You are for a reason
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Cherish the unique point that You are
Category: Inspiration
Moving
On hindsight, I realised I didnt know enough then when I let my flat go.
Its now—when people ask me, that I realise the meaning of moving.
My HDB Flat . We got this flat and then got married and had Qinzhi and Huaihao. We have been here for 12 years.
Was it one month back? We let it go—–without even knowing where we will be next.
It came from a simple thought, that the kids were growing up and needing more space, we wanted an opportunity to set things that were not so right—-right. For example, a proper kitchen. A proper bedroom, everything in place at the right place. it seemed something basic, but pretty difficult to find in land scarce and expensive Singapore.
We wanted to upgrade. To a bigger space, a quieter spot with less disturbance of traffic, with a more pleasant environment, with proper space for the kitchen, the living area, and bedrooms.
But now—-as friends ask me—–it began to dawn on me that it is much much more.
As in, it’s precisely because we need—— and we have called out ——-that is why the universe, upon hearing us, have given us the opportunity to move, to shift.
It goes to show that what we have now cannot serve us any more, whether it be the space, or lifestyle or how we have lived.
It means it is timely or the time has come. It means we are ready. As if we have passed a certain test. And we are elevating together————-as a family unit.
But interestingly, the new hasn’t come yet
And I also think it’s because we havent firmed up or aligned as a family, we havent concretised together —-as a family, what we want enough yet.
And opportunities are there.
In fact, I m thankful for the time, we have been given as a family to ink our realities together. What do we want together? What are we looking out for —together? What can we learn and how can we grow together—-with ease and with joy and happiness everyday?
Up somewhere in the air, there’s a lot of space, and opportunities we can harness for creativity and cocreating together—–within ourselves, as a family, and with the universe.
I am just thankful for this opportunity but just dont really know how to go about it.
Going with the gut feel I guess, and with blessings and inspiration from the divine.
And more opportunities came.
A friend has asked me to start out a business in the line of my passion—-vegetables! Its a whole new realm, something I have not dabbled before. I asked John about it, because he once told me my path is spiritual, and is here to help people.
Just as I have done, settling back to myself , back onto the home front with my kids, and this opportunity came along to allow me room for growth and expansion. More so, to create. To build. To put my thoughts into reality.
All along, I have been holding back, I allow myself to be held back, I create situations to hold myself back.
John has this to say: “you are given a mission to educated chefs and food industry about conscious eating, everyone keeps talking about selection of ingredients. but do they really know about the selection of ingredients? the selection of ingredients starts from soil. if soil quality is not good, ingredients remain superficial. If your soul can channel this kind of work, there will be a lot of such opportunities coming to you, because you are really doing good for society and earth. I really want this to experience this for yourself, there will be a lot of benefit If you do good, If you take on this mission to educate people. People who eat in restaurants are also families, if you can help them eat well, you will have a lot of benefit in future.”
I asked him further: it seems i just started to go spiritual and healing on my own and now I m going back. How do I know if this abundance is for me or just to check my faith in going spiritual?
His reply is great as ever: “what makes you think spirituality is separated from business or business is opposite of spirituality. Its how you drive yourself in an area such that people benefit. Spirituality is not separating from day to day mundane things. Its not separating yourselves high up away from people”
What is stopping me?
I asked myself. Maybe just — not stepping up to it.
Thinking I cant, I am not deserving, I am not worthy.
I have been shying away all this while. The Michelin experience was great to position me a t a level befitting of my calling. But it is not what I really want or is good for me, and so the opportunity came for me to bye it away.
And I realised. In me telling myself I cant, doubting myself, giving excuses of being not enough, I have created all sorts of circumstances to stop myself from rising to the occasion.
In health, I created circumstances of lack. Sub par. Emotionally and in my marriage too, I created my own sub par reality. If anything, the person who would take responsibility for this reality is me.
