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Beautiful Practice To Start A New Day

Beautiful Practice To Start A New Day

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Intent Influences Outcome

At the very beginning of each day or each meditation, you tell the universe what you want.

Focus on your life, your goals and life purpose, telling your body what you want, and have a beautiful image of yourself and what kind of life you want to live. Then you can send a message to the universe.

What kind of image do you see of the world you want to live in?

What is your purpose? What do you want to accomplish?

What is your intention?

Make your purpose clear.

Submit your message in the light while meditating

Feel the essence of your message

Let go of any fears and doubts

After that, you solely focus on the moment.

Feeling how good you feel.

Feeling the tingling sensations in your hands, in your body, seeing light in your body, and focus on that!

Once you put yourself in the ‘Oneness’ you trust the energy and trust the messages you receive. Trust the intelligence within you.

Too much analytical thinking may stop your inner wisdom from surfacing

In the quietness you breathe slowly, gently, and deeply. You help yourself to wake up the intelligence in the body.

You receive these messages to help you fix the wrong information in the body.

It is a process of cleansing, so a lot of people cry and they feel peaceful at the same time; they feel lots of emotional experiences, again, just let it be and allow it to happen. It is a process of detoxifying. When you open all this old information and messages get cleared out, health is going to restore back your life.

This is why having a purpose when practicing Spring Forest Qigong is important, regardless what your purpose is; for healing or for relationship, or for higher vibration. When you have a purpose, the Qi, is automatically directed to support your purpose.

Many Blessings,
Chunyi Lin

New

New

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Finished my ten day fast and was applying oils on myself, when I turned and saw this

Its not how about but ITS TIME to get on something new. Another piece of the sky. A new path, elevating the self to a new plane. Creating a whole new space for the self.

ITS TIME- YES.

My anchors

My anchors

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These kept me alive and brought me back to centre.

The lessons are manifold.

It’s about feeling.

Feeling completeness, wellness, whole, joyful, peaceful, acceptance, beauty, trust, love——rather than the opposites. No matter what. It is to be undeterred.

I re read this again and found some answers

If money was not an issue, and indeed so thanks to my husband. I would love to be out in the sun everyday, do yoga everyday, go for classes like sound art therapy and explore healing modalities. Yes, I would love to do it and share it outwards.

I would love to travel and see for myself, experience, capture for myself—–beautiful people, hearts, food, water, air, environment.

I would like to center more and more, I would like to share my experiences outwards. I would like to express my light and the divine in me.

And what about you?

9 Yrs 10 Mths

9 Yrs 10 Mths

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It seemed like yesterday that Huaihao just transferred to Ngee Ann Primary School and now he has completed one year of study. We headed out as much as we can, trying to get the kids to get as much sun as possible. Love Huaihao’s sunkissed cheeks.

We had lots of splashing fun at the beach when we went to soak our feet in water, Huaihao got totally wet and drenched in sea water as he lost his footing. The first time everyone got wet and had no extra clothes. We washed and dried up at the bathrooms and headed to dinner then walked back up the beach to home

Huaihao looked really cute trying on the hat! And winter helmet, goggles and jackets.

This evening , we got the kids to try out winter wear and Huaihao had so much fun in gengyan jiujiu and ah mei ah yi’s winter wear. No longer kid sized.

This saturday, we were waiting for Qinzhi to finish her dance and headed to the furniture shop. And he was trying out the design pieces.

At ah yi’s, and Huaihao would be e asking ah yi to trim his nails and in turn he would massage ah yi.

To prepare for Ah Yi’s birthday, the kids painted something for her and on the 17th, we headed out to our favourite restaurant to have dinner to celebrate Ah Mei Ah Yi’s birthday.

Then we tried to prep the kids for a new academic year by cleaning the cupboards and headed to the bookstore to get books.

Have been fasting for a few days and Huaihao helped me “make dinner”. Asked him why he took a long time and he said, “i added lots of love in!”

And Huaihao reminded us that, “it’s just a few days before we get into December.”

13 Year 9 Months

13 Year 9 Months

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The long awaited end of year school holidays is upon us. And Qinzhi has officially graduated Secondary One. We are all happy to see her move on to Secondary Two. Most of all, she has challenged her boundaries and limits and— enjoyed Secondary 1 even if there are down times

In the mornings that Huaihao is in school, we girls head out for some sun to work out sweat. At night, we have potato chips and K drama, and both of us knew at heart how precious these times were. We connected resonated and found a new friend in us

This is Qinzhi trying out cold wear as we prepare for our trip. Qinzhi loves the cold weather , she loves to dress up and tells me how cool it will be to dress in jeans shorts paired with stockings and boots. She even made friends trying on cold wear in Uniqlo and another lady chatted up with her on what to buy for her own winter trip

But look just how much time has passed to blossom this little bud into a lady. She already looks very much the fit dressing out in Ah Mei Ah Yi’s hand me downs

And one evening we took a stroll by the beach wanting to bathe our feet in water to ground. But everyone ended up getting wet. And the best part, lots of fun. And a first time getting wet without extra clothes/

And Christmas is upon us really soon. Ah Yi typically buys Christmas decors for herself and would buy extra sets for Qinzhi and Huaihao. Like a little tradition.

