We were on the train to Chur and we need a more comfortable seat. I said to sis that the guys to our right are leaving next. I said it so casually.

And they did leave the seat when the next station arrived.

Is this coincidence ?

It brought me to knowing manifestation once more

And to be mindful to it because it all comes back to us

How can we be responsible ? I mean, we have to.

I was so tired I went to bed at around 9pm Swiss time. I woke up at around 330am and the thought came :

To shift to where you want.

Where or what do I want. Us this trip to shift to. And the people around you will not be the same too.

My family at home. My family around me.

They are no longer the same as well.

I heard myself say to consciously shift to a place of love, laughter, joy, happiness, forgiveness, understanding.

And I thought about what I thought about- that life needn’t be learnt the hard way. In the laughing is the healing. In the laughing is the learning.

Like how we were all laughing on the train about the passengers who left their seat for us. And I did think about the trip as a joyful journey.

We can learn easily, lovingly, joyously, beautifully! We can reverse all processes!

I watched Matrix 2 on the plane and there are so many meaningful quotes one of which is: you can’t go back there, you won’t.

And I watched Shang Chi and one of the quotes were Shang Chi ‘s mother telling him that he gets all of what his parents give him. And it is up to him to make his gifts his, in a way that is him.

Traveling these 2 days with sis and dad made me feel grateful and feel somewhat carefree. I told sis I m grateful and that we must have done something right.

Sis is the one who is more expressive. She cares for him so much and flows into everything like taking pictures for him while I m slightly still more laid back . Writing this made me know I m still holding back

I remember in my sessions- I know that both sis and I were versions of mom who care for dad. And in different ways.

And sis is doing the opposite and she has shown me how easy it is to just be and let go

And the point I reach is: I m dad’s princess once more. Nothing to do.

The highlight of today is Glacier Express and dad was seated opposite me. While I can see that he is tired and old, I took care not to see too

Dad did my opposite and remarked that I have a lot of white hair and sis said I m already past 40. To which dad replied: time, so fast.

I sort of felt or saw myself as a little girl in his eyes. Always has been .

On the other hand, Dad is always thinking of me as a priority. When sis asked what he wants for dinner, he would say: I love veggies so let’s do a veggie place. Or after dinner, and sis asked if he liked to go for a walk, he would say- I m tired so let’s head home.

I am reminded that he the hubby brother and HuaiHao are the same soul sets. With them, I m always the princess . And healing each one, heals all.

I just couldn’t be natural or at ease. Rather than asking what m I still holding on to, I m seeing this as- we are already at ease. Like a photo we took while we had the opportunity to get off glacier express . The mountain range as our backdrop, we smiled so nicely.

In that point : I m dad’s princess once more. Nothing to do.

I am reminded that me the sister and qinzhi are the same soul sets. Healing one heals all.