Out of ignorance, speaking to my lower self, reinforcing habits and not having had the awareness to look beyond or deeper, i have circumstances reinforced my habits and belief system.
I brought myself here.
And all the recent changes opened me up to a new path, its like light at the end of a tunnel.
I just couldn’t see back then.
But now, i have been the one to create these realities. And I take full responsibility for all the emotional upheavals and rides I have been through.
Time and money or life that has been lost.
Is there regret?
No, because that’s the way I learnt. The path I chose.
And now I find myself standing at the end of the road. And given a priceless opportunity to choose my future.
And choose I will.
A departure from how we learned as a family in the past————-
I ask for a house so full of love , so perfect for all of us, that will allow us to learn and grow with ease together. We learn and grow in happiness and in joy. A house rich in abundance of well being, vitality, great energy, peace, joyful, harmony, wealth. We have all that we need to bask in our abundance so as to share our light and the truth of our being, so as to inspire change and make a meaningful difference to others.
Simply by living our truth and our abundance. By being the living example of what life really is or means.
What does it really mean to be in alignment with yourself? To be authentic?
The following videos have been pretty instrumental in culminating my thoughts.
In essence, once our vibration reaches a particular level we would be like messengers translating a higher wisdom using our own language to our fellow earthlings
Now I know why I had the chance to see the bashar video!
Surrender x Believe
We know these words too little
I watched Michael Beckwith. And probably because of that—- I heard also the echo of surrender
It occurred to me- to surrender to this silence, even if I was still angry and frustrated—— still, surrender
Trust surrender
Since I can’t do much or anything else
Surrender
Believe in surrender
It means entering a space that allows anything and there’s no tightness or control over outcome. There’s space.
There is one other thing that came up, one reason why I have been going round—— what is that I was to learn?
Alot of people say , there’s something bigger than oneself at work
Which I totally agree
But my thoughts were that, I have been deciding and judging or acting based on my own world views experiences emotions and now I realize there’s a huge gap between what I think ( and these determine my actions and experiences in turn) and what is reality
For one, there is another’s beliefs thoughts emotions ideas perspectives to consider
There are other things bigger and smaller ones other my myself
And I have to leave some space for that
Believe
As I inhale Believe, I wonder why John asked me to.
But as I inhale Believe, messages keep popping up.
Today it’s : I believe there’s the divine , looking after me and all. Today more importantly, there’s a feeling of what it feels to rest in the divine . A feeling that alls well and I can rest indeed and not actively want to orchestrate anything because even so that orchestration would be out of a need or a lack or from a space that has limited awareness
I believe there’s divinity and divinity taking care of things
I believe I m (an expression) of divinity and so is everything that has happened . More importantly, it’s how it feels. It feels like again I can rest and accept, the sense of control is loosened and the sense of gratitude—- heightened
I believe, that divinity flows through me
Michael Beckwith’s Sharing
Had the chance to watch Michael Beckwith speak and he sharing a number of good points
Sometimes , a crisis happens ——To let us know we r living our life too small
Is there an idea of who you r going to be back at the idea of your head that you r postponing because u think it is not realistic
I had an idea that I would be very successful, having a reputation being somebody at the top of a profession or Creme de la Creme.
At the top
Very successful
Very wise
Very much consulted
Who people would look up to
And I have it all
Health and well being
Happiness
Joy
Success
Family
Wealth
Freedom
Blessings
Stages of soul development
1. victim consciousness: something outside yourself determines your destiny Eg god. There’s a big blame story . Life is happening to me
2. Manfesitor Consciousnesses : learn the laws of universe that thoughts r units of energy that transmute themselves into speech behavior experience —- we learn affirmations, declarations, decrees, creative visualization . Learn how to use imagination and take imagination realm back. Imagine a different kind of life . Beautiful wonderful Exercise of imaginary skills intention language until you have a sense of belief that life is coming up for you and not against you . pple become aware how they visualize the worst case scenario of what they didn’t want. People learn that they often pay attention to what they don’t want than what they want . You learn that life is on your side. Life is progressive. You learn how to manifest. Life is happening by me.
