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Inspirations From A Run (XIX)

Inspirations From A Run (XIX)

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My intention for today is to anchor my power in my body, being, soul

The last week has been one that is “filled with content “ whether in the area of work, family life or in my own

At work, I kind of had the opportunity to host a big chef event and connected back with partners and people whom I had worked with closely previously in my last role

Then there were new friends

There were some folks who had brushes, and out of these, the meeting brought closure, for one or two others, the closure couldn’t be had

Oh well

On the whole it was good. I think I still enjoy the food industry. Most of all, seeing combinations and creativity in the form of ingredient pairing or how food can be- speaking to chefs- these energize me

At home, bf had a close brush at work, experiencing a separation lapse and feeling out of sorts and sent to a low

I tried to help the family tried to help, but it is clear he wants to take it his way

I thought about my role as much as I was wanting to help

But it seems- everyone has his or her own journey

And the best we can do is to stand grounded in our own power

Which brings me to the next point and today’s intention

I think to help or at least help ourselves, we have to stand grounded and in harmony in our own light and power

I had a wonderful birthday celebration with my folks, lots of friends texted me. I bathed and soaked in these blessings. And I kind of felt more at ease “coming out” as opposed to previously-keeping myself in.

It feels like I have moved and shifted somewhat to be more at ease with myself and therefore others

I m thankful and grateful for the love I have , kind thoughts from people , some not even friends but whom I have met and interviewed

And their kind wishes made me once more wonder about what it is that I have done to make them remember me?

It calls to mind me. Who is me? Like this morning when I set the intention to anchor my power – what is my power? Where is it? I asked.

And I recalled what Michelle said to me in a lunch we recently had- thank you for being you. You wear authenticity on your sleeve.

Wow

Of late in a regression with Punam my ex yoga teacher, the session helped me see or celebrate divinity – not elsewhere but within me

We often think that we are beneath divinity and that divinity is separate from us

But no.

If we can feel divinity divine beings, then what are we if we are not divine ourselves?

It makes me want to explore this side of me.

And so what is the power of me in me?

I feel like the closest thing I can find to this question is this

Simpleton, dreamy, girlish, expressive, I remember my husband was asked this question by my friends on the day of our wedding

“what attracted you to this girl”

And he said something along the lines of her being pure

I think I kept myself this way all these years and I want to keep it this way whether at work or home

I want to speak my mind and act closest to what my heart says

And wherever I am I want to use my light to bring out light and goodness- whether it be in conversations or in things I do or in others

And I think – this is my power gift and what I am here for

Thank you to the divine. Thank you to the divine in me.

I am so grateful!

Inspirations From A Run (XVIII)

Inspirations From A Run (XVIII)

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The intention today was to dwelve deep into my body to find out

And guess what? I did of course.

It is 10/10 today and I read about the energies prevailing at this time to help us kickstart the new and release the old

Death and rebirth

I read about writing down ten things at 10am or 10pm

Haha

I kind of ran through in my mind what I want

I am running for my new life

I am running towards my new life

I am running into my new life

I am running my new life

It’s amazing how words set things up

And get ‘it’ going

And what do I want in my new life?

I want no cyst no keloids

No itch .

My cheeks are rosy and brimming with healthfulness

Each and every cell in my body is happy healthy joyful peaceful

All is well there is harmony peace equilibrium

My gums are healthy and my teeth is strong

Everywhere I go I am loved respected and valued for being me

Everywhere I go I spark light I bring light I bring something meaningful to the people around me

I love my work and enjoy very successful career

People respect and honour me for the good work I do

I can afford anything and everything I want – for myself and my family.

And I thank the divine my body for giving me this opportunity

Somewhere down the run, I get the idea that in my new life, my body heals miraculously, instantly, beautifully, effortlessly automatically and I did not even have to think about it

I did not have to look outside at all but just go inwards in any time of need – just so because

The body takes care of me and wants me to be well!

And at that moment I thought – in fact this has already happened and really my body has been asking me in all ways than one to love myself – thought the keloids the cyst the feeling of fatigued and breathlessness

Even through all that my body loves me and did not desert me one bit

Shouting out to me in all these ways to look inwards

To start loving myself my body my cells back irregardless of what is going on

Not just wanting a o get rid of anything but rather – accept it and understand what I did to bring myself here

Somewhere in the run I get the idea that each time I scratched myself and the keloids, I am chasing trauma to the area and giving it all the attention of inflammation causing pain and hurt to myself

And at this point I understand that not just at this time, I must have caused pain and hurt to myself in the past

And really my memory just went back in a bid to find out what I did – to cause myself pain and hurt and trauma

And the pain of it was exactly the pain I felt when the keloids were swollen and inflammed

The sharp pain that pricks and sends out fear

This I am experiencing now I have felt it before

And – I asked myself: so do I still want this? Do I still want to continue experiencing this pain?

No of course not so let’s stop scratching

But more so, the inflammed keloids really want me to see what I have done to myself on the past- that was not resolved

And that begs resolution release letting go!

