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Inspirations From A Run (IV)

Inspirations From A Run (IV)

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The intention today was to have awareness so as to work with the divine or rather to let the divine work through me.

And the “child” seems to be the theme of the run .

(i) How did you run?

This little girl was running into my lane and the first thing that popped into my mind was: how did I used to run as a child? How did my running steps feel like?

I couldn’t place these at all. Maybe I didn’t really run. I don’t really recall myself running. Perhaps it’s from the care of my family or nanny, who were so protective of me and was afraid of me hurting myself in a run . It came as advice out of goodwill and I listened in and practiced it

I didn’t run

Maybe that is why I always did not enjoy physical education in school. I didn’t like running . It’s not my thing.

But I still tried to feel for that feeling of me as a little girl of about 4 or 5. How would she run?

Without a care. Without any density of energies . Like a squirrel. That light. That free.

When I saw this, I kind of felt that in my running steps.

(ii) Possibilities

Whenever thoughts came, whenever I saw a possibility a picture of myself, I acknowledged it and told myself to continue to open up – to possibilities .

I thought of the times when I closed in or centred on one possibility. Such as when I left work. At that time, I centred on that particular possibility and couldn’t open up to the others. It was my choice.

But now, I asked myself to continue to open up, to widen to see and to observe.

And to go for the best and never settle. To go for that one which would make the little girl ‘s eyes and face shine

(iii) inner child

I had such a wonderful session with the girl in me.

What would you say to the child in you? The you in you?

“You are so blessed little one. You have such a strong and wonderful support circle around you and so move forward and do what makes you sparkle.

I feel you in perfect health and there is nothing you need to worry about.

I feel and see how you are so loved by your family and people around you. Your husband devotes to you your children love you, your siblings look up to you. “

I wanted to hear what she wants. I kind of created with the girl by asking her what she wants.

At a certain point in time, I saw why I came here again. I was daunted, couldn’t see possibilities, gave up on myself and lost my power .

In fact I reprised that too. Once very clearly during my second year in JC, when dad lost his footing and I lost mine or rather , I gave up mine.

The other time clearly, when I gave up work in 2019 . I handled my power away.

And what would the little girl choose?

“ I just want to pass on this touching feeling or moment(s) as much as I can. The feeling of the heart warmed and energized, fueling myself to greater goodness . Feeling hope and hopeful and ready to charge , to be inspired and go for it once again. “

I think that’s my power. To find my power (back) and let others see their power.

How Can We Do Better

How Can We Do Better

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I was feeling really choked and muddled in the body and mind and I knew I had to write

I had to write to sort out my thoughts and to find a starting point again

The question is this: how can we do better? What else can we do? What is the direction I am heading towards? I need to chart my path.

With the passing of Ah Siong Hia, I feel it even stronger that direction of life is more than important. I feel it even more urgent that I know clearly what I really like want and need.

I need to get there.

More than staying in misery sadness fear regret doubts suspicion or anything else. I have done enough of this.

Accustomed habits and emotions that have weighed on us can consume us too easily . They had gravity in our lives. And over the years repetition has given them sustainability. But- why (are we) stuck in the rut when we actually know very well that we wanted the exact direct opposite!

We want peace and calm. Ease and joy. Comfort and satisfaction. Strength and clarity. We need awareness

Where is it we want to be at ? That’s where we put our energy and awareness at .

How can we work with life with the divine with ourselves to make it better?

The report card comes at the point of “graduating” from life

In the last few days there were lots that went around in the mind. Parents or elders , our younger generation and our own selves.

How can we make “graduating” easy effortless for everyone and not like any other “graduation ceremony “ that I have attended?

I thought for a while, it’s not how much money one has or not, how accomplished or famous one is——or not.

Then these words came into my mind:

No regrets

No grudges

Living life the very way your heart wants, gently. Doing things that make your eyes sparkle, giving hope and warmth

A clean open pure heart

Being in love

Only love love and more love

Everyday every minute every moment . To live love , in love. And to intend everything from it. Act out of it.

Be it.

I am reminded of what HuaiHao said this morning. We were lying on the bed and I asked him what is it I should explore.

He said “nature”

But “ not see it but be in it. Because seeing it is different from being in it”

I recall what Yongey Mingyur Rinpoche said, that the opportunity to begin again is in each and every moment “

Let’s try this!

