I was wanting to look for some form of a restoration of balance with this shower. And as I said it out, I asked myself what if this is the balance I have been searching for?
The body is always on my side, constantly working out the best possible way to harmonize everything and with everything. Even if we do not see it this way.
I know – the body IS working hard to work things out for me
I believe.
I was inhaling the Believe essential oil and asking myself what do I believe?
The answer is here right above
What if the discomfort I am feeling now is balance? The keloid that is inflamed is balance? So is this feeling of ecstasy and excitement seeing this point ?
It is all the body’s best effort at balancing in quicker than quick time
And I move from a state of balance to another. Even if I think that I am in imbalance .
I see how perspective can ground me or unearth me. I see how in so much time have I been looking at things in negative light and in so far, chart my path this way
All my doing.
And seeing this gave me joy. I m SO thankful for that brief state of stillness I have been in , without which this glimpse of truth might not have been distilled
And I see my body in new light. I thank my body and I love my body even MORE for loving me more unconditionally
And I want to shout this glimpse of truth outwards so that more and more of the me-s out there can see how much balance they are (and have been) in , yes, all this while.
At the very beginning of each day or each meditation, you tell the universe what you want.
Focus on your life, your goals and life purpose, telling your body what you want, and have a beautiful image of yourself and what kind of life you want to live. Then you can send a message to the universe.
What kind of image do you see of the world you want to live in?
What is your purpose? What do you want to accomplish?
What is your intention?
Make your purpose clear.
Submit your message in the light while meditating
Feel the essence of your message
Let go of any fears and doubts
After that, you solely focus on the moment.
Feeling how good you feel.
Feeling the tingling sensations in your hands, in your body, seeing light in your body, and focus on that!
Once you put yourself in the ‘Oneness’ you trust the energy and trust the messages you receive. Trust the intelligence within you.
Too much analytical thinking may stop your inner wisdom from surfacing
In the quietness you breathe slowly, gently, and deeply. You help yourself to wake up the intelligence in the body.
You receive these messages to help you fix the wrong information in the body.
It is a process of cleansing, so a lot of people cry and they feel peaceful at the same time; they feel lots of emotional experiences, again, just let it be and allow it to happen. It is a process of detoxifying. When you open all this old information and messages get cleared out, health is going to restore back your life.
This is why having a purpose when practicing Spring Forest Qigong is important, regardless what your purpose is; for healing or for relationship, or for higher vibration. When you have a purpose, the Qi, is automatically directed to support your purpose.
These kept me alive and brought me back to centre.
The lessons are manifold.
It’s about feeling.
Feeling completeness, wellness, whole, joyful, peaceful, acceptance, beauty, trust, love——rather than the opposites. No matter what. It is to be undeterred.
I re read this again and found some answers
If money was not an issue, and indeed so thanks to my husband. I would love to be out in the sun everyday, do yoga everyday, go for classes like sound art therapy and explore healing modalities. Yes, I would love to do it and share it outwards.
I would love to travel and see for myself, experience, capture for myself—–beautiful people, hearts, food, water, air, environment.
I would like to center more and more, I would like to share my experiences outwards. I would like to express my light and the divine in me.
And when I get tired, there’s no way for me to hide. A nap helps me get into balance, but after a while, tired and fatigue set in.
I was asking myself why.
I was asking my body, what are you trying to tell me? Is my health not in good order?
Not really.
Then?
I questioned when people got tired.
For example when you do sports. After that you might get tired. When you push and work hard for exams. After that you get tired.
I thought of the times I felt so tired.
There was a period in my life that I drag myself to work after mom passed on. I was so tired. And all the times after I felt tired.
It came to my understanding that I am tired of what was in life at that phase.
I m tired of what I m doing now.
I asked Huaihao too.
And he said, it’s like when you get too much and little of something. It’s like you are bored.
He said that I look tired today and there’s not a lot of life in me . I asked him when was the last time he saw zest in me. He said when i had a job, there was so much life in me then.
I recalled how i moved in the time i was at michelin, everything happens in a snap and the word is energy and vitality.
I asked him what I could do to find that life and zest back to me. “Get some fun” he said.
Wow.
Anyhow, I think it’s kind of the perfect time now is for me to come to this understanding.
I used to read about how one could be out of sync. I guess that is me now.
After so long, I finally understand what the message tired is passing to me.
But equally, i am kind of satisfied that I finally found this out. According to Louise Hay, “Fatigue: Resistance, boredom. Lack of love for what one does.”
I would like to challenge everyone to take a few moments every day for the next 30 DAYS, and find at least 10 things you are grateful for and express your appreciation for each of them.
You can express your appreciation to the sun for its life-giving light.
You can express your appreciation for the comfortable chair you like sitting in.
You can express your appreciation for the broken sidewalk outside your house because it reminds you to be careful when you walk.
You can express your gratitude for your house plant, for your pet, for the pen you write with, for your toothbrush, for anything or everything.
The key is to say so. Say it out loud or say it in your heart but say it again and again – “I appreciate you.” “I am so thankful for you.” “I bless you as you have blessed me.”
Writing them down is also good!
Try it and see what happens.
See how your love grows, how your happiness grows, how your life changes.
Everyone wants more gratitude, more appreciation, more blessings coming back to them.
Give it a Try!
Many Blessings, Chunyi Lin”
The sun showed up so bright and woke me up this morning. Asking me to do the same.
