Month: May 2023

Inspirations From A Run (VIII)

Inspirations From A Run (VIII)

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I had a conversation with the anxiety and fear I have been feeling in the last few days.

HuaiHao said he could feel it. I asked him how and he said “ there’s like an aura of it on me, like you are anticipating something.”

The feeling diminished slightly – not actually significantly after my virtual interview with CXXX

I guess I didn’t want it. So I felt relieved after the session

I told my family over dinner – that previously I had been preoccupied with sending out job applications

And now that I receiving echoes I am seriously wondering what my calling is or how I want my future to be

And I am getting the jitters because I’m not familiar with this point enough – or as much as I want to

Now writing about this made me appreciate the fear or concern I have been harbouring

It was really asking me to pause and to have a think with myself

I was just fidgety and anxious, impatient and jittery

During those few days, I realised that the energy it was bring me is stopping. Stopping me from advancing

And I didn’t understand it fully then until in the run and now really

The first thing I did was to acknowledge its presence and simply say to it. Hello dear, I see you, I feel you, I hear you.

And it was a good feeling. The feeling was opening up to it rather than suppressing it not wanting to see it abhorring it

The. I asked what the message it had for me and the response that came along was –

It is a habit and a highly reinforced energy- over the years. And in a bid to caution me, to alert me of possible pitfalls and that I needn’t be fearful of it.

So there are two things here: an automatic habit of feeling fear that kicks in once I sense myself encountering something different or what I m not used to

The other is my response to this habit – while I have been always afraid of it, I can listen in to it and use it to my advantage

Another response that came was to use this energy. To use it and fully so, on something new like in a new venture a new project or adventure . For these are innately arisen to support and help me. And I could really use them this way.

And I asked what I could do to resolve the habit .

And I find myself saying thank you and goodbye to this energy. It has been with me for 40 years and I was fearful of it, when all it wants is to help me and support me

Helping me come to where I have.

And I find it moving from the belly to my heart and that was where I said goodbye.

It’s a wonderful conversation

Inspirations From A Run (VII)

Inspirations From A Run (VII)

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The intention was to get to know why the soul chose to come to earth? What was so attractive here that I wanted to explore so much I signed this contract?

I ask for the running practice session to help me find out.

And what did I hear ?

(I) to see and find out about light

All the times of perceived difficulty in worry and fear, each time I chose the way out – guided by light. I travelled in the direction of light once and again

(II) to find my magic my divinity

Each time of perceived difficulty worry and fear, I drew out from my core my being my soul my power my magic.

I thanked myself for keeping on – with openness, with the willingness to try , once again. To persevere and not give up. To stake on myself and believe I can

No I did not come here to worry about health, that was me gone off course. And i steer myself back

(III) the miracle body

Everyone of us has this miracle body who takes such wonderful amazing care of us , supporting us healing is restoring us to keep us going

The way my body heals is instant miraculous and magic

Our bodies perform magic once and again on is for us- because it wants us to know that we have a bigger purpose and a lot of things to achieve and accomplish. Our bodies want us to do exactly what we want to come here for and so they support us so unconditionally so faithfully so committed – with so much love

I thank my body I thank my body. Thank you for loving me!

(IV) the magic is if I m well you are

If I m facing light and feeling all the wonders of it, why wouldn’t my daughter? Why wouldn’t you? Or he? She?

One of the most meaningful things I heard from Lee Harris the day before in his free podcast was that when you run( or do something) , you are carrying the energy for another too.

We are all parts of each other. Fractals of each other.

If I am well you are too.

(V) so go forth and do what gives you joy

Without a care

10 Yrs 4 Mths

10 Yrs 4 Mths

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Huaihao is working hard at the Rubik’s Cube and exploring all ways to solve it–and he has.

This month, the foodie in him was channeled to help me with tasting sweets, and when celebrating daddy’s birthday

Look at the card he made for daddy!

But he also had a go at rediscovering what he loves-drawing, sketching and he does it with this sense of wittiness that is in his eyes

He spent some time going back to the basics-drawing, because he had too much device time and is banned from it for 2 weeks!

But being banned doesn’t stop him from exploring possibilities, he was trying out all the ways he could think of before calling it quits and coming back to draw

When all that he tried couldn’t make the devices come back to, he had to fall back on his first loves

That’s how he got to make a wallet like this

On day we were at the National Museum, there was an art programme going on and i took the chance to participate with huaihao, where he drew himself on the bus

Looking at the drawing’s expression, he must have been bored stiff!