And I just have to share this here again from teacher Stephan

“Just one of these bursts during the flight…

Human Beauty
Comes from
Love and Courage
For life

Have great day”

Inspirations From A Run (II)

Inspirations From A Run (II)

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It’s amazing how being in nature can be. It’s not just healing but feeling part of something bigger

(I) divinity

I was trying to contemplate again on the divine. A while ago, I remember I asked myself if I believed there is god or divine? And not just knowing but feeling god or the divine?

In the run this idea came again. The idea that if this intelligence is the very one that is making birds chirp and giving them their spectacular colours of green blue yellow, it must be the same one to make me sing with joy.

(II) In place

In the run I saw a little worm suspended in mid air held by such a fine almost next to nothing thread of a web.

If this isn’t divine what is?

And in that place it is in place. Even there hung in mid air.

And even now where I am, I am in place.

(III) no reason

The idea that there is no reason for me not to be happy popped into my head. The same goes for contentment, satisfaction.

With what I have where I am, is there any reason for me to not be content or joyful? But instead of feeling grateful I was always judging and looking at more, it was my expectations my wanting more that is creating unhappiness.

But while people are rushing for work, I am having the opportunity to be out in the sun to work for my physical and mental body, to hear these thoughts and to check myself.

Is there any reason I shouldn’t be happy ?

Inspirations From A Run (I)

Inspirations From A Run (I)

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It’s been quite a while since I last ran.

As usual, I intended this session as a practice for me get in touch with my heart. And it’s wonderful what came out of it.

(I) open

Allowing and practicing how to keep open. Each time thought comes- and they do, come back to openness.

This involves the willingness to come back – again and again.

(II) intelligence

What makes the sky blue and the clouds white? What makes the birds and butterflies fly? I saw a squirrel and followed it’s path across the greens and up a tree- so light so lighthearted.

Some kind of intelligence up there that I actually have sense of but could do more with.

If this is the very thing that is letting birds fly then what is it doing to me, I m in the same space in the same intelligence as the birds and bees.

I tried to tap into and use this for healing

This very intelligence that kept me alive and rescued me countless times. It’s the reason I am here for.

How can we with with this intelligence more. We do not do this enough.

I realize once again I have been many chances and opportunities by the divine . I spring back once and again . To life, for life. There is something else I want to do , need to do.

(III) surrender

The fact is the body is a superpower capable of healing- and we have to do all we can to support it. The body is on our side, always.

As I try and work with this intelligence, I offered and surrendered my problems and issues and allow the divine to take over.

(IV) power

If we are all expressions of the divine, and the divine is in us, it follows that we have the inherent divine abilities

We have the power- we are so powerful. This power is precious.

But I took me so long to see this . That we have the capacity and capability to bless ourselves. And this is what I did in the last few nights at bedtime, blessing my body wherever needed

Bf was sharing with me about powers . He believes that we should live according to our DNA or our gifts. If we do otherwise, it will be like a fish out of water.

What is your water? What and where is your power?

He says that and it made me think about mine. All along he always chided me for being emotional and I am always so led by emotions, frequently led and misled. They are powerful.

And I haven’t really consciously used them as a power. What if I do?

What if I do?

(V) believe belief

What do you / I believe in?

I just sharing with bf that during my secondary school days I wanted so much to get out of the strata I was in that I did my utmost and become one of the three who would get into Hwa Chong in that academic year.

Bf asked me what is it about my strata. What strata ?

I told him what I saw at that age. An age wheee womenfolk had to do their husband’s bidding and had no place . An age where my parents had to bow down to authority. An age where people felt they had no choice. An age of a lot of powerlessness and where parents had to submit and say “this is life” when they felt like they had no other choice

Even as a kid, I did not like hearing that

We have choices but we too often gave it away

I wanted to have choice I wanted to have freedom I wanted to decide for myself and I did my best with a silent resolve to get out. To get out of any situation where I would choose like my parents did.

To me then, to get out means to strive for a better life where there are other possibilities, at the very least, possibilities other than what I then have.

I believed in myself in working hard and being focused on my goals. And true enough, I got what I wanted.

And bf asked, “ so if you believed so much in yourself where did that believe go?”