And on this day, Karyn brought Qinzhi for a tasting at a new eatery. This is such a great experience or Qinzhi.

Qinzhi painted this- called Opposites for Ah Yi

On the 17th, we headed out to our favourite restaurant to have dinner to celebrate Ah Mei Ah Yi’s birthday.

I hope Qinzhi gets to try out new things and really take good rest in the holidays, recharging herself before secondary 2 starts!

Be well Qinzhi ! Love you!

Can we? Just Be

Can we? Just Be

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Even if I knew how to spell relax, I only got a hint of what it really meant or felt like recently.

I didn’t know how to (do) relax

Helena has been coming to do healing for me. Each time before she starts she does the pendulum check on my energy centers

The first time she did, my crown and third eye area showed no movement. The pendulum stood still – even if there was wind in the room

After the session though, the pendulum showed wild swings

But this effect would not last as the time before the next session, I would go back to my own old ways of thinking , falling backwards

Healing is a process . You go a few steps forward and backwards forwards and backwards

I asked Helena what she actually did

She said it’s actually just setting the intentions for me to receive divine light and guidance and that most importantly I relaxed

I thought about relaxing and relaxation

Each time, soon after she started, I would really just fall, fall into sleep

There was a let off let go hands off mind off because I trust her

The doing was release, detach

There was no holding on

Just surrender – not even

Allow

Be

In relaxation, there is no doing. Just being just flowing. And seeing where the flow brings (to) you

The feeling is like becoming empty again and you become a conduit for the flow

And letting the divine do the work

Interestingly a few times after the session , I got calls regarding work

And I asked Helena how do I keep the wonderful effects after each session of balancing

And her words were that daily maintenance is absolutely necessary- daily meditation

And this post came about because I was in my daily meditation and was checking in on myself- was I relaxing into meditation?

How to get into that state of relaxation

How to tap into that power of relaxation?

When I was walking, I asked myself to just be. I used to ask the sun for healing for inspiration for light for energy

Just BE

There is nothing else to do but anything else is but ego

And now I ask if there is a need for this, to dictate and enforce my thoughts on something natural

When I shower, is there a need eto intend for a cleansing or is it enough to just be in it?

How cool is this learning?!

Can we- just BE?

Tired

Tired

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I get tired so easily I wonder why

And when I get tired, there’s no way for me to hide. A nap helps me get into balance, but after a while, tired and fatigue set in.

I was asking myself why.

I was asking my body, what are you trying to tell me? Is my health not in good order? 

Not really.

Then?

I questioned when people got tired.

For example when you do sports. After that you might get tired. When you push and work hard for exams. After that you get tired.

I thought of the times I felt so tired.

There was a period in my life that I drag myself to work after mom passed on. I was so tired.  And all the times after I felt tired.

It came to my understanding that I am tired of what was in life at that phase.

I m tired of what I m doing now.

I asked Huaihao too.

And he said, it’s like when you get too much and little of something. It’s like you are bored.

He said that I look tired today and there’s not a lot of life in me . I asked him when was the last time he saw zest in me. He said when i had a job, there was so much life in me then.

I recalled how i moved in the time i was at michelin, everything happens in a snap and the word is energy and vitality.

I asked him what I could do to find that life and zest back to me. “Get some fun” he said. 

Wow.

Anyhow, I think it’s kind of the perfect time now is for me to come to this understanding.  

I used to read about how one could be out of sync. I guess that is me now.

After so long, I finally understand what the message tired is passing to me.

But equally, i am kind of satisfied that I finally found this out. According to Louise Hay, “Fatigue: Resistance, boredom. Lack of love for what one does.”

Gratitude 1

Gratitude 1

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I liked this I saw and I want to do it.

“Hello, my dear friends,

I would like to challenge everyone to take a few moments every day for the next 30 DAYS, and find at least 10 things you are grateful for and express your appreciation for each of them.

You can express your appreciation to the sun for its life-giving light.

You can express your appreciation for the comfortable chair you like sitting in.

You can express your appreciation for the broken sidewalk outside your house because it reminds you to be careful when you walk.

You can express your gratitude for your house plant, for your pet, for the pen you write with, for your toothbrush, for anything or everything.

The key is to say so. Say it out loud or say it in your heart but say it again and again – “I appreciate you.” “I am so thankful for you.” “I bless you as you have blessed me.”

