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Thank You and Goodbye 2021

Thank You and Goodbye 2021

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My new year wish for 2021 came true.

“In the brand new 2021 ahead, let us mindfully breathe and experience the power of the breath. May we connect at a deeper level with our body and soul. Through this, (re)discover our innate intuitive abilities, our dreams and the richness of our experiences. May we always find beauty, hope, warmth and peace. May we be gifted with open mindedness, possibilities, inspiration, goodness. May we use each and every opportunity to speak our truth and chart new territories with grace and wisdom. Everywhere, let there be magical, healing experiences of light. I know that we will be always be guided, protected, and blessed. We’ll shine like never before. Happy 2021.”

Right till the end

Honestly I didn’t know if I have feelings of thankfulness for 2021. What I discovered of late seemed to erase whatever gratitude I might have in me.

I slipped into a low. It was as if a part of me fell asleep.

I struggled out of bed on the wee hours of the last day of 2021 to capture my thoughts

I wanted to . I felt it was the only way for me to get a handle over myself after my discovery

I subscribe to the logic that we manifest and choose things in this life.

Did I really choose this surprise discovery? What and how in the process —- made me manifest this?

I want to find out.

I asked god and the divine – what is it that you want me to know? Is it the feeling of deceit and betrayal? Maybe, so as to know the full spectrum of emotions ?

I felt like after so much effort, my attempts to steer myself away from my parents experiences have been futile

In the end, I came to experience deceit and betrayal and dishonesty like my mother have. She chose to give up on despair

Now the turn is for me to make my choice – and I m sure I deserve nothing less. So why should I crinkle and buckle under this?

And I should not give all my pursuits away because of this. This discovery shouldn’t have the privilege of robbing me or erasing anything else that I have been putting or planning out. No. I shall not be stopped

And is it about forgiveness I have to learn ? I came to realise and uncover that I have been angry at myself for submitting again and again

For not heeding my gut and internal feelings and to keep dishing out chances

Beyond forgiveness for another, the lesson seems to be forgiveness of self

I recount what I learned awhile ago

Affirmative statements of forgiving others and the self who have consciously or unconsciously intended and afflicted harm onto myself and others

I thought about this dajiujiu sent

Please look at the speech that was read two days ago by the Pope.
Regardless of religion, see how Pope Francis has beautifully written about the family.

FAMILY, PLACE OF FORGIVENESS …

©️ There is no perfect family.
©️ We do not have perfect parents,

  • you are not perfect yourself.
    We do not marry a perfect person or we do not have perfect children.

©️ We have complaints from each other. We can not live together without offending one another.

©️ We are constantly disappointed. Yes for so many reasons at different times we are disappointed with one another.

©️ There is no healthy marriage or healthy family without the exercise of forgiveness. Forgiveness is the medicine of family joy and happiness

©️ Forgiveness is vital to our emotional health and spiritual survival. No matter the offence or who is the offender, without forgiveness, the family becomes an arena of conflict and a fortress of evil.

©️ Without forgiveness, the family becomes sick and unhealthy.

©️ Forgiveness is the asepsis of the soul, the purification of the spirit and the liberation of the heart. No sin is too big to be forgiven.
He who does not forgive does not have peace in his soul and cannot have communion with God.

©️ Unforgiving is evil and a poison that intoxicates & kills the one who refuses to forgive.

©️ Keeping heartache of unforgiving in your heart is a self-destructive gesture. It’s autophagy.

©️ Those who do not forgive are physically, emotionally and spiritually ill. And they will suffer in two ways.

For this reason, the family must be a place of life and not a place of death; a place of forgiveness, a place of paradise and not a place of hell; a healing territory and not a disease; an internship of forgiveness and not guilt.
Forgiveness brings joy where sorrow has brought sadness; of
Healing where sorrow has caused disease.

A family is a place of support and not of gossip and slander of one another. It must be a place of welcome not a place of rejection. Shame to those who plant evil about others. We are family and not enemies.

When anyone is going through a challenge all they need is support.

