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Walking (xiii)

Walking (xiii)

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As I was walking and breathing into my sacral my navel my heart using fresh air to clean my body I envision things I don’t want flying out

And I breathe out through the keloids

And that made me see ! Aha!

The keloids were an outlet of expulsion of release.

And For once I am thankful to it!

Had it not been for them things I didn’t want would have been release in another way

And wow that was some kind of creativity in thinking or creativity unlocked

I thank the keloids for all these years of support and never giving up even if it were so hard!!!!

Om!

Keep Your Vibration High

Keep Your Vibration High

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It’s been a few days since I started my day early with a set of warm ups to awaken the body

And I listened to the Grow Younger affirmations by Tapping Solution as I did the simple exercises

And it dawned on me in the early hours of the day—— that all I need to do is to keep it high

Keep the mood the state on a high

Keep the vibration high

And naturally the good things come

There is no need to send out job applications or manoeuvre in anyway , change anything drastically

Just move and keep moving and loving the energy

Running/Walking (xii)

Running/Walking (xii)

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It’s been such a long time since I let this off. This running walking thing by myself —- with the sun.

And I can’t say how awesome it feels.

To take the sun in, in its entirety.

To breathe it into the body and cells.

And it dawned on me that yesterday really no longer matters.

In fact, I never really thought of how I could handle myself my life and the little things in there. I was at best, trudging along the times irregardless of how they were.

Except for some pockets when I really knew what I wanted – the clearest was when I got Nicholas Tse to be the “Friend of M” that was divine.

All other times I thought I knew but I don’t really.

It dawned upon me that I did not figure a way out of how I would manage the cyst the keloids the gums

I was always asking for advice and dishing out the responsibility of healing to someone else but me

And I asked myself, ” are you healthy now?”

The reply www a resounding yes! Yes yes YES YES YES!

So do I have to do something about it?

NO! There is NOTHING TO DO!

And there was more!

The inner knowing is that all these are energies . Energies that have been focused

And I asked, what do I do about them?

The first thing that came to mind was release. But is it really?

No.

So how do I live with this or manage ? How do I change the energies or the nature of what is there？

The inner knowing is to do things that make me happy like this – walking alone in the sun and a absorbing the beauty, soaking it up!

It is to do that which sparks joy and gives me that light that glow that twinkle in my eyes.

And when I do things that speak of joy, everything naturally flows and gets moved and changed.

Nothing needs to be done at all other than doing things that give me that light in my eyes.

And it follows: there is nothing to heal. NO THING to do.

THANK YOU!An

And to you you you you you you you out there, be happy. I wish you pure joy and happy moments. Be happy!

My Husband THE Teacher

My Husband THE Teacher

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When we were in Chiangmai , my husband sometimes asked me to look out for the taxi plate because he couldn’t see clearly.

So I saw it for him. Sometimes I couldn’t see a number or something and asked him to.

It felt warm to me that somehow after going through so much, and we had so many fights that wanted us both to call it a stop——- we could be each other’s eyes.

And yesterday in a walk, he saw for me what I needed. And said to me as it is.

There was no sugar coating no harsh words just matter of factly and they were some of the most powerful words I needed to hear.

We always met uncle with his black and brown puppies at our walks, and uncle was exceptionally chatty. He was talking a flat in our vicinity that was sold for one million despite a 51 year lease.

Uncle said, “but all these 20 years I have been here, I didn’t even think of selling. all my friends are here, friends i knew since i was young, everyday come here to walk and meet with friends so happy. Happy and Healthy, these are the 2 most important things, when you don’t have this you have money also no use.”

Conversely, when you have these, you don’t need a lot of money, you are already happy! Healthy!

I was swinging my legs and arms as I heard uncle in the background. And when we started walking, I said to bf, but i feel like I don’t have those.

And it occured to me what and why, because i feel like.

But what IF: I FEEL LIKE I M HEALTHY AND HAPPY!

Bf let out a slew of his thoughts afterwards. He commented that I had been living my yesterday everyday, “when people say to live in the present, it seemed so easy but what is it?

Today you are walking and is healthy, but you choose to live yesterday. And is not happy. But you are healthy! You can walk and breathe this way, and when you walk like that you are creating a tomorrow that is healthy like this.

