I was asking myself about 2022

It seemed empty at once

I did not attempt anything much professionally

But I covered so much path internally

Traverse mountains valleys and ranges in my inner world

Exploring highs and perhaps mostly lows

I learned to come back to the middle ground and to locate my center

It was a big learning curve

I think I did a lot coasting spirituality and energy work – perhaps I want to find out if that was for me

But now I think – I m happier simpler, lesser

The question that always found me in 2022 was – what do I want ? What do I really want? That was my work for 2022

I want to be happy – to live well and simple

I want to do my best for my family – helping them be well and feel well. And I know for that, I have to be well and healthy first

There are times I looked at bf and remember the boy who loved me and I love. Where is he now? He has gone through a lot too and has become this middle aged man already.

I look at myself – am I not the same?

We are each other’s reflection. We are each other. You are I. Me and I am in you.

If I want to see him rosy and happy, I first have to be . And I tell myself: let’s make love and peace everyday.

I want to shine bright- using what I see learn feel – for myself and my world. I sincerely hope that by living and feeling true to myself, I can inspire , warm and touch another person- and make another feel – let’s go again, let’s try once more, I can do it

2022’s December brought me to japan and europe and I couldn’t be more grateful coming to these places of beauty , feeling seeing breathing and experiencing it

Then expressing it outwards and getting all the echoes of resonance back

I never imagined crossing over a new year overseas, much less sledding and tobangganing or doing a thrill walk getting up close to mountains and zipping past alpine scenery

After staying stagnant for so long, I can’t be happier for the new places I go to, for the new experiences I bagged. There’s so much wonder in the new, each time allowing oneself to (be so willing as to) let go further of the past, to expand on one’s boundaries and go forth even more in consciousness.

I did something different and that’s so so good.

It’s a new beginning- May 2023 be filled moments after moments with loving light, magic and wonder. May 2023 be peaceful, healthy, joyful. Happy 2023!