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The Wisdom of Trauma

The Wisdom of Trauma

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Trauma can be transformed . The energy of trauma can be changed. The work is upon us. The intention is upon us —- how to use our trauma.

This is exactly what Tibetan Buddhism has been focusing on—- transformation. And today I saw this in a movie on Gabor Mate.

https://wisdomoftrauma.com/movie/

Extremely powerful, beautiful and insightful, powered by Gabor Maté ‘s deep inquiry into his life and soulful voice no less.T

These are some quotes I picked up from the movie. Too much wisdom !

Working with trauma can reveal the beauty of our existence – we have lost sight of

Our job is to learn from our suffering

There’s Wisdom in trauma

Traumatic response is our imprint and not ourselves

We can work them through and become ourselves

Trauma is what happens inside you as a result of what happens outside you

Trauma is a disconnection

Because it’s too painful to be ourselves

It becomes a lifelong dynamic when pple don’t know what to do with emotions

When you feel you withdraw

You don’t follow gut feeling

Create situations of risk for ourselves

Affect mid frontal cortex of brain

⁃ affect how we deal with emotions pple

When pain is there as a child, they don’t know who to share with as a child

They disconnect

Children don’t get traumatized when they are hurt

Children get traumatized because They are alone when they are hurt

They are overwhelmed

Babies need fathers and mothers brain to regulate their brains

They need to be held

When baby isn’t being held he is not attached to

They can be attached only physically

They need to be held

Child is desperate for a relationship

For trauma to happen you just need parents who let child cry

Fear of being abandoned

When you do stuff for other pple what are you doing to yourself

(Abandoning me)

You absorb their pain and manifest it

And your family can’t stand you can’t stand seeing it

Child have 2 fundamental needs

-attachment

-authenticity : connection to ourselves to gut feelings

A survival necessity

What happens when you have to suppress gut and authenticity?

Normal Society doesn’t allow anger

Child disconnects fr anger

Helping child love thru anger to modulate anger and confront anger and not to suppress it

Anger does not have to be destructive

Brutal to push down the rage to judge

The depression was a major success not a failure

⁃ not wanting to get out of bed

Having Pain showed you deeper into yourself how you were abandoning yourself

Addiction

⁃ A behavior pple find relief in Eg eating shopping gaming work etc

⁃ Why the pain

⁃ Choice or inherited : When pple r suffering they want to escape that’s normal

⁃ Huge emptiness inside and Use addiction to complete themselves and cover up using substances

⁃ A response to trauma

⁃ To heal addiction heal the trauma

⁃ Under traumatized persona There’s a healthy individual who has never find expression and relationships where authentic humanic could be expressed

Are we conscious and making decision based on full awareness or driven by unconscious dynamics developed as a response to childhood trauma

Then we are not free

It’s not what’s wrong with us but what happened to us

Rae Mate

It’s got to b my job to heal Hitomi bring out that light

I believe that the Purpose of Marriage is to go back to to original trauma which comes fr the family

I married a man who is so much like my father

I have to be me

I have to be authentic

My nervous system is so wired that if I m not authentic to myself I can’t sleep I m anxious

Gabor mate

My scientific address has to do with my trauma

I woke up fairly late in life

The message I got as a child was that the world didn’t want me so what do you do

You make yourself be needed you go to medical school

That was an addiction

Asthma

⁃ suppressed rage so that lungs are

⁃ steroid

Inflamed joint

⁃ steroid

Inflamed intestine

⁃ steroid

⁃ Stress hormones: cortisol

Illness is when part of organism works against what is designed by nature to protect you

Treatment is always to burn it destroy it

But what if we say, it’s here now: what is the teaching? What does it say of my life my relationships and especially how I treat myself?

