The intention today was to have awareness so as to work with the divine or rather to let the divine work through me.

And the “child” seems to be the theme of the run .

(i) How did you run?

This little girl was running into my lane and the first thing that popped into my mind was: how did I used to run as a child? How did my running steps feel like?

I couldn’t place these at all. Maybe I didn’t really run. I don’t really recall myself running. Perhaps it’s from the care of my family or nanny, who were so protective of me and was afraid of me hurting myself in a run . It came as advice out of goodwill and I listened in and practiced it

I didn’t run

Maybe that is why I always did not enjoy physical education in school. I didn’t like running . It’s not my thing.

But I still tried to feel for that feeling of me as a little girl of about 4 or 5. How would she run?

Without a care. Without any density of energies . Like a squirrel. That light. That free.

When I saw this, I kind of felt that in my running steps.

(ii) Possibilities

Whenever thoughts came, whenever I saw a possibility a picture of myself, I acknowledged it and told myself to continue to open up – to possibilities .

I thought of the times when I closed in or centred on one possibility. Such as when I left work. At that time, I centred on that particular possibility and couldn’t open up to the others. It was my choice.

But now, I asked myself to continue to open up, to widen to see and to observe.

And to go for the best and never settle. To go for that one which would make the little girl ‘s eyes and face shine

(iii) inner child

I had such a wonderful session with the girl in me.

What would you say to the child in you? The you in you?

“You are so blessed little one. You have such a strong and wonderful support circle around you and so move forward and do what makes you sparkle.

I feel you in perfect health and there is nothing you need to worry about.

I feel and see how you are so loved by your family and people around you. Your husband devotes to you your children love you, your siblings look up to you. “

I wanted to hear what she wants. I kind of created with the girl by asking her what she wants.

At a certain point in time, I saw why I came here again. I was daunted, couldn’t see possibilities, gave up on myself and lost my power .

In fact I reprised that too. Once very clearly during my second year in JC, when dad lost his footing and I lost mine or rather , I gave up mine.

The other time clearly, when I gave up work in 2019 . I handled my power away.

And what would the little girl choose?

“ I just want to pass on this touching feeling or moment(s) as much as I can. The feeling of the heart warmed and energized, fueling myself to greater goodness . Feeling hope and hopeful and ready to charge , to be inspired and go for it once again. “

I think that’s my power. To find my power (back) and let others see their power.