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Running / Walking (ix)

Running / Walking (ix)

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Running today while using breaths to clean my inside presented me with something new.

When the breaths come to the heart, I saw how it differed from the last run.

When I used light to clean the heart and pictured it shiny the last time, light this morning cleaned what heart experienced.

Then the lungs the liver the stomach and intestines.

When I came to the navel, I saw crystal clear light at the belly button and a picture of a navel as a baby came up. Then me as a baby. Me just out of the birth canal, my looking at the world in wonder me crying in fear and fright, not knowing how when why what.

I gathered I absorbed fear from the surroundings and I saw how this precious crystal clear light cleaned me and the baby girl once again looked at the world in wonder and with curiosity.

Born again.

What a morning. To reinforce process and how it could have been different!

Heal

Heal

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In my self reiki session, I heard this thought: when you help others heal, you heal. When you heal, you (help) others heal.

Because others are a reflection of you, you see yourself in others. And also, when you heal, others get inspired.

As I placed my hands on myself, my keloids, i cannot help but thank them. The body remembers in its own way, mine came in the form of keloids and this capture of specific and precise moments in time recorded down things that were good for me, even though the times seemed daunting—- that I did not pick up there and then.

I saw myself in front of the hospital bed when dad had his spinal operation. I was that little girl.

What was it that I could not pick up? It was love I had that I did not know how to express but got translated into fear of losing at that tender age. I had to thank my keloids for storing those moments so I could see that light now.

What about the one at seemed to capture shame guilt?

When the family finance and therefore the family broke down and we were crumbling?

Where’s the light in those moments? And it has to be my stance of facing it together and standing as a family no matter how hard.

These things I could have processed but did not in those moments, they came in the form of keloids and stored these until I am ready.

I thanked the navel for connecting me to my mother and to my children.

The day before when I walked, the sky looked to me as if god is up there, I whispered my thanks and gratitude to my guardian angels who have walked alongside me with me in me . I felt strong choking emotions and a pain in my throat. Stay with these emotions and walk with them.

Be with these, let these powerful emotions move through you.

Healing is a beautiful amazing process.

I am so moved by this I saw @Michael Beckwith:

If you’re by yourself, say out loud: “I’m available to more good than I’ve ever imagined!” Now listen to yourself say it, don’t say it out loud, just listen to yourself saying: “I’m available to more good than I’ve ever imagined.” And notice when you said it, you heard it, but you didn’t listen to it with your ears. This allows you to see the invisible and to listen to the inaudible so that you will be a part of the beautiful spiritual fellowship that will do the impossible!

You are in partnership with the divine, co-creating a way of living, not just affirming what you think you want at any given moment. You are primarily here to develop a way of living that becomes so integrated that insights and revelations are occurring all the time. So then, you’re able to hold the frequency of that without them fading into memory. 

Now say: 

“Let me co-create a way of life with God that allows me to hold the insights and revelations, the wisdom and the intelligence that are flowing all of the time.”

Try this out for one month and see what happens!✨

Running / Walking (viii)

Running / Walking (viii)

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On my way back from running, while I was walking , I trained myself in the process further.

I chanted mantras. And got to understand why the process mattered.

I was also chanting yesterday and the feeling was letting my body my cells hear the chant or feel the vibrations of the mantras

But today! but today I had the feeling of chanting with all my cells and when I “got lost” or drifted, I invited my body to come back and chant together with me. It feels like I am ushering no motivating and we all have our heart on chanting. There is a certain feeling of fulfillment doing it together with my body with my cells.

And as I went on and on, and got to the keloids and cyst at the belly button, I saw that they (can) and are part of me. But I have never accepted them, much less accepted them as part of my body. I always saw them as something external and something I had to handle to resolve to remove.

I have never accepted or acknowledged them in a way

Then I saw this beautiful light shining through

And , and I can’t believe I m running. And who is the me waiting for me in the distance ?

I look back and remember I was smiling to myself at bedtime yesterday. A very awesome feeling. Smiling and smiley joyful for no reason

Running/ Walking (vi)

Running/ Walking (vi)

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I always hear this, from John.