A lot of people missed the point that the body can do a lot of work and heal on its own. If you are not happy it doesn’t help but when you are happy and you do your little walk and things you like, the things you like is like that spark of light, follow it and more comes to you.”

I thought about the times I wrote about food and appreciated food so much, and more good food and lovely moments of appreciation came my way.

He added, “Maybe you are appreciative but its lesser than the feelings of not enough that you have.”

“Another thing, remember what Master Hsing Yun said? He had some illness of sorts , think he cant see or something, and he said, make friends with them. What does he actually mean?”

“You see, take for example Huaihao, his intelligence is what you adore and embrace. But his nasty times too. Can you embrace that? Or that busker who sang and so many came to listen to him, did you think he can sing those sentimental tunes and ballads being a good lover? Or Steve Jobs perhaps, he has these ways of seeing things that sometimes give people a hard time, but this , or these seemingly negative traits are what makes a person too. In fact, they are the very traits that make that person successful too.

It is what makes that busker sing and express so well. Now look at yourself—-the keloids cyst whatever, they are what makes you too, its not like you want to get rid of them “

“Its accepting them as who you are that makes you who you are. They ARE a part of you. They are the very things that MAKE you.”

Wow.

I take it that the divine is talking to me through my hubby.

And it means to me, things are speeding up and getting faster.

Of late, I been with the understanding that the keloids and cyst, have brought me many many things. I have gone on such a journey to understand how and why they came. To seek answers, and lots of things came out.

I know I am no longer at square one even if it feels like nothing on the outside has changed much.

But the feeling is different, the keloids have been healing faster and miraculously as I see it, and it shows to me how wonderful healer the body—my body and yours is—-because of the speed and beauty at which the healing occurs, its just a divine work of nature that no man can emulate or do at the slightest.

And bf reminded me once again how people forget about the miracles and the WORK the body does. It is just spectacular and always so in support of us—if we give it the right conditions.

And at this point, I have to thank my body for all the love support and healing it has given me all this while, never giving up. And in fact, always showing me its wonder divine nature.

Bf says, “follow that spark, if you think your friend’s mother is the spark, follow her, talk to her and see what comes out of it. Do more of what lights you up! And SEE what happens.

As for your body and issues, if it doesn’t bother you too much, let it be, let it be. You are alive, you are breathing, you can walk like this today, you are laying the groundwork for tomorrow.”

I shared with him a comment shared by a fellow lady who is in her 70s, and she said, “if a woman is healthy, her family receives bliss,”

Talking to my friend’s mother made me hear this comment again in my mind. My friend’s mother is so full of energy and vitality at her age, she draws me to her. I like talking to her and want to talk to her more. I want to find out her secret of how she lived, how she accepts, she is so ordinary yet so so so extraordinary. And all I feel like I can make a video of it and share it outwards to inspire people.

And that is what my husband or the divine said to me as well. OR the divine spelling it out for me through my friend’s mother.

I m so inspired she is like a model to me. I want to be like her!

And I WhatsApped my friend to tell her: You are so blessed!

And it made me realise my yearning for my mother. And to realise, how important a woman’s health is to a family, it really makes or breaks a family. That is it.

Bf said, “you don’t know what she went through but everyone only looks at the surface and the good things. Its just like some people may envy you but may not know what you have gone through and for that, I really take my hats off to the Dalai Lama, you have been there in Dharamsala to witness and hear for yourself his smile and his laughter, it is as if the exile and the difficulties never happened never touched him a single bit, how is it possible that he smiles this way?”

I haven’t felt so inspired to write in so long but talking to my friend’s mother and listening to my husband made me want to use today to create my tomorrow so that me and my family can be happy and healthy for a very loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong time.

And definitely hearing this made me fall in love again. It was how we loved each other so much because we were walking and talking——- so much.

Nothing complex or high sounding here and in fact all so very easy to understand and achievable.

And i felt really light and happy after listening.

If this isn’t the divine, what? And the divine—is always with us, with me.

DO you hear it?

Try. You can/will hear this.

9 Yrs 5 Mths

9 Yrs 5 Mths

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This is Huaihao’s gift for good work done in primary 2. I had been away on my trip and how long has been ? since I left to be on my own–well in a way. 3 years in covid and we were together everyday. But got the kids’ and bf’s approval and went for the swiss london trip with dad and sis.

And HuaiHao was extremely helpful. He agreed to raindrop Qinzhi and papa and he did.