3. You become a channel for life to express itself though you . Unlimited power energy creativity. There’s yielding allowing letting go . Previously it was making things happen. Now it’s allowing. Localizing a cosmic possibility
By me- masculine
Though me – feminine
Reclaiming letting surrender
It’s about a part of you that is emerging- unfolding unfolding unfolding
We yield to it
4.
One with life
We are Emanation of this life just as wave is an emanation of ocean, sun beam is emanation of sun
Same quality
Omnipresent
Omniscience
Omnipotent
Moments in meditation or visioning that this separation between you and life dissolves and you realize your life is indeed the life of this presence
The luminosity of your own being
Light of your own soul
Taste your potential
More generosity creativity wants to flow through you
But it’s all without a sense of attachment
Moving beyond manifesting and wanting
3 Ideas
True Manifestation occurs when there’s a shift at the soul level
Soul wanting to be better rather than wanting something
Regular manifestation is just getting or feeling the inquisitive appetite
Individual soul is evolving
Oversoul is unfolding and bliss comes Bliss is the activation of our potential when we become more of ourselves
2.
We come here with an imprint and until we have come out of it we want things form an immature perspective
Mature wanting comes from clarity of who we are and what we are becoming and what we want adds to is delivering our gifts talents capacities
Things we want become an extension of an expression of our soul
True want comes from the depth of our being – the indestructible multi dimensional soul of who you are- I want to be the best me that I can be
When you expand your awareness the things you are trying to manage are handled
3. The Power is Surrender
Surrender is not raising a white flag
It’s coming into a space of non attachment not detachment
Letting the outcome form itself
Surrender to a joy beauty that is beyond comprehension
Surrender makes you powerful pliable
There has to be deep and abiding willingness
To heal your body
Begin with gratitude
Become aware
Spiritual Shapeshifting
Place attention on an area of your life which is working for you

Notice increase in power increase in energy
And then shift that energy into an area of your life which is vibrating slower
Move the wonderful energy to where is in need of healing and see the area becoming better
That’s not just skin and bones that’s vibration
Asking guides for help
Creating My Future
I was speaking to Sasha over WhatsApp sharing about what I have been busy with——It seemed mundane but the extraordinary popped out of the ordinary.
So after living in my flat for 11 plus years, we are moving.
Sasha asked me what prompted the move and whereabouts I will be off to?
I said I m not sure yet! will bunk in with my maternal family first and i guess i need to have a vision first before the house will come. so what an exercise in creating the future huh! and grateful for the opportunity
I told her that at first we wanted more space as the kids are growing up and some practices such as not having own space, await to be revised.
but now to me, it really seems as if its an opportunity for me to—as i write — create my future, to have an opportunity to set things right, or maybe just, live the way i want/intend,
And in a way that is as close to the way i would like, to be aligned truly to what i feel deeper down. maybe subconsciously i intended to change , so the opportunity came!
The universe is at work.
The universe heard my call to reinvent myself
And it came with this reply as we sold off our flat and the new space hasn’t yet shown itself
Coincidentally (but in life , really, is there coincidence?), I saw a webinar hosted by Unsinkable’s Sonia Ricotti. She put down some points to show how we can make changes and one of the exercises was, what is your dream?
Yes. We forgot to dream. And dream BIG we forgot.
We forgot to heed that voice in the heart, always relinquishing it further , replacing it with something we think work much easily. We forgot magic! We forgot magic can happen.
So this I wrote :
My dream
is to have a nice house facing the sea.
Nice spacious white house, with all the space and fittings, support and resources I need for holistic clean and green living. Living that does not give pressure or burden to the earth nor myself. This house and the lifestyle I pursue best expresses me and the deeper of my soul’s pursuits , helps myself become light , become a light being, and also my loved ones. Like never before.
