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Balance

Balance

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In my shower, I found (out about) “balance”

I was wanting to look for some form of a restoration of balance with this shower. And as I said it out, I asked myself what if this is the balance I have been searching for?

The body is always on my side, constantly working out the best possible way to harmonize everything and with everything. Even if we do not see it this way.

I know – the body IS working hard to work things out for me

I believe.

I was inhaling the Believe essential oil and asking myself what do I believe?

The answer is here right above

What if the discomfort I am feeling now is balance? The keloid that is inflamed is balance? So is this feeling of ecstasy and excitement seeing this point ?

It is all the body’s best effort at balancing in quicker than quick time

And I move from a state of balance to another. Even if I think that I am in imbalance .

I see how perspective can ground me or unearth me. I see how in so much time have I been looking at things in negative light and in so far, chart my path this way

All my doing.

And seeing this gave me joy. I m SO thankful for that brief state of stillness I have been in , without which this glimpse of truth might not have been distilled

And I see my body in new light. I thank my body and I love my body even MORE for loving me more unconditionally

And I want to shout this glimpse of truth outwards so that more and more of the me-s out there can see how much balance they are (and have been) in , yes, all this while.

I m light – yet, I am looking for light

Running/ Walking (xii)

Running/ Walking (xii)

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It’s been close to one month since I stopped running , recovering from flu

The last week has been extremely tiring for me with foggy feelings fatigue breathlessness

When I ran all this while nothing of the sort plaqued me

It came to my understanding that the energy isn’t flowing or circulating in my body and there was a lot of stagnation

Probably also another nod to my professional life as I now look outwards and forward to starting out again

Yesterday while preparing dinner, I told myself to do every bit deliberately

Be in the moment and not be led away by the fogginess and the associated frustration and helpless feelings that came along

There was a lot of surrendering to that state I was in it trying to make sense or worry or find out what was not right

Not trying to get out of it desperately

To just be with that state and not being afraid of it not stopping it nor trying to force my way with it – and end up making things worse

But the sun came out this morning and I decided to head out

I ran somewhat slowly first

And I intended to open myself up to the now

And to listen in to whatever message or guidance the universe brings

And bring me messages it did

⁃ We are the very ones who close our doors to life. Really subtly this happens. We close up and we know this is true because or when we open up

⁃ Awareness can heal. I thought of the repeated bouts of fatigue and breathlessness. Each time worked my way with it using whatever awareness I have or have not- they were important practice sessions for me to wake up. Awareness of the situation can have immense healing powers

⁃ it doesn’t matter how slow you go so long as you are in the right direction, you are getting there

⁃ I thought of my keloids- thing is even though it has been inflamed so many times each time it healed. The body heals. The body is on my side

⁃ But how many times did we wreck our body by not taking care of it

⁃ The next thing that came: give thanks. Say thank you, thank you body for healing me each time

An eagle flew by as I completed my run

I also learnt that there is a lot of power in “I call my power back”