In the course of my profession, I have had the chance to listen more than I have spoken.

Talented individuals, with their stories always offered their inspirations, experiences, learning with me.

All I had to do, was to listen with my heart and to ask questions whenever I wanted.

And I am finding it slightly amusing that I didnt really listen to myself all the while —-whilst listening to so many others.

Yesterday, Teacher sent me a message,

“I’m so extremly proud of you and how your bold and brave work through layers, discover, recognise and understand your self. Putting all the pieces of the puzzle together to see the true picture of how magnificent you are! And not only because, but also despite of the past.

You know it is not important what I and others say, the only thing that matters is what you and your heart tells you. And I see you have found the way to listen and understand your heart. And your great teacher and angels Huaihao and Qinzhi on yourside have an amazing clarity in supporting and guiding you.

You are truely blessed!

After reading your entry this morning, I was so elevated and as I looked out of the window there was a very strange but wonderful light I have not seen before, from the sun breaking through the woods. A moment of magic!”

“Found the way to listen and understand your heart” called out to me, but I didnt make much out of it.

But now that I m putting down my thoughts, I sort of understand this better.

Like in the earlier self reiki session, it was a lot of looking inwardly to check on and hear each part of me. My internal voices.

Recent experiences of lashing it out and going though inflammation and bodily reactions tell me——-If these internal voices are not expressed, they will emerge through somehow, somewhere. And always, out of the body.

Why? They want to be heard

I ask myself now, if I can just apply how and what I do, to my interview subject—-to myself?

Apply the listening to myself? Just how much I would have been better off than now?

I tried to recollect-How did I do that listening?

And how do I do it to myself now? Outside of the reiki sessions.

Teacher gave some tips.

“The very first thought that comes to your mind is from your heart and intuition! The second thought is when you start to analyse…is it possible, is it my imagination, does it make sense?

The first, the very first thought feeling, Image… is what you should follow”

And I told Teacher I will work on this using what daily life presents me with! and experiment and cultivate.

I want to experiment with this.

I think it is too wonderful to be able to redefine, or inspect what listening means or how listening can be.

Like a fresh start off point.

No wonder I love it, when Teacher puts his hands on my ears. That was where I felt the most intense emotions and associations of love and support.

I cant wait to experience this again.

Interestingly, this morning, when I put my hands on my cheeks, Huaihao asked me to shift them to my ears.

He just said, “this isnt where your ears are”

So, LISTEN.