Thank You and Goodbye 2022

Thank You and Goodbye 2022

I was asking myself about 2022

It seemed empty at once

I did not attempt anything much professionally

But I covered so much path internally

Traverse mountains valleys and ranges in my inner world

Exploring highs and perhaps mostly lows

I learned to come back to the middle ground and to locate my center

It was a big learning curve

I think I did a lot coasting spirituality and energy work – perhaps I want to find out if that was for me

But now I think – I m happier simpler, lesser

The question that always found me in 2022 was – what do I want ? What do I really want? That was my work for 2022

I want to be happy – to live well and simple

I want to do my best for my family – helping them be well and feel well. And I know for that, I have to be well and healthy first

There are times I looked at bf and remember the boy who loved me and I love. Where is he now? He has gone through a lot too and has become this middle aged man already.

I look at myself – am I not the same?

We are each other’s reflection. We are each other. You are I. Me and I am in you.

If I want to see him rosy and happy, I first have to be . And I tell myself: let’s make love and peace everyday.

I want to shine bright- using what I see learn feel – for myself and my world. I sincerely hope that by living and feeling true to myself, I can inspire , warm and touch another person- and make another feel – let’s go again, let’s try once more, I can do it

2022’s December brought me to japan and europe and I couldn’t be more grateful coming to these places of beauty , feeling seeing breathing and experiencing it

Then expressing it outwards and getting all the echoes of resonance back

I never imagined crossing over a new year overseas, much less sledding and tobangganing or doing a thrill walk getting up close to mountains and zipping past alpine scenery

After staying stagnant for so long, I can’t be happier for the new places I go to, for the new experiences I bagged. There’s so much wonder in the new, each time allowing oneself to (be so willing as to) let go further of the past, to expand on one’s boundaries and go forth even more in consciousness.

I did something different and that’s so so good.

It’s a new beginning- May 2023 be filled moments after moments with loving light, magic and wonder. May 2023 be peaceful, healthy, joyful. Happy 2023!

Magical Europe (II)

Magical Europe (II)

31 Dec

We headed for Interlaken OST and made our way to Schiltorn. Bf was hesitant at first because a leg of the rail wasn’t covered by Eurail Global Pass

But I wanted to

So off we went

We took a train from Interlaken OST to Launterbrunnen and took a bus to Stechelberg. Here the cable car journey is split into a few legs and we progressed up

Birg at 2777 feet is where we did the thrill walk where you walk on steel railings and sometimes see through glass so you could see the mountains below

I did that with trepidation little by little

Then headed up to Schiltorn at 2970 feet

Schiltorn offers a view of the surroundings mountains , the Eiger, Monch, Jungfraujoch

There was a segment where you could walk on snow and feel the winds gushing at you

It’s nice. I m back here finally – I heard myself say. Finally! SO Happy!

Facing the sun and getting nearer to it then before

Having the winds gush and blowing at you

Seeing the mountains all around

I asked the winds to support the release of anything that no longer supports me

And I thanked TPY, for she has come such a long way. I thank her for putting in all the effort , persevering and believing and trusting enough amidst all to find her way here.

Magical Europe 22 (II)

Magical Europe 22 (II)

30 Dec

Is it 30 December 2022 already?

I am on the train from Chur to Bern. Traveling only rail is so pleasant in Switzerland, you weave past villages townships and meander around mountains in the golden sunshine – so brilliant it uplifts you immediately.

Having a cold hard bread easily put together with hummus and lettuce, and a vegan yoghurt makes it even better!

Traveling this way lets out lots of thoughts and emotions. You kind of meander into your inner world too.

And this lets me know that for a while in the past I have delved too much into a depth of my own far removed from nature.

Am I not glad to be in this spot now?

Not just glad but grateful happy joyful blessed! I know I am supported on all fronts.

This morning in my shower, I was talking to my body- let’s heal the keloids and everything else that need

Magical Europe 22 (II)

Magical Europe 22 (II)

29 Dec

We headed to Chur via train from Salzburg and landed ourselves in Landquart Fashion Outlet.

Shopping for winter wear has never been so exciting . The pricing and selection was great .