I recounted the time in JC when dad started to ask for financial support and I started to care badly for my school

Now instead of blaming him, I could see that I made the choice yes I , to choose the east way out rather than push on, choose to submit and found myself back at the “strata”

And now I could answer what teacher asked- what did you not like about pinyen.

I did not like me giving up – on myself. Then.

I wonder now how it would have been if I pushed on.

Yet not any step of the way I have come is wasted.

The path I have taken has been so blessed by people angels buddhas god the divine and they have all supported to now.

And the questions I ask now – are not any different from the ones I asked when I was a teen . The desire to get out is the same.

Ah Siong Hia (I)

Ah Siong Hia (I)

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I woke up to a beautiful morning.

The sun is about to pop up on the horizon and the sky is a million colours all at once so soft so graceful so beautiful

Like an affirmation that Ah Siong Hia is at peace and all is good.

Still I felt not knowing how to make sense of this all. Is it important to make sense in r is it important to honor these feelings?

While I accustomed to finding out, I am once again reminded now- as I write that honoring the feelings are important. It’s being in the moment and acknowledging them – not bypassing them. And, we do not need to know everything so we?

On the bus, I asked my husband how to make sense?

And he says, “ that’s because you did not accept it. I see death as part of a cycle of life. If you can be happy when a baby is born, why can’t you be happy now? It is because I accept it as part of life part of the cycle.”

I asked him so what is life for?

And he tried to explain it to me- like how people reduce it to living meaningfully with a purpose but punctuated it with, “ this question you have to ask god”

And I asked him if he don’t know, how to live life well?

In the midst of it on the bus as we spoke, the sun was shining in and I asked it for light love strength and energy .

I want to use this opportunity to get pass what I did not manage to . Instead of falling back on tears emotions and feeling sorry, am I capable of feeling something else?

Can I find something meaningful or beautiful to celebrate even in this occasion or event?

And suddenly- just suddenly, it appeared to me that this is a graduation ceremony of sorts.

Ah Siong Hia has graduated from the school of life. Devoting and committing to it as best he can, learning all he need, seeing all and being with all he has come to life for. And he made the courageous decision to leave when the time has come for him to, out of love for the people he loved.

In the way he lived – like a doting brother .

Thank you Ah Siong Hia. For all you have done for us , for loving me like your own sister. I have come to celebrate your life. Rest in peace.

And What Is It About YOU That YOU Do Not Like

And What Is It About YOU That YOU Do Not Like

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Have you ever wondered? If you like yourself enough/ at all?

Bedtime with HuaiHao . And I told him about my meeting with teacher Stephan.

I told him it made me happy today to catch an old friend , teacher, guide and to have a meaningful conversation

I told him Teacher pointed out to me how powerful my mind is and that everything that I need is with me.

And he always believed in me in my power in my capabilities ——- more than I do. He said I had the gift of expression and I could express myself really clearly. His words were “you could pronounce them clearly”.

He reminded me of the importance of feeling and to just be just allow. To surrender and to trust.

He suggested that I recognize and accept my story and more importantly integrate it into my life. There’s no good no bad no need for judgement. Just me. He asked ‘what do you plan to do with them’ with these experiences? He said there’s so much I could give to the world and he is certain the time will come.

Did you ever think that you could do something with your experiences?

I told HuaiHao all this. And that teacher appreciated me for who I am.

And I told HuaiHao it felt good because he made me see that I have been too harsh with myself.

To which HuaiHao said, “ you have too high expectations “

We agreed we should cherish ourselves more and HuaiHao asked, “ maybe you don’t like yourself?”

What was amazing was that in the afternoon when I met teacher , he put that question to me too. He asked, “ what is it about pin yen that you do not like?”

I like that question. He got me thinking . Do I like myself? Did I subconsciously not like myself? What about ?

When HuaiHao asked me Thye same question I asked him back why he thinks I do not like myself. And the little wise one said, “ because you like qin cai qin cai ( meaning : careless about yourself)”

Like when I served them dinner and I would plate it nicely for them but for myself I would make do.

I always did. I always put myself last and my family infront.

And it was apparent to the little one that I did not take care of myself . To think he saw

I thought back again if I did not like myself in some ways

And yes- the times I liked myself were too little. Lesser than the parts I did not like. I was wanting perfection. I did not like parts of me that were not perfect not beautiful. I always wanted to “heal” them dissolve them. Like where the keloids are and these were kind of connected to painful times – maybe I haven’t really appreciated them for what they are . And- so much time has passed.