Psychedelic

Get the conditioned mind out of the way

And look at exactly, deep into yourself

Cancer

Suppress anger

Not having to disappoint others

Check in with your body when you express yourself and do things that deprive yourself of energy

Feels good to feel

This boy just wants to be loved and accepted unconditionally

And he figures out how to be loved and accepted

If u don’t allow your fear to be there

You gonna be always working to get rid of it and you gonna keep working

Or you could say

Ok the fear is there I let it be there

There’s a shift

Compassion and enquirer

Truth is inside us we just have to ask the right qns

Shame of negative emotions and that you cannot be weak

We don’t respond to what happens

We respond to our perception of what happened

It’s with our minds we create world

And we always choose the worst ones

Brain jumps to automatically

It goes back to childhood -First time we are hurt

Trauma – we don’t respond to the present

We respond to the past

So who’s the one who doesn’t care and respect ourselves ? It’s me

Thats the beauty of healing

the learning when we reframe things n see source within ourselves that’s liberating

If u r feeling this way or that because someone did smtg then u r a victim

But if you see the source

You r the source now you r powerful

Under traumatized persona There’s a healthy individual who has never find expression in his life

If he sees that he is trauma informed

It is not about healing trauma or getting rid of what happened but helping the person expand so there’s space

When we are compassion with ourselves it changes ourselves our community and society

Everybody as a true genuine authentic self can never be destroyed

Spiritual work for us both

Healing and still healing in a relationship

Inspiring how he’s changed

We got older

We got freeier and better and better

Dynamic emergent process of confrontation with truth

Trauma involves lifelong pushing down a tremendous expenditure of energy to not feel pain

As we heal that same energy is liberated for life for being in the present

Energy of trauma can be transformed into energy of life

I find these words from the makers of this film so beautiful:

May this little wave that stirred so many ripples through our shared ocean of awareness give us strength to continue on this journey of learning, investigating, and healing trauma in our bodies, in our social structures and in our tender world. May we continue healing, lest we pass it on to the next generations and to mother Earth.  

With this film, we hope to make a small step towards creating a more supportive culture where our challenges don’t need to live in the dark, where vulnerability is seen as healthy and encouraged, where physical and mental health are treated equally, because they are one. 

We hold the vision of a world that breaks free of the cycles of trauma and becomes more open and inclusive. It all starts with us, truly. It starts when we allow our wounds to teach us about listening, self-love and compassion and to remind us of the preciousness of life. Then truth opens our hearts and our innate wisdom begins to shine through our wounds.

Healing happens in connection, it happens in community.

Khadro-La

Khadro-La

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At my toughest, most helpless, I called out to Khadro-La

And I always always found something

The echo that came back today was magic

Tara organised a zoom, and seeing her, experiencing her was magic

She just had a way of opening me up, softening me up from the inside and breaking me down—in a good way.

Captured here some important things she brought up

1)emptiness and subtle understanding of dependent arising are 2 key themes

nature of mind as being clear and light

WHAT IS KEEPING US LOCKED IN SAMSARA ?

those that arise on AFFLICTIONS

WHEN WE UNDERSTAND SUBTLE DEPENDENT ARISING, WE CAN BE CLEAR OF WHAT IS GOING ON

WHEN YOU UNDERSTAND EMPTINESS AND DEPENDENT ARISING, YOU SEE BUDDHA NATURE

SEEING AS EMPTY DOESNT MEAN THEY DONT EXIST

2) FAITH OF CONVICTION TO PRACTISE

NO SENTIENT BEING WISHES FOR SUFFERINGS

We don’t want sufferings and others don’t want in the same way, we can develop this for all sentient beings

With view of emptiness as support, compassion can be broad and not one sided,

HAPPINESS IS DEPENDENT ON THE MIND-NOT HOW MUCH MATERIAL POSSESSIONS WE HAVE

3)CORRECT VIEW OF EMPTINESS, THEN OUR COMPASSION IS ONE SIDED, THEN OUR MIND BECOMES TRUTHFUL AND EXPANSIVE AND ACTIONS BECOME UNCONFUSED AND TRUTHFUL

4)TARA MANTRA 

-nature of tara mantra, is the congregation of all bodhisattvas and their wisdom and knowledge and ability to benefit others

