I saw myself before the run.

And then I set the intention- to come back to center to a place of balance. And soon I was running and visualizing the ball of sun this morning at the root chakra

Today I just did that throughout the run

And amazingly this came out of it

I visualized the keloid – the patch of it dropping away. Revealing and exposing the tender skin beneath

That’s me!

So all along I have been putting on a pretense ? Or at least, living life not being me and under a mask?

I have been hiding haven’t I? I was being someone who isn’t me in big and little ways. I allowed that and it hen I judge myself.

The ways I have not held on to me flashed by. Saying yes when I should have said no. Not acknowledging my needs. Giving another the opportunity to lord over me. Suppressing my feelings….

And who is me?

The idea of deserving came along. Being worthy- just because.

Teacher Stephan also asked and reminded me- who is the most precious?

I asked the divine to show her to me and to guide me to finding her.

I want to brave enough to be me.