And I don’t seem to have integrated these experiences. Would the time be now?

And Qinzhi is reminding me that I m skirting the issue — with her dizziness .

A few days ago Qinzhi had another bout of dizzy frenzy and while I was worried and landed myself in fear, I took the chance to pause that moment and tuned in. I asked Qinzhi why she didn’t want to go to school and she said she needed time to do her work, she wanted to stay at home and be with me, and she was dizzy because she felt stressed

She knew it

And while I shared with her how she could bravely face it in her stride and be open to it all, I m once again reminded that I could also apply that wisdom to myself. Instead of trying to control and manipulate, did I stay open?

Her mode was to run into dizziness and how is that different from me?

At bedtime I told HuaiHao about this and the little one said, “you have to know that this is how everyone ‘s body reacts differently. Like papa goes in to his cave, I cry. Everyone does it differently. “

I asked him if he has any suggestions for Qinzhi on how to improve and he says , breathe.

And I get it. I get that if i want to be convincing and for my words to carry strength , I have to be that. Be open

That’s where the magic is

To open up to the present.

Teacher was sharing with me how he loved going back into nature and the moment he saw a bud blossomed. When he said this, I felt myself in the woods with him, I was also observing the opening up of the bus. It was so beautiful I teared and warmed up.

In that moment my heart center opened up and that was extremely beautiful and divine. Humbling.

That feeling was a great teaching in itself. So many lessons were learned , most of all what it feels like to be open.

In that a precious connection , first to teacher and to the opening blossom. And the world around.

And what is it I can do with my experiences?

Of late it’s been- a movie. To talk about it. Perhaps one way to get on with it, get through it is to talk about it, use it in whatever way beneficial to myself and others.

I can. I know I can.

Feeling The Divine

Feeling The Divine

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Do you think/know/feel there is a greater/bigger hand up there with a plan?

If so, what is the relationship with this hand?

I kind of was asking myself the question a lot of late

Quite a number of people around me talks about a divine a god a creator who has a plan for us all. But this isn’t something you get to know by instructional knowledge. It’s something you feel for more than anything else.

2 days back as I was walking towards my hairstylist’s , I thought to myself , what plan is in place and is getting curious.

“I must be following your plan right? I heard myself say. There must be a reason for this.” As I m walking it. I mean I kept seeing these numbers 1111, 222,1221, 1414

Content around Angel numbers say these are messages from the guardian angels and it means you are guided . I sometimes wonder what is the path

This morning in my run, I asked what god or the divine wanted me to know right now.

And I asked myself to open up to this run.

And the response that came back was, “ let go”

I realized how much of a control I am and how things were tough because I exerted control or wanted to control. And how things changed whenever I let go.

For when we have the idea to control, we are using our limited awareness, capabilities capacities to reach something . And that could a diversion or a thwart to the bigger plan.

We close off all other possibilities when we have the eye or mind for just one. The world becomes smaller and we coop ourselves there

While it’s not difficult to see this, it can be complex when we want to practice this . The habitual pattern of clinging and wanting to do something is often called out . And with the reinforced habits of having controlled, it’s way easier to choose control over letting go again

On another note as I ran, I tried to feel for my core and found something propelling me. That’s what beneath the breath, the support for my breath. The only thing I really have. That’s life force or divinity — that which is always propelling me forth.

ITS there!

I try to keep all else away but that in my awareness and to feel it . It is always with us, but with all perceptions beliefs values emotions …layered upon it ,

How many times have we heard—- that we are expressions of the divine and how the divine is in us ?

And do we believe this or know this? To establish this knowing , I think- start feeling. Just feel.

Your Place In This Big Big Space

Your Place In This Big Big Space

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I wanted to start out saying how did love go so wrong.

That was when I started running today. After so long I picked it back. And it was with a lot of anger, frustration, grievances, so so much unhappiness.

I wasn’t really able to do anything about it- as much as I read about all these practices of shaking, qi gong, and other somatic practice . They offered relief but I needed more. So I thought about running.

It all started with the kids going out at each other, arguing for seemingly nothing. And the hubby joining in to stop them but it went so wrong because he was in anger- read triggered. I was able to hold the fort for only a while. 2 days to be exact before everything came to me in full swing.