On a weekend, he woke early and we headed out to walk and had our usual vegetarian bee hoon

This month was also big for Huaihao as he had the chance to participate in Track & Field during the National School Games season. He was really excited about it and this day he had to report to school at 635am.

My recommendations to Huaihao was that he should enjoy the process and have fun rather than to be bent on winning. And afterwards he shared that having fun was exactly what he did. And he would go for it again!

On Mother’s Day, I woke up to his card, he hid it under his pillow and flashed it out when I woke!

At bedtime on a few occasions, I was asking Huaihao for some advice on my career progression to which he said things like:

“you have to start somewhere, you can’t be a protagonist right from the beginning “

“rich people don’t do things they don’t like”

“you have to do things you like”

One day on YouTube, Qi Qin was playing the harmonica

Me: So nice to be able to play. You could direct your emotions into the instrument and let them be expressed in beautiful notes

HuaiHao: You can actually be the instrument you know

Bedtime with HuaiHao

Was telling him about a new opportunity that has come my way and I m not feeling entirely confident

But speaking to him cemented things. I had prayed for an opportunity because I wanted to provide for my father every month

And this is one opportunity that is. If this isn’t the universe’s answer to my prayer then what?

Wow

And he said, “ go for it. Isn’t this what you have been longing for? And if you don’t try, you don’t know.”

when I asked him for advice he also said, “ rich people don’t do things they don’t like and rich doesn’t just mean money.”

On the night he came back from visiting the Thow Kwang Pottery Jungle, he shared with me bits and pieces of his trip. And we spoke about daddy. And HuaiHao said, “ he’s so grumpy today!“

So I asked, “and what do you do?”

He said, rolling his eyes from side to side, “ it’s like there’s someone passing the ball in my eyes. Let’s just get on with what we are busy with or else the clouds that we are will turn into a storm”

I can’t help but giggle at the way he puts things. We could have been a cloud to observe it all, but if we participated in anyone’s unhappiness , we would if unwitting enough—be joining their storm.

What wisdom.

Another day at dinner time:

Me: I’m sorry I m not a good cook

HuaiHao: pats me on the elbow, “ it’s ok there’s always a next time

But HuaiHao did not keep to his promise about using the diffuser and I would not be in his room if he had not . But there I was . And he said, “ because you want to be with me.”

How accurate.

Always and forever

14 Years 3 Months

14 Years 3 Months

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Qinzhi made it happen!

From someone who hates math to the core to getting 19/20 for math, Qinzhi made it happen.

I do not know how happy Qinzhi must have felt when she first received her results, but I hoped she would remember that feeling of excitement happiness and worthiness.

I hope Qinzhi would know from this exercise and experience, although it took several years to come true- that anything she wants she can make the magic happen.

So long as she wants it.

At this point in time, Qinzhi is having fun taking care of her skin by using French clay. I am sharing with her the wonders of using natural healing clay rather than perfumed chemical loaded masks. I must say she is convinced and looking out for natural ingredients

This month she had the chance to visit several dessert spots to help me evaluate great spots in town serving desserts . I hope she and HuaiHao had fun.

This month also, Qinzhi had sore throat and some cough and there were 2 days she couldn’t attend school.

It triggered me because while I felt that Qinzhi should rest at home, the conditions didn’t seem that bad that she couldn’t attend school

But she chose to retreat from school

And I was triggered because of the energy of retreating rather than to persevere and advance.

And writing this made me aware that I was in fact upset at myself for this choice of retreating or hiding into a shell rather than to be steadfast in my pursuit

And while I was asking Qinzhi to be motivated while at home, I was really lambasting myself

That was something that needed to be released. Now I know! I know now that irregardless – any choice allows us to learn. And there is no wrong or right way. We had choice always .

And I ask for wisdom and guidance and that we all make choices out of a place of love and openness, with divine guidance as our support.

May you be well and happy Qinzhi ! You can make magic happen.

Gifts

Gifts

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This was what the outside looked like this morning, perhaps just before sunrise , yes at 0642hrs

The light is- divinity itself

Things like this have a jaw dropping effect on me. You are stripped of anything you can say. Anything works and everything doesn’t work.

And so you look at it squarely. And be with it. Meditation is perhaps like this too?

In the evening when I looked out again, I saw tiny birds or swallows swooping in the skies. They were having loads of fun playing around

Obviously hard to catch! And I did!

So little bit they took on the skies without any care.

Can I learn from them?

