mind comes from infinite being, your soul.

matter is space; space is energy and information and light, and when tat settles down into source, that is infinite being, irreducible, formless, fundamental, acausal, spaceless

matter resolves into energy , which resolves into light and info in that light and light resolves into infinite being, omnipresent, omnipotent, omniscience

the visible you is a symbol, the invisible you is the pdf, the real you is infinite being, all three are working simultaneously to create reality.

nothing to do, only to be, every moment in time is spaceless timeless self organising self

you can change the appearance of the physical body

Realising Me xxxiii: 21 Days of Abundance Day Twenty One

Realising Me xxxiii: 21 Days of Abundance Day Twenty One

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Day 21 

*Message Day for Day 21:*

Task:

Post to the group a video or audio report describing your experience of journeying through these 21 days of plenty. (Or just write a message if you find it difficult to record video and audio.)

 In the report, say (write):

 – Your name

 – Where you are from

 – Yesterday in your journal you answered questions about the results of the marathon. Now share your answers here.

 – Did you like participating in the marathon and moving towards abundance in a group stream?

 – And tell us what you do in life, what you offer, and then tell us what ideas for projects you have.

Perhaps here you will meet like-minded people, partners or people interested in your services.

Use all of your creative abilities, describing yourself and your experience.  🤩😇 And remember that brevity is the soul of wit. 

Phrase:

*”Every moment of every day I live my life abundantly”*

*Mantra: *

So Hum

Audio

You have acquired Daily tools to help manifest abundance in life

You have grown in confidence that Abundance is assured and certain abundance is your birthright

Experiencing abundance all around you, you know you cocreate with higher self and can truly express yourself as an abundant being

  • you can enhance life of others and effect positive change in world
  • Visualization meditation to plant seed of abundance to grow love, peace….of anything you want n let abundance flow blissfully in life 
  • Sit in a meadow of verdant grass
  • Seeds of gratitude love peace material wealth interconnectedness harmony healthy well being bliss
  • Open n pour seeds in hands and sprinkle them on fertile soil, til rust sum n rain will grow them into vibrant plants 
  • Resonate with these: 
  • I m unlimited abundance 
  • I m blissful happiness
  • I m exquisite well being 
  • I m unconditional love
  • I m complete harmony 
  • I m inner peace 
  • So hum

Every moment of everyday I live my life abundantly 

My reflections and inputs 

PY/ SG

I feel almost emotional and unwilling to let go of this programme. It has been such a great anchor for my soul, on these teachings I rest and distill much out of what experiences I have amassed. Already looking forward to the next Deepak Chopra program.

The 21 day journey is as deep as one wills or intends.

I guess deep down, this is the time I have been waiting for. I learned so much!

It has been a most important 21 days for me as I journey with Deepak Chopra’s deep soulful voice, providing me with deep insights and great discoveries of my experiences, giving me a fresh perspective and realising that these are resources I can tap into and integrate with my unique gifts to spin off into valuable gems to ignite changes for the betterment of myself and the world.

Thinking back 21 days ago, and sensing where I was then, I noted obvious shifts in my level of consciousness. I am on a higher plane now than before and I m extremely grateful for this opportunity.

The daily tasks provided a distillation of my experiences, that which served me and what could no longer. Each time I responded to the tasks, they brought me to the depths of my psyche , drew out for me memories or rather specific emotions that have been locked up in time —that which have not been processed or managed in that time, in that plane, but now surfaces and gets a chance at being processed and released.

I heard all the messages I spoke to myself but didnt get aired, then. And in the 21 days, they came out from somewhere. There were so many aha moments bringing much light and warmth to heart.

I noted how releases felt in my body and the state of mind. I m more open, free-er, ease-ier.

There were a lot of training opportunities for subtle body awareness in these 21 days and its great at sharpening my senses and for my intuitive capabilities.

To discover the subtle body and energy flows, lots of interesting sensations of being healed, or downloading of information.

I understand better now, how I have lived in the last 20 years of adulthood.