I could only understand it this way. All these years of practice helped me see everything outside of me is a mirror and happening to me for me.

There were some words the hub used that got me, such as explaining to HuaiHao that Qinzhi shouted because she doesn’t see other choices, such as saying how inflated the kids are thinking they are god or the boss. And how mommy did awesome at inflating them. The last few straws were him telling me to take Qinzhi to Changi for her sports meet because he is going for his walk. I didn’t like the idea of being left with no choice. And he said that it shouldn’t be that I open my mouth and ask for things and get it.

Why can’t I? If he loves me?

As much as I like it or don’t like it, there are lots to savour in this episode no, series.

The children were out of place, as rightly put by the hub. Inflated.

And I have been out of place- doing more than I should for them , overcompensating for my own lack in my own life where I grew and became so much more because ——mommy hasn’t been around.

I took that as a lack rather than as a fertile ground for growth. And in the event of it, I did what my mommy didn’t. I mothered my brother my family, being responsible for more than what a daughter could , I took it all upon myself and shouldered all the burdens on me.

And how is that novel? My mother did more than she could – she went out of her way, sacrificing her life for the family, putting herself last.

She became the leader. And I did. And Qinzhi did as well, she mothers HuaiHao and teaches him like a parent as in school, she triumphs and feel good when given a role of leadership—— all telltale signs of how strong the womenfolk in my tribe are.

This was helped by the lack of a stronghold of fatherly figures in me and my hub’s tribe. Father figures seem meek in comparison to the feminine counterparts. In my hubby’s case, the father figure was absent. Pretty much in mine too. And it also worked in the way when mothers are so strong, the fathers cannot show up.

The balance was thwarted and was even more distorted when we tried to compensate – out of love.

Or- was it to control?

Everyone was out of place. Everything was out of place.

And that made me so cross. Did I came back to the family 4 years ago for this situation now? What did I do or not do to bring it here? I feel so much pain.

And most of all, I couldn’t take the feeling of failing, failing myself.

And if we accept the premise that we all had the choice, I asked why then did I choose this path?

What was I thinking then when I made the choice? What was I wanting to explore?

And in my run, I heard back. One was love, what is love and what is love that is “right”? And is this love that has been “wrong”?

The journey made me open to love, how to love , what is love, tough love …./

The other answer I heard was I wanted to explore leaving on a high note or letting go at a high – which I have at the peak of my career 3 years back . And therefore I wanted to explore finding myself . Honestly, I haven’t been so unclear of my trajectory. I have been so focused and results oriented in school and at work. I went for it and took what I wanted.

But is that TPY?

As I ran, I heard the voice went- you wanted to explore taking off again.

YOU taking off. Not for any other. I heard this voice say, all the rest all the time that has gone by was to ready you for this flight. This take off.

And I am thankful for this opportunity. I know I am truly blessed. If not I wouldn’t be here to see this.

If not I wouldn’t have felt the love from source so clearly yesterday.

I asked actually: what is my relationship with god or the creator or Buddha?

If I have doubts , yesterday I clearly felt the love. The grace. The lesson was delivered gently and I am assured I have been supported and guided.

I came to know how (much) I erred . I was pushing too hard, controlling too much . Distorting reality and people and all this came right back at me. The pain and anger I felt of a distorted me.

And never have I want to “come back” so much.

To “come back” to my place – I guess that is what I want to explore going forward.

To come back to know one’s place. That day Qinzhi reminded HuaiHao : “ do you even pray to god? Do you even know there is god?”And HuaiHao retorted to Qinzhi: “ I do not live there.”

I remember myself reminding him how egoistic and prideful that is.

But now I see how these are all reminders for me.

To know one’s place radically changes everything. Every single thing about one’s existence.

I asked about my relationship with god and got a reply with the feeling yesterday, yes there is a HE HIM and a bigger hand up there- in control.

And never were we – once, in control. I lost sight and myself in this exercise and exploration of control. I was inflated and so were my kids. And the lesson was delivered to me so beautifully with so much grace at where went wrong with my kids showing to me. Grace grace and so much grace.

While I am still trying to map out and strike a balance between surrendering myself and taking initiatives, I know there is a plan for me which will work its way out in the right time.

Interestingly, a few opportunities have popped up in the last few days and I am still feeling my way with them.

Each of them seemed right in some ways and some were definitively not so me.