¤ By Pope Francisco

And this, this uneventful discovery——seemed like a trial for me to show me what 2022 will be made of

I faltered slightly when I first knew of this uneventful discovery. But I stood my ground and found my footing . And I know I have passed the test

Wow 2021. What a twist at the end and what a surprise you have handed me now. And I know this too shall pass and I will ride through this unscathed

I thought about emptiness — that I could use this as an opportunity to practise and for mediation of emptiness and impermanence. To take it as if I am watching a movie perhaps.

I tried to associate myself with these thoughts to anchor my mind

The fact is this disturbance this shakeup makes me want to search deeper for a place of calm and balance . Where is it ?

But it is a fact that this discovery has taken a toil on me . Much as I felt so tired and so torn, I want to continue on my path

That was my intention and it was what made me go for my second jab. I want to call back my life and the things I love even with Covid

I m ready

I thought of my reiki teacher Stephan . And he WhatsApp me this: “Dear Pin Yen, indeed I was thinking of you yesterday. Move from your mind to your heart, your gut, feel your feet in the earth. Trust in your steps, but be tactfull. Does that mean anything to you?”

I can’t help but laugh at the point of being tactful

And to which I replied : “ Very much so teacher dearest! 2021 gave me a shock at its tail where I discovered that there had not been complete honesty . And I uncovered how much anger I have for myself too. I learned a lot these few days. And I asked myself – in fact I m curious how I manifested these all. I want to know.

Just- What did the source want me to learn in this twist it delivered to me?

Forgiveness? The spectrum of emotions ? Getting closer to my heart?

Recognizing my self and my precious TPY who deserves nothing less but the very best

And indeed I went to place my feet in seawater to feel the earth

I just went for a sound bath and slept like a baby

The therapist sprayed some mist which is intended for one to feel self love. I smelled the sweet scent of it

And I was happy with myself for doing the best I could for myself and my family

And still will, not give up love. I thank you!!!”

I thought about the December energy update by Lee Harris and he said something like arising fire energy, a deep remembering of our ancient energy, breaks and sharp cutting ties and gifts of magic and the heart. I just didn’t think it would be so abrupt

This turn. But as with life, nothing falls short of surprises.

He suggests we try and capture ourselves with 2 questions

What are you grateful for in 2021?

I am grateful for the healing inspirational energy giving sunlight

I am grateful for the breath I breathe the life I have

I am grateful for all the healing I have experienced

I am grateful for Dr Loo who has written letters to help me children not vaccinate

I am grateful for all the nice people who have popped into my life and given me a hand

I am grateful to walk and run and to have the opportunity to pick up running

I am grateful to be in touch with teachings from all the spiritual masters and teachers

I am grateful to myself and my body

I am grateful for huaihao and QinZhi and my support system made up by my nanny and my family who loved me unconditionally

I am grateful that QinZhi and huaihao got into the schools just below our flat

I am grateful for my wisdom my beautiful mind and heart

I am grateful for myself

I am grateful for this discovery which freed up the real me the life force in me

I am grateful for my father and I am grateful I have the sanity to build a new relationship with him

I am grateful for knowing and recognizing that I don’t want to be stopped by my husband anymore

Or for that matter by any thing of the past any person any ——thing

I am grateful for meeting my inner child and for all the big and little realizations or messages the divine sent me

What are you calling forth in 2022

I call for a new relationship with myself! With TPY.

I am calling in open mindedness and love and compassion like never before

I call in more and more, these beautiful pockets of quiet stillness inspiration

I call in my connection to the divine to my masters my angels

I am calling in my truth as I always have been and is gifted to my soul many lifetimes and in this life to be with me

I am calling forth consciousness and awareness

I am calling in my ability to manifest my wonderful future and the days and moments all inI

I am calling forth the most inspiring and beautiful traveling experiences

I am calling in love and lots of unconditional love to be showered on me because I deserve and this is my birthright

I am calling in lots of wonderful opportunities for me to express my gifts my gratitude my love my soul

I am calling in vitality great energy great health abundance of wealth like never before

And therefore calling forth my wildest dreams

I m calling in and calling forth my intuitive abilities and capabilities , my innate potential to be expressed by the talents and gifts I have, in a way I m familiar and comfortable with, using my experiences to share outwards the light and love , warmth and hope I have received

I am calling in and calling forth all of my guardian angels, the source the creation the divine , and all the resources and support , all the inspiration and light, all the energy I need to carry out the above

I call in and call for protection blessings support love to be showered upon every cell in my body every inch of my soul at all levels of my existence

I am calling in my life force my source energy and connections .

