We were on the train to Chur and we need a more comfortable seat. I said to sis that the guys to our right are leaving next. I said it so casually.
And they did leave the seat when the next station arrived.
Is this coincidence ?
It brought me to knowing manifestation once more
And to be mindful to it because it all comes back to us
How can we be responsible ? I mean, we have to.
I was so tired I went to bed at around 9pm Swiss time. I woke up at around 330am and the thought came :
To shift to where you want.
Where or what do I want. Us this trip to shift to. And the people around you will not be the same too.
My family at home. My family around me.
They are no longer the same as well.
I heard myself say to consciously shift to a place of love, laughter, joy, happiness, forgiveness, understanding.
And I thought about what I thought about- that life needn’t be learnt the hard way. In the laughing is the healing. In the laughing is the learning.
Like how we were all laughing on the train about the passengers who left their seat for us. And I did think about the trip as a joyful journey.
We can learn easily, lovingly, joyously, beautifully! We can reverse all processes!
I watched Matrix 2 on the plane and there are so many meaningful quotes one of which is: you can’t go back there, you won’t.
And I watched Shang Chi and one of the quotes were Shang Chi ‘s mother telling him that he gets all of what his parents give him. And it is up to him to make his gifts his, in a way that is him.
Traveling these 2 days with sis and dad made me feel grateful and feel somewhat carefree. I told sis I m grateful and that we must have done something right.
Sis is the one who is more expressive. She cares for him so much and flows into everything like taking pictures for him while I m slightly still more laid back . Writing this made me know I m still holding back
I remember in my sessions- I know that both sis and I were versions of mom who care for dad. And in different ways.
And sis is doing the opposite and she has shown me how easy it is to just be and let go
And the point I reach is: I m dad’s princess once more. Nothing to do.
The highlight of today is Glacier Express and dad was seated opposite me. While I can see that he is tired and old, I took care not to see too
Dad did my opposite and remarked that I have a lot of white hair and sis said I m already past 40. To which dad replied: time, so fast.
I sort of felt or saw myself as a little girl in his eyes. Always has been .
On the other hand, Dad is always thinking of me as a priority. When sis asked what he wants for dinner, he would say: I love veggies so let’s do a veggie place. Or after dinner, and sis asked if he liked to go for a walk, he would say- I m tired so let’s head home.
I am reminded that he the hubby brother and HuaiHao are the same soul sets. With them, I m always the princess . And healing each one, heals all.
I just couldn’t be natural or at ease. Rather than asking what m I still holding on to, I m seeing this as- we are already at ease. Like a photo we took while we had the opportunity to get off glacier express . The mountain range as our backdrop, we smiled so nicely.
In that point : I m dad’s princess once more. Nothing to do.
I am reminded that me the sister and qinzhi are the same soul sets. Healing one heals all.
Create a list of all the important things you have. Material, spiritual, emotional, etc.
For example:
I have a smartphone to be in touch with the world
I have a credit card to pay bills
I have a real friendship
I have internet
I have an affection for husband or wife
I have memories
I have an education
I have a favorite city …
There are no high or low limits in the things you can write down. Recognize everything you have that matters to you.
*Motto:*
I lead my feelings and choose to feel whole, healthy, abundant and blessed.
Phrase:
* ״ I move through my days lighthearted and care-free knowing all is well ”*
*Mantra:*
Sat Chit Ananda
Sat Chit Ananda
*Message:*
Today we look at how we can live carefree – free from judgment and anxiety, focusing on the joy and perfection of what is right now.
By meditating and plunging into the awareness of the present moment, you understand that it is at this moment, everything is perfect and is what it should be.
And that any problems that you have are transient and temporary.
You reconnect with your True Self, feeling lighter and free.
Throughout life, you will begin to look at everyday circumstances easily and meet surprises calmly and with grace.
Question N ° 1: How do you feel when you wake up every morning?
Question N ° 2: How much would your life improve if you lived with a light and carefree heart?
Question N ° 3: How can you switch your mind to spread the love and joy that you feel in your heart right now?
My inputs
Writing these things I have touched me alot, is that the feeling of gratitude?
I think so, i have so many wonderful things, so much magic so much abundance, and how much time have i wasted in self pity neglect or wasting myself away not doing even if I know is that which is right. And i have been given so many opportunities time and again, the universe sent me so many chances time and again to wake me up to what is right or what would have me align to it—plant food, plant power, acceptance, forgiveness etc
It didnt give up on me, this universe,
and yes, i m grateful and overwhelmed with gratitude and joy that I have this moment now to myself.
and i m beginning to understand and appreciate the nurturing silent force in my body , each time i feel this, i feel its healing magical powers working on my body and cells. To make me better stronger, healthier.
Anyways, this morning something happened at breakfast
I made a healthy smoothie and everything good is in there, but Qinzhi had a spoon, said eeee, got up angry and said she’s not having it anymore, went to the room and closed the door
then huaihao didnt want to eat it anymore as well.