When others and myself have so unconsciously added on meanings , judgements to my experiences——it is this that is distorting my experiences further from truth.

I can see that all these experiences are fulfilled whole and the essence of abundance itself , as much as they are expressions of the universe’s creativity. It’s me needing this and culminating these experiences so the universe sent them to me.

This programme helped me see myself find myself, and find the world and life with improved clarity. While I stand reactive in the past, now I see how I have played a part in shaping my experiences culminating in who I m now, if not, how I, have been the biggest actor in bringing myself to the spot where I am now.

Now if this is so, then the power is in me to bring myself to where I intend and would love to be.

I chose these all myself and can chart my path. The power is incredible.

The programme made me understand more deeply how important awareness is to bring about change. So that we can stop reacting out of the past, and the stories and emotions can no longer exert power over the present. The programme brings to mind what it means to be in the present, to be in pure consciousness. More than learning what is alignment, it brought me the feeling of being aligned to the Universe. The programme brings to mind the possibilities one can have, the power one can have. How free we can be.

I used to write for a living, writing for a chinese daily and then to curate content for the guide.michelin.com so I write and produce videos specifically on food. But as with fashion, technology, whatever, food is but a platform to reach into deeper realms of the individual, so my videos are always with heart, shares light and it is my intention to create works of inspiration and warmth. Left the position last year and is now freelancing for some restaurants on the same thread. Also freelancing for organic vegetable brand ZX.

After having had the privilege to sample the best gastronomic menus put up by the worlds best chefs, it was extremely easy for me to say goodbye to food that is commonly seen as luxurious.Caviar? Lobsters? They no longer hold significance for me. These days, I see luxury in artisanal vegetables grown with heart, an organic black radish from Brittany, a chilli cherry, purple radish exuding so much energy. 

Coupled with basic knowledge of applying essential oils in my life, I see a future centered on plant based food coming forth, ever so quickly. There’s just too many possibilities in plants waiting to be uncovered and too much power to be unlocked. I find joy discovering little bits of this everyday, every time I cut up a purple radish and it beams at me with all the power it has. And I am looking forward to opportunities of sharing this new found love to heighten awareness on harnessing this untapped resource—just as I have had when food wowed me ten plus years ago as a food writer.

Moving together as Group is great, there’s a sense of people working hard together, doing what we can out of our varied lives  for a common purpose, aligned in the direction of uplifting oneself and all.

There’s resonance and coherence.

As I wrote as I have the phrase for today as with the past 20 days, and coloured yellow over it, I can’t help but feel touched. It’s a promise to myself that I have made to love in the direction of the light and love. It’s me wanting to be better and I know I will.

Apparently you need 21 days to ink or cement a new habit. I certainly hope all these ideas, practices and inspirations on abundance have been etched to the deepest of my soul.

I sincerely hope more people can uncover and recover these precious resources they have within themselves, and thats when they take root and start living, expressing themselves authentically.

Realising Me xxxii: 21 Days of Abundance Day Twenty

Realising Me xxxii: 21 Days of Abundance Day Twenty

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Day 20 

*Task:*

Scroll through your journal, read the tasks you’ve performed.

See if there is something that you missed. Would you like to supplement anything in the light of your new awareness? 

After that, think about someone in your life and/or environment who seems to be unhappy. This person may complain often and have a generally negative view of life. 

It could be someone from the 7th day list or someone else.

Share the parable from Day 19 with this person and write down what happens in your journal. 

How did you feel sharing the parable  with him / her? What thoughts, associations, sensations arose in the process?

Did they answer? Did you talk about it, what did you discuss?

*Message:*

“Live on the fat of the land.”

Today we look at the concept of luxury, adding to your life something that is much more significant than just a necessity.

When you feel that you are worthy to receive all the blessings that the Universe can offer you, your needs are satisfied easily and even more than necessary.  As soon as you learn to accept the grace that has been sent to you, you are showing the universe that you deserve only the best and are ready to receive it.

QUESTION N ° 1: How is luxury manifested in your life?

QUESTION N ° 2: What luxurious gifts do you present yourself?