Thank you and so it is.

In the new fairy moments ahead, I have called in and called for all these wonderful opportunities, resources and support we need to be unreservedly you, me, us.

To be mindful enough to free ourselves from any restrictive programs or mindsets.
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We miraculously discover, BE(COME) and ground in exactly who we are and what we are born for.

In doing so, celebrate and express our innate truth, gifts, talents. In doing so, share our light.

2022, you will be sparkling magic. Thank you—- in advance.

What is it that you want to illuminate?

What is it that you want to illuminate?

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Loving alcazar’s message

https://www.thestargateexperienceacademy.com/christmas-2021

How fast you change is up to you. It is so easy to allow the energy of depression to be in your life.

But where do you put your energy ? What is it you wish to illuminate? What is it you wish to emphasize? What is it you wish to bring forth in your life? Put your focus on raising your vibration. Put your focus on living and allowing —— so that the separation that manifest in the world becomes less so in your life.

Drop the judgment on others and more importantly the judgment that you may have on yourself

You are powerful creators. You can create new realities

Running (x)

Running (x)

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It’s been a while after the first sinovac jab and I m back running .

And the message that came through: what if, there’s nothing to heal?

Can we entertain this thought?

What if there are no keloids no cyst no inflammation no pus no fear no shame no guilt. How would I be running?

And I picked up speed and ran.

Like the way they ran in movies. Legs high I the air.

Then I forgot my phone password and remembered and saw this quote: live , as if you are already there.

And the reason for my existence

And the reason for my existence

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There’s something in 14 Peaks that calls out to me.

Nims speaks out the very things we once harboured in our hearts, the very things we held close to heart and pursued like crazy because we believed ——— but afterwards lost them to the daily grinds

And coincidentally, I went back to writing my column yesterday. The piece of writing is slated for Christmas and the idea of light and love came up. My Santa is Mr Ng, who made me see the light each time I went to see him.

I started writing and re-reading just two posts —— every time after I visited, I would write down faithfully the contents of the the visit : what we discussed and exchanged ——- I cried so hard. The nuggets of truth and wisdom I fetched out from then, those visits stand true today. And they are still useful for me. I reconnected with the truths he shared with me and I saw how much I was appreciated as a soul. He taught me how to acknowledge and recognize my self, how to be gentle with myself——-always, before I knew

I miss my teacher and is calling out for him from the depths of my heart.

Then I watched 14 Peaks

The combination worked I guess.

I went back to 2016. When I had the idea of getting Nic to be a Friend of Michelin. And boom, I got to him.

How is that even possible? There is every reason it would be impossible.

In 100 years the red book has been in existence, there is no Friend of Michelin.

https://guide.michelin.com/en/article/news-and-views/michelin-unveils-its-first-friend-of-michelin

https://guide.michelin.com/hk/zh_HK/article/news-and-views/michelin-unveils-its-first-friend-of-michelin

Seeing him on stage carrying out and expressing my belief—- that Food is made good with friends and in connection—— is impossible to describe.

The feeling you carry in the heart area is full and warm—— when you make the impossible possible.

No word can do justice to that feeling.

No amount of money too.

I went to bed. And got out of it in a matter of minutes .

I cut the quote on an upcoming video. If that could make the project possible, I will do it. The joy of making a video is impossible to describe too because that is what makes me come alive.

So I emailed the client with an adjusted quote and went back to bed.

And this morning, this morning when I woke and lay in bed, trying to be still. Beautiful thoughts and feelings came to me.

Those moments sitting beside the camera the frame, lights shining on the subject in front of me. The subject revealing thoughts emotions true to him and me feeling them—— because, with age, how different can we be. We run similar programs emotions albeit in different places and different points in life. We connect in the suffering that pain we all had a chance to experience

He or she might be talking about him or her but what I hear is about me. The moments in between —- working with what was released in real time, takes things out of me. It is work in process and expression at its best

That seat, right opposite the subject. Here is where and when I come alive . I live for these.