I was upset but still i went to her, to let her know that she should have her breakfast before her medication
Afterwards i went back to this, writing what i have and what it gives me in life.
Then, a little later i went to her again, and told her how I felt.
I told qinzhi that its ok and in fact great that both she n huaihao knew what they like and not, i gave them the example of people who did not voice out their likes and dislikes and continued to force things down their throat doing things they do not like
But equally i told them how they expressed their dislike is very inconsiderate of others’ feelings.
i shared with them my position as mother, and that i couldn’t just give them things they like, such as fries and burgers or pizzas
i needed to give them things that are healthy.
because if not, their bodies would suffer.
i ask them to think of themselves in my position and painted the scenario that if one day, they should be doing something with their heart and mind on me, and i receive it, not liking it, and retreating to my own space, how would they feel?
they seem to get it
then i ask them to move on and go get the things they like to eat to make sure they can get on with their days, let this pass and not ruin their day ahead.
i told them today they will take care of their meals themselves and i m out, and i will take the time for myself to do the things i like.
and i came back to this.
i still have so many feelings of imbalance and i feel like tapping it away.
I release all these feelings i have absorbed into my system during the incident just now
I release all the feelings of rejection, neglect and in appreciation of all of my efforts. But i know also with awareness to separate the incident from these meanings i have attached to this incident
it doesnt mean that my children do not appreciate me or love me, they just dont like the breakfast
So i realise all these extra thoughts and meanings and attachments sticky emotions i have unwittingly attached to the incident and I let them all go.
i do not need to carry all these, so i release them all now!
i release all the deep seated accumulated anger and frustration i feel towards my children, my husband and myself, i release all the anger i feel towards myself doing all this good for them and they do not appreciate it
i honour all these feelings, acknowledge them and release them all!
And in space let out, i create space for myself, for peace and ease and for miracles!
i lightened up at saying this. brightened up too. like something was lifted.
and i have been caring so much for them, maybe it has become a burden, so i should really care for myself first doing what i like first
What an exercise a revelation in the morning, and when i read today’s message :
“Today we look at how we can live carefree – free from judgment and anxiety, focusing on the joy and perfection of what is right now.
By meditating and plunging into the awareness of the present moment, you understand that it is at this moment, everything is perfect and is what it should be.
And that any problems that you have are transient and temporary.
You reconnect with your True Self, feeling lighter and free.
Throughout life, you will begin to look at everyday circumstances easily and meet surprises calmly and with grace.”
I feel like i have done it to the best of my ability. As best I can.
I understand it is the need to have freedom and to let things be today, and so i can have space for myself too! to do things i like and not having to be in a rush.
Now for the questions:
Question N ° 1: How do you feel when you wake up every morning?
these few days i wake up feeling motivated and ready or eager to see what is in store in the abundance programme. otherwise, i wake up in a bid to address the day, to get through the chores so i can have time to do the things i like. but writing this made me think —how about doing the chores without judgement of good or bad, and using them as a support for awareness and mindful practice?
Question N ° 2: How much would your life improve if you lived with a light and carefree heart?
Extremely. If all the baggages were not, all the judgements dissolve, all the stories can no longer exert power over me, all the emotions are freed and with all awareness , I would glow and shine like a star, i would be so healthy so authentic i would be living as TPY
Writing this made me understand how emotions have weighed me down and affected my health
Unresolved issues are the true cause of less than ideal health. And in knowing this, the importance of resolving as immediately as possible
Question N ° 3:How can you switch your mind to spread the love and joy that you feel in your heart right now?
Be in quiet as far as possible. Speak eat drink, live mindfully. See what i have as gifts, things and resources i can use for the betterment of myself and others. To constantly practise awareness so as to appreciate and not be led to judgement by big and little moments in life. To be is silence to truly find myself authentic self and creative powers.
Audio
There are some who live concerned about not having enough of what they feel is necessary for happiness and security
Their bodies echo those feelings and send them messages of discomfort in the form of anxiety worry or stress
This doesnt have to be.
If we learn to trust the intelligence of universe and practise living carefree we can live fearlessly and without worry and focused on lack
We can expect the best and live lives from a place of true joy
When mind nourish body with carefree thoughts and feelings, the body returns to its natural state of happiness and calm
From this place of bliss u r able to regain memory of who and what you really are, a spiritual being inextricably interconnected with creative power of universe
reconnecting with true nature u cross invisible boundary between ego n true self
You begin to feel light hearted find humour in everyday laughing more even at yourself
because you no longer take yourself so seriously ,
you handle unexpected with calm and ease and your life is free from melodrama
What if you learn to detach fr worry about future n trust there is enough of what u love and desire
How would it change?