-representation and manifestation of all buddhas

-union of emptiness and compassion: 

-have motivation and strong faith when reciting

-need faith not just reciting mantra

-strong faith, then blessing is powerful; no faith, no blessing at all

-make your mind vast

-unconfused mind, unmistaken, happiness will arise

-confused mind, suffering will arise

-nature of dependent arising 

problems are constantly arising, pandemic situation, smtg that proves cause and effect of karma 

as a world and collective community, focussing externally and neglected our home, get rid of dissatisfaction and complaining mind, 

if we want to create a world that is hospitable, we want to create a host of hospitable conditions or causes or plant the seeds that fulfill these conditions

there are many methods we can rely on to create happiness, use our intelligence to save ourselves

faith in tara should be a faith based in understanding

minds becomes vast, extensive, broad

this is the true meaning of protection and refuge

keep minds happy gentle and calm

SEEING KHADRO LA is healing in itself

She inspires with her very being and presence. How can I be like her?

Just mere presence and it softens one up and opens one up. I think this is a goal I can mindfully work towards.

So inspiring

The very miracle of being

Below, the prayer for Khadro-La, by Lama Zopa Rinpoche

SUPPLICATION OF LONG LIFE ENTREATING THE HOLY MIND OF KHADRO BUMKYE TSOMO, CALLED DIVINE MELODIOUS DRUM

The enlightened activity of the victorious mother for the sake of taking care Of all of inferior fortune born at the end of the greatly degenerate time, Taking an ordinary aspect, endowed with the deeds of the conquerors, Venerable Tara, we request you to have a long life

And pray that (your) wishes are spontaneously attained.

Your fame pervades the three worlds.
Liberated from the sufferings of bad migrations, attained to enlightenment, Bestowing the dharmakaya of great bliss to supreme Mila
Acting as companion and knowledge woman, Trashi Tsheringma
A long and stable life, spontaneous achievement of wishes:
We make this request. Please bless us:
We all make this request from our heart.

The channels, constituents and bodhicitta
Are blessed by countless dakinis.
Innate great bliss of subtle completion stage is induced
And one is established in the supreme state of the dharmakaya. Khadro Bumkye Tsomo, abide long!
We pray that (your) wishes are spontaneously attained.

We and all migrators since beginningless times

Have followed the bewilderment of true grasping, coming under the power of others.

By apprehending all mistaken appearances as true

We are oppressed until now by the ocean of sufferings.

Supreme wisdom seeing everything as empty,

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Namsel Drönme, abide in a long life!
We pray so that (your) wishes are spontaneously attained.

All the destitute migrators, bound by karma and afflictions: Although it is difficult to subdue them all, you generate greatly The mind of patience and compassion, Jetsün Dagmema. Lama Marpa’s secret consort, holy and supreme,

Abide in a long life! May wishes be spontaneously attained! Thus we pray respectfully from our hearts.

The Indian great pandit, kind to Tibet,
The Lotus Born: You blessed him!
Bringing to exhaustion the 84,000 afflictions
This holy Dharma is like the rays of the sun.
Great kindness pervading all the world,
Acting as a companion of great bliss: Supreme Yeshe Tshogyäl! Abide in a long life! May wishes be spontaneously attained!

We make this request. Please bless us!

DEDICATION (OF THE MERITS OF HAVING COMPOSED THIS PRAYER)

Having supported me with kindness since beginningless times For all migrators, destitute and oppressed by suffering
May venerable Tara act as spiritual master,
May they soon come to touch the ground of the four bodies. Followed in Tibetan by a colophon as yet untranslated.

From LYWA

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Call Your Power Back

Call Your Power Back

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“I allow myself to call my power back.” ⁣⁣

⁣⁣”I invite the power of my soul to join with me now.” ⁣⁣

Often when we get lost in the human dance, we forget the soul energy. We kind of cut it out. We’ve been taught to cut it out. ⁣⁣And the truth is we are soul and human, one and the same, and the soul is what’s lighting us up right now. ⁣⁣You might need to use both of those affirmations.