Why did I give it away so easily ?

The feeling sitting in that spot. I can’t wait to be back.

To use my gift and experience, to share light love hope warmth and delivering it my style.

This is my mission my purpose and the reason of my existence my being. It is why I am wired this way why I feel this way why I have experienced what I have —— all these were in preparation for me to do the work I am here for.

This is the first time I see things this way—— like a puzzle in place. A breakthrough and light of sorts—- i m wired this way because I need my strengths and weaknesses to do the work I do

And seeing this made me appreciate my experiences more.

I thanked my experiences once more and release all that do not serve me any longer —— out of my energy field , and I do so with much ease and grace, lovingly tenderly and I intend for them to move out at a speed fastest possible for my comfort and grounding

But more than release, I know for sure I would be able to use them in my work.

Mr Ng said to me: “you have always shared with me what other people say, what about you? What is your story? I want to hear your story. You should be in the frame.”

He saw the beauty of my beingness when I did not.

The reason and beauty of my being is to express. And when I do not do that, I could not come alive.

These two or three years when I left what I did professionally, a part of me stopped.

Where did you go —— I asked myself . And thank you for coming back. In fact, welcome back TPY——- I heard me say.

The feeling is the same that I felt seeing Nic on stage. The impossible had happened in a way to fetch me back.

And I could see now, how my guardian angels how the creator the source or god, has always been with me and in me———or else, how could I be here today saying this. At this time.

This time, it is the perfect time. Anything earlier or later would not have been.

And the magic in the essential oils —— Believe. And the affirmation I said every morning Michael Beckwith shared . He said to do it for a month and see what happens.

“I am available to more good than I have ever imagined . Let me co create a way of life with god that holds the insights and revelations the wisdom and intelligence that flows with time.”

I ask for support and all the resources on all levels to propel me in this direction of sharing my own light to the world. And it would be for the purpose of letting others see their own light and wonder.

It is Mr Ng’s greatest gift to me. He let me see the beauty of my light being . Always has been and will never go away.

And receiving that make me want to tend to this light I am born with privileged to bear and to share it outwards. To light another being.

Watching Korean travelogue “The Hungry and the Hairy” brought to mind that I once believed I was made for big things. I went to the best schools , had great results, was always ‘seen’ and ‘heard’. I made a name for myself. (Probably that was why I was so drawn to my ex boss SH, who also made dreams come true. ) But I gave up being big and decided to hide myself in small after Dad left us after Mom died. I hid my talents my wishes my purpose my mission along with those incidents. I stopped living me even if I m alive . Recently I had the feeling that I stopped myself when I left my last designation——- but now I realized I stopped myself even earlier.

No one else but me. I stopped myself from living my truth.

And I realized also, rather, I made the decision to not fall into another cycle of unhappiness with bf. I m no longer going to invest myself being upset. Been there done that. Enough is enough is enough.

I m going to live life devoted to protecting and sharing my light.

Is it any coincidence I woke up to these on 12/12?

Running / Walking (ix)

Running / Walking (ix)

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Running today while using breaths to clean my inside presented me with something new.

When the breaths come to the heart, I saw how it differed from the last run.

When I used light to clean the heart and pictured it shiny the last time, light this morning cleaned what heart experienced.

Then the lungs the liver the stomach and intestines.

When I came to the navel, I saw crystal clear light at the belly button and a picture of a navel as a baby came up. Then me as a baby. Me just out of the birth canal, my looking at the world in wonder me crying in fear and fright, not knowing how when why what.

I gathered I absorbed fear from the surroundings and I saw how this precious crystal clear light cleaned me and the baby girl once again looked at the world in wonder and with curiosity.

Born again.

What a morning. To reinforce process and how it could have been different!

Drop into your angels

Drop into your angels

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“Imagine at some moment two strong arms enfold you, two great wings rise above you, and you are suddenly lifted up. Lifted up from where you were standing, lifted up out of the shadows, lifted up and carried away. In that moment, imagine all of your cares falling away, your worries dropping like stones, until you feel lighter, as weightless as a feather caught on a breeze.

