The horoscope page I follow kept telling me to appreciate the now and not get ahead of myself

I kind of understand

And it suddenly dawned on me that maybe I should appreciate what I have – more

For sometime I got a bit caught up wanting to find work

Did I really know the meaning of that? Can I still handle office politics and unreasonable behavior ? Do I really want to be in office space?

Sis said- “ everyone ‘s dream is to do what you are doing now”

It dawned upon me then that all these while at home time just passed and I haven’t really used time constructively

Some have used COVID to start something. Like a business or something.

Am I being too judgmental and harsh on myself ?

And yet I am lusting after all the FB explorations put out by “friends” envying their experiences on social media. I can’t say I am not swayed at all when I see these. Why? I had the chance to embrace these things once

In the days at home, I have mended my heart. My relationship with my husband. I spent time with my children. The mundane things- but THE most important . Days are simple and there is quiet joy. I am grateful for these even as I write.

But can I really or do I really want to step out of them to earn some and be embroiled? The opportunity cost of earning a keep- do I want to entertain that at all?

Maybe that is why I wasn’t able to find something . Because I want to be here.

If not, is there any other way to attempting what I enjoy doing whilst keeping the time at home to be at a maximum?

There must be ! The only thing that would let me step out- is to do interviews , and with A listers to talk about life and how they made it happen

Show me my dear divine!