My health is in the pink and rosy, like never before
The cyst has disappeared, the keloids gone.
And there are no scars at all, there are NO SCARS AT ALL, there is not any clue to their once existence.
I have baby like skin, soft and tender to the touch, I radiate light. I glow from within, I m peace and at peace and ease. There is harmony within me and outside of me.
Because I m reconciled with my past and all of its experiences, and i now use them consciously to help myself and others become better.
I have become a life coach in my own little way, sharing my experiences
I dig into my experiences and tell others how or what I have done to change the quality of it
My other love is making videos that expound the values and beliefs of TPY, i have created a brand for myself. Better than this, the videos go a long way to touch and light up another’s life, inspiring another to look within and to bring out a better and better version of themselves.
They accept their truth like me and transform like me.
I see how the universe’s resonance and synchronicity works it’s magic that when we open up others are invited too on the same journey to be our authentic best
I m earning enough if not more than enough to spend as I wish on myself and others. Wealth is flowing and I m grateful
I find myself material things that echo my beliefs – artisan, handmade, honest genuine and authentic buys that support me
It is the best ppart and really the best days I have ever experienced that will go on for a very long time.
I have reconciled all worries and fears. I understand how and why they have come into my life and I m aligned with the universe and its abundance, its expression, its flow.
I m skilled at reiki and in touch with the divine’s blessings. I reach out for ease and receive with ease. I m open to receiving and giving and is grateful and appreciative of the connection and support.
Relationship with my children, my husband and my father is great, like never before.
Everything is ——–Like never before
I take in all the goodness and savour and appreciate each and every inch of it, and I share it outwards.
I have become aware and even more
The second exercise is—-Write out your own declaration
And this is mine: I dont know why I m experiencing all these, going through all this, I still have not figured out why I keep getting stuck in all of this.
Again and again, and again.
Until when?!
My grandparents, my parents, probably my ancestors and now me. Is it not enough?!
YET! I do not believe I will be stuck in this forever, I BELIEVE I have a way out, and my kids wont have to go through all I have, I BELIEVE I know the way out to resolve and reconcile all I have, and all the health issues emotional issues, relationship issues, money issues, people issues, judgmental issues——-will be gone in a whiff.
Some other points she mentioned :
-Reprogram your conscious mind
its the thought you have about an event that is not resolved and holding you back
Awareness is the first step to transformation
every situation has a silver lining
doors to take you to next level are always there , to turn things around but you are not open to these
all you have to do, to reprogram your conscious mind is to ask yourself-what m i thinking right now
you become aware of your thoughts
they are just thoughts and we can change those thoughts anytime we want to
they are not reality
in one part of your life that is not working, what is the story i have been telling myself again and again ?
your beliefs are determining your results, shift to empowering positive beliefs
money flows freely easily from everywhere
-Reprogram your subconscious mind
-Elevate your vibration to above 500 level
like attracts like
positive thoughts attract positive things and ppl into your life.
let go of the past, they are just thoughts
it happened in that moment but now its just a thought
but we are living it over and over again and the body is still feeling it and doesnt know its not happening
the future is a thought too
the only thing that is real is the present
forgive yourself and others
connect to higher self
You have all the answers, they are there within you. amidst all the fog and chaos. you just need to quiet down and listen
Conversations With God
Had the chance to watch a video featuring Neale Donald Walsch and these below have well been one of the nicest things to hear. So nice, it makes you feel privileged and lucky to be where one is now, despite it all.
Its not just what he says, its how he says it.