“Imagine you and the Spirit flying in a clear sky, flying for the sheer joy of it, far beyond the reach of any hurt or harm. Imagine what you believe and it will carry you to a place of strength, of hope, and of love.”

~ Native American elder Steven Charleston

Questions

Questions

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I have asking a lot of questions in my life.

First as a child. Then in my professional career as a journalist to people from all spectrums in life. Now I direct them to myself and the source the greater or greatest creator and to life.

It didn’t really come to my understanding how powerful questions can be.

I thought what was to be pursued were answers . I have been pursuing answers all along. Waiting to hear back with the questions I asked.

But John has been talking about asking questions, and its the questions we ask that matter. And now this I saw from Michael Beckwith

“You see, we have to ask powerful questions. If there’s an issue, you have to ask a big enough question for the Universe to answer it.

So behind every problem, there’s a question trying to ask itself. And behind every question, there’s an answer trying to reveal itself. And behind every answer, there’s an action trying to express itself. And behind every action, there’s a way of life trying to be born.

If a person is chronically struggling with finances and they’re asking, “Why is this always happening to me?” That’s a disempowering question. You’ve got to ask a bigger question like, “What is the nature of prosperity?”

Perhaps write it down and think about it when you go to bed at night; sleep on it. The Universe will start to talk to you; it is already talking to you.

The broadcast is already going on; it just needs your permission to come in. The answer tells you, “prosperity is everywhere, prosperity is energy, energy is never created or destroyed, it’s invisible. Look at the leaves on a tree. Look at the grains of sand. Look at the stars in the heavens. It’s everywhere. There’s no lack anywhere.”

Yet, your mind will say, “Wait a minute, I’m asking because I don’t have money or prosperity.” And it will come back and tell you, “I said I’m invisible. I’m infinite. I’m not a thing. So give what you have, give a smile, help somebody. Put yourself in a position to serve.”

And then that action becomes a way of life.

So, if you wake up thinking, “How am I going to serve? How am I going to give? How am I going to circulate?” Then the Universe will support you in that, and prosperity starts to flow into your life because you’ve asked the right question.

How are you going to serve today? First, write your empowering question down and see what the Universe offers you. Then share your story with the community and me.”

This called out to me.

I tried asking myself, because suddenly, all my work on hand stopped. First, slowly, I let go of one, then two of what I was doing currently. The last one I held on to, let me know that they wanted to end the contract at the end of this month. AT first I was taken by surprise, what was I to do ——-Starting back at the point of zero income?

I asked myself the questions mainstream society would ask, such as, how can you be living without any source of income? How are you going to retire comfortably and such? Driven by fear, worry, inadequacy.

What is the universe trying to tell me or do?

Then it occured to me that things, were, are speeding up. The last thing I held on to out of fear or insecurity is stripped off me literally. And I realise, the universe is giving me a pat on the back and giving me the support I need so that I can elevate into the new.

In the new, these old strings cannot be with me as they served me no longer. My time to enter the new has come and the very things that will impede me or what I hang on to, old values, system, judgments, ways of living, earning my keep, thinking etc, can only be left behind.

I felt like the time has come.

While I walked on my own, I looked at the things which held me back, fear, worry, shame, guilt. I located them in my body and walked with them, looked at them, breathed with and into them, thanked them for teaching me and keeping me on my toes and bringing me to who I am, and waved them goodbye.

Then I saw and was drawn to this lotus in a pond

Then before I knew, a shower descended.

Run or walk?

I ran in the rain. Took shelter under a tree and felt rain slipping in and it was truly like a blessing of sorts.

And it felt so good.

As i reread “How are you going to serve today? First, write your empowering question down and see what the Universe offers you. “

I felt touched myself. It sort like I am aligning to the universe’s rhythm, entering a flow of sorts. I felt a response or a resonance of sorts in the air, nodding in my favour, as if saying, finally you are back you have come.

And i understand now why a lot of works they shine bright with light are channelled.

Aligning with the universe or the source or the creator or god, what does it mean? It means first and foremost to recognise to acknowledge and to treasure oneself, as one and only, and a part of the source—–never born and never will die, has been and always will be.

It means not to understand that we are created in the likeness of god but to feel that way.

And Qinzhi said just this afternoon :”I feel that I m god but why am I here?”