When we were at the Natural History Museum, we saw a T- Rex and texted HuaiHao to ask if this is a plant eater. He replied, “ obviously ….. T-Rex is a carnivore “ and he was on the bus home after having Jack’s Place for dinner.

Coming back to the family and the kids feels good. We haven’t hugged for long time. HuaiHao says that if mommy isn’t home it doesn’t feel like it.

Then we got back to routine and walked

We prayed. And HuaiHao was saying to Buddha , “ dear Buddha , please let papa be joyful and happy from the heart…..”

And while we prayed he got candies! And one for grandpa.

Of course we had to have meals the kids want such as Tenjin. And a big pizza

Back at Ah Yi’s , HuaiHao and Qinzhi received presents from grandpa and ah yi

And grandpa was showing HuaiHao the pictures he took of the dinosaurs at the natural history museum

And this set of clothes is a gift from Ah Yi. Ah yi and grandpa was constantly looking for presents for HuaiHao and Qinzhi

We headed out one day for Qinzhi and mommy’s hair cut. But we had to eat first and we went for dim sum!

There was a drizzle and this is how the kids helped themselves stay dry

And this is huaihao’s device time record log. Although he always goes past his time, daddy and me always gives him another chance. Qinzhi has been a great help because she’s always asking HuaiHao to write down his time and keep to it.

On Father’s Day, Huaihao woke up early and spent some time making a card for daddy, then placed it on him as he slept.

Bedtime with HuaiHao and it is the best time. I asked if there is any urgency for me to go to work. And he says no.

“ The most important thing is to have fun. When you have fun, all the good things come along.”

Its always so lovely to speak to Huaihao and he always connects me to this deeper part of myself that is all knowing.

Thank you Huaihao, I love you SO VERY MUCH!

13 Years 4 Months

13 Years 4 Months

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Its been a long time since I left to be on my own–well in a way. 3 years in covid and we were together everyday. But got the kids’ and bf’s approval and went for the swiss london trip with dad and sis.

And bf took care of the kids, or was it, the other way around? Huaihao did raindrop for qinzhi every alternate night and for the daddy. Qinzhi did the life 9 service for dad and hao. The kids folded there own clothes went out for their own meals

Throughout the trip, Qinzhi was connecting with me on WhatsApp and the social media platforms, and 2 weeks went past and I am back.

Coming back to routine walks and going to the temple. Is for me—— a newfound contentment.

To come back. Is an opportunity to make even better.

Then the walks have to be accompanied by meals the kids wanted such as a big pizza,

At night, I started heading into the dome with qinzhi and we spoke about almost anything and everything. Like a good wind down talk for bed. And we both enjoyed it.

Qinzhi always wanted more and asked: “ can you talk to me? “

She obviously loves the company the attention and wants more but it’s late and sleep is important so we continue the next day .

And its been a while since Qinzhi has a hair cut, these days she’s no longer overwhelmed by the getting into a hair salon and that is a great feat. The stylist chopped off her tresses and she looked so refreshed, the thing is—she’s also happy at her new look! And that is great.

And the three of us, when we get together, we always pig out

Qinzhi’s so grown up now, i wonder where the time has gone to, during the school holidays, she wanted to meet up with her primary school classmates and I took her. She spent some time in the mall with her friends then I took her back. It will be very soon that she takes off and fly but I know and trust she will be well.

If I can do it, Qinzhi can do it better than me a million times over. Thank you Qinzhi for teaching me trust and letting go, I love you SO VERY MUCH!

What A Find (II)

What A Find (II)

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This somehow struck me when I read it the first time.

It’s what Yongey Mingyur Rinpoche, Tsoknyi Rinpoche or in general what meditation is about. Coming back to center.

Or perhaps, what life is teaching us to do. To (be willing to) come back

And where is center? I asked. A place of non attachment peace love clarity stability balance

A place of light.

“Your body wants your attention and your presence. It doesn’t want to be forgotten by you. It wants to be included in your life and in the present with you, and it will serve you if you can remember to come back to your presence each day.

And the more you return to noticing your breath, your body, the sooner you will notice when you are leaving your center. Being present will become like breathing to you. Our power lies in our presence with our body and our soul, and much of our outer world will lead us away from that truth, distract us, entice us. And this beautiful body of yours that allows you to uniquely express and experience every day, wants to be remembered by you and included in your consciousness.

