A few days back, I had the chance to get acquainted with the Lindwall technique of release

It’s basically tapping into one’s awareness and releasing all that programs wiring negativity we have absorbed into our bodies our psyche

And we voice out releasing statements to change the energy field

Finally we rewire and set a new intention to start out with a new set of laws for ourselves

And today I find myself experiencing its wonder

After the sauna session I went to my “place” in the kitchen

It’s where I can face the sun and receive lots of morning light and wind

I closed my eyes and breathed in

And a wondrous journey began

I wanted to work on my skin my keloids and I started saying

I want to release the keloids

I want to release all the painful suffering the skin remembers in this area of my body

And I was brought back to the time dad has to have an operation on his spine and we had to move from tampines to geylang and to move in with ah ma, my aunties and uncles in a terrace house

This part of my body and the keloids I always associated them with the time dad had the operation and was in hospital

That I had to visit him at mount Elizabeth in the intensive care unit with all the tubes and the cold room with a smell of medication

Earlier on , I had seen this fear I carried as a child this anxiety fear of death fear of falling sick fear of hospitals doctors

Until today I had this fear

The energy was there and with my maternal grandmother getting cancer, mom’s sudden demise, uncle tripping and missing his foothold to death, my auntie choosing to fall from death

I sense of my facial muscles tightened how my eyes squinted as I went through this

I come back to release

I release all the fear that I have with these incidents

I release all fear I experienced shouldering as I visited these people in hospital

I release all fear my mother or my family as when we went to the hospital

I release all fear I have going through their funeral and their deaths

then shock came to mind

Yes shock! Earth shattering shock

I release these all

And I open myself up to calm

To groundedness to peace to joy to healthfulness you perfectness

Going back to the memory, where in the past I stopped at seeing the fear I experienced

The amazing thing is , I saw for myself now what I and then mommy felt moving in with ah ma

Ah mania the matriarch and the patriarch

She was the tribe leader and everyone obeyed here commands

I felt that tightness of having to obey to be careful to be prim and proper to be what others want of me

I learned to submit to authorities

I learned to say yes

I learned to compromise and follow rules

I walked on my toes and be fearful

I had to be good

To be perfect

And I learned to keep myself inside

My truest feelings

I didn’t allow myself to be me

I release the need to hide

I release my feelings of being second class

I release all the anger all the frustration of having to bow down

I release my feelings of not being enough

Of forever not good enough as mommy lived in fear of living up to ah ma’s standards and having to bow down to my father’s sisters

At the same time I saw my mother !!!

She was having all these in greater and extreme intensity

At one hand she is so alone experiencing all tris fear of losing her husband and having to worry about finances

At the other hand, she had to live in a household that has great expectations and laws

I absorbed all she felt !!!

And I release all this for mother

All these for mother

And may mother wherever she is now, experience all the light all the wonder all the healing she deserves all of it

She is enough

She is

And so it is

And I feel so grateful so full of thankfulness and joyful that I have the chance to do this release for her

And with that I open myself up to support to consciousness to healing myself

I open up to creating TPY

It’s basically tapping into one’s awareness and releasing all that programs wiring negativity we have absorbed into our bodies our psyche

And we voice out releasing statements to change the energy field

Finally we rewire and set a new intention to start out with a new set of laws for ourselves

And today I find myself experiencing its wonder

After the sauna session I went to my “place” in the kitchen

It’s where I can face the sun and receive lots of morning light and wind

I closed my eyes and breathed in

And a wondrous journey began

I wanted to work on my skin my keloids and I started saying

I want to release the keloids

I want to release all the painful suffering the skin remembers in this area of my body

And I was brought back to the time dad has to have an operation on his spine and we had to move from tampines to geylang and to move in with ah ma, my aunties and uncles in a terrace house

This part of my body and the keloids I always associated them with the time dad had the operation and was in hospital

That I had to visit him at mount Elizabeth in the intensive care unit with all the tubes and the cold room with a smell of medication

Earlier on , I had seen this fear I carried as a child this anxiety fear of death fear of falling sick fear of hospitals doctors

Until today I had this fear

The energy was there and with my maternal grandmother getting cancer, mom’s sudden demise, uncle tripping and missing his foothold to death, my auntie choosing to fall from death

I sense of my facial muscles tightened how my eyes squinted as I went through this

I come back to release

I release all the fear that I have with these incidents

I release all fear I experienced shouldering as I visited these people in hospital

I release all fear my mother or my family as when we went to the hospital

I release all fear I have going through their funeral and their deaths

then shock came to mind

Yes shock! Earth shattering shock

I release these all

And I open myself up to calm

To groundedness to peace to joy to healthfulness you perfectness

Going back to the memory, where in the past I stopped at seeing the fear I experienced

The amazing thing is , I saw for myself now what I and then mommy felt moving in with ah ma

Ah mania the matriarch and the patriarch

She was the tribe leader and everyone obeyed here commands

I felt that tightness of having to obey to be careful to be prim and proper to be what others want of me

I learned to submit to authorities

I learned to say yes

I learned to compromise and follow rules

I walked on my toes and be fearful

I had to be good

To be perfect

And I learned to keep myself inside

My truest feelings

I didn’t allow myself to be me

I release the need to hide

I release my feelings of being second class

I release all the anger all the frustration of having to bow down

I release my feelings of not being enough

Of forever not good enough as mommy lived in fear of living up to ah ma’s standards and having to bow down to my father’s sisters

At the same time I saw my mother !!!

She was having all these in greater and extreme intensity

At one hand she is so alone experiencing all tris fear of losing her husband and having to worry about finances

At the other hand, she had to live in a household that has great expectations and laws

I absorbed all she felt !!!

And I release all this for mother

All these for mother

And may mother wherever she is now, experience all the light all the wonder all the healing she deserves all of it

She is enough

She is

And so it is

And I feel so grateful so full of thankfulness and joyful that I have the chance to do this release for her

And with that I open myself up to support to consciousness to healing myself

I open up to creating TPY