I asked HuaiHao to feel me. And he says, “ you are tired. I don’t touch your head I also know.”
I asked him why does he think I am tired and he says, “ feels like overheating. You have too many things going on inside your head and the body cannot keep up”
It does feel like there are a bit more things going on now. Becoming a writer again for publications and wringing my head to make the most out of an interview
Looking and relooking . Reading and re reading. Editing and editing all over again the story I wrote until it feels like I cannot edit anymore.
For a few hundred dollars? Sometimes – tens of dollars? What is this really for?
Then we chat about other things and HuaiHao asked me to exercise and exert myself on an every day basis.
He reminds me, “ it takes months and years (to show the result), you can’t expect to run today and get yourself lean and muscular tomorrow.”
How did this little one get so much knowledge- no wisdom?
I told him how thankful I am to meet him and Qinzhi and to be their parent.
“It’s like if that sperm was 1 second earlier or 60 seconds later, it might not have been you or Qinzhi.” I said.
And we hugged.
That was the most important thing. The best part. The healing.
The intention was to find the answers I need to help me move forward.
Ever since I came back from my trip, I find my body slowing down, sometimes I felt like my coordination was up in slips
This gave me worries and fears. Anxiety built up and I went – as usual to search for answers.
Was it stress? What was I really worried about? What bothered me?
So I set this intention for the run today
And I heard these flost into my awareness
– Run deliberately. Breathe deliberately. Go about your life’s littlest things deliberately.
– You created all this, all these extra things with some form of discontent with the present, that present you have had. You wanted something else other than that,
Let’s just say you didn’t really put yourself in the now
My way of tackling an issue is asking why but that did not work for me. It always brought me into a whirlwind of unsettled emotions which confused and thwarted my balance. So I asked. And the answer came.
– whatis the best thing you can do in this moment? Or this next moment ? What is the step you can work on. Just do that.
–release. I realize all worries fears doubts self criticism and judgments I have in my system ever since the beginning of time and
– the mind body connection is very real. I hesitated about my way forward and my body merely showed that to me because it was not apparent to me
– what was it that really bothered you? What was stopping you? I asked. Worries (again?) about the kids? My abilities? Actually- no.
It was not knowing exactly what or how I want to live my life.
The last few episodes of The King Land echoed to me.
Won’s mother came to his father and asked of him to let the child live as he wants. To live the life he wants. She said that when she erroneously left Won as a child, she thought that would be the way to protect him, but in that decision she gave up the opportunity to live the life she wanted
She asked Won’s father , “ and did you live the life you want?”
In the final episode, Sarang decides to leave the King Hotel in which she was a top performer. She breaks the news to Won on the same occasion he wants to propose to her. And he keeps the ring back knowing that to love is to allow, to let the other’s dream take priority before yours.
He only asks of her, “ promise that on this journey when you find it tough alone, call me and I will run over”
When Sarang was in confusion trying to decide, she confided in her grandmother
“I’m wondering if the work I do at the hotel is what I really want to do? This isn’t what I dreamed of. I know I should be thankful instead of complaining.“
“My baby has finally learned to grumble and whine. No matter how well known a restaurant is, it’s no use if it’s not to your liking. Who cares about the hotel? you only live once. You should do what you want to do. Don’t mind other people. And don’t hesitate either. Do everything you want to. If it isn’t the way you can take a detour. If you fall off a cliff you can climb back up again. You will be fine. I’m here for you so do whatever you want to do.”
her grandmother put things into perspective for her, “”
And the question that is begging: what IS the life I want? Did I live life the way I want?
I think the last few years had me searching—- I was asking a lot on the inside and that translated to exploring on the front outside. I picked up things here and there and tried things that echoed to me
But they are not exactly mine. Perhaps at most, I rubbed of them a little. I was inspired. I tried to emulate and embrace. But they didn’t last because it’s not me and I would always feel bad about not persevering.
And so, at this point in time, I am asked to find my way. To start living. To be me.
Knowing what you truly want- that is the highest position.