QUESTION N ° 3: How can you bring luxury to others?

Phrase:

*“Today I treat myself to moments of luxury”*

*Mantra: *

Om Ritam

Audio

When u believe u r valuable u surround yourself with luxury comforts and pleasures beyond those for daily living

luxury is not materialism

doesnt have to be expensive

can be sweet fragrance of flowers

a drop of scented oil

sound of beautiful music

life’s small luxuries but mean so much

do u feel worthy of such luxury

luxury is our natural state and abundance our birthright

As Vedic wisdom says, every person is a piece of gold, pure gold is your essence, created from the love of the universe

as such a treasure u deserve all the gold the world has to offer

by elevating your view of yourself you elevate the quality of life

outer world echoes your thoughts beliefs and intentions that you r a treasured being worthy of abundance

practice living luxury today

take some time to do smthg for yourself you consider luxurious

a walk/meet a friend for tea/lose yourself in fave film

make this a habit

the more you bring small luxuries in life you more you recognise yourself as a worthy spiritual being deserving of love and abundance

*“Today I treat myself to moments of luxury”*

*Mantra: *

Om Ritam Nama

My reflections:

I went through the past 19 days scrolling down the blog and realising how much distance I have traversed, it seemed not just this life.

As I scroll down, too many people incidences events colours feelings fly past, I read each blog entry since day zero and added on whenever I felt I needed to and realised yet more things

This accumulation of thoughts discoveries is the power of intention, it showed me my intention of the pursuit of spirituality and that of opening up,

These experiences, deep as they are, they invite you to cocreate along the way, with wisdom, with age and yet more of life’s experiences, the past can be so different, so transformed

And this has been because, the intensity of judgements on these experiences have reduced

I shared the parable with Shirley my good friend who has been evasive since late last year, I wonder why. Let’s see if I get an echo back

I thought about not sharing with her, thinking she might not reply, but still, i hope she would and I wanted to see if the laws spelt out in the abundance program would be true.

Anyways, lets see!

QUESTION N ° 1: How is luxury manifested in your life?

In big and little ways, in sunlight, in inspirations, in silence, in music, in essential oils, in the opportunities I have been given to explore and discover —–be it food , drinks, wisdom, teachings, time, space,

In the form of opportunities to create and gift in expression the new whether it be food and drinks, mindsets, articles or good reads, documentaries, a new way of using an essential oil or to cook an ingredient, or just, opportunities to give love and be love

I think with awareness, there can be appreciation and discovery and learning , and that is luxury.

QUESTION N ° 2: What luxurious gifts do you present yourself?

Time and space on my own, in a shower in a walk home, cooking or prepping dinner. To do inner work. I used to be on monthly mindspa sessions with mr ng, where i discovered a lot more about my thoughts, feelings and myself. Now i have had the opportunity to do self reiki on the bed, attend this 21 days programme, fast, any opportunity to be guided and for the betterment of myself is a luxury. And if I can share this with others.

I gift myself the opportunities to open up to wisdom and discover that which resonates with me

I think time by myself is super luxurious

Whether it be going out alone , walking, having the space of the house by myself . Giving a sweet treat I have been looking for are things I value a lot

Taking the time to inhale my essential oils and apply oil on myself

QUESTION N ° 3: How can you bring luxury to others?

Building myself to be well and happy from within

To work at and establish myself first from inside out, to be and live the intentions the resolutions or to be these myself. Then I will naturally exude and inspire and guide or bring luxury to others .

To share knowledge on what worked for me and could possibly do so for others

Too Uncomfortable to Sleep

Too Uncomfortable to Sleep

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Too uncomfortable to sleep

I made a vegan pulled pork burger , vegan mayo and a side dish of pumpkin and eggplant. Had some truffle chips and a new ingredient , cherry chilli bomb

And immediately after dinner I get horrible sensations. Thoroughly wrong.  Like a feeling of allergy or having eaten something that did not go well with me.

What was it that made it so wrong? I asked. There didnt seem to be any I can think of.