So you need to look within
You need to go inside
You need to go deeply into your interior
And see if your soul resonates and harmonizes with what has been brought through
And if it does
Live it and demonstrate it
And walk in your life through it
But if it doesn’t
If anything you see there does not resonate then throw it out
Give people back to themselves
Don’t you dare walk by or walk through the life of a single person without making them feel better about themselves better about who they are and fully aware of their magnificence and of the wonder who they are. If they gift they are just being in the room
Awaken the species
Get out there whoever’s reading this material and everyone else who’s been exposed to these messages
Use what you have now come to understand if you have fully expanded and truly explored new possibilities that you haven’t thought of 20 years ago
If you r really now there and really now ready
Then awaken the species
Tell everyone what it is that you have come to know and understand because the world is now desperately in need of awakening
Shift from infancy to early childhood early adolescent
We r in our innocence misbehaving
We r not a cruel species not a mean species but sometimes like little children we act mean
Because in our youthful embracing of all the data that’s coming in all the stuff we have not dreamed before
We r finding ourselves faced with information that we don’t know have to deal with cloning animals reproducing animals without doing it the normal way
We don’t have the moral underpinning the spiritual construct to support
And we somehow have to find a way to integrate
A newer understanding of god of life of ourselves a grander notion than we have ever imagined and integrate that with technology science medicine
We r on the two yard line
It means we have a long way to go and that is a blessing
In a cosmology of sentient beings we are just children
And that’s a blessing because this gives you an idea of what humans are designed to be
We r just just barely beginning to realize our potential
Highly evolved beings
Our universe is 100 times larger than we thought
Our universe is one of a universe of a universes
We r not alone in the cosmos
There r sentient beings living in the cosmos
There r highly evolved beings s in the understanding of who they r and what life is all about so far that they have taken it on their mission to nurture and assist the younger species
They are assisting us and bringing us information in a variety of ways – insights awareness ideas storylines thoughts
They r placing it in front of us in a variety of ways allowing us to step into tomorrow
That’s what they r inviting us to do
They r inviting us to speed up the process.
Evolution does not have to be a one two three four five … progression
It can be two four eight sixteen thirty two progression
It can be exponential
Highly evolved beings have eliminated violence completely from their civilization
No verbal emotional physical violence of any kind
They would never dream of harming or injuring on purpose to another simply to resolve a conflict
We r so primitive on this planet we have yet to figure out a way to resolve our differences without differences
Deep down inside like all of us you are a wonderful person
There r pple who love you
There r pple who you love
You r no less wonderful than I m but you have had a tougher life situation
There r other ways to experience the wonder and glory of who you are
Give me your deep soul promise
I m not going to report you
I m going to give you a chance to report in—- to yourself
Who m I really ?
Are you in such a tough situation that you violate your inner being
There I go again exercise
There but for the grace of god go I
No there for the grace of god go you but there because of the grace of god you go
There you go again a thief again a wino again —— don’t you realize you see nothing but you , everywhere you look?
There you go being angry again
There you go being nice again
There you go being a person you don’t want to be again
Whether you r seeing the negative or positive side of life
You are not seeing anything but who you actually are mirrored back to you
Challenge you to go down the street the next 30 days
Whatever you see or whatever you are looking at
Say that to yourself- there I go again
There I go again being a coward
There I go again —— until you identify with all of it
Second exercise : I m
After you do the above , expand your awareness and say two or three words whenever you see anything, not just pple but a tree flower or trash, something pretty or ugly , just say these three words: I m that
Until you can identify with what you r looking at
I m that
I m that, I m
And when I see in everything I look at, a part and aspect of me. I finally got the truth
And it cause me to relate to the pile of trash the flowers in that garden,…it lets you relate to everybody in a different way
A way that says – you know what? I love you
I love all of this
What a glorious experience
I love it all and I refuse to condemn any of it
Judge not and neither condemn
And raise not your fist to heaven and curse the darkness but be a light unto the darkness that you might know who you really are