Huaihao is working hard at the Rubik’s Cube and exploring all ways to solve it–and he has.
This month, the foodie in him was channeled to help me with tasting sweets, and when celebrating daddy’s birthday
Look at the card he made for daddy!
But he also had a go at rediscovering what he loves-drawing, sketching and he does it with this sense of wittiness that is in his eyes
He spent some time going back to the basics-drawing, because he had too much device time and is banned from it for 2 weeks!
But being banned doesn’t stop him from exploring possibilities, he was trying out all the ways he could think of before calling it quits and coming back to draw
When all that he tried couldn’t make the devices come back to, he had to fall back on his first loves
That’s how he got to make a wallet like this
On day we were at the National Museum, there was an art programme going on and i took the chance to participate with huaihao, where he drew himself on the bus
Looking at the drawing’s expression, he must have been bored stiff!
On a weekend, he woke early and we headed out to walk and had our usual vegetarian bee hoon
This month was also big for Huaihao as he had the chance to participate in Track & Field during the National School Games season. He was really excited about it and this day he had to report to school at 635am.
My recommendations to Huaihao was that he should enjoy the process and have fun rather than to be bent on winning. And afterwards he shared that having fun was exactly what he did. And he would go for it again!
On Mother’s Day, I woke up to his card, he hid it under his pillow and flashed it out when I woke!
At bedtime on a few occasions, I was asking Huaihao for some advice on my career progression to which he said things like:
“you have to start somewhere, you can’t be a protagonist right from the beginning “
“rich people don’t do things they don’t like”
“you have to do things you like”
One day on YouTube, Qi Qin was playing the harmonica
Me: So nice to be able to play. You could direct your emotions into the instrument and let them be expressed in beautiful notes
HuaiHao: You can actually be the instrument you know
Bedtime with HuaiHao
Was telling him about a new opportunity that has come my way and I m not feeling entirely confident
But speaking to him cemented things. I had prayed for an opportunity because I wanted to provide for my father every month
And this is one opportunity that is. If this isn’t the universe’s answer to my prayer then what?
Wow
And he said, “ go for it. Isn’t this what you have been longing for? And if you don’t try, you don’t know.”
when I asked him for advice he also said, “ rich people don’t do things they don’t like and rich doesn’t just mean money.”
On the night he came back from visiting the Thow Kwang Pottery Jungle, he shared with me bits and pieces of his trip. And we spoke about daddy. And HuaiHao said, “ he’s so grumpy today!“
So I asked, “and what do you do?”
He said, rolling his eyes from side to side, “ it’s like there’s someone passing the ball in my eyes. Let’s just get on with what we are busy with or else the clouds that we are will turn into a storm”
I can’t help but giggle at the way he puts things. We could have been a cloud to observe it all, but if we participated in anyone’s unhappiness , we would if unwitting enough—be joining their storm.
What wisdom.
Another day at dinner time:
Me: I’m sorry I m not a good cook
HuaiHao: pats me on the elbow, “ it’s ok there’s always a next time
But HuaiHao did not keep to his promise about using the diffuser and I would not be in his room if he had not . But there I was . And he said, “ because you want to be with me.”
The sun is about to pop up on the horizon and the sky is a million colours all at once so soft so graceful so beautiful
Like an affirmation that Ah Siong Hia is at peace and all is good.
Still I felt not knowing how to make sense of this all. Is it important to make sense in r is it important to honor these feelings?
While I accustomed to finding out, I am once again reminded now- as I write that honoring the feelings are important. It’s being in the moment and acknowledging them – not bypassing them. And, we do not need to know everything so we?
On the bus, I asked my husband how to make sense?
And he says, “ that’s because you did not accept it. I see death as part of a cycle of life. If you can be happy when a baby is born, why can’t you be happy now? It is because I accept it as part of life part of the cycle.”
I asked him so what is life for?
And he tried to explain it to me- like how people reduce it to living meaningfully with a purpose but punctuated it with, “ this question you have to ask god”
And I asked him if he don’t know, how to live life well?
