Just like a star I stay here for long While everything is changed I just cannot help but stay, hmm Just like a star Don’t even see myself get old It’s hard to be explained I wanna break away I keep on praying Oh, why
If my tears fall Down in my universe Turns into a new world Time to find my way back home Thousand years’ gone Don’t feel nothing no more You’re the one I long for Now it’s time to go I hover like a star Ooh-ooh Ooh-ooh Just like a star All the memories got stuck (oh) I’m tired of the past (oh) I want to break away Oh, why
If my tears fall Down in my universe Turns into a new world Time to find my way back home Thousand years’ gone Don’t feel nothing no more You’re the one I long for Now it’s time to go I hover like a star
The lyrics kind of echoed on me
It somehow made me feel so much better, resolving the emotions I had that I couldn’t really reconcile
It made me feel like I can move on and take it in my stride
It kind of made me know who I am and what I am made for
I finished another Korean drama <Itaewon Class> . The story is of Park Saeroyi who beats up a bully in class to find his life forever changed.
The bully has a backing. His father owns one of Korea’s most successful food business. The father wants Saeroyi to kneel down to apologize after beating up his bully son. But Saeroyi refuses.
“Because I do not feel like I need to (apologise)”
He refuses to budge. His father is an employee of this rich man, and is called in. The father supports his son’s decision because this attitude this strength is something he has yet to achieve with his own life . He quits his job but ends up dying and being killed in a hit and run—— and as with Korean dramas, who else but this bully is the one at the wheel.
The story goes on to show how Saeroyi bases his life on revenge , to get back. He studies his enemy’s biography and vows to be more successful and to one day take over his enemy’s business.
And he did finally after all attempts to be thwarted by the old man.
And Saeroyi did it with all of life’s most precious values. values that are these days swept under the carpet.
Have written down some quotes which called out to me:
“People have their way of making judgements
Good and bad can be very vague but when you are exceptional people know for sure”
“I may come from nothing but there are things I want to do.
I will do what it takes
You have no right to measure my value”
Feels like how I have come through too, rising from the ashes, building myself up but by bit.
“I m impressed
You r doing what you want”
How difficult for some—— to just, do what they want!
“You don’t need to be on anyone’s side but your own”
“I trusted”
“a person with a clear goal can achieve many things”
At some point in time, I find myself understanding that ——It is depth that makes calm. The deeper you have gone or sunken into, that is the very depth that makes one calm and unreactive even if the wind blows
“I want my words and acts to have power so pple cannot dismiss me or my people”
“I don’t want to be swayed by injustice or acts of it
I want to live a life where I make my own decisions”
And I thought of this thing called ——One of a kind
“I don’t have to convince others about who I m
I want my words and acts to have power”
And how do we give our words and act power? It’s the intention or heart behind it
There’s a very nice poem too in the drama.
I m diamond
“I’m a rock
Go ahead and sear me
I won’t budge, I’m a rock
Go ahead and beat me up
I’m a solid rock
Lock me up in darkness
I’m a rock that shines alone
I defy nature’s ways of breaking, turning to ashes, and decaying
I survived
I am a diamond”
This came from Itaewon Class ep12
I m. A rock—— m I not? We all are.
In Epi 13, yet more nice quotes.
“I m just me
I don’t need anyone’s approval or validation”
“There r people who keep me strong and I want to make delicious food to repay them”
“She’s someone whom you can bet your life on”
“Follow my heart and be myself
Have I been committed?”
“Now I regret that day a lot”
Is there a day I regret? I asked TPY
In episode 15, Saeroyi was in a hit and run accident, pretty much like how his father died. He slept for a long time and the story goes that his consciousness has gone on to meet with his father. They catch up ever since his passing.
And this time, Saeroyi’s father brought him to a bridge.
“Where are we going?” the son asked
“To a place where there’s no painful nights”
Saeroyi stopped.
“Life has been tough and burdensome yes…each time I tell myself, I can do it, We will be fine,….but ”
He recollected the time he was in the office with the woman he loved, and she was reading a book, and it read, “Was that Life? Well then, once again.”
She said that she didnt understand what that meant until she met him
“Can I hug you?…If I get the chance to be born again, I want to be born as your son” Saeroyi said to his father.
“ I love you…so much.”
“I love you too “, said the father.
He has decided not to go cross the bridge with his father.
He retreated and made steps back
“Dad, have a peaceful trip. I m not going with you “
“Was that life? Well then. Once again!”
He remember The girl he loved said
He said to his father this: “I don’t mind spending all those painful nights again. In fact they are not as painful anymore. I have friends who give me joy and I look forward to seeing what the future holds with them.”
“I know you are no longer with me. But I m going to embrace my yearning heart and I’ll continue to live my life”
To which the father said, “Saeroyi you finally got it, This is what Life is, you can overcome anything as long as you are alive, I mean it
I m so proud of you my son. Keep on living this way. ”
Saying a proper goodbye! Saeroyi didnt get to say a proper goodbye, when his father died
And he’s come to accept his father’s death when he says : he will embrace his yearning heart
I thought about myself and how I found peace or have I? With mommy’s passing. This is definitely one way out.