And all lives you touch will really know who they are as well because you came through their lives
There’s no such thing as a wrong decision
You haven’t made a wrong decision in your entire life
There’s no such thing as right and wrong
There’s only what works and what does not work given what it is you try to do
Right and wrong does not exist in the kingdom of god
I don’t want any of you moving through life to become suddenly worried that you are making a wrong decision
There’s no wrong way to do anything
Only what’s effective
My suggestion as a tool to move forward is – get clear: what are you trying to do
Broadly in your life, then reduce it to this year this month this time this day this hour this minute right no ask yourself as you move through life – what are you trying to do now
What m I doing here
When you get clear what you r doing in each moment of your life and why you r doing it your actions will arise spontaneously without planning and judgement
here’s a tool: life’s magic qns
Before you make a decision to do anything before you make a big decision like to move house or who should I marry or where should I work—- whether it’s a big decision or a small decision , ask yourself this life magic qns: what does this have to do with the agenda of my soul
If you aren’t clear what this has to do with the agenda of your soul don’t do it and get clear on that
The agenda of the soul is the same for every living being and that is this:
To use each golden moment of now to make an extraordinary decision to announce and declare, to express and fulfill, become and experience the next grandest version of the greatest vision you ever held about who you are
The agenda of the soul is to recreate who yourself anew in every moment in the next grandest version of the greatest vision ever held abt who you are
If you were to serve that agenda with every word every thought every announcement every decision every action your life would turn into an ongoing continuing never ending miracle
God- I have sent you nothing but angels
They are going to come before you and place before you the exact set of perfect circumstances and situations
Judge not and condemn not
They are going to come before you and place before you the exact set of perfect circumstances and situations allowing your to be who you really are at the next level up
at the next level up
at the next level up
To never be satisfied with yesterday’s decision
Any person that has come into your life
Any situation that has arisen
By any manner or means that has been placed before us is a gift from heaven
The purpose being to allow us to enter a contextual field to notice—– and to notice and to express , to experience and to declare, to become and to fulfill our grandest notion of who we really are
I mean by that
That in the absence of what you are not
What you are is not
If I m the light I can’t experience myself as the light unless I m in the darkness
Coz the darkness is what I m not
But in the absence of what I m not
That is in the absence of darkness
I can’t be what I m
Not just dark and light
Loving and not so loving
Good and evil
I have sent you nothing but angels means god has sent us or life , if you please
Has produced for us our souls are collaborating all souls collaborating jointly producing the exact set of circumstances situations and moments designed to give us a platform on which we can produce the greatest play ever known
And each person in their time playing many parts
Giving you a chance to decide who m I in relation to this guy
Who m I and what is my next grandest notion in regard to a particular event or circumstance
And then we bless him
Bless bless bless bless your enemies
And when a man slaps your left cheek turn and offer your left
And when a man ask you for your coat give him your shirt as well
We have all these answers told to us thousands of years
It is time for us to listen
Your life is not about you
I asked god what is the single one sentence that you want me to understand and embrace
Your life is not about you
It’s about everyone else whose life you touched and the way in which you touched it —- in a way that would allow them to experience who they are
Water
I think we have all underestimated the importance of water.
I used to interview top chefs from Japan who have come to Singapore to showcase their cuisine. And each time I asked, thinking they would be bringing in Uni, Wagyu, and all types of fish, they did not place importance on these prized produce
But spring water.
They would tell me its water they are specially bringing in from Mt Fuji, from Hokkaido or some mountain area.
Japanese cuisine hinges on the art of making dashi, and the chefs tell me time and again, that the water in Singapore is not good, smells like tar or is smelly.
So they import spring water for their cuisine showcase.
This got me interested into water. Its 70% in our body and we have been encouraged to drink water.
Found out on water, water having faces, water having memories, water structures .
One interesting resource I have encountered is the Water Peace Project, rooted on the beliefs and scientific findings of Dr Masaru Emoto. Sadghuru also talks about water.
These are some wonderful things I picked up!