In the midst of it on the bus as we spoke, the sun was shining in and I asked it for light love strength and energy .
I want to use this opportunity to get pass what I did not manage to . Instead of falling back on tears emotions and feeling sorry, am I capable of feeling something else?
Can I find something meaningful or beautiful to celebrate even in this occasion or event?
And suddenly- just suddenly, it appeared to me that this is a graduation ceremony of sorts.
Ah Siong Hia has graduated from the school of life. Devoting and committing to it as best he can, learning all he need, seeing all and being with all he has come to life for. And he made the courageous decision to leave when the time has come for him to, out of love for the people he loved.
In the way he lived – like a doting brother .
Thank you Ah Siong Hia. For all you have done for us , for loving me like your own sister. I have come to celebrate your life. Rest in peace.
It seemed like yesterday that Huaihao just transferred to Ngee Ann Primary School and now he has completed one year of study. We headed out as much as we can, trying to get the kids to get as much sun as possible. Love Huaihao’s sunkissed cheeks.
We had lots of splashing fun at the beach when we went to soak our feet in water, Huaihao got totally wet and drenched in sea water as he lost his footing. The first time everyone got wet and had no extra clothes. We washed and dried up at the bathrooms and headed to dinner then walked back up the beach to home
Huaihao looked really cute trying on the hat! And winter helmet, goggles and jackets.
This evening , we got the kids to try out winter wear and Huaihao had so much fun in gengyan jiujiu and ah mei ah yi’s winter wear. No longer kid sized.
This saturday, we were waiting for Qinzhi to finish her dance and headed to the furniture shop. And he was trying out the design pieces.
At ah yi’s, and Huaihao would be e asking ah yi to trim his nails and in turn he would massage ah yi.
To prepare for Ah Yi’s birthday, the kids painted something for her and on the 17th, we headed out to our favourite restaurant to have dinner to celebrate Ah Mei Ah Yi’s birthday.
Then we tried to prep the kids for a new academic year by cleaning the cupboards and headed to the bookstore to get books.
Have been fasting for a few days and Huaihao helped me “make dinner”. Asked him why he took a long time and he said, “i added lots of love in!”
And Huaihao reminded us that, “it’s just a few days before we get into December.”
The long awaited end of year school holidays is upon us. And Qinzhi has officially graduated Secondary One. We are all happy to see her move on to Secondary Two. Most of all, she has challenged her boundaries and limits and— enjoyed Secondary 1 even if there are down times
In the mornings that Huaihao is in school, we girls head out for some sun to work out sweat. At night, we have potato chips and K drama, and both of us knew at heart how precious these times were. We connected resonated and found a new friend in us
This is Qinzhi trying out cold wear as we prepare for our trip. Qinzhi loves the cold weather , she loves to dress up and tells me how cool it will be to dress in jeans shorts paired with stockings and boots. She even made friends trying on cold wear in Uniqlo and another lady chatted up with her on what to buy for her own winter trip
But look just how much time has passed to blossom this little bud into a lady. She already looks very much the fit dressing out in Ah Mei Ah Yi’s hand me downs
And one evening we took a stroll by the beach wanting to bathe our feet in water to ground. But everyone ended up getting wet. And the best part, lots of fun. And a first time getting wet without extra clothes/
And Christmas is upon us really soon. Ah Yi typically buys Christmas decors for herself and would buy extra sets for Qinzhi and Huaihao. Like a little tradition.
And on this day, Karyn brought Qinzhi for a tasting at a new eatery. This is such a great experience or Qinzhi.
Qinzhi painted this- called Opposites for Ah Yi
On the 17th, we headed out to our favourite restaurant to have dinner to celebrate Ah Mei Ah Yi’s birthday.
I hope Qinzhi gets to try out new things and really take good rest in the holidays, recharging herself before secondary 2 starts!
Because I didn’t. So I got to discovering this. and a collection of thoughts below.