Ron gave me the St Benedict medal. Sasha asked khenpo dorje to do a divination and the reply was that “u hv a astral flotsam attached. Not too serious but definitely disembodying. U ll be fine!💐🌺🌸💐🌺🌸”
And Sasha’s advice was
“Yes these entity-things can try to drain yr energy & shape-shift around u … so u r probably feeling what its feeling! They r like giant mosquitoes that inject their own emotions & drain yr energy. The practice is to Be Yourself as much as u can.Really they can be easily removed”
The practice is to be yourself
Well I was searching for myself – and for that matter , searching really hard of late. And this learning had to come to really drive me down to getting every wee bit of mySELF out
I used to be a really sensitive child
My nanny would say, if people wanted to share red eggs celebrating a baby’s full month of being, and they showed the eggs in my face I would cry non stop or get a fever
I recall having lots of talisman burned waters in my childhood
That day when I shared this with Helena, she said, “ maybe this is the real you but out of fear you blocked it- and blocked everything out. But maybe you could use this in a way to help yourself and others. Learn to shield yourself and take only what you need. Practice !”
She asked me，” actually what are you afraid of ?”
Now as I try make sense of it – The feeling is almost as if fear is part of me. I have grown so accustomed to it it constitutes my identity
But really – what is TPY like without fear? Who can she be?
I told Sasha I must be at a low and she agreed because “that ll be when they attach Positivity has a kind of natural buoyant energetic protection.Low thins out the energy …”
I know.
And I learned a lot about myself from this episode
The message that came through in the run was “ you asked for expanded consciousness didn’t you?”
Yes I did and this is one instance where my consciousness is expanded and can feel a bigger spectrum
But like Helena said, be conscious and learn to shield yourself from anything that affects you
Like Sasha said, “ be yourself”
As a child, I was always carrying a lot of fear, I was afraid of the dark and mysterious . I always had my imagination wild and created more fear because of that- estranging myself further from reality
Carried by fear carried in fear, I lost myself.
Totally lost it.
Ula said,” i guess you need love to you & your family..bcz i think you had lose some feel of love”
I asked for the reason of my existence and 2 days before we went to the beach in the evening
I was happied out. I haven’t felt that simple joy outwards from the heart in a long time
Seeing how the kids had fun and played with water with bf, I got my answer.
These folks in front of me are my reason. I thanked the universe for hearing me and replying back to me
And today after my run, I saw bf bathed in the sun walking towards me
He is my reason – that boy who loved me loves me knows me through and through and anchors me
And interestingly this time, with the knowing of the divination, I kind of felt quite at peace
I told myself to create a lot of space – when the space becomes really big, anything in that is dwarfed in smallness
And I drew notes from my learnings from Tibetan Buddhism practice- awareness. Just be aware
Sometimes I felt so sad and HuaiHao asked me, why are so so sad? I don’t have an explanation for him
Sasha said I could be feeling not me
And I was actually chanting a lot and dedicating the merits outwards feeling a lot of compassion for other beings and being grateful that I m in a position to chant and dedicate
I know that I did not do anything wrong and so I will be safe and protected
Most of all each time I trust the divine and protection is with me, I get goose bumps
In all of this practice, patience and openness is helpful. I recall all the Angel numbers that I kept seeing: 11:11 444 12:12 and the like , apparently it is a sign that I m travelling on the right path
Even at my level when things felt so out of place I kept seeing these
I suck out the very essence of light in me to venture forward. I trust that I can heal myself I trust and have faith in my own light
And I m most thankful I have so many supportive circles around me and most of all, I have Guru Rinpoche and all these wonderful mantras to anchor on
And, and -the sun was brilliant today. Sharing it with you.
Qinzhi says I look so tired and that I m “done with life”
It’s an empty look
That even I got worried about
I was so empty and blanked out I couldn’t understand where or what went wrong
I tried to understand find out but just couldn’t
I was just emptied out
Was I in some kind of shock or did something grip me?
Did I shut myself down because I felt low and the cycle repeats?
I tried to anchor myself on Buddhist mantras and affirmations like looking in the mirror and saying I love you , I approve of myself
Sometimes there were realizations such as – this is another opportunity to train the mind and steer it to a firm standing
I was definitely thrown off course- how did I slip into this?
In everyday there are ups and downs and once again I see clearly for myself how the mind went off course and the body followed
And I know now what can help: meditation, simple qigong , moving the hands, shaking, running and walking in the sun, soaking the feet in sea water, hugging and kissing the kids, getting a hug and kiss from bf, watching k pop and
Sleeping
Sleeping is like a reset and I always wake up feeling better .
Breathe
Shower
Awareness actually
Actually – the simplest things anyone can do
To find back or come back to center
Then just now, after some movement, I had this voice which said- “ all this happened to remind you that you can heal yourself!”
Like a kind of cyclical repeat, these episodes of tired help me get into myself, and lets me find some kind of power I have stored in me. It happened again and again and each time I came out of it following an uplifting thought
I can heal myself – I can heal myself , this is the message tired brought me and reminded me of
And I asked, what and how. And I learnt to listen
These fatigued out low energy low esteem days and moments serve to let me know that I can snap out of them at will. And only I
And so can you
I m well and all is safe. Out of this only good will come. I am always divinely protected and guided, always traveling in the best direction .
And so it is. You too, wherever you are. For the very simple reason, life loves you.
The day after – on a bus, I heard a voice go- who says tired is bad? What is the value you attach to tired that made it worse?
We tend to have certain ideas about things and these may be the exact things that might not serve us
So free the self from concepts notions ideas attachments and experience greater space and freedom
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