I was feeling really choked and muddled in the body and mind and I knew I had to write

I had to write to sort out my thoughts and to find a starting point again

The question is this: how can we do better? What else can we do? What is the direction I am heading towards? I need to chart my path.

With the passing of Ah Siong Hia, I feel it even stronger that direction of life is more than important. I feel it even more urgent that I know clearly what I really like want and need.

I need to get there.

More than staying in misery sadness fear regret doubts suspicion or anything else. I have done enough of this.

Accustomed habits and emotions that have weighed on us can consume us too easily . They had gravity in our lives. And over the years repetition has given them sustainability. But- why (are we) stuck in the rut when we actually know very well that we wanted the exact direct opposite!

We want peace and calm. Ease and joy. Comfort and satisfaction. Strength and clarity. We need awareness

Where is it we want to be at ? That’s where we put our energy and awareness at .

How can we work with life with the divine with ourselves to make it better?

The report card comes at the point of “graduating” from life

In the last few days there were lots that went around in the mind. Parents or elders , our younger generation and our own selves.

How can we make “graduating” easy effortless for everyone and not like any other “graduation ceremony “ that I have attended?

I thought for a while, it’s not how much money one has or not, how accomplished or famous one is——or not.

Then these words came into my mind:

No regrets

No grudges

Living life the very way your heart wants, gently. Doing things that make your eyes sparkle, giving hope and warmth

A clean open pure heart

Being in love

Only love love and more love

Everyday every minute every moment . To live love , in love. And to intend everything from it. Act out of it.

Be it.

I am reminded of what HuaiHao said this morning. We were lying on the bed and I asked him what is it I should explore.

He said “nature”

But “ not see it but be in it. Because seeing it is different from being in it”

I recall what Yongey Mingyur Rinpoche said, that the opportunity to begin again is in each and every moment “

Let’s try this!

And I just have to share this here again from teacher Stephan

“Just one of these bursts during the flight…

Human Beauty
Comes from
Love and Courage
For life

Have great day”