Water has memory and responds to different people differently
Water needs to be happy
Water is looking at your attitude towards it
Drink at your body temperature, too hot or too cold and it disrupts the water system within
Conducting water properly
Leave it overnight for it to forget its memory , at least 30min to undo itself, never drink from a spout
Best way to drink water- Drink with own hands
Consecrating water n food- what we consume should be conducive to us even before entering us
Change the molecular structure of water
We can change the way the water bodies around us change
At home, I try to collect filtered water and letting it stand, i also use Rose essential oil on my waters. But more importantly, i try to inspect myself when i get to drinking my cup or when collecting water.
Even if it were brief, I believe that moment of awareness can change things.
It’s Okay To Be Not Okay
Watched Its Okay To Be Not Okay in a flash. This Korean drama revolves around a psychiatric hospital and the stories of its patients, doctors and nurses.
The main characters are a pretty children’s novel writer and a male nurse. It is not the first time the two meet. Many at times, at a first meeting, we know if we have met before, earlier, in this lifetime or many lifetimes before.
Have you had this experience before? This knowing when you met someone and realised you had met way earlier?
The two ill fated lovers had their share of emotional suffering. The pretty novel writer witnessed her dad killing her mother. Her novel her stories she write for children had inklings of these.
The male nurse grew up with an autistic brother, his mother once said to him, that he was born to take care of his brother. He lived his life hedging on that belief thinking he’s had to give up on many other things, and his life’s purpose and everything would be to spin around his brother.
How many of you had a certain belief that was inked onto your spirit? When I watched the drama it appeared clear to me, how easy it is to see, that you are not born for a certain something or to live a certain way.
But why is it so that its so difficult to maintain this alertness when it comes to reflecting on ourselves?
How do we close this gap? What is stopping us from realising?
The story goes to show so many pains that is etched on to one’s memory, for example, the male nurse in his childhood, was so traumatised by having no childhood and having to take care of his older autistic brother, that one time, he ran away while the autistic brother was on the brink of drowning. The autistic older brother reveals in an incident he remembered his younger brother wanted him dead.
But who would know how the younger child suffered or how much he wanted or needed love as well, rather than having to care for an older brother. As it turns out, the responsibility of having to care for his older autistic brother gets heavier when their mother is murdered.
The autistic brother remembers seeing a mutated butterfly brooch on the murderer’s outfit and have since been haunted by the sight of butterflies.
As the story unfolds, the beautiful novel writer falls in love with the male nurse, and the three got so close to form a family, but there’s a twist to this plot.
The male nurse came to realise, his mother was killed by his lover’s mother, who turned out to be alive and have gone through plastic surgery —–and has disguised herself as a nurse in the psychiatric hospital.
Drama it may be, but it did bring out a ton of deeper inner issues for me to see.
I see myself and my insides, seeing these subtitles as the plot unfolds:
Episode 1
Memories of hurting others and being hurt
Memories of being abandoned
Only those with such memories buried in their hearts can become stronger more passionate and emotionally flexible
And those can attain happiness
Remember it and overcome it
Or you will always be a kid whose soul never grows
Episode 2
Butterfly hug- cross your arms and hug yourself.
Self healing for trauma
Meet trauma head on instead of hiding behind
When life is unbearable the easiest is to run—-so true, how many times did we do this
Episode 4
What does the child in you want
Episode 7
When you are sad, cry
When you are tired take a break
I’m have been tied up for too long so I didn’t know how to set myself free
I cut off my leash
Episode 8
If I give all my stuff to other people what will I have left
Episode 10
Try to think of your own happiness in stressful situations
If you want others around you to be happy, think of your own happiness first
Episode 14
It’s ok to be not ok
You see, you did nothing wrong
We did nothing wrong
If you want to apologize for something you have to look with the person to say it
It’s rude to just say sorry without even looking at the person
A kiss is better than a fight
Just accept it
Then you will feel more at ease
Give me a hug
Pat me on the back
Episode 15
The one that torments you can also be the one that saves you
I’ll do everything I can to overcome and cope with what happened
Sharing Possibilities
Is there something you can dig out from your past, from the deepest of your realities ———to share?