The Heart Went Wild
We were heading back from our walk and I was panting
Bf remarked if I was ok because we were just brisk walking
I said now even if I brisk walked, I was panting less than the days before when I was doing nothing but panting and frail and weak and fatigued
And he said, that is because your mind is lost and your heart doesn’t know what to do
Your mind went away and did not give instructions to the heart and the heart went wild too
Wow
And he hit the mail on the head. The heart went wild, went everywhere and nowhere.
I was LOST, big time
I got impatient trying to find something to do
I sent out resumes
And didn’t get replies
I tumbled into a very low low
I completely lost myself and couldn’t steer myself anywhere
For a while I didn’t know what I want and worse nothing really could motivate me or anchor me
Qinzhi was so right
She said ,” you look like you are so down with life “
And I worried her
Then yesterday when I felt better, she said, “ you look like you found something you are passionate for “
I told bf this and he asked me what I found.
Heal Thyself
I said I found – again this reminder – I can heal myself
Just today walking and chatting om ah hung – Guru Rinpoche ‘s mantra brought me newfound wisdom
I went back to the sacred cave in tso pema and saw Guru Rinpoche in his cave
I was kneeling before him and trying to feel his presence and blessings
It’s a very special feeling
Feels like there’s something else that touches you through and through in the air
Actually I kept asking for healing and blessings and today I understood that my prayers were heard – even if I thought I was not heard
I asked for healing and I kept going back to the past to check on myself and when I went there I always saw or found new things about myself
Yes there was healing
Power
And I also realized how much of my own power I have given out
Each time I looked outside for advice, I went out to look for consolation, I gave a bit of my power away
But- Each time I engage in initiatives to do something for myself engaging and ascertaining my power I feel good
Show Up for Today
And I didn’t couldn’t show up for life in the few days that I was not well
Do Today Do Now
I was thinking big! My purpose in life, the meaning I can derive . And I got even more lost
But just now ! The message I heard was- just look at tomorrow or even now . Do the day well. Make every moment of the day joyful, easy, effortless, happy, healthy.
And the bigger things will come
只要过好每分每秒，未来的都是生命的花红
If you make each moment count, everything that comes along is a gift from life
Listening to Joey Yap these 2 days inspired me in two ways
He said that if you wanted something, it’s not the wish you made that makes it possible but the steps you take . When you take the correct action, you do not have to keep your eyes on the end result because you get there.
It’s the steps you take.
Second, he talked about opening up to grace. And that we have notions about what is grace. Like this is grace or healing and that is not and in so we could not see what has been given .
This brings me to the point of me realizing this point yesterday during the run—— that my body actually has healed the keloid over and over again. If this isn’t grace what is????
YET I failed to recognize it. And time and again it has stood by me. Mended me.
Today in my run , I found something else.
That me of all people must have at one point in time believed that I m lesser, lesser than beautiful.
It could be a time when I was fat and obese and there were well meaning people around me poking at me in fun ways to make me watch my diet but I took it the wrong way.
And in an instant, I of all people put an energy on myself as I too, believed in that.
I believe and grew to become ugly somewhere, my esteem and confidence bruised
I did away with my fleshy round face and rosy blush cheeks
Today in my run, I actually saw this for myself. And how I – of all people stopped myself and limited myself and subjected myself to a lesser state
But seeing this was liberating, I came face to face with the little girl I was and she was crying.
“Why did they say those things to me? Am I not perfect beautiful cute?”
And I said to her, “ forgive them! They said these things as passing remarks. They did not know how to express better. They still loved you anyway.”
Let them go and that intense energy you subjected yourself to- dissolve into nothingness
“You are beautiful as always. Find back the blush the rosy cheeks the round face. Don’t give them up just like that.”
And for once, I found the keloids scar beautiful. They were a testament to how much my body loves me, stood by me , and beautiful because of this story of knowing
Huaihao came over at 6 in the morning , hugged and kissed me and gave me a card he made, “happy birthday mommy”
At night I asked him what are his wishes for me? And he said, “I wish for you long life, happiness and healthy!”
On my birthday, HuaiHao woke up earliest as always and showed me his handmade card. Then Qinzhi woke up too and hugged me. After the kids headed to school, we had vegetarian bee hoon and headed to the market and supermarket to get ingredients for dinner. We went to collect the cake.