  • From Be Present Meditation

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(CHANNELED QUOTE FROM LEE’S GUIDES – THE Z’s)

What A Find

What A Find

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The swelling in the keloid erupted and i felt a release

As I was doming myself with essential oils, I asked myself : why did I choose this version of myself ?

I recalled myself being really expressive and eager to share with people my path or how I was disadvantaged. How much of hardship I had been through.

I wanted pity? Empathy? Praise?

I wanted to use my circumstances to invite pity empathy praise and perhaps some kind of a advantage for myself.

Yet when I got the so called advantages, I did not really use them for myself

For example when I got loads of food during festivals I always gave them away

When I got invited to amazing tastings by great chefs I always gave them away

As if to punish myself further

It was always for others rather than myself

I guess I locked myself —— once and again——into a situation or a position of a victim

To win a certain vantage point or carve out an image for myself in front of others

And I kept hurting myself in a way scratching myself and managing the keloids

Why did I do that?

I looked at these few years spent at home with the kids. They were precious so precious money cannot buy

At a certain point in time I remembered I wanted to heal with qinzhi . Then I was disappointed with work and what they could not give me. The freedom to express real passion and creativity had to be suppressed for business logic

And so I chose to come back to the home front

To hide from it all

And to sort things out

I started exploring myself- reiki with Stephan and then Ron and dwelled deep into my soul and my past

The keloids came at some point in time

And with these swelling and eruptions: the keloids was really trying to get my attention to GET OUT

I was excessively spending time on the past on the keloids to avoid looking at the real stuff

I look at myself now- am I happier? Did I get some kind of real joy or satisfaction living or hiding behind that keloid or that image ?

It’s a choice but now that I see—— somewhat a wrongful —— well

Nothing is a mistake so let’s just say I have devoted such a lot of time and energy checking myself out on this end

I went back to the past to see what could have caused it, I tried to inspect the emotions and feelings associated with it.

In another dome session, I continued to explore why I dealt with this theme. I remember saying that I want to heal with qinzhi

And looking back, I did

Looking back I wonder what that has been for. This exercise——did it help me? How?

For sure it did, it helped me release anything more left trapped in those memories. It helped me come to terms with the past. More. And made me discover more about myself, people around me and life. It has been a learning curve and a great one

I hid behind the keloids I did and hid my true power my true magnificence my authenticity that beingness of me

Well I really understood that I probably needed to be in the victim position in the beginning when my resources were limited. And at that time I needed to care for my family and bring food home

But I lost myself as I repeated that victims mode even if I need not have to any longer. It has become second skin to me and I was in that mode automatically. It had been a layer I had worn

But! (So much of ) times have changed, so much of circumstances have evolved and (so much of) I have evolved too.

Activities in the keloids have been so intense to wake me up!

That is—— when I still was stuck and chose to stop myself

Perhaps the most important learning through this all is to know—— move forward . Move forward and not back

I saw a post that read: talk to us about your blessings

Blessings were huge and always with me anytime and anywhere

The fact that I m here writing this is a huge huge blessing

I thank them! The keloids and my body ! I am grateful super grateful my body is forever rooting for me and taking care of me. I thank them- yes the keloids for the inspiration ! For doing their utmost to let me see that it’s time to MOVE ON

I no longer need to be that victim because the responsibilities are different now. I have stopped shouldering the burden for the family for a long long time in fact when sis and brother came out to work

And my husband has always been shouldering the responsibility for building our family

He has always been kind and magnanimous towards me and to let me pursue what I love so long as I m happy

He just wants me to be happy and is so willing to do anything so I can be myself

My family loves me to bits so how silly I have been to be in a victims mode!

And going forward ——what is the version of myself I want to see and approach

I stopped writing for a few days until this morning

I saw this:

Lee Harris:

“You are all healers in your work, whatever form your work takes. All of you possess healing energy that you often give to others. It is now time to use that energy, wherever possible, to focus on what you feel drawn to do, what your heart leads you to do. The point is to choose movement towards your heart’s desires for you are now accessing a level of heart power that carries a great intuition for what you need to do. What you want to do and your knowing is to be trusted – the knowing in your heart of your gifts, talents and abilities you want to share with the world.

You are the master of your own energy. You are the master of your heart. You know what you came here to do and the time is changing.