He always says , “ it’s not the essential oil not the product, it’s the process. It’s the process.”

I used to be perturbed . If the protocol is there, why does he still say this? But I finally got an inkling of what he means this morning as I repeated my running challenge

He can prescribe a protocol of oils to use for any condition but different people would arrive at different results

Of course the physical conditions would vary but I realise also the importance of the process

As I ran , I kept drawing in the Sun’s light and energy into my body and my being , to cleanse my insides

On another day, what came though from the skies was not intense sunlight but a soft glow. Yet another, the day began moist chilly with little light

I did this everyday and even the process is different everyday. The process of breathing in and cleansing is different everyday .

The process is different because what I breathed in is different and so many more

And so the results will be different

Today as I ran and walked and breathed, breathed in light at the pelvic keloids, I saw the baby skin beneath and I heard something else—— that the keloids have been almost a shield for me all these years as I moved through it all. I might have been hurt more or less protected had it not been for the keloids who have come on this way to shield me.

Before I was ready to face the world with myself and the experiences that I have.

Now I m ready and I heard myself thank the keloids for being here with me all this while. This is certainly yet another step after accepting them as part of me —— something I realized yesterday in my run .

And so they say, 11.11 is a very special day and opens us up to a new portal of ascension and being.

May light be always with you.

Change

Change

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This is one word we come across every so often but one of the hardest (?) to execute or be aware of.

For example, I do not feel or know that I have changed or aged until I see my kids grow up. So it seems, change happens when we are least aware of it

This morning I thought this word of change echoed to me

I am curious how I will be if I continue to run

John once said that if I started exercising I will be a different person

I will become better

I am curious how I am going to be. What is the change?

Let’s do this experiment.

How will/can I become? And how will/can you—— become?

And I saw this quote – life is not about discovery, life is about creation. And you are creating it all, no one else is doing it for you.

Live

Live

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I have been thinking about this.

What does it mean to live? What is to live?

I asked my kids. Qinzhi said , to live is to learn. HuaiHao said, to live is to be free. And they are but 12 and 8.

Then HuaiHao said, “ you should do what you like. ”

I said that I like to do interviews, write , listen to people’s stories. Do videos.

I told him what it means to be free. Comparing my life previously when I was working till now, I can now choose what I want to do or not do- I certainly feel free-ier even if I m earning way much lesser

And he asked, “ don’t you like to be with me?”

And I said I was waiting for him to ask me this.

But am I living my life? Doing what I want? Am I living my truth ? and is at peace with me?

I saw this quote by Michael Beckwith, “ if you don’t do you, you won’t be done.”

I watched a Korean drama and in it and old granny told a young man “we all know you have had a tough time and we all appreciate how you go around helping people but go and live your life. Eat good food and be happy. Then you will be happy and your loved ones will be happy.”

And what was is not going to be

And what was is not going to be

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Listening to kyron and watching the clouds go by——— is godly.

It were as if you are looking into the face of god or the creator or source and it means you are there and one with god . At home.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=NBnEyC47Jok

In this video, kyron talks about dropping the karma we all believe we have. About stepping out of what we were into the new.

And yesterday in my shower, I thought of something ——- everything can be forgiven, not just this lifetime, but everything and on every of my existence.

Why?

Because I am alive.

And the others isn’t at all important. Looking at the clouds drift by made me think of something- is this living ? Have a started to live? Am I living my life?

What is to live?

I probably passed through days previously, I was doing things for my family, for anyone else but me. And I saw this just now:

From Trinity Esoterics this morning:”The biggest power move you can make on your enlightenment journey is making the shift from knowing about spirituality to living spiritually. Your seeking is a wonderful thing and for many of you a precursor to your embodiment, but ultimately it is your beingness that declares who you really are. Knowledge is often a precursor to action, a springboard, if you will, to how you wish to be.

Simply put, reading about love is wonderful, but one loving action allows you to experience yourself as the love, and it is the expression of those spiritual traits you are really seeking.”

