Watched Ad Astra on board and Brad Pitt was flying to the moon 

Then it came to me- that I forgot my dream

That I forgot to dream

That is the crux and where and how things went off 

What is my dream?

As I breathed in light from Guru Rinpoche , I tried to find my center rather than concentrate on the doubts

Where is my center?

I tried to feel it

Where?

Where?

It’s like – what and where is my rock ?

It’s what is in front of me

It’s being with my precious family whom me and my husband have built and making it healthy, safe, well, full of love and beauty

It is to connect first with myself , my family then outwards

It is to get at or arrive at the heart center , the tender parts people hide- with them together 

It is to fetch out voices from the heart that they may not even know

Dear divine, show me the way to this

Coming to this point is bringing me to tears

It’s bittersweet 

How many moments have I got to go through to come here at this point- to know my dream my talent my purpose 

My meaning 

It is to get out these voices deep in the heart 

Knowing this brought my happiness and great joy and reduces me to the kneel 

Something inside me shook and defrost 

I’m happy 

It is great great happiness knowing this is what I really want to do. And it doesn’t matter if I m not there yet or that I do not know how to do this

I just know I will and I will be doing this amazing work- bringing out voices of the hearts and to be a part of this process , holding space for another 

Just by listening and asking questions, just being/be doing this 

I come back stronger focused on this work I want to do going forward and I ask the divine for all the support all the inspirations and all the light that I need on all fronts on this path 

And I m home

There’s this question Brad Pitt put out after his father broke off the bond . He asked, “ why keep trying? Why go on?”

Why I asked myself too

Why?

Because I believe there is something larger than life I m in awe of 

Something larger than myself something larger than what I have what I see that I want to go closer to

And the start of it all would be listening in and listening to the voices of the hearts 

These voices speak of the magnificence the very magic of life 

Brad Pitt ends the movie with this, 

“ I m unsure of the future but I m not concerned. 

I will rely on those closest to me

And I will share their burdens as they share mine 

I will live and love

Submit”

And so it is, om!

Amen!!

Let’s start by imbuing each moment with awareness to experience and then expressing the beauty and magic of it.