– From Ask the Heart… For It Knows Everything

(CHANNELED QUOTE FROM LEE’S GUIDES – THE Z’s)”

What do I want and want to do?

I have been asking myself. What is the version of myself I (want to) see?

I see myself so so happy and grateful because I m experiencing great health like never before. My body is in a state of balance and all processes are at its best

I am vitality and a picture of health, having all the energy I need to do things I love for myself and others.

I m calm peaceful and at ease and all of my decisions and thoughts come from a place of love and gratitude

Because I know and is aware

That translates to a beautiful body that is long lean and flexible. I have sun kissed skin and rosy cheeks.

My skin is beautiful and shows off the purity the peace in/of my thoughts. I m pretty beautiful , cute.

While I am at times envious of others flying around and having loads of wonderful experiences as a writer, I actually really like to stay at home. And to be (here for)/with my loved ones.

Maybe when the kids are slightly a bit older, say in one to two years time, and if a great opportunity comes along, I can and will be happy to take off again.

Until then, I will be happy to take on lovely freelance opportunities that allow me to express myself whilst I bring out another’s passion, quest and zest for life

Yes that is what my heart wants

It’s been a long while since I took a walk by myself

The weather was amazing with the constant sea breeze

along the walk, people who “hurt” me popped up

And I asked me, why did you so easily give your power away? Take it back take it all back

And I released – once again—- the people and the trauma they brought me into the air, claiming my power back at the same time

It was a good exercise

It made me aware that there was still stuff left there. They had been traumatic for me- more than I knew myself

And on the bus, I asked this question: is all healing guided by the soul?

As in, an exploration of the soul?

Yes I would think.

If all journeys were an extension of what the soul wants, it follows that healing too

I mean, I have been hanging on to the keloids for ten years

Why haven’t I healed yet?

And the answer is that my soul has chosen to in the time that has passed to explore this

How worthwhile is it? And what good has it brought me?

I think quite a lot . A while good lot of it . BUT- enough already.

Does my soul still want to go this way?

NO!

My soul wants me now to see the miracle of healing instantaneously

And the miracle magic and wonder of life. And it follows, the power and limitless possibilities i embody

So long as I m willing and choose

Yes I am willing

I m willing to change

I am willing to heal

I am willing to become the most wonderful and powerful version of myself

The version of myself that is better and better

That miraculous divine in me

And seeing that not only helps me but also helps me see the divine in others

Show me the grace the miracle the wonder

Somehow, this realization found me.

That the faster you move away the better it is

And I read this on Lin Chunyi’s page

“Each life experience we have has energy, just as everything in the universe has energy. Sometimes we hold on to the energy of an old story and live it over and again and it can keep us from moving forward.

One effortless way to release old stories to make room for new ones is through loving. Loving stories are never a burden. The stories that can repeat themselves in our emotional world and in our mind are the ones you feel are unfinished.

Often they are filled with ‘could haves’ and ‘should haves’. The energy is “I should have done this, or that.”

The other stories can be ones where you couldn’t believe that someone you thought you could trust did something that you felt hurt you. There can be energy like resentment, blame, and feeling a victim of the experience.

The wisdom here is that you can leave anything when you love it. The more you dislike or even hate something, the more bound you are to it.

Think about the stories you feel you have carried with you most of your life that you sense are holding you back from new, happier, more fulfilling stories.

Now, take the same experiences and list for each one the good you find in each story.

This will help you to change your story and change your energy, to live a more joy-filled life. “

And I put this question to myself, what did I find that was lovely?

While I appreciated that the keloids helped me discover healers like John well and even kickstarted my healing journey and is the reason why I even saw content and many like this above, I did not seem to find love for this

But this morning as I put the question to myself again, I thought I heard it

The keloids and my dwelling in them- gave me the time I needed before I could face up to what was required of me

It was my run away time

And the line was blurred between a respite I needed vs an addiction

Maybe sometimes one of the two, sometimes both

It gave me the time the space to break away before I was ready

I needed this

But now! I m clear and I can say

Let’s change. I m willing to change and to release that addiction the itch the swelling and all

I do not need this already

And I saw this

“ I release all my fears pain hurt from the past. I allow myself to change grow and step into my light. I am safe I am strong I am worthy. I am powerful beyond measure.”

And this!