“M I going there to die ?”
“No you are going there to survive”
When Saeroyi thinks of his love: “My heart and mind are filled with you. Is that how you have always felt? The heart beating?
“When I m with you my heart beats and it’s fun
Let’s be happy”
In the final episode, the old man who tries to destroy Saeroyi finally comes to him
Saeroyi gives him a treat of tofu stew and the old man acknowledges that it is very good
Saeroyi says it’s because he takes care of the fermentation of soya such that
“On a cold day the warmth spreads throughout the body”
The old man says he is treated to a great meal but has not brought money. He asks to pay in another way
And he kneels down
“I apologise with all my heart”
His head touches the floor
“Please forgive me”
And I find myself raising the idea, that there is no other way ——than to apologize if one is at fault
No other way. Because the hurt has been done and it is forever. Sorry just isn’t enough.
“Now that your revenge is over
Live happily”
“We dont know The warmth of people”
Do I? I asked TPY
“When I heard of your past the other day, I wanted to embrace your painful past
I wanted to make your bitter night sweet
When I think of you my empty life fills up with you
Thank you
I love you
I will make you happy”
Ha these were my thoughts too when I got into my relationship.
And a final quote from Saeroyi to wrap things “I wanted to be happy
I haven’t chased after a Korean Drama for a while and this is by Hyun Bin and Son Ye Jin, “Crash Landing On You”.
It definitely helps because Hyun Bin is SO addictive,
Even his back is awesome.
And he plays the piano. Gave me so much joy watching it.
I first interviewed Son Ye Jin in one of her first dramas, Summer Scent in 2003 in Korea. And to see her again.
The story tells of this successful rich young woman who paraglide and ends up in North Korea due to a storm . She meets a handsome soldier who has closed himself to life around him because of a deep dark loss he experienced of his brother who died in a bid to uncover truth in the North Korean army. Hyun Bin rescues this young woman and gradually opened up, warming up to life.
The story unfolds to show how the young soldier repeatedly risks his life to save hers as he tries to hide her in North Korea whilst finding ways to send her back to the South. And even crossing the line, stepping and crossing over the DMZ, and finally surviving a crawl underground 10km long to get to the South.
The story then goes that she tries to send him back to the North.
Unknown to the 2 of them, they had already met much much earlier in life. Many years ago in Switzerland, the young woman was on the verge of ending her life, but came across a beautiful tune on a boat ride, it was this melody that gave her courage to live.
Many years later, they both realise they had crossed paths but not met.
There was another occasion, when this lady had taken a picture for this young man.
And unknowingly , the gentleman had taken a photo of the lady as well.
And this brought me to the point of timing and resonance.
Something much deeper had culminated this.
People who are with us now, somehow—–somewhere in the distant past, we have all crossed paths, and created Resonance one way or another, this resonance gets reinforced, and culminates in an incident when we meet. That is how it is.
And why is there resonance?
I think if the voice in your heart is clear it will attract resonance.
Till the time is ripe and right for us to meet. Until then, we will continue to cross paths. Crossing paths, like a prelude. I think about the meetings I have had with some wonderful people. And these are like preludes that will culminate/crystallise in a certain future or meeting.
How many times have we met not knowing? When is the time for us to meet?
Its beautiful to the point of heartache.
And there are some beautiful captures along the way.
In North Korea when she got lost in a market, he held up a scented candle which she once mentioned and led her to him.
我们都希望，有人为自己点一盏灯
想起老师说，每天，为对方点一盏灯. Mr Ng used to say this to me and bf, that we should light a light for each other every day. As you light up, its a simple ritual to symbolise opening up oneself to light and bidding darkness goodbye. Its to remind oneself that I am light and so is your partner.
And to see this scene in the drama, Such such! poetic way of putting across the yearning we have in each of us—–don’t we all wish someone will light a light for us? In fact, very deep down, we take it that people we love —we look upon them as a light who will support us, secure us, stable us, protect us, guide us to home, to happiness all of which that will make us feel: life IS enough, everything is already there. I don’t need more, I just need you.
It’s not what you have but what you don’t need that makes you happy.
I am grateful that you are born into this world. I m grateful that the person I love is breathing .
Love is loving the other more than yourself. Love makes you a better person, one of the quotes I really love is
“Because I like you I will keep in mind where I m going. I will live that way.”
A few other nice ones:
“Why does the wind blow? It’s blowing to move on. The wind needs to keep moving for me to fly, In order to meet you.”
“You came into my life like a gift. I m grateful for that.
And What do I do when I miss you so much?
Just wait and pray desperately. You asked if you could see the person you miss by doing that? You can.”
There’s also this: “Sometimes the wrong train takes you to the right station “ . This. We don’t know until some point in time when we connect backwards and makes sense of life’s journey.
The story started with the female lead paragliding and landing on a tree in North Korea. He found her, as always and their story began.
The story ended that way too. She went paragliding in Switzerland, back to where they crossed paths many years ago. And she landed on a spot. He found her.
She descended into his life. Like a gift. And that is how we all are.
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