Hear us when we say you do not need to wait until you reach some level of attainment in order to live your life in an enlightened way. Every demonstration of love, every prayer, every moment of gratitude, every observation of beauty, every word of encouragement to another, every peaceful choice, every kindness – all of it is spirituality in action. What we wish for you to know is there are many, many of you on the planet who simply express who they really are, beautifully and consistently, without any knowledge at all of the ascension process, and that makes just as much of a difference as the actions of those who have studied for their entire lives.”

Do you see? The prep work is valuable but don’t get stuck in the habit of being a perpetual student who never quite feels ready to apply their knowledge because the world needs you and your loving actions now, and there is also great joy for you when you allow yourself to step into the experience of being who you came onto the planet to be.”~Archangel Gabriel through Shelley Young.

I am

I am

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This is healing, so healing, so full of love.

Your body is listening, in any way you deem.

it is ready to find the new frequency, start to activate that part in you to find the new frequency and revitalise what you have

When you speak things out loud with intent, the cells understand

Affirmations are the quickest way to change your reality at this moment in time. Whatever you tell your body, it cooperates

Affirmations tell what you have

Be I m

I m love

As you speak out loud with intent everyday, there is a process in the repetition

Start talking to your own self your own cells

I m an intuitive that helps people on the planet

I m one with god

I m so well loved by everyone

Affirmations are not wishful thinking , but a statement of truth

Words are frequencies, statement of intent are energies, they are absolutely powerful,

Prayer works, meditation works, this is quantum physics

the energies you can create simply by stating things to yourself in the air, and have them out loud

If your system hears them through the air, through your mouth

by simply

I am kind

I m loved

I m healthy

I m full of vitality

I m creative

I can heal myself

I m a most sought after world class writer and content creator

Your body will hear this

This is the beginning of change

Go back to the beginning, what did you do? what were the processes you got good at and you find the place that worked for you?

Start it again.

Practise

Did you remember you did it for the first time?

The more you practise, the better you get.

Higher consciousness and becoming quantum

See the magnificence of who you are, you have so much control over your own chemistry

it wants to listen to what you have to say, what are the affirmations you would say to your body,

Besides i am healthy, get specific, i m not in pain, i m never going to experience xxx again, i don’t need to, there’s no reason for it, your find you have more control over your body even those things medicine tell you you cannot do

my blood is clean, my blood is happy, my blood is balanced

the energy caused by these energies will be anything you have never seen

go back to basics, push, stop waiting, its time to act

do you realise who you are?

to receive this message? do you know who you are? you have a piece of god inside, so many of you are your own ancestors, you have been thru this earth history

do you deserve to be free? to have all those things back you thought you lost?

i m recovering —not gd enough

i have recovered from my grief.

a gifted human being

get up and move, move some energies

and so it is

Connecting to My Inner Child

Connecting to My Inner Child

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In a stargate meditation session Connecting to the Inner Child, I saw myself – perhaps at 4 or 5 years old

Alone

My parents were not with me

Even though I knew my nanny with me

I was simply seeing myself alone

It’s a very deep sense of being alone that stayed with me for a few days. As if it kept something inside wanting me to delve deeper in

I stayed with this feeling for a few days before penning these thoughts down

Why am I alone ?

Why do I not have support or love or care around me? Even if I have parents?

Why are you not with me?

I heard the little girl say.

There’s anger frustration hurt unfairness perhaps even jealousy of another child who has the love of their parents

My conscious mind interrupted and explained to me that

– my parents had to work to earn a living to give me the best they can such as letting me take up organ lessons and having to pay my nanny for monthly childcare fees

But that’s not what I want—- the little girl said!

-they probably were not as evolved to see and attend to the extremely sensitive needs I had as/even as a child

I rationalized to myself and the little girl.

And I realized how very different I m—-I sort of saw the high level of consciousness I had even at the age of 4 years old

Wow

It felt like I had such a strong need to connect and express myself

My young parents who were parents for the first time , simply weren’t armed to deal with or manage me

It makes me reflect on myself as a parent- Much like how we are not armed to deal with Qinzhi and Huaihao now

It brings me to the point that evolution of humanity to a higher level of consciousness is going faster and faster

And staying in the old or it is important to see how much of the old we still harbour and can change out of —- is imperative so we do not cause unnecessary hurt to our next generation

Also, even if so many years have passed, I touched upon the pain of humanity drowned in unawareness and so repeating unfortunate circumstances are still everywhere

I think these really are the messages brought out by the inner child who kept tugging on to me

The pain she felt as a child and even now – after so many years

And what do I find myself say to her?