Bf asked the kids to ask dad sis and boy over for dinner. And i m thankful for that. I made a wish and blew the candle on my birthday cake . And it is as perfect as can be.
More importantly, yesterday, I kind of took some time to listen to my (higher self) and got some notes out of it.
Conversation with TPY
This is one beautiful birthday where you felt like you didn’t need anything else, isn’t it? In the past, you wished that your husband bought you flowers or pampered you with a lavish dinner, or throw you a surprise. Not this year.
You kind of felt like you don’t need anything from your husband children , you are thankful for whatever they have done for you and simply, them being here.
Actually, I don’t know how this year went by for you. It went so fast everything was deep and intense as you put your all into the depths and the roller coaster of the mind and emotions of course. But – you know- you actually wanted it didn’t you?
and so off you went to explore the mind.
You ran SO So Much! Never have you ran and walked so much in the sun but you found newfound freedom me time and so much wonderful wisdom and healing in the runs. You sort of got answers for your questions from the wind, the squirrels the insects the flowers the sun and-I m amazed you actually ran in the rain
You explored the breath
You explored affirmations
You found a greater understanding for yourself your life your experiences
And saw the connection of the mind and body
You learned about manifestations
You explored qigong
You enjoyed sound baths
You went back to yoga
I feel like the key word for you this year is energy
You did lots of energy work knowingly and unknowingly-you were exploring energy-of yourself and of others
You explored reiki- and that is because you felt there is a lot more work to be done exploring keloids and your past experiences
You wanted to go back. In fact, you kept going back to the past- fervently digging and digging. Wanting to stay there and not going forward.
Looking back: what were you thinking? What did you want to find?
What truths are you seeking and hanging on to? Just to stop yourself from going forward? You have created the keloids, the cyst and many others to stop yourself from going forward.For instance, you felt you needed healing. And you peeled off onion layers and saw more.
You kind of indulged yourself
And I know you are very thankful to your husband for allowing you, he took on the more difficult parts of supporting the family so you could do this.
The year that passed you by – happened in the very way you wanted
And landed you in the now
So be careful what you want
What do you want?
The k drama you picked out- Little Women was a thriller ride on plots and inner psyche. In a scene, the female lead found herself in a new house and her aunt said, “this is the kind of house that makes you feel like you can start off all over again even if you have lost everything”
And you turned to HuaiHao who was watching with you and said, “ isn’t it nice to start off afresh? If all is not lost, you wouldn’t be able to do anything you want however you want it. There would be patches here and there that you had to manoeuvre around and take care of .
It feels like where you are now. And when you kind of understood why you hanged on to this drama amongst others. Simply put, the outside is a reflection of the inner world
There is something in you TPY – and in you too- you you you and you- and that is intuition, instinct inner knowing
It might be a blur to the senses but you me we have it
So what do you want?
You were discussing this with the hairstylist the day before your birthday. It started with her recommending a really short spanking hairdo and asking you to do away with the fringe
You asked what happens if the fringe grew long?
And she said, “ then come look for me!”
You explained to her that you liked her suggestion more- you wanted the change didn’t you but you felt that keeping the fringe would be more convenient. I m glad you finally decided to pick what you like rather than what is convenient
And writing this made you realized what you just did- a while ago you asked yourself who you wanted to be? And you told yourself you wanted to be this girl bathed in sun, lean and athletic, with this sporty hairdo.
It has (be)come true
So I m really glad you chose the short hairdo, inherently- choosing to explore the new hairdo and be willing to be guided by it and see what comes out of it.
Recounting what she said you smiled. You wondered why you took the time to even think
You smiled because you are once again reminded and so thankful that there are so many people around you supporting you
There is absolutely no need to worry, nothing to concern yourself over.
I was really glad you took her advice to trim this short, she said, “I hope you find the inspiration to start off and start out-do what you like.”