“I am grateful for my courage my resilience and my deep inner strength. I release any limits and boundaries and I embrace all my potential and possibilities. Everything is unfolding in perfect timing. I trust I believe I receive.”

Fruition as Path

Fruition as Path

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Saga Dawa Duchen falls on June 14, the full moon day. On this auspicious day, Yongey Mingyur Rinpoche gave a teaching on the Essence of Development Stage of Vajrayana and oral transmission of mantras of Vajrasattva (purification), Buddha Medicine (health), Tara mantras (developing wisdom), Longevity mantras (long life) and Amitabha (pure land).

It is always a joy and a blessing to listen to Yongey Mingyur Rinpoche. My root teacher in a way.

The key points of the teaching below:

Taking fruition as path

Fruition = Enlightenment quality – we have right now right here by nature 

Three wisdom or kaya

Wisdom of recognizing ultimate truth

Wisdom of knowing relative phenomena 

Always here with us 

Three practice of vajrayana

  • path of liberation: the most profound of vajrayana
  • Completion : working with body prana bindu
  • Developmental: working with imagination visualization and concept: using concept as path

Taking course as path

Taking fruition as path

  • fruit already there
  • But obscuration present so
  • Remove all obscuration

Ie we all already Buddha but just don’t see or know it yet so remove all obscuration 

So possible to become Buddha in one lifetime 

Qns- why do we have obscuration why do we not see the truth

Answ we cannot find the answer

When we want to find something that is beginning or the end 

It’s not possible 

Because time is an illusion time is emptiness 

When this samsara comes ?

Where is the beginning

There is no beginning 

So we look at now and present

Samsara is emptiness and what we are experiencing now with kind body environment is just an illusion

There is no samsara

Emptiness and clarity 

So we are all Buddha

But we can’t see it because we have habit of perceiving the samsara

Developmental: imagination of Buddha deity 

What is imagination 

Imagination has image voice sensation based on belief

Together they form imagination 

Imagination or visualization – v powerful eg on sportsman : when they don’t move and only visualize they are running : they grow muscles 

Some people who can’t raise hand: just imagine raising hands and they can raise hands 

Is imagination to plan the future 

Imagine Fruit in hand and saliva in mouth increase

  • because when kind has fruit, nerves, prana, bindu all create saliva 
  • If we use imagination rightly for our practice on our path 

Practice imagination with 5 Buddha 

Vajrasattva 

Medicine Buddha

Tara

White Tara 

Amitabha 

Image or Buddha is like a reflection of moon in water, like in a rainbow in sky or a pizza in dream- beyond time and space

Practice:

Take refuge and bodhicitta 

Buddha in front of you

Pray to Buddha 

Chant mantra

Light from Buddha heart goes into you and all beings

Buddha dissolve into light and enters you and all beings

Advantages of above practice 

When you imagine, you need mindfulness and awareness and concentration 

  • so actually we are doing samadhi meditation with Buddha image 
  • Become emptiness or vipassana practice when you see image dream like or moon reflection in water it’s like not real but so real so appear as Buddha but like emptiness 
  • Become refuge: you are praying to Buddha : refuge practice comes automatically 
  • Become bodhicitta: imagine the light that comes to you touch all beings and they become Buddha 
  • Taking fruition as path: prana bindu nadi changing helps us discover Buddha in us

Dedication 

Purify obstacles and fully recognize Buddha within and all beings

Swiss London 22: Divine in me, with me

Swiss London 22: Divine in me, with me

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These few days traveling with dad made me see how real aging is.

Or how real life is, life that doesn’t wait for anyone .

There were so many instances or moments of negativity. And they made me aware of fear and doubt.

And they are opportunities to let me snap out and to choose a vibration or frequency that I want.

Lots of practice

And there is an emerging thought- to surrender and let it flow. Not control. To know that all is well. And to trust the divine.

I also have a lot of compassion for dad. A very simple man who has no tools or techniques or guidance on life or asking for life what he wants. He passively just takes everything in his stride. And to understand that life is destiny or fate controlled by the heavens.

I try to share with him what I learn on affirmations and manifestations as much I can.

I learned about capacity. And the capacity of myself that would be important. To build myself first —- and in such a way so I can help others.

When I did reiki for myself this morning, I heard myself say- The divine is flowing in me. In my hands and fingers. In and out through my eyes, my mouth my words, emanating from my heart.

Rest in the divine.

Dad is a kind man.