I m sorry you suffered little one

I can feel the pain and hurt

But really- this is not all of life!

I know how You came with so much expectations optimism happiness delight and hope , wanting to carry your expressions consciousness and light to the world but met with such intense disappointments hurt pain and suffering along the way

It has been hard on you

I know

(And I realize just how much the little girl needs —-love

Love and a hug is all she needs

Perhaps my children too

When I hugged her, she cried so hard because she is finally heard and understood this brought me so much tears too

And after all the crying its good to see her smile again

And it makes me think of a line in the Heart Sutra- 不生不灭不增不减

There’s no birth no death

Nothing increases or decreases

Like the very spirit we are made of and in us )

You have been so awesome all this while, you put it up so well and did so many wonderful things

Throughout it all, no matter what time, you always continued to put forth hope consciousness and light in you

Always always pure and true to yourself

And I am so very proud and blessed to have you

Continue to do what you do best

This really is the meaning or purpose of your life

To radiate Hope, share consciousness and light outwards

I recall John’s words when I shared some of these with him a while ago, the pain of humanity repeating in unconscious states got to him and he reminded me to shift my focus, mindful of your emotions

I think it might have been too ambitious to save the world – just as the little girl in me has been too eager to see so much of everything

But as with life, how about starting off with myself and the little girl?

To be open to the possibility that others can be them and we do not have to put a label or judgement on their lives – suffering or not, right or wrong

To be open to the possibility that I can start by steering myself closer and closer to light and wonder simply by being mindful for as long as I can

To continually uplift myself take care of myself – body and mind to a state of balance and equilibrium

I think I can contribute greatly just by making myself whole and expressing myself truthfully

I think I can contribute the most when I am truly me and the best version of me

Little girl, thank you for the inspiration! You have been so very awesome and I m so very very very proud of you!

And I see this!

“September Energies: Cross-Connecting to Atlantis”

The 9D Arcturian Council, through Daniel Scranton

We are so very impressed by the way you all have handled the energies of August, and we are very excited to see what you will do with the energies of September, a month that includes an equinox, a balancing of the scales. Many individuals on your world have felt out of balance in some way for quite some time, and more importantly, many individuals have been triggered to specific traumas in previous lifetimes that they are cross-connecting to, but also unaware of the fact that they are accessing those past life traumas. And that’s where the September energies come in to play.

You all need some soothing, an energetic bath to cleanse you and to help you to release those stuck energies, those traumas, those emotions you either couldn’t or wouldn’t feel in those previous lifetimes. And so, the energies of September will be supportive of the final release, the final letting go of the heaviness of those traumas so that you can move into the December solstice clear, open, and ready to receive the next download of energies that will take you into 2022.

This has not been an easy year there on planet Earth, because so many have felt disappointed for one reason or another, and that disappointment is not just about their own experiences and lives. People have been disappointed in other people, and this has created a chain reaction that has taken you back in a sense to Atlantean times. In Atlantis many of the humans could see the folly of the ways of their fellow Atlanteans but could do nothing to stop what was already occurring. Many felt powerless to put a stop to what was the decline of Atlantis that would ultimately result in its destruction.

So many people on Earth right now feel that way for a variety of reasons, and so those Atlantean traumas are just some of the ones that people are cross-connecting to and needing to release and heal once and for all. The September energies will do more than just balance you; they will also support you, help you to cleanse and heal so that you can move on from the weight of past life traumas that you are holding in your root chakras, and you will be able to relax when you open yourselves up to these energies.

And you will be able to feel your emotions more clearly and choose which ones you want to feel, and that is something that many people on your world have yet to experience in this lifetime. It is huge to be able to choose how you want to feel, instead of walking around and just getting triggered over and over again. We want this for you, and we know that you want it for yourselves, and so we are happy to participate in the delivery of the September energies, and we know that those of you who are sensitive and are open will be catapulting yourselves forward as a result of what you are about to receive.