I m glad you told her you trusted her and you knew this was the best option. I m glad you left it to her. I m glad – you decided to try something new rather than something you have done before
I m glad you followed your heart. Huaihao came up with a shopping list and listed love as one ingredient when you told him dinner is hotpot. He said, “because love IS the MOST important ingredient”
I m glad you affirmed what you liked when the hairstylist asked you that question – what do you like to do?
You said you like to go in search of beauty. Because in the experience of beauty you become whole and alive again. In beauty you redeemed your good self
Then you told her that you like to interview or talk to people- because people often tell you about the innermost bits of their lives – even if you have recently met. It is that trust and connection that you like to score.
And then you spoke about the man in your lives . You both have unromantic husbands. And would be always waiting out for that lovey dovey conversation or moment of romance and that would be the battery to let you go on
You laughed over the notion of (holding on to)romance
The hairstylist remarked that she does not believe in romance. And you said that the one who passes a remark like this is the romantic one
And she stopped to remind you this: “let me tell you this, the husband who does not require you to change to fit realistic demands is the one who is utmost and truly a romantic.”
That is because , she says, he allows you to do what you like and
he will face up to the harshest of realities and do all that is required so that you can continue to do what you like
It was a timely reminder- or a great summation of the last few years when you quit and your husband supported you wholeheartedly- with no expectations or conditions attached
It is not the first time you heard this
In fact you heard this several times over already but perhaps today you felt the gravity of it the most
This morning you felt it again when he hugged you with all his life
You cried in his arms because you knew he was protecting you all the while even when you were a spoilt brat and unreasonable
You felt it because a few days back he told you that you two could take a trip together
And you knew this came at this time because you two had passed the test
You were asking him where always did he want to go with you
And he replied, “france “
You were very happy because that is where you always always wanted to go with him too
You told him you were saving this for his 50th birthday to which he replied, “Sometimes u don’t have to keep things”
And you contemplate getting good class flight tickets because something tells you that this is such a precious trip – it is time given to you both to celebrate you two and it marks the beginning of better times in fact- great times for the two of you
More so, you wanted to thank him for unconditionally doing so many things for the family . Most of all, for you
And you wanted to thank him for that. You wanted to do something for him to say you appreciate and is thankful for him
And a few days later, he bought running shoes for you
My dear TPY, while you have spent so much time deliberating and fussing over yourself and your experiences, I m so glad you came to your senses and you have completed this little project of going back in time for yourself. And for coming back to the now at this point in time. Everything happened at the right time.
I believe as much as you do know, that the time has come forth for you to step out and up – to be that person you have stopped yourself from becoming
Tell me: What is the life or days you are looking out for ?
Days of sun, light , laughter, healthfulness, wellness, communication, love, bliss, beauty, meaning, purpose, kindness, prosperity, ease, effortlessness
What is it you like to do?
Talk to people, find out about their lives their values, so as to let them see their light and power, to connect.
And if possible, share that light outwards so more people are inspired and motivated
You want to become that top interviewer or presenter who would ask questions that would arrive at the innermost of the heart and that would heal
You want to be moved and to touch
And you ask yourself if you can do that?
YES YES YES you know you can and will
Happy birthday TPY
You are so loved. I wish you all the very best. You have all the support you need to do your work. So, fly now.
Huaihao asked me these questions the morning of Easter.
“Mommy, if you have 3 powers, what would they be?”
I said I wanted to be able to create what I want. (and in my mind, i heard myself say, I already have that power, in fact all of us do, we are powerful creators and we create our own reality.)
The second was to heal everything I touch. (and in my mind, i knew I or we already have that power.)
The third was to be where I want.
Huaihao added, “you mean the power of teleportation?”
I asked him in return what powers he wanted. To which he said, “I want the power of wisdom, so that I can make the right decisions, I want the power of health, so that i can clean up everything in the sea and it would be clean and the power of teleportation.”
We continued our conversation.
Then he asked, “Mommy, is there anything you want back in your life and anything that you want out of your life?”
I said, after a while of thinking , “maybe my mommy? then grandpa would have a companion and (he said, —your life would be more whole?) and you would have a grandmother.”