Writing them down is also good!

Try it and see what happens.

See how your love grows, how your happiness grows, how your life changes.

Everyone wants more gratitude, more appreciation, more blessings coming back to them.

Give it a Try!

Many Blessings,
Chunyi Lin”

The sun showed up so bright and woke me up this morning. Asking me to do the same.

I m grateful for this energy.

Running/ Walking (xvii)

Running/ Walking (xvii)

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Qinzhi woke me up from the (prolonged?) slumber I had been in.

I motivated her to get up to run/walk with us. She woke up late as usual but I convinced her to do the walk slowly.

When we headed to the park, she was all the way behind us.

I asked the daddy to slow down and be with her while I ran. I didn’t want to leave her alone

But the daddy kind of asked where she is and threw a fit.

“If Qinzhi is going to walk like that don’t force her. Let’s just head back.“

He went all the way and Qinzhi obviously was shocked at this sudden onward of lecture

Frozen she stood where she was and took it all

I did kind of the same- with a few worthless- stop it .

Afterwards she walked kind of directionless lifelessly

Yet this all made sense to me. Because Qinzhi is mirroring who else but me.

She was reflecting back to me how I was walking living

So while I coaxed her motivated her coached her, I can’t help but feel like this is for me

Life IS happening for me, showing to me, talking to me.

And I m glad I heard .

Mummy

Mummy

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It’s mom’s 20th death anniversary today.

We all headed to the temple to pray. Dad got the food, joss paper as always. And when all is done he said to us, “ mom’s gone for 20 years today. So fast.”

I kind of went through this without feeling my feelings

Maybe that was why I felt so uncomfortable at the temple

Breathe- I told myself

What do I feel?

Tired out. It’s so much work with mummy not around me.

I put up defenses, protective covers, I hardened up consciously and unconsciously. I went the distance and worked myself to the max challenging myself pushing boundaries

I wallowed in self pity

I put up a strong front

I did not acknowledge too many things and just got on with life as best I can

But the more I did this the deeper I fell

Earlier this year, with family constellations, I kind of saw how mummy chose her own path- because she had felt so lost so helpless. So alone.

Awhile ago, I kind of thought back on her journey and her choice

And I guess I somehow got sidestepped feeling her.

Now writing this, I know this isn’t what mummy want.

Its also not what I WANT!!! But I kind of went into it without awareness and came this far

As a mummy myself now, I sort of got my kids worried with the recent slump I have been in

Mummy worried me too- on a few occasions. But she’s always so strong for us . Until she couldn’t hold on anymore

Writing this now, I know I m not mummy, I don’t have her experiences her pain her troubles

I turn backwards now to me. To continue where I left off in my own path

I am counting my blessings as I acknowledge my path and thanking all my guardian angels who have been protecting me and guiding me all this while. Bringing me back after having for mummy’s path for a while

And I know the reason is to anchor me on my own

And although mummy has left for 20 years, somehow she’s still with me

In me

In the patterns habits standards I keep myself up to having been born to her, bred by her

What would mummy say to me?

I recall that in a healing session, her message to me was ‘ “ I m so proud of you.”

And the message now:

“Go get what you want. Stop living life for me for others but for TPY. Let the fear doubts self pity rest. You have everything you need to succeed. The universe is behind you with you”

“you are always shiny always brilliance. Mummy loves you so much.”

Thank you Mummy for this connection this message. Most of all for having me, for giving birth to me, for cherishing me more than yourself.

Love you mummy !

At bedtime, I told HuaiHao about how I felt and this little boy said, “ you do not have to not cry you know. Release it. “

I asked him how?

“Everyone has their way of releasing emotions . Let it out.”

I asked him what is his way?

“Cry”

And what is mummy’s way?

He said “ the same “

I shared that if I let it all out I would be worrying him.

And he said, “ but we all want to care for the people we love”

So cry I did and HuaiHao wiped tears away. I felt two things at one go- I felt so blessed to have him with me. At the same time, I felt how much I missed my mummy. I told him so.

He kind of didn’t really know how to react. He hugged me and put his hand on my face for a while

I asked if I caused him worry

He said , a little bit. “ I don’t want you to be sad”

So I shared that previously I kind of hid my emotions away but I become tired out and low. But now if I displayed my emotions , I worried him.

I asked him which he would prefer and he said the latter.

I thanked HuaiHao for his wonderful teaching this evening and most of all- his showing support and his presence for me.

For a while, I thought I finally — did grieve.

The next morning the first question HuaiHao asked me when he woke up was, “ so did you get over it already? You have to release the feelings otherwise they will control you”

“ so did you?”

I told him it’s like peeling off an outer heavy shell and showing the me that was underneath and I thanked him for holding space for this process.

So much love!