And I tell myself- to breathe into the past and give it space to accept it

I think this is such a powerful practice and act .

To even have the chance to do this- for myself – I am immensely thankful.

And looking at the intention I set before running, I can’t be thankful enough and I am really really really blessed.

Inspirations From A Run (XVIII)

Inspirations From A Run (XVIII)

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The intention today was to dwelve deep into my body to find out

And guess what? I did of course.

It is 10/10 today and I read about the energies prevailing at this time to help us kickstart the new and release the old

Death and rebirth

I read about writing down ten things at 10am or 10pm

Haha

I kind of ran through in my mind what I want

I am running for my new life

I am running towards my new life

I am running into my new life

I am running my new life

It’s amazing how words set things up

And get ‘it’ going

And what do I want in my new life?

I want no cyst no keloids

No itch .

My cheeks are rosy and brimming with healthfulness

Each and every cell in my body is happy healthy joyful peaceful

All is well there is harmony peace equilibrium

My gums are healthy and my teeth is strong

Everywhere I go I am loved respected and valued for being me

Everywhere I go I spark light I bring light I bring something meaningful to the people around me

I love my work and enjoy very successful career

People respect and honour me for the good work I do

I can afford anything and everything I want – for myself and my family.

And I thank the divine my body for giving me this opportunity

Somewhere down the run, I get the idea that in my new life, my body heals miraculously, instantly, beautifully, effortlessly automatically and I did not even have to think about it

I did not have to look outside at all but just go inwards in any time of need – just so because

The body takes care of me and wants me to be well!

And at that moment I thought – in fact this has already happened and really my body has been asking me in all ways than one to love myself – thought the keloids the cyst the feeling of fatigued and breathlessness

Even through all that my body loves me and did not desert me one bit

Shouting out to me in all these ways to look inwards

To start loving myself my body my cells back irregardless of what is going on

Not just wanting a o get rid of anything but rather – accept it and understand what I did to bring myself here

Somewhere in the run I get the idea that each time I scratched myself and the keloids, I am chasing trauma to the area and giving it all the attention of inflammation causing pain and hurt to myself

And at this point I understand that not just at this time, I must have caused pain and hurt to myself in the past

And really my memory just went back in a bid to find out what I did – to cause myself pain and hurt and trauma

And the pain of it was exactly the pain I felt when the keloids were swollen and inflammed

The sharp pain that pricks and sends out fear

This I am experiencing now I have felt it before

And – I asked myself: so do I still want this? Do I still want to continue experiencing this pain?

No of course not so let’s stop scratching

But more so, the inflammed keloids really want me to see what I have done to myself on the past- that was not resolved

And that begs resolution release letting go!

And I tell myself- to breathe into the past and give it space to accept it

I think this is such a powerful practice and act .

To even have the chance to do this- for myself – I am immensely thankful.

And looking at the intention I set before running, I can’t be thankful enough and I am really really really blessed.

Inspirations From A Run (XVII)

Inspirations From A Run (XVII)

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If everything is energy, we do not really have to do anything on the outside

All we have to do- is change the energy of ourselves and the outside will change

Because the outside the outer world is a reflection of the inner world

So it follows that if we change the landscape in our inner world we would be already making changes to the outside

Anything else we do outside of this is extra effort which may or may not help or distort

Today I get this

And when I ran to this spot, the thing that came to mind was- surrender to the gift of nature now

I am thankful I got the chance to be here . To do this with my body. I thanked my body my cells my blood for this opportunity

And I got the idea to use the sunlight to make newness in my body in my cells . Instead of mindless chatter , I asked my eyes my ears my hormones my skin to make newness with the gift of the sun’s light

And I forgive and tell myself to flip open a new page

Like a baby again- starting out with no judgements, no preconceived ideas, with everything in harmony and in optimum perfection

The key phrase- like a baby

And I m thankful to have this inkling

And the goosebumps on the back is real

Shine, and be unstoppably bright.

Inspirations From A Run (XVI)

Inspirations From A Run (XVI)

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Somehow somewhere in the run , something in my wanted to go forward

And I understand this as – my soul having the desire to go forward

To get out of the present

More accurately, to rise.

Writing now- the idea or realization came to me that I have at one point in time, stopped myself.

And even now with the opening of this regional role, I was still asking myself or cautioning myself lots

Out of a habit of having been in duty for a while

The second important thing that came to me, was the idea that I could make new cells

While I kept my mind on healing releasing , my body showed me how she is healing me so miraculously- such as when the keloid has a burst and healed nicely

I saw John yesterday and he said there was a lot of frustration and pent up energy that needs to be moved

So in the run, somehow I came to the idea that I could ask my body to make new cells healthy happy ones just by being present and open to the gift of sunlight wind and air from nature

This morning as I walked towards the bridge, an auntie whom I saw at the fitness corner smiled to me as usual

And I loved it

I love it because she was there. And I m happy she was there. If the old folks were there – if the old folks are well

It brings me to the idea of gratitude to have the opportunity to be here and to do this

I asked teacher Stephen for his advice and he said this –

“at home it is safe and comfortable a great place to be and laz around. But inside there is a yearning to explore discover express and communicate with others. Your voice can, must be heared and seen. Your heart and mind need to a challenge and that in itself is a tool of healing and it can open many doors and paths you can’t even imagine yet.

