Month: April 2023

Feeling The Divine

Feeling The Divine

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Do you think/know/feel there is a greater/bigger hand up there with a plan?

If so, what is the relationship with this hand?

I kind of was asking myself the question a lot of late

Quite a number of people around me talks about a divine a god a creator who has a plan for us all. But this isn’t something you get to know by instructional knowledge. It’s something you feel for more than anything else.

2 days back as I was walking towards my hairstylist’s , I thought to myself , what plan is in place and is getting curious.

“I must be following your plan right? I heard myself say. There must be a reason for this.” As I m walking it. I mean I kept seeing these numbers 1111, 222,1221, 1414

Content around Angel numbers say these are messages from the guardian angels and it means you are guided . I sometimes wonder what is the path

This morning in my run, I asked what god or the divine wanted me to know right now.

And I asked myself to open up to this run.

And the response that came back was, “ let go”

I realized how much of a control I am and how things were tough because I exerted control or wanted to control. And how things changed whenever I let go.

For when we have the idea to control, we are using our limited awareness, capabilities capacities to reach something . And that could a diversion or a thwart to the bigger plan.

We close off all other possibilities when we have the eye or mind for just one. The world becomes smaller and we coop ourselves there

While it’s not difficult to see this, it can be complex when we want to practice this . The habitual pattern of clinging and wanting to do something is often called out . And with the reinforced habits of having controlled, it’s way easier to choose control over letting go again

On another note as I ran, I tried to feel for my core and found something propelling me. That’s what beneath the breath, the support for my breath. The only thing I really have. That’s life force or divinity — that which is always propelling me forth.

ITS there!

I try to keep all else away but that in my awareness and to feel it . It is always with us, but with all perceptions beliefs values emotions …layered upon it ,

How many times have we heard—- that we are expressions of the divine and how the divine is in us ?

And do we believe this or know this? To establish this knowing , I think- start feeling. Just feel.

Not Too Bad

Not Too Bad

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I had the immense honour and privilege to meet with His Holiness the 41st Sakya Trizin and the words I took away was “not too bad”.

That’s good!

It was really brief and there was only a moment to say how after mom passed on, the family has been going through some difficult times and experiencing some cycles and Qinzhi had gone through a difficult patch and I left my work

To which His Holiness asked, what is your name?

And he closed his eyes to see. And then he said , “not too bad” 

And in those very subtle moments my heart soul and life (up)lifted 

The closest thing to describing it was like something was taken off me, or a page turned . A veil lifted.

Something to that effect.

What was powerful was this happened in the span of a few words

Not too inaccurate to say a shift has occurred in those moments of time

Almost like he orchestrated the shift and with his power brought you forth. That was magic.

I have been asking for an uplift . A pull . And he was the answer.

He gave me the opportunity and for that I am grateful with all of my existence 

I cannot imagine how powerful this being in front of me is. All he does is close his eyes and he CAN see – maybe all of my existence and experiences 

His words gave me the motivation and spirit to do better to be a better me

During the Chenrezig empowerment, I was actually feeling kind of loved and warm in the heart. And the thought, “how about seeing it all as a blessing?” popped into my heart. 

Because all along I have seen this as a sad story and myself being a victim 

What happens when I see all of it as a blessing ?

And after the session I saw old work partners and chefs in SG for an Asian gastronomic event.

And I kind of felt left out. I wanted to be in the party in the event in IT.  

But what really got me was how some of them whom I have given help to —- did not think of me when they are here

Was I asking too much or are people forgetful? Was what I did too meagre too little? 

The theme is always how much I feel I am sincere and went out of the way to help only to feel bad at the end because I m not recognized 

Writing this made me think of what Qinzhi was harping on- her Chinese teacher did not address her name correctly and she did not feel recognized or seen in her own light

And what is my own light? Instead of pointing the fingers at others for putting me down, and not seeing me for who I am, did I for once become clear about who I am ?