To be able to say the second one, you might need to say the first one. But affirmations are so powerful, and when we recite words, either an affirmation or when we create our own, it has the power to realign our mind.

⁣⁣- From the May 2021 Energy Update⁣⁣Watch the full Energy Update here: https://www.leeharrisenergy.com/may-2021-energy-update

Creating Your Desired Reality

Creating Your Desired Reality

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“Be a Creator, Not a Cult Member”
The 9D Arcturian Council, through Daniel Scranton

We are very particular about what we place our focus upon, because we only want to lend more of our energy to something that we would like to see more of in our experience. We only mention darker timelines and world wars because we know that others are talking about these things, and we want you to know that you don’t have to experience them. You don’t have to experience anything that you do not want to experience from now on, but in order to make that leap, you must be willing to take your attention off of what is not wanted and present in your experience and what is not wanted but has been predicted to be something that will happen in the future.

We don’t think we need to explain to you at this point that there is not one future, but we do want to explain a bit about the mechanics of reality creation. We mentioned that when something is focused upon, the being who is doing the focusing is lending their energy to that which they are focused upon. You are co-creating everything with some of your energy and some of the energy of something or someone else. You combine to co-create an experience together. In this way, you can co-create mass events. You can co-create weather. You can co-create so much that is good and wanted with your energy, the energy that is you.

You just have to train yourselves to put your attention on that which you want to become one with. You can always tell when you are putting your attention on something that you don’t want to become one with, because you feel that your energy is drained as a result. You feel weaker; you feel more tired; you have a headache. All of that is going to get more intense because you have to be more precise as the energies continue to speed up and as the time lag between creation and manifestation gets shorter and shorter. You become what you focus on; you don’t just get more of it. You are getting more of a creation that has you in it, because you are energy, and when you focus, you expend energy. You put energy towards that which you are focusing upon.

Again, be selective about what you are focusing upon, because you are creating it, and you are using you to create it. In your reality right now, you can look around and see the things that you are creating. Most of what you are creating in this now moment has nothing to do with what you are spending a lot of your time thinking about throughout your day. That means you are splitting your energy, because some of your energy is being spent on creating a reality for you to experience in the now moment, and some of it is off creating realities that you may or may not ever experience in the flesh.

If you want to experience something else, something different than what is in your immediate surroundings, then by all means, think about it. Put your attention, your focus upon it, and feel how good you feel when you become one with something that is wanted in your reality, in your experience.

Play around with this, because it is a good opportunity for you to feel into what some of your creations vibrate as when they vibrate. You want to get familiar with the vibration of your desires, not the vibration of what you are afraid of, what you think might happen based on what someone else is telling you. That’s not you creating your reality. That’s you getting sucked into someone else’s version of reality and agreeing to it because they’re more creative than you.

This is how cults are formed on your world. The cult leader isn’t just charismatic; they’re also creative. You all want to be creating on purpose from now on, because the stakes are getting higher, as you can see on your world right now.

Be very intentional, and also be patient, because even though things are speeding up, there is still a time lag, and you still have to wait for your creations to come to fruition. And we also want you to know that the positive creations come more quickly than the negative ones, because the positive creations have positive energy, and that always moves faster.

Align with Peace & Creativity

Align with Peace & Creativity

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“On a Peaceful Resolution” Sheila Reynolds and The Guides

In a Universe of unlimited possibilities, there is an alternative way of resolving difficulty and aligning with a creative solution.

The key is not in your Everyday Mind. It is not to be found in ruminating over what happened. You do not need to rehearse what to do in the future. The key is in finding your way to align with peace now.

Alignment with peace throughout your whole being moves your vibrations toward what you desire. Commit yourself to peaceful resolution and creative solution.

Acknowledge that you don’t know what to do and you certainly don’t know what will happen, but that you are Guided by peace. Commit to filling your being with peace and then there can be nothing but a peaceful resolution.photo: w pachoika

Your Guardian Angel

Your Guardian Angel

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Love this I read this morning!