Let go of inhibitions, fears, worries, anything that stops me from advancing.

And just play and have fun, without —— any care.

What wonderful gifts I have received today!

Be Sure

Be Sure

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The power of your thoughts are real.

They can affect not only your body, but other people in your life and community.

When you have a clear, simple goal, not only can you focus all your energy in one direction, clearing and re-arranging everything in your life to take you there in the best way possible, but the energies of life itself gather to support you in that goal.

So be mindful of what you think and what you wish for.

When you are thinking, you are moving energy.
Energy moves because of a message.

No matter what you see in the world, if this subject did not get a message, it will not have any movement.

Whether it is energy inside and outside the body or our human thoughts and emotions, they are all messages.

And the universe has its own message for us. And it has its own consciousness.

Energy moves with messages, and messages are used in different levels…

The 1st level is the “unsure message”.
When you have an unsure message, you have doubts. You are not sure whether this is exactly you want. And your energy in your body, anything around you, or anything you want to do will have no direction, no goal, no purpose, then your energy can easily get confused.

Be sure of yourself and your wants.

Make your purpose clear and specific.

What is the purpose of your practice or meditation?

What do you want to receive from it?

Do you want to heal the pain in your knees? Do you want to heal all your sadness and grief?

Feel deep in your heart, “This is exactly what I want. I am 100% sure from head to toe, and I trust this message is going to work for me”

Whatever it is that you want to accomplish, make sure it is known.

Write it down before you begin, can also be helpful.

Many Blessings,
Chunyi Lin

Inspirations From A Run (VI)

Inspirations From A Run (VI)

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Gift from nature at the end of my run. How beautiful.

(1) Light years ahead

May anyone who sees this be inspired by the light captured this morning to go forth and activate your path

(2) Big and Beautiful

The chinese way for the word beauty is 美, made up of 羊 （sheep）and 大 （big）

This morning as I was running , there was places which were more open than the others

And like this

And the expanse is beautiful. Space is beautiful. And it brings me back to the word 美. The word is supported by 大 or big below. And it says quite a bit about beauty. Big is beautiful

(3) Wisdom of the Sun and Moon

I have been writing this for a few days now- 智慧有日月同光

It translates to having the wisdom of the sun and moon. Or having the wisdom or intelligence of the universe.

And I kind of paid attention to that as I ran. There is a small window of seeing the sim and moon together. If you did- at any point in time, celebrate! And I thought of the times where I made decisions like that. I want to make decisions like that.

I can’t help but thank the new moon for her companionship at night and the sun for showing it’s brilliance this morning.

It’s so beautiful and to witness this is bliss.

And when thoughts came, I reminded myself to just be here, to stay here with this beauty that is here.

Be here and listen in on the divine. What does it have to say? What is it saying to you?

With so much love and light here,

Pass It On

Pass It On

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A few days ago I saw a recording of Ed Spina, a healer.

He shared his own experience of how he was able to get on better by having discordant energies removed from him and this is what he is doing now – to help others.

In bed yesterday, it suddenly came through in a capture what I wanted to do.

Simply to pass on the beautiful dining experiences I have had the privilege to have. The table taught me about variety, seasonality, food , produce, selection, about eating and not eating.

Then it taught me about life and the most wonderful things about life such as integrity, sincerity, magnanimity, honesty.

Then the table taught me about myself. Each time spent with the table with an open heart brought me much healing, inspiration, joy, blessings.

The best thing I can do is to pass it on.

And so it is.

Inspirations From A Run (V)

Inspirations From A Run (V)

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The intention today is to work with the divine to receive healing. To restore .

And this was what that came up in the run.

(i) thankful to be here

I’m thankful to be here , to be running now and to be seeing this. To be given this opportunity to be here now, to receive

(ii) nothing to do

When thoughts came, immediately there is this idea that “There is nothing to do, nowhere to go but here.

To receive.

There is no thing to do but just to be here and we will receive. I m certain.

(iii) healing comes within

Towards the end of the run, I asked myself about healing. What does my womb want me to know? That it is out of balance . And what can I do to restore he balance? To write !

The body is actually made to support the soul and soul journey and development

When there is inner clarity, the body works it’s best to support the purpose

(iv) openness

If I m here and an opportunity lands on me , isn’t that part of the flow? isn’t that a gift? Just as everything around me in the run is?

I have been looking elsewhere and thinking about something similar I have done always and remained somewhat close to the opportunity that has landed.

What happens when I m being open to this all?