Is there a possibility of opening up?A few days ago, I had this knowing. Its a strange feeling, strange enough to let you know a something is brewing. Like a mirror. Its clarity and knowing for sure. A calm that grounds you and lets you stand rooted, that keeps you where you are no matter how the outside is swirling.
What is that I asked?
Its knowing you are whole and can be joyful irregardless of anything or everything. Its joy as well reaching that point.
What culminated this knowing? I asked?
In my early meditation or maybe just contemplative me time today, I had an idea. A spark.
The cyst (and how it got here—— all my experiences) wants to be known. Not hidden.
I had been slightly worried about taking about it . Unknowingly, unconsciously, I took to hiding it.
The vibe the energy of this whole thing is sullen and down.
All I know is hiding, hiding my eyes before my glasses, when i used to work, i didnt give myself recognition. I was hiding and not acknowledging my authority, and I was hiding too much past and hiding behind my power behind these past.
But recently I had the chance to talk about it to my relatives as I shared with them the possibilities about plant power. And it felt good that I was sharing , it get good that I was opening up.
I couldn’t sleep last night because I heard a friend’s godfather had aneurysm in the heart. And he is a heart surgeon.
I knew plant power could offer him possibilities the medical world cannot. The phrase that came to mind was—- tell him about my cyst and how it shrunk.
I don’t mind telling him about it if this can open him up to new possibilities
And because of this thought, the cyst became a possibility a hope a positive
It wasn’t easy for me to reach this thought.
How about sharing and opening up further TPY? If it helps others? Not just the cyst but everything else and in between .
I had had the opportunity to see my past experiences as a wealth of resource I can tap into previously. But I haven’t had the chance to use it.
This morning sitting—— I asked, where is my deepest awareness? Can I locate it? Why does it look like? What possibilities does it show?
What is the deepest reality of my awareness? How else can I grow? What else can I do?
I think many.
And first—— the thought about sharing , well at least not hiding the cyst and therefore my past, popped up.
I chose hiding it unconsciously. Because that was the possibility, the sunken and deep seated energy that I was all too familiar because of my life’s experiences.
But I hadn’t known other possibilities.
But the cyst does not want to be hidden! So is the same for all the experiences that brought me here.
If I had any inkling and really looked upon my experiences that once gave me pain and suffering —— as my resource now , there is no reason to behave like I am now.
I would be using the cyst and my experiences. And that would truly be letting these shine as possibilities.
May I have the support of the universe in opening up and in the powerful completion of this transformation, to help myself and others.
Be Present With What Is Arising
I saw something so beautiful this morning I had to write it down
I was at the bus stop waiting for a bus—— to get out home to avoid what unpleasantness I experienced these last few days——- to get away from those emotions I have been trying to manage, yet don’t seem to be getting anywhere
So I get out
While waiting, I saw a Japanese mother and her young daughter waving at the opposite bus stop
And I followed their wave and saw another Japanese mother and her daughter opposite
This young girl at my end called out to her young friend xxx chan! As they do in Japanese. And the pair opposite waved back with all their might
The young girl opposite was trying to get her message across too
I saw the traffic lights turning green and the engines rating to go
And then the two girls who were trying to traverse the gap in between—— with what seemingly important things to shout across the road
How noce
It brought me a smile
Young girls and their wanting to connect—— with the distance in between
Beautiful isn’t it?
And I was pleased with myself for being able to get hold of beauty in this moment
And to be, just be with what is arising
Many times, we are so caught up with our emotions our past our own psychological drama our perceived pain and our interpretations we miss out our moments we miss out life
We miss out the real teachings in these moments offered by others
Thank you young girls , for wanting to communicate across the road, with all that power you have
Life truly is, and happens in the moments.
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