And i would want to have all the strong energies or emotions that bring me the cyst and the keloids out .
And I asked Huaihao, what then would he want in his life and out? He said he wanted papa to be not angry and wanted to be back again to younger days.
And i asked if he really wanted to be little again.
Then he asked me what the soul does.
I said the soul evolves and learns along the way. And shared with him some theories i have come across, such as us picking where we were going to be born in, what we are going to learn and who we are going to meet. But—What a question from the little one!
Another day, we spoke about his dad in his own cave. And we discussed what strategy we would employ to help dad?
I proposed 2 ways, to go in there and fetch him out. Or, to remain at a high and he matches our high. We discussed how easy it was for us to match him at his state or be affected by him doing or his non doing . And Huaihao said, “guys just be yourself and don’t follow the hurt!”
I m so amused by the wisdom of this little one, and I asked how this came out. Did he read this somewhere or copy ?
And he laughed, “I just pooped it out”
I love how he dishes and sends me these nuggets of inspiration in such a light way. It makes me realise that wisdom, love is always with me.
This day after school, qinzhi has CCA and I took Huaihao out to Tenjin for lunch. Like a little excursion of sorts for us. Me time.
On this weekend morning, we walked and headed to Jewel. When Huaihao saw this fountain and the rainbow that was reflected, he said, “seeing this gives you hope right, Mommy”
And there’s so much beauty in this appreciation and sharing. Seemingly little things that brighten you up.
Was getting qinzhi to say affirmations such as I love, approve and accept myself and HuaiHao was around and he said, “Happiness is me.” And when we were running he said “I m god”
Wow. He isn’t that far off from this truth- we are created in the likeness of god and we all have these wonderful amazing qualities.
This weekend, we did Duck Tours.
And this is Huaihao’s booklet recording his device time. Love his doodles!
Power does not come from saying, it comes from the heart!
And one day he popped out of the bath in this getup, and felt satisfied in me being so amused.
He also started to plate his dinner
This friday at ah yi’s, ah mei ah yi was trimming his nails.
One evening we went shopping for groceries and took the chance to ice cream
Another day, Huaihao wrote his own story and came up with a tongue twister
And bedtime with HuaiHao is always lovely. He said he still remembers how breast milk tasted
“It’s sweet, a bit salty and not fishy like milk”
HuaiHao was tucking me in bed and I feel so loved
I said thank you and this makes me feel like a princess
“ but you already are !”
But I m not pretty
“ why do you say that?!” He sulked
“ you are pretty and if you believe you are, you are!”
So well said
Think thoughts that make you happy
Do things that make you feel good
Be with people who make you happy
Eat things that make your body feel good
Go at a pace that makes you feel good
Today I went for my third dose of vaccine and came home totally zapped of energy and I feel breathless.
HuaiHao offered to massage me and did it for so long after he raindrop me.
Amazingly his hands always pointed to the right spot where pain and soreness residedI
Asked him how he knew and he said, “ this part is softer and jiggly but here is stiff.”
I had sone pain in my right arm and elbow but HuaiHao said the stiffness is more pronounced in my left shoulder
Then he said, “ the left hand is connected to your right side of the brain and vice versa. And the left side is the logical brain and so it follows that you are stuck in the logical aspect. And mom, you are like a sponge soaking up all the oil . It’s like if you like it you soak it up but if you don’t you leave it all there.”
Wow
Then he continued to massage me until his back is sore and I told him that I do not want that.
We lay down on our backs and he massaged my face.
It was so good I said many thanks to him. I bowed down to HuaiHao and thank his healing hands for saving me out of the lousy feeling.
To which he said, “you make me happy too.”
I took the opportunity to remind him of how magical and powerful his love was , pulling me out of the deep and reviving me.
Then I went on to caress his hands. And I felt myself teary for the warmth of the touch was good to me too
I asked HuaiHao how he felt.
“Makes me feel like crying.” He said.
I m grateful for HuaiHao . Thank you for healing Mommy precious one! Love you so much HuaiHao!
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