Did I celebrate myself for what I have achieved? My gift my uniqueness Or did I brush myself off and not give myself enough credit by choosing to stand closer to mainstream preferences?

The theme is also that of relativity – everyone sees things from their own perspective , values, belief systems and to demand or expect someone to see the same as you would be silly. The theme that is brought to mind is also that of giving without expectations, to give wholeheartedly, if anything comes back, it is a bonus. Finally, it is about connections- how to use connections in a way that brings benefits to all.

This being said, there is a lot of wisdom and learning that can be derived from emotions and our discontentment.

If we are willing to venture deeper into ourselves, we would be able to find something we can learn.

The Heart of the Vajrayana with H.H. Tai Situ Rinpoche

The Heart of the Vajrayana with H.H. Tai Situ Rinpoche

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This event is a special opportunity to receive teachings directly from His Holiness Kenting Tai Situ Rinpoche, the Supreme Head of the Palpung Monastic Seat and the living root guru of Mingyur Rinpoche. Tai Situ Rinpoche will teach us about the perfect, incorruptible true nature of all sentient beings and other essential points of tantra.  

Tantra=ONE ASPECT OF THE TEACHING OF LORD BUDDHA WHICH REPRESENTS THE ESSENCE OF ALL TEACHINGS OF BUDDHA

Heart of Tantra= go back to aspiration of buddha 2600 yrs back when he attained buddha hood in bodhghaya under the bodhi tree

every sentient being in space – from highest in gods to lowest of all living creatures – has potential

Each one of us is capable to be absolutely free and capable of attaining buddhahood

We are all equal in potential to be free and develop our inherent essence and ultimate nature 

Definition of Tantra

-ultimately at all times and beyond times, nothing is happening and nothing has ever happened to anyone and anything thru out the universe

-it means relatively, all kind of countless immeasurable things are happening to everyone and everything throughout the universe, relatively. 

-to identify these things that are happening to all of us, in our surroundings, this reality has to be personally addressed to understand by each of us

we manifest our body our speech our mind

as long as we live in this body, this perception and state of mind is relevant in our mind

all kinds of expressions including speech manifest from it

mind is the control

but sometimes when mind is not clear, it can become slave to our speech emotions thoughts

if we indulge in our physical habits, our thoughts and emotions become immature because definition of indulging is more than necessary and not essential

Heart of Tantra= make us efficient for our sake and everyone around and everything around us

the whole world entire universe is our bigger body, interconnected with our body

speech= expression 

mind at ease: that mind which is content that i m ok, he is ok, all is ok, it becomes less overwhelming : that is basic contentment

when we have this contentment, we can handle everything , our own shortcomings sufferings and others’ more efficiently

otherwise we make things worse for ourselves and others

you don’t have to do anything to make things better for anyone ultimately

because ultimately it will be perfect

relatively we experience so many things, it may not be perfect

practise of silence

temporary stop : overcoming the imperfections of our speech; just calm down and relax

you physically don’t indulge with anything

no chance for physical activity

gradually we progress

a good practitioner: clearness of mind will resonate thru clearness of speech and clearness of activity 

maintain this then we progress and in a way that perfect action and speech and thought become a natural second nature

we all have bad habits, but that is not human nature

human nature is perfect

human shortcomings thru practice and cultivation the perfection and goodness and correctness becomes second nature, closer to ultimate primordial nature

all obstacles obscurations are relative and temporary and but the outcomes of past imperfect intentions and actions, therefore one has to purify those outcomes of the past 

ie past karma 

karma in sanskrit means activity

all is interconnected and interdependent 

what can we do?

the sacred words are called mantra which are the sacred method to realise the essence of the mind which manifests through speech and activity and action

ie 

three kaya

dharmakhaya: the ultimate primordial essence of buddha all buddhas. The Body of Truth. The ultimate body, the absolute.

  • Sambhogakaya: The Body of Enjoyment. …
  • Nirmanakaya: The Body of Emanation.

ultimate essence of your mind is most important, appreciate understand uphold cherish it don’t let it be contaminated relatively