I spoke to HuaiHao this morning. I asked him if I was more mad at papa this time and he said, “of course what do you think. Isn’t it obvious?”

And then this one reminded me, “but now, you are going back there now mommy.”

He is so quick so sharp so divine.

And so I came back running.

Of late I have been thinking of how to transform. How to use the energy we have.

Since energy cannot be created nor destroyed , the way to use it is to transform it. To spin it into a different something

I’m glad I have writing this blog this gift and ease of expression it certainly helped me when I needed

And now, running

So the practice today is to learn how to use this energy I have

I use it power the run throughout

And whenever I felt I needed to speed up, I asked myself if this slightly less than pleasant energy/sensation is still there

And I would use it to power the run

Repeating it.

Feeling it. Using it. Learning to work with it and work my way through it

Then it came to my knowledge once again that these few years have been a most precious time albeit sometimes somewhat difficult- because I really had the space and time to go inwards and to ask myself lots of questions lots of thinking through figuring out lots of sieving through and realignment and repositioning

It’s a very precious journey and tough- anything that concerns the self the soul the authentic is not so easy

But I must say it is worth every second of your investment

I saw that I am fond of find foods and I have given it away. I saw that I should have said that F but all I did was swallow it. And more more.

I love this. This opportunity. I needed this. To be a most spectacular me

And I know- I deserve. I am worthy. And so are you.