Like a headache of sorts and my energy is sucked out and I m slipping away without control. 

When I swallow there’s like something at my throat and I have to breathe doubly hard. I showered and got better

Then HuaiHao and Qinzhi said they noticed I didnt look well earlier, Huaihao offered to massage me

“ Mom your shoulders are so hard, you should learn to relax mom , probably you carried too heavy things “

WOW

I had my hands too full just before dinner and rushed back 

When I heard HuaiHao say this, I heard only—- you should learn to relax and I was like—- wow!

But now I totally see the wisdom as I put these down 

Everything’s too much for me. I am still living the old ways, but my body has changed, so the old ways find themselves in a body and consciousness that ‘s different. They are at odds and can no longer work together.

YAY

Which made me realise now how powerful the fast is.

After the one week fast, the body is responding so swiftly to food. Even if vegan , the body tells me immediately when it’s not good or good for me

I tried almond milk and granola; I tried veg noodle soup and it’s ok

I did a burger and the bread had some milk

I did vegan soup the first meal I stepped out of fast, probably too much and my body didn’t like it

Its a new phase of experimenting and finding out, and I m loving it! More than this, I m grateful for this opportunity!

It shows how much work the body has done in the week I stopped eating 

And it’s great in a way because in the past it would have taken me a long time to find out .

I was blocked and numbed.

But now —— reaction time is reduced I have become a better listener and responder to the body.

And I have to be ever more selective careful and mindful now with cooking and eating 

I think I m adjusting to a new body

I wrote 

And this was the aha moment for the day

I have done so much inner work on myself of late. I have cleaned my body.

In the past I might not know what this might mean or how this can feel, but these too-full-too-uncomfortable incidents let me know that I m at a different level

My mind my spirit my soul my energy my body

They are all different now

And the old ways of eating drinking living thinking feeling can no longer serve me

I have a new body and it is inviting me to work with it more mindfully with new practices and mindsets.

And now it is about putting into practice with each thing I do or not do, eat or not eat, how much i eat or not eat, how i eat or not eat, there’s so much to learning and experimentation ahead to work with it hear it, WOW I m excited!

In the midst of putting these thoughts together I listened to Deepak Chopra ‘s abundance program like I have for the past 18 days 

And immediately I felt better

Why?

It’s a shift I heard myself say. SO obvious. I felt it.

Shifted by voice, sound, positive content or meaning in the voice or sounds,

A shift that has been so, because of the intention the voice and the goodness it carries and, because I was open to it 

That’s how powerful it is

How can I be the shift then? WOW

And when shifts occur the challenges we face are automatically dissolved resolves effortlessly 

That’s why I felt better

And then a friend shared that the Dalai Lama would be giving the Avalokiteshvara Empowerment today. As I watched this amazing being in front of my eyes, I just warm up from the inside, even writing it now, warmed my eyes, as if to wash and purify me further. That is his power.

And how can I be this power to move others?

I have had the chance to see The Dalai Lama and more importantly, feel him in person. His presence still comes to me now n then to embrace me, to move me——–how wonderful is that. How blessed to be able to feel moved!

And that is another lesson in gratitude and abundance . I asked the universe for inspiration for healing, and this is it.

And seeing him and feeling this way made me discover yet another idea, could it have been that my system is cleaning up to prepare for this empowerment?!

WOW

Then another one sent a link on autophagy

Tells of the process of the body cells miraculously recycling waste body cells into goodness.

That was what I did or rather, what my body was busy with in the 1 week fast that has gone by.

Isnt that a miracle? How did the body know how to do that? How did nature have this idea?

And——isnt that just what I have been learning from the Tibetan teachers of buddhism in meditation and in awareness?The leading thoughts on transformation so important in Tibetan Buddhism——- that is what our miracle bodies have been doing all this while and all we need to is to create opportunities for the body to heal.

I have never experienced “coincidences” ring so loud and clear, what i m practicing to both my body and mind, learning about transformation and learning to practice it, they are in sync, never has my body and mind worked on the same front like this before. Amazing.