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Inspirations From A Run (XI)

Inspirations From A Run (XI)

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I set the intention to have the practice of running help me come to the now.

And it did

NOW.

Such a simple word but profound in any and every way you can think of.

Thoughts came in the run. People came. And I kind of felt it visually – like a pull of their energy coming towards me.

And I asked myself why.

Attachments. Things to do. Things not yet finished. Lingering doubts tensions. Unresolved

I saw how my mental afflictions and delusions were. I saw how and where I put my energy or focus on. I saw how my heart clung on or attached to. I saw grasping.

And the wind came.

I saw it rustling the leaves and wished you could too.

I asked it to help me be in the now.

When I run without anything else. Running wholeheartedly and without anything else with emptiness is such bliss

Where is now?

But it’s here. Right here.

Inspirations From A Run (VII)

Inspirations From A Run (VII)

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The intention was to get to know why the soul chose to come to earth? What was so attractive here that I wanted to explore so much I signed this contract?

I ask for the running practice session to help me find out.

And what did I hear ?

(I) to see and find out about light

All the times of perceived difficulty in worry and fear, each time I chose the way out – guided by light. I travelled in the direction of light once and again

(II) to find my magic my divinity

Each time of perceived difficulty worry and fear, I drew out from my core my being my soul my power my magic.

I thanked myself for keeping on – with openness, with the willingness to try , once again. To persevere and not give up. To stake on myself and believe I can

No I did not come here to worry about health, that was me gone off course. And i steer myself back

(III) the miracle body

Everyone of us has this miracle body who takes such wonderful amazing care of us , supporting us healing is restoring us to keep us going

The way my body heals is instant miraculous and magic

Our bodies perform magic once and again on is for us- because it wants us to know that we have a bigger purpose and a lot of things to achieve and accomplish. Our bodies want us to do exactly what we want to come here for and so they support us so unconditionally so faithfully so committed – with so much love

I thank my body I thank my body. Thank you for loving me!

(IV) the magic is if I m well you are

If I m facing light and feeling all the wonders of it, why wouldn’t my daughter? Why wouldn’t you? Or he? She?

One of the most meaningful things I heard from Lee Harris the day before in his free podcast was that when you run( or do something) , you are carrying the energy for another too.

We are all parts of each other. Fractals of each other.

If I am well you are too.

(V) so go forth and do what gives you joy

Without a care

Inspirations From A Run (V)

Inspirations From A Run (V)

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The intention today is to work with the divine to receive healing. To restore .

And this was what that came up in the run.

(i) thankful to be here

I’m thankful to be here , to be running now and to be seeing this. To be given this opportunity to be here now, to receive

(ii) nothing to do

When thoughts came, immediately there is this idea that “There is nothing to do, nowhere to go but here.

To receive.

There is no thing to do but just to be here and we will receive. I m certain.

(iii) healing comes within

Towards the end of the run, I asked myself about healing. What does my womb want me to know? That it is out of balance . And what can I do to restore he balance? To write !

The body is actually made to support the soul and soul journey and development

When there is inner clarity, the body works it’s best to support the purpose

(iv) openness

If I m here and an opportunity lands on me , isn’t that part of the flow? isn’t that a gift? Just as everything around me in the run is?

I have been looking elsewhere and thinking about something similar I have done always and remained somewhat close to the opportunity that has landed.

What happens when I m being open to this all?

Inspirations From A Run (IV)

Inspirations From A Run (IV)

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The intention today was to have awareness so as to work with the divine or rather to let the divine work through me.

And the “child” seems to be the theme of the run .

(i) How did you run?

This little girl was running into my lane and the first thing that popped into my mind was: how did I used to run as a child? How did my running steps feel like?

I couldn’t place these at all. Maybe I didn’t really run. I don’t really recall myself running. Perhaps it’s from the care of my family or nanny, who were so protective of me and was afraid of me hurting myself in a run . It came as advice out of goodwill and I listened in and practiced it

I didn’t run

Maybe that is why I always did not enjoy physical education in school. I didn’t like running . It’s not my thing.

But I still tried to feel for that feeling of me as a little girl of about 4 or 5. How would she run?

Without a care. Without any density of energies . Like a squirrel. That light. That free.

When I saw this, I kind of felt that in my running steps.

(ii) Possibilities

Whenever thoughts came, whenever I saw a possibility a picture of myself, I acknowledged it and told myself to continue to open up – to possibilities .

I thought of the times when I closed in or centred on one possibility. Such as when I left work. At that time, I centred on that particular possibility and couldn’t open up to the others. It was my choice.

But now, I asked myself to continue to open up, to widen to see and to observe.

And to go for the best and never settle. To go for that one which would make the little girl ‘s eyes and face shine

(iii) inner child

I had such a wonderful session with the girl in me.

What would you say to the child in you? The you in you?

“You are so blessed little one. You have such a strong and wonderful support circle around you and so move forward and do what makes you sparkle.

I feel you in perfect health and there is nothing you need to worry about.