“Everyone is allocated a Guardian Angel to look after them through all their incarnations. They are our loving companions, constantly watching over us.

Our Guardian Angels hold the picture of our Divine Perfection and constantly whisper it to us, impressing us with the HIGHEST choices we can make.Guardian Angels will constantly nudge us to remember the highest truth of who and what we are. More than this, if we wander off course, they will be there gently nudging us back onto the path.

Indeed, I have seen Guardian Angels of people and who see their charges making the same old mistakes over and over again, rolling their eyes and saying: “There they go again!”

Yet, their love is unconditional and thus will go with you no matter what you do, nor what happens to you.Guardian Angels can open the doors of new opportunities for us and arrange the amazing and magical synchronicities which are so helpful in our lives.

If you have difficulties with communicating forgiveness or understanding to someone, then you may call in your Guardian Angels and ask them to communicate with the other person’s Guardian Angels and ask them to talk to that person, and convey the desire for forgiveness, peace or dissolving of conflict. This works on many levels, for subconsciously that person will pick up the guidance from their guardian angels, and matters are resolved much more quickly. If the person is even at a great distance, then these matters can be cleared up. Indeed, you will often find that everything sorts itself out in amazing ways, and suddenly doors of communication open, which were closed before. Judith Kusel” http://www.judithkusel.com

So, who is the most important?

So, who is the most important?

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A while ago, teacher asked me this question

I said this:

“

I think the divine or god or the buddhas are important in this universe —to guide, bless and protect us

to remind us that we are in their image or that we also have buddha nature. To remind us about the wonders, the love, the compassion, the grace, the wisdom

but if i say this, it also means that each and every single one of us, are so very important in our own right.

that if we were to contribute our authentic rights and reveal our light, the universe would be a better place.

we are the ones to create our reality and therefore our experiences in this universe, we actually are a great determining factor ——we are way more responsible how this universe turns out and we are way more powerful than we know
so awareness!!!
and our collective experiences, memories, intentions, ambitions, wishes, doings, effort, will shape the world, the planet and the universe and determine where this all is going

so in this sense, each and everyone of us, is the most important in the universe

I asked myself if i feel this enough?

actually no, i would love to feel it and is not rushing myself into it

i think if i can feel this, acknowlege this, i will be a very different TPY”

And just now, I saw this:

So, who is the most important?

Grounding

Grounding

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Maybe I have neglected this of myself—-not tending to this need of my soul and psyche and 

That is why my body has been giving me all these hints of late—- panting, fatigue, exhaustion

To bring me back

And back I am, it feels really good!

I feel this pure simple joy and happiness once I am in touch with Nature.

A few nights ago, John said in a zoom that we should all continue to anchor in our own space. And so did Frances Fuller.

That they say: ticked 

What does it mean to remain in your sacred space? How to? Where is that space?

I tried to navigate and experiment

In the broadest sense, it is to draw a boundary beyond which nothing can intrude and touch you

You remain unfazed—— in the wind

Those few days of fatigue made me realise a few things

  • we can heal ourselves by prayer and intention
  • We need to give ourselves healing and space
  • We need to know our limits
  • We have angels gods Buddhas blessing us
  • We need to constantly reach out and connect with our guardian angels
  • And we need to constantly be in touch with ourselves 

And made me come to the beach today. Barefooted, and allowing the waters to work on/with me. I ask the sun to give me all the light, energy, healing, inspiration each and every cell my body needs. And the water to wash away anything that does not support my system.

It feels more of like cocreating with nature at times

When a surge of wave comes up, it is as if Nature is asking me to stop all I am thinking and to just bask in her

I asked myself as I tread on sand: How is the earth feeling today? What is its pulse? It’s heartbeat? What would it say? 

And I find myself saying thank you to Mother Earth for loving us and me the way you did . And not giving us up.

I asked my soul what it is saying :

And I hear it go: “Well done TPY! Did you know how awesome you are and have been ? No one could have done it like you! All you need is love —- from yourself”