Whatever your decision is I will support it.”

He is right about the inside which wants to explore discover express and communicate

Need I say, the run was good

And I saw green birds having fun in the sky

As if to say- don’t take it so seriously, how about approaching it with a light heart. And with the attitude of having fun as I explore?

And I have never ever had this idea. And this shows to me how much I have moved

Inspirations From A Run (XV)

Inspirations From A Run (XV)

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I was wanting some answers.

And the intention was to open up to receive divine healing guidance support

And somehow the message that came through was – irregardless, let it be in support of my healing, whether it be for the keloids or anything

Let whatever I do – be the healing tool

I kind of feel zapped this morning when I woke. Because the people I worked with- they were really demanding of my time and attention

And when I supported them, I kind of lost some of my energy

It came to me this morning that this happened and I was giving too much too quickly

That being said, I am glad this understanding found me.

And also this message

So if I was able to derive something out of whatever I did, letting everything be a reflection of me and me learning something out of it and getting a clearer perspective- it would have served my purpose

An opportunity for a regional commission has come up for me.

I want to know if I should pursue this

My dear divine, my dear self- give me all the guidance and let me make the choice which serves my highest good

Om!

Inspirations From A Run (XIV)

Inspirations From A Run (XIV)

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I intended the practice to be a time to open up and receive guidance for the questions I have and for the healing I need

And as usual it was awesome

Learning to make time for myself is one of the best things I can/have done for myself

To make space, just to be with myself

And I came to know how blessed I am, looking at the times I ran the same route and have nothing on my mind

I saw an article by Cedric Grolet and he says that he is creative because he is free.

I love this

I look back at the times when there is nothing else hanging on my heart and I ran

Besides thanking the divine for the opportunity, I thank myself for opening up to this opportunity

And I ask the divine to bring me people things opportunities that serve me in my highest good and to land me in a better place- one that is of healthfulness, vitality, happiness, harmony, peace, creativity, freedom

If everything is energy, we are creating with our thoughts words heart energy.

Of late, I particularly enjoy a simple qigong movement where you feel the energy between both hands and move from left to right

As I was doing it, I felt like I was adjusting my life. Purposefully moving things about in my life, whether it be the health aspect or career, family .

There is no need to fix things or speak to anyone to change anything of I can mindfully move things about, and to feel peaceful with this

And there were so many times I felt goosebumps when I spoke to my cells- let’s open up and receive healing love and light from nature now , from these gifts of nature. Be open to it, to receive. To bask in this.

Om

Question /Answer

Question /Answer

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This is really beautiful

“Have patience with everything that remains unsolved in your heart. Try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books written in a foreign language. Do not now look for the answers. They cannot now be given to you because you could not live them. It is a question of experiencing everything. At present you need to live the question. Perhaps you will gradually, without even noticing it, find yourself experiencing the answer, some distant day.”
Rainer Maria Rilke – Letters to a Young Poet, 1903.

Edward Robert Hughes – A Young Beauty, 1875.

Inspirations From A Run (XIV)

Inspirations From A Run (XIV)

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The best direction- facing the sun and to bathe in its glow

Got back to running after the bout of runny nose and cough

And it’s not as tough. When it got a bit draggy, I pulled my mind back.

Remembering the law of cause and effect which governs everything in the universe, I thanked myself for planting a seed of which would blossom in the future

And the name of the seed would be healthfulness and vitality

Then I started to thank my body for working with me running with me and giving me this opportunity to practice

And somehow the idea came along that I deserve.

Indeed I deserve.

I deserve nothing but the best in life, the best kind of love (and the thought immediately arise- that I actually have), the best kind of remuneration package, the best people, opportunities, stories which I would write,…

And it got to the point of realizing that while I have been searching and working on a best story I would be willing to account for and be proud of putting my name to. While I have been doing that all this while

The most important story and the best one would be writing one about/for myself, and that is in the works everyday. Always evolving. Seeing this brought me to see Mr Ng once more. He was the one who put this question to me- what about your story? You should be in front of the camera.

And what are the themes of the chapters I have been writing about ?

Do I want to write chapters that I have written? Storylines that have seen light?

The answer is pretty obvious.

No one is stopping me or can do that. Other than myself.

At a certain point in time, I must have instilled an act of judging and thinking that I am undeserving

And it goes that the person to untie this resolve this is myself.

The person to kickstart anything and everything is myself

And the work to do – is really to cherish and hold myself dear.

And my legs picked up speed.

I saw a flight take off.

It’s time.

Thankful and grateful for the practice and inspiration this morning.