I feel and see how you are so loved by your family and people around you. Your husband devotes to you your children love you, your siblings look up to you. “

I wanted to hear what she wants. I kind of created with the girl by asking her what she wants.

At a certain point in time, I saw why I came here again. I was daunted, couldn’t see possibilities, gave up on myself and lost my power .

In fact I reprised that too. Once very clearly during my second year in JC, when dad lost his footing and I lost mine or rather , I gave up mine.

The other time clearly, when I gave up work in 2019 . I handled my power away.

And what would the little girl choose?

“ I just want to pass on this touching feeling or moment(s) as much as I can. The feeling of the heart warmed and energized, fueling myself to greater goodness . Feeling hope and hopeful and ready to charge , to be inspired and go for it once again. “

I think that’s my power. To find my power (back) and let others see their power.

Inspirations From A Run (III)

Inspirations From A Run (III)

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I was chatting to Widya at midnight and I felt good.

It made me think why.

I was running with the sun’s beam on my everywhere and it felt good.

The sun is a good on its own

And it dawned upon me that if we shine and be like us – very us, nothing but just us, every moment, we would be bright and brilliant, we would be a good for everyone everything around us

Just focus and keep on getting better

Keep running TPY

Feeling The Divine

Feeling The Divine

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Do you think/know/feel there is a greater/bigger hand up there with a plan?

If so, what is the relationship with this hand?

I kind of was asking myself the question a lot of late

Quite a number of people around me talks about a divine a god a creator who has a plan for us all. But this isn’t something you get to know by instructional knowledge. It’s something you feel for more than anything else.

2 days back as I was walking towards my hairstylist’s , I thought to myself , what plan is in place and is getting curious.

“I must be following your plan right? I heard myself say. There must be a reason for this.” As I m walking it. I mean I kept seeing these numbers 1111, 222,1221, 1414

Content around Angel numbers say these are messages from the guardian angels and it means you are guided . I sometimes wonder what is the path

This morning in my run, I asked what god or the divine wanted me to know right now.

And I asked myself to open up to this run.

And the response that came back was, “ let go”

I realized how much of a control I am and how things were tough because I exerted control or wanted to control. And how things changed whenever I let go.

For when we have the idea to control, we are using our limited awareness, capabilities capacities to reach something . And that could a diversion or a thwart to the bigger plan.

We close off all other possibilities when we have the eye or mind for just one. The world becomes smaller and we coop ourselves there

While it’s not difficult to see this, it can be complex when we want to practice this . The habitual pattern of clinging and wanting to do something is often called out . And with the reinforced habits of having controlled, it’s way easier to choose control over letting go again

On another note as I ran, I tried to feel for my core and found something propelling me. That’s what beneath the breath, the support for my breath. The only thing I really have. That’s life force or divinity — that which is always propelling me forth.

ITS there!

I try to keep all else away but that in my awareness and to feel it . It is always with us, but with all perceptions beliefs values emotions …layered upon it ,

How many times have we heard—- that we are expressions of the divine and how the divine is in us ?

And do we believe this or know this? To establish this knowing , I think- start feeling. Just feel.

Running / Walking (xiv)

Running / Walking (xiv)

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Jogging and using it as an opportunity to open myself up to the universe ‘s messages

And as I ran I heard this: open up like a baby with open arms, smiling. Open up like a flower a smallest leaf. The natural tendency is to open up.

But with life and it’s events , we close up ourselves in or with fear . You close yourself off to whatever the flow brings . You close yourself up.

And this is an exercise that is on going.

There were so many instances my mind ran off somewhere and I had to call it back to the now. Just stay with what you see now and keep open

Open open open. Be here , is it about surrendering to the moment? Offering one’s consciousness to the moment?

We try too hard. And too often.

Be here — now.

Observe this silent hand at work. Trust

And I somewhat tasted bliss – of being in the now. Now is what you see where you are, here, anything is allowed and the possibilities are endless

Yet we keep occupying the now with lots of things

Running/ Walking (xiii)

Running/ Walking (xiii)

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Listening to Joey Yap these 2 days inspired me in two ways

He said that if you wanted something, it’s not the wish you made that makes it possible but the steps you take . When you take the correct action, you do not have to keep your eyes on the end result because you get there.

It’s the steps you take.

Second, he talked about opening up to grace. And that we have notions about what is grace. Like this is grace or healing and that is not and in so we could not see what has been given .

This brings me to the point of me realizing this point yesterday during the run—— that my body actually has healed the keloid over and over again. If this isn’t grace what is????

YET I failed to recognize it. And time and again it has stood by me. Mended me.

Today in my run , I found something else.

That me of all people must have at one point in time believed that I m lesser, lesser than beautiful.

It could be a time when I was fat and obese and there were well meaning people around me poking at me in fun ways to make me watch my diet but I took it the wrong way.

And in an instant, I of all people put an energy on myself as I too, believed in that.

I believe and grew to become ugly somewhere, my esteem and confidence bruised

I did away with my fleshy round face and rosy blush cheeks

Today in my run, I actually saw this for myself. And how I – of all people stopped myself and limited myself and subjected myself to a lesser state

But seeing this was liberating, I came face to face with the little girl I was and she was crying.