Would u b happier and carefree
Notice that these qualities are available to you right in this moment if u choose them
in this relaxed n bliss there is nothing u lack, all your needs are met with no exception
Practise living each moment as it comes with a light and open heart
Pay attention to how these carefree moments carry with them greater abundance and boundless joy
To help you do this, take time to reflect on good times
Look at old photos
Play your favourite song
Take a leisurely walk or spend time with someone who warms your heart
Experience the joy of all you love including yourself
As a spiritual being you fear nothing, because you know there is nothing to fear and all that truly exist in this world is love
Sat Chit Ananda
Sat Chit Ananda
existence consciousness bliss
My reflections
* ״ I move through my days lighthearted and care-free knowing all is well ”*
the first time i heard this, i find myself feeling something in the last few words, out of habits, and experience, i have fear of the future and unknown, worry
and so much of it stressing me
I heave a big sigh and let it out.
and now i know, the universe is echoing back to me
and now i know, why i so resonated with the phrase life is an echo,
lets do this TPY
what an opportunity
existence consciousness bliss
first there is existence, then consciousness , onward to bliss, creating and receiving bliss
So important to do what’s i like , rather than sharing with people and telling them what i like
its too forceful to share and to get people to follow what i like
I have been doing it the wrong way
I m extremely grateful to see this point, all the past examples of me trying to enforce or get people to my point, do my way, past colleagues or what not, its too tight
i thought of the dinner i want and love
From now, I will devote myself to this practice of doing what I love and not enforcing it onto others.
And this made me tear up, a promise to myself that I would do and keep in the everyday of life, to honestly live and do, eat, play, feel what my heart does or tells me to,
and not forcing it to others.
I see the freedom this opens me up to. Like another world I have just opened the doors and I m stepping in.
I fell asleep with the kids and find myself awake at 2am.
Realized I had the clothes in the washing machine and chores undone, so I set out to complete these while everyone else is asleep.
The middle of the night. A part of day we have been granted but by far and large, mostly untapped into.
It’s quiet and this quiet sort of helps you get quiet.
I went about my chores with more awareness and simply took time.
When I went back to bed, Qinzhi and HuaiHao is sweetly asleep
I look at them and a thought whispered out loud to me——— haven’t I have blessings and so much of them the past 40 years? Love support and guidance across realms came to me. Angels guardians relatives friends teachers who showed me the light and to help me get through the darkness. I am grateful.
I have had so much worry and fear shock and anger.
But it was all still ———SO GOOD.
I came through so imbued with emotions, realizations and rich , well even magical experiences no one has had the way I have.
How about dedicating myself to light and love, peace and joy in the days ahead?
Haven’t I have enough of habitual worry fear? Earlier in the day in the shower, I was looking at the cyst at my navel and fear stung. What if this turn bad? It could have. I feel like I m with fire. Things can go either way at every moment. What was it that made it bad. What was it that turned it towards wellness?
I thought of the days I had when the doctor told me they found a speck in the cyst and I should operate on it to remove the whole of my navel.
In the days leading up to the MRI, I faced the sun every morning, I chanted before I drank my water and I cleared my thoughts on people whom I couldn’t forgive or experiences I couldn’t accept.
I thought of the magic I had in my life.
I told myself I do not need the doctors and the surgery at all. And I get extremely sure about that. I fasted. I was in full awareness and worked at transforming my emotions each time I felt fear anger etc
I thought of the challenges I m having with the cyst the inflammation the keloids. And al the fear and worry and anger I have absorbed.
Then when I checked my phone, I saw someone in the reiki Ko group needing help because of an emergency.
I felt the streak of fear. I felt like I could feel their fear and worry.
We were called to the hospital in the middle of the night when Mom couldn’t make it. And for a while, I was afraid of the middle of the night.
Awareness of these feelings and thoughts is helpful to me. And I make a step forwards asking myself to release all the fear worry shock I have absorbed into my system my cells my cellular memory consciously or unconsciously from my surroundings , from people I knew. I find that I tap too easily into others’ negativity and I didn’t know how to dispense with these. But now, I found a tool in awareness and in the release technique.
I breathe in.
And open myself up to light love peace and harmony.
And I ask myself: How can I steer myself to goodness like this?
Is it a reminder to myself ? Feels like this needs something stronger to steer. Visualization? Happiness? Gratitude ?
What is it that can steer away from the past habits and propel me into light?
Willingness? Belief. When I typed the word belief as I occurred to me, I sensed just how much disbelief or lack of confidence I have for myself. I felt the pull of it all to stay here where I m most familiar with. I pulled myself back.
So the steer is I.
I must want it a lot . Very much to leave where I m to go forwards.
I
The maker of my very own experiences.
If I can make myself come here. I can make myself go everywhere———- I want. So long as I want.
I m reminded of what Stephan said. That the power I have to create. And in the quiet of the night, I want to experiment.
With all the blessings I have had in the last 40 years, with all the gratitude I have amassed all the luck magic and wonder, I want to create an even better shinier magical healthier ever more TPY kind of the next 40 years.
I want to dedicate myself to light to love to peace to magic.
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