Which begs the question: who is TPY ? What is she here for? What does she want?

But in an almost dreamy state yesterday night, it came to my realization that in listening I learned the most. As a listener with an open heart, life happens to me in the most beautiful ways. In a bigger picture, in a receiver mode. I’m always giving and have difficulty receiving. But in that mode, life happens in miracles

I remembered looking at the night sky outside of the plane window on my way back from Seoul . A thousand thousand stars shine bright, each of them a sun and revolving around them an entire planetary system

I asked myself then: where is my place in this big big space ?

And I got my reply loud and clear. From my kids who answered me – by them being out of place speaking down to us at us——- I have been seriously out of place in this big big space .

I recently thought about beauty more strongly. Beauty in nature was what rescued me time and again. I thought about experiencing beauty and expressing it outwards in the hope of striking a chord. In the hope of connecting with another. Of saying out something (for) another who wouldn’t be able to put in words. Of being another’s voice. As much as I have been warmed by words of resonance, I want to pass this on and in so creating warmth and light for the purpose of having another feel uplifted enough and feeling hopeful enough to try again.

And I ask for guidance each step of the way. To show me the path.

In which I will be living my highest, joyfully blooming and shining bright in HIS plan, as an instrument or medium relating or translating his messages.

WOW

We all know what we want

We all know what we want

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I had a bedtime chat with HuaiHao and it’s so precious and enlightening all at once

He commented that I was tired mentally. I asked him why and he said, “ maybe you over did the job search”

Indeed, I was feeling tired and drowsy and I had a pain in my left shin. Dull aching one nagging at me

Why is my body trying to say to me? I asked.

Earlier on I had home for an interview, and I guess there were parts of me not being truthful with myself. I was trying to suppress some parts and that surfaced.

I didn’t really want some things in that job chat session and I wasn’t speaking my truth. I tried to suppress the feelings of dislike and make myself – no force myself to it in desperation to get myself out of the house

HuaiHao rightfully spotted my tired. I told him I was kind of frustrated because I have t got any headway as I went about sending out job applications

To which he said, “ then that’s because they are not yours.”

He made it sound like I should be happy.

And actually his sense of knowing is so great he put me to shame

He made me know that I got to acknowledge my feelings rather than suppress them in my frenzy to escape and get out

And HuaiHao stopped me and asked me – so what do I want

“I don’t really want to go back to full time”

“Yes I think you will feel very tired”

“I think something which allows me to do something I like, spend some time out of the house , expressing myself and my experiences, and if it can help others and is meaningful that will be very nice. Because I want to be home for you and jiejie, even if I don’t cook very well, I want to give you good food. I want to be the first one to share your joy if you get 100 marks for ting xie and spelling!”

And HuaiHao got me my answer.

He said that even heading to curate programs for wellness isn’t really me.

So I asked him what is me.

And he says, “ like what ah Mei ah yi does. Reviewing something upon receiving. That is what.”

And yes. Being an editor a journalist is what suits me best. And

I knew it.

Thank you HuaiHao!

And precious Qinzhi sent me this

Magical Europe (II)

Magical Europe (II)

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6 Jan

We rose early and hopped on the train to Paris.

But the gains we got by arriving in Paris at 10am was somehow made up for by a train we took to zone 5 down south of Paris w hi Ole gunning for our hotel in zone 2

I didn’t know why I booked that hotel- and only realised it’s so far away from the city center after payment was made

And then while making our way there we took a train which took us southwards before looking back west to Versailles chantiers

But I was hesitant to think that this is a mistake

And it made me see why. While bf was fussing over the error and worried I was all chill and relaxed. With him around, I can relax

It once again made me see what I have taken granted for – while complaining about it what I don’t see I want, I forgot about what a lot he has provided for – so I can be this way

He said, “ it could have been so near but we took the long route”

I was reminded of the bliss happiness the everything we have up close but we did not see because of our own myopia, we kept chasing for what we don’t have and forgot about cherishing what is with us

What is love ?

We took a walk at arc de triumph , champs de elysee, and all the way down to the le marais

He kept saying that he does not like the city and there is nothing to like it

He was asking why I would like this city and I was thinking to myself: I like it because when I found something nice , I wanted to share with someone I love

That culminated in this trip

But we finally got to Paris and I am certain he will find something nice