We are messengers of light, blinking and shimmering in our own right, each time we shine and acknowledge that god in us, the world shines ever brighter and will be even more so, as we express our truth and be the best we can be, showing the good we are here for.

I feel excited.

And what was is not going to be

And what was is not going to be

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Listening to kyron and watching the clouds go by——— is godly.

It were as if you are looking into the face of god or the creator or source and it means you are there and one with god . At home.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=NBnEyC47Jok

In this video, kyron talks about dropping the karma we all believe we have. About stepping out of what we were into the new.

And yesterday in my shower, I thought of something ——- everything can be forgiven, not just this lifetime, but everything and on every of my existence.

Why?

Because I am alive.

And the others isn’t at all important. Looking at the clouds drift by made me think of something- is this living ? Have a started to live? Am I living my life?

What is to live?

I probably passed through days previously, I was doing things for my family, for anyone else but me. And I saw this just now:

From Trinity Esoterics this morning:”The biggest power move you can make on your enlightenment journey is making the shift from knowing about spirituality to living spiritually. Your seeking is a wonderful thing and for many of you a precursor to your embodiment, but ultimately it is your beingness that declares who you really are. Knowledge is often a precursor to action, a springboard, if you will, to how you wish to be.

Simply put, reading about love is wonderful, but one loving action allows you to experience yourself as the love, and it is the expression of those spiritual traits you are really seeking.”

Hear us when we say you do not need to wait until you reach some level of attainment in order to live your life in an enlightened way. Every demonstration of love, every prayer, every moment of gratitude, every observation of beauty, every word of encouragement to another, every peaceful choice, every kindness – all of it is spirituality in action. What we wish for you to know is there are many, many of you on the planet who simply express who they really are, beautifully and consistently, without any knowledge at all of the ascension process, and that makes just as much of a difference as the actions of those who have studied for their entire lives.”

Do you see? The prep work is valuable but don’t get stuck in the habit of being a perpetual student who never quite feels ready to apply their knowledge because the world needs you and your loving actions now, and there is also great joy for you when you allow yourself to step into the experience of being who you came onto the planet to be.”~Archangel Gabriel through Shelley Young.

I am

I am

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This is healing, so healing, so full of love.

Your body is listening, in any way you deem.

it is ready to find the new frequency, start to activate that part in you to find the new frequency and revitalise what you have

When you speak things out loud with intent, the cells understand

Affirmations are the quickest way to change your reality at this moment in time. Whatever you tell your body, it cooperates

Affirmations tell what you have

Be I m

I m love

As you speak out loud with intent everyday, there is a process in the repetition

Start talking to your own self your own cells

I m an intuitive that helps people on the planet

I m one with god

I m so well loved by everyone

Affirmations are not wishful thinking , but a statement of truth

Words are frequencies, statement of intent are energies, they are absolutely powerful,

Prayer works, meditation works, this is quantum physics

the energies you can create simply by stating things to yourself in the air, and have them out loud

If your system hears them through the air, through your mouth

by simply

I am kind

I m loved

I m healthy

I m full of vitality

I m creative

I can heal myself

I m a most sought after world class writer and content creator

Your body will hear this

This is the beginning of change

Go back to the beginning, what did you do? what were the processes you got good at and you find the place that worked for you?

Start it again.

Practise

Did you remember you did it for the first time?

The more you practise, the better you get.

Higher consciousness and becoming quantum

See the magnificence of who you are, you have so much control over your own chemistry

it wants to listen to what you have to say, what are the affirmations you would say to your body,

Besides i am healthy, get specific, i m not in pain, i m never going to experience xxx again, i don’t need to, there’s no reason for it, your find you have more control over your body even those things medicine tell you you cannot do

my blood is clean, my blood is happy, my blood is balanced

the energy caused by these energies will be anything you have never seen

go back to basics, push, stop waiting, its time to act

do you realise who you are?

to receive this message? do you know who you are? you have a piece of god inside, so many of you are your own ancestors, you have been thru this earth history

do you deserve to be free? to have all those things back you thought you lost?

i m recovering —not gd enough

i have recovered from my grief.

a gifted human being

get up and move, move some energies

and so it is