“Why did they say those things to me? Am I not perfect beautiful cute?”

And I said to her, “ forgive them! They said these things as passing remarks. They did not know how to express better. They still loved you anyway.”

Let them go and that intense energy you subjected yourself to- dissolve into nothingness

“You are beautiful as always. Find back the blush the rosy cheeks the round face. Don’t give them up just like that.”

And for once, I found the keloids scar beautiful. They were a testament to how much my body loves me, stood by me , and beautiful because of this story of knowing

I love you TPY. I really love you!

Running/ Walking (xii)

Running/ Walking (xii)

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It’s been close to one month since I stopped running , recovering from flu

The last week has been extremely tiring for me with foggy feelings fatigue breathlessness

When I ran all this while nothing of the sort plaqued me

It came to my understanding that the energy isn’t flowing or circulating in my body and there was a lot of stagnation

Probably also another nod to my professional life as I now look outwards and forward to starting out again

Yesterday while preparing dinner, I told myself to do every bit deliberately

Be in the moment and not be led away by the fogginess and the associated frustration and helpless feelings that came along

There was a lot of surrendering to that state I was in it trying to make sense or worry or find out what was not right

Not trying to get out of it desperately

To just be with that state and not being afraid of it not stopping it nor trying to force my way with it – and end up making things worse

But the sun came out this morning and I decided to head out

I ran somewhat slowly first

And I intended to open myself up to the now

And to listen in to whatever message or guidance the universe brings

And bring me messages it did

⁃ We are the very ones who close our doors to life. Really subtly this happens. We close up and we know this is true because or when we open up

⁃ Awareness can heal. I thought of the repeated bouts of fatigue and breathlessness. Each time worked my way with it using whatever awareness I have or have not- they were important practice sessions for me to wake up. Awareness of the situation can have immense healing powers

⁃ it doesn’t matter how slow you go so long as you are in the right direction, you are getting there

⁃ I thought of my keloids- thing is even though it has been inflamed so many times each time it healed. The body heals. The body is on my side

⁃ But how many times did we wreck our body by not taking care of it

⁃ The next thing that came: give thanks. Say thank you, thank you body for healing me each time

An eagle flew by as I completed my run

I also learnt that there is a lot of power in “I call my power back”

Running/Walking (xi)

Running/Walking (xi)

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I always intended before I started walking or running. To use the practice ahead to expand on my consciousness, to open my mind further . To reconnect with my body, my self——- seemingly brainless or basic things but really it’s not that easy after all.

But as always on me time, inklings always come about.

(I) Like

One day I asked TPY what does she like? And the responses came.

我喜欢被感动，然后去感动别人

我喜欢发现，喜欢新，喜欢去发掘新奇的东西

可能别人会错过的

我喜欢做别人的眼睛，帮别人去发现发掘出来美

In essence, I found out that it’s not so much writing that I liked but discovering the new and seeing how I act on it or react to it. I like to look ahead and watch out for new things and to find the connection with it

(II) Open Up Show Up

On another day, I asked myself why do I need my shield of keloids and it dawned on me that at a certain point in my life, when life rained on me, I felt like I was not able to receive or manage already and so I put up my hands to block

And block all of life I did. The keloids when dad left and mom passed on. Then when Qinzhi experienced epilepsy —— and now writing this made me understand how I put a shield on my navel with the cyst!

When I felt how life was throwing things at me and I was overwhelmed and how life isn’t working for me

I put things up as a shield

And H did send me Louise Hay’s interpretation of a cyst

“Cysts: Running the old painful movie. Nursing hurts. A false growth.
Cystic Fibrosis: A thick belief that life won’t work for you. “Poor me.”

And I took the chance to tell TPY – I do not need to shy away from life and it’s offerings anymore. I affirmed the circle of support I have and once again worked at feeling openness.

I need not hide from life- at all.

I affirm that I enjoy success prosperity vibrant great health and energy amazing fulfilling wholesome relationships

I affirm I am in the flow and always travelling in the best direction

I want to experience openness and success like never before

(III) Breathe

On another day when it rained as I was running, I was more desperate trying to anchor myself on my breath than escaping the rain. When it rained on, the voice in me grew louder : stay with the breath, stay. Move the body not the mind. Stay with the breath, feel it. And that was the gateway or link to the present. Not worries about the rain or getting rained on.

(IV) Yoga

I kind of am reconnecting back to yoga and is intrigued by the things the instructor says during the lesson

Such as- don’t do the pose let the pose do you.

Such as, let the yoga begin now

Such as, we see more when we feel more

The purpose of doing so much is to go in

As the pose gets a bit more intense, find a place to get comfortable . Adjust. Stay with the breath. Move the breath. Move the body not the mind

Find a place for the breath, where it hasn’t been before

And I see squirrels, eagles, birds and know – all is well.

If anything, find all ways to be connected with the self. And always , always come back to centering the self- or the breath.

No matter how hard it is raining. Ot what you see, hear, feel. Come back to the breath.