In a stargate meditation session Connecting to the Inner Child, I saw myself – perhaps at 4 or 5 years old

Alone

My parents were not with me

Even though I knew my nanny with me

I was simply seeing myself alone

It’s a very deep sense of being alone that stayed with me for a few days. As if it kept something inside wanting me to delve deeper in

I stayed with this feeling for a few days before penning these thoughts down

Why am I alone ?

Why do I not have support or love or care around me? Even if I have parents?

Why are you not with me?

I heard the little girl say.

There’s anger frustration hurt unfairness perhaps even jealousy of another child who has the love of their parents

My conscious mind interrupted and explained to me that

– my parents had to work to earn a living to give me the best they can such as letting me take up organ lessons and having to pay my nanny for monthly childcare fees

But that’s not what I want—- the little girl said!

-they probably were not as evolved to see and attend to the extremely sensitive needs I had as/even as a child

I rationalized to myself and the little girl.

And I realized how very different I m—-I sort of saw the high level of consciousness I had even at the age of 4 years old

Wow

It felt like I had such a strong need to connect and express myself

My young parents who were parents for the first time , simply weren’t armed to deal with or manage me

It makes me reflect on myself as a parent- Much like how we are not armed to deal with Qinzhi and Huaihao now

It brings me to the point that evolution of humanity to a higher level of consciousness is going faster and faster

And staying in the old or it is important to see how much of the old we still harbour and can change out of —- is imperative so we do not cause unnecessary hurt to our next generation

Also, even if so many years have passed, I touched upon the pain of humanity drowned in unawareness and so repeating unfortunate circumstances are still everywhere

I think these really are the messages brought out by the inner child who kept tugging on to me

The pain she felt as a child and even now – after so many years

And what do I find myself say to her?

I m sorry you suffered little one

I can feel the pain and hurt

But really- this is not all of life!

I know how You came with so much expectations optimism happiness delight and hope , wanting to carry your expressions consciousness and light to the world but met with such intense disappointments hurt pain and suffering along the way

It has been hard on you

I know

(And I realize just how much the little girl needs —-love

Love and a hug is all she needs

Perhaps my children too

When I hugged her, she cried so hard because she is finally heard and understood this brought me so much tears too

And after all the crying its good to see her smile again

And it makes me think of a line in the Heart Sutra- 不生不灭不增不减

There’s no birth no death

Nothing increases or decreases

Like the very spirit we are made of and in us )

You have been so awesome all this while, you put it up so well and did so many wonderful things

Throughout it all, no matter what time, you always continued to put forth hope consciousness and light in you

Always always pure and true to yourself

And I am so very proud and blessed to have you

Continue to do what you do best

This really is the meaning or purpose of your life

To radiate Hope, share consciousness and light outwards

I recall John’s words when I shared some of these with him a while ago, the pain of humanity repeating in unconscious states got to him and he reminded me to shift my focus, mindful of your emotions

I think it might have been too ambitious to save the world – just as the little girl in me has been too eager to see so much of everything

But as with life, how about starting off with myself and the little girl?

To be open to the possibility that others can be them and we do not have to put a label or judgement on their lives – suffering or not, right or wrong

To be open to the possibility that I can start by steering myself closer and closer to light and wonder simply by being mindful for as long as I can

To continually uplift myself take care of myself – body and mind to a state of balance and equilibrium

I think I can contribute greatly just by making myself whole and expressing myself truthfully

I think I can contribute the most when I am truly me and the best version of me

Little girl, thank you for the inspiration! You have been so very awesome and I m so very very very proud of you!

And I see this!

“September Energies: Cross-Connecting to Atlantis”

The 9D Arcturian Council, through Daniel Scranton

We are so very impressed by the way you all have handled the energies of August, and we are very excited to see what you will do with the energies of September, a month that includes an equinox, a balancing of the scales. Many individuals on your world have felt out of balance in some way for quite some time, and more importantly, many individuals have been triggered to specific traumas in previous lifetimes that they are cross-connecting to, but also unaware of the fact that they are accessing those past life traumas. And that’s where the September energies come in to play.

You all need some soothing, an energetic bath to cleanse you and to help you to release those stuck energies, those traumas, those emotions you either couldn’t or wouldn’t feel in those previous lifetimes. And so, the energies of September will be supportive of the final release, the final letting go of the heaviness of those traumas so that you can move into the December solstice clear, open, and ready to receive the next download of energies that will take you into 2022.

This has not been an easy year there on planet Earth, because so many have felt disappointed for one reason or another, and that disappointment is not just about their own experiences and lives. People have been disappointed in other people, and this has created a chain reaction that has taken you back in a sense to Atlantean times. In Atlantis many of the humans could see the folly of the ways of their fellow Atlanteans but could do nothing to stop what was already occurring. Many felt powerless to put a stop to what was the decline of Atlantis that would ultimately result in its destruction.

So many people on Earth right now feel that way for a variety of reasons, and so those Atlantean traumas are just some of the ones that people are cross-connecting to and needing to release and heal once and for all. The September energies will do more than just balance you; they will also support you, help you to cleanse and heal so that you can move on from the weight of past life traumas that you are holding in your root chakras, and you will be able to relax when you open yourselves up to these energies.

And you will be able to feel your emotions more clearly and choose which ones you want to feel, and that is something that many people on your world have yet to experience in this lifetime. It is huge to be able to choose how you want to feel, instead of walking around and just getting triggered over and over again. We want this for you, and we know that you want it for yourselves, and so we are happy to participate in the delivery of the September energies, and we know that those of you who are sensitive and are open will be catapulting yourselves forward as a result of what you are about to receive.