Before long, the next day has arrived. We headed to Pradaschier Adventure Mountain in Churwalden, in the Lenzerheide holiday region, a quick 15 minutes by car from the canton’s capital of Chur.

It’s a winter wonderland and everyone was busy skiing, sledding, tobogganing

We took a chairlift up and Tobogganing was in sight. The website described this as pure fun and I did think so. The run is 5km , the longest one in Switzerland, the first zipline in grisons.

As usual I was afraid, but bf egged me on. He was behind me controlling the brakes and I know I got myself covered

The mountains zipped by as we curved and bent, to be honest , it was good because it was so fast. It was very good because bf was behind me.

It was good because I had another chance to come face to face with fear and had the opportunity to go past it because of support from bf and reminded me of the times- the every time- I was supported and helped by all.

It was good because I tried something new stepping out of my comfort zone. How about trying something new each day? Stepping out of my comfort zone a little bit and expanding a little bit more each day?

It was good to really see the mountains in. winter this way.

Thank you bf

“Doing something new. That’s the adventure.”——Naomi Uemura, one of the greatest Japanese explorers in the modern era.

Magical Europe 22 (II)

Magical Europe 22 (II)

28 dec

Checked out for Salzburg to return the car

Weaving through the mountains is really therapeutic – the feeling is small seeing big

The huge mountains in front – gives you the idea that there is something larger and bigger than life

And you feel small immediately- small enough to be humbled and contented , small enough to be willing to let go and forgive and forget

Small enough to want to do one’s best to step forward to look for a better self

And the understanding or realization is that big things in life always make one feel small- or at least- in place

Magical Europe 22 (II)

Magical Europe 22 (II)

27 Dec

We woke up early and headed for a steep hike up to Mala Osojnica

The path was a constant rocky path and just us

Bf held me hand and egged me on. And when we came down too.

In the woods, it’s just us, our breathing, our steps. The birdsong

Our woods

All is quiet

Step by step. He said to just follow his steps.

The last time he did this was at Norikura.

This was when I came back to resting with him and knowing I m safe with him around

The experience brought out what was not so obvious in our daily life- that he was my rock

And so when he got angry or left me to settle things alone, I was always flustered and stressed and upset

I told him so

And before long, one step after one step —-following him, we found ourselves back at the lake.

And Lake Bled continued to shine and show its magic

It’s magic is showing itself through the veil of mist

Hidden somewhat yet always shining through

I shared some pictures on FB and a friend commented, “ thank you for being our eyes”

That really touched me

I wanted to see beauty share it outwards with my way of expression, hoping for it to touch another’s heart. To give hope and light.

His words tell me I have done it

And I thought of him, he had kidney failure and he fought too

For himself and – for us

We are all in everyone else and everyone else is in us

How different are we

In fact I first heard of Lake Bled from Kryon ‘s channel. Lee Carroll came here to channel Kryon.

And I was asking myself- what and where is Bled!?

And the magic is now before me.

We checked out and drove to zell am see instead of Innsbruck which we planned for.

It’s another 250 km for me to fall asleep and wake up to

We were driving through a long tunnel and emotions rose

Where are we heading and how long have I come

So far so far

And if anything, celebrate!

Celebrate all the good .

And I want to see the world and let my folks see it.

I want to.

And had my first sledding experience I dare not do it

But bf egged me on after letting me try tubing once

On the hill of snow where kids and adults had fun, I just stood still not moving not knowing what why when how

It’s just not my place

When bf saw that I did not have the guts

He sat behind me and we sled and sped downslope together

It was quite an experience and made me feel that I needn’t be afraid with him behind me

It kind of made me aware once more- my rock

Magical Europe 22 (II)

Magical Europe 22 (II)

26 Dec

Saw this view of Bled at 0730hrs. It’s a million possibilities that is looking back at you and which one, will you choose

I wanted to see Lake Bohinj, so we drove. We were driving and circling it yet it was—nowhere. Even if we were so close, Bohinj was not there for me.

The little hike helped me see why. The mist was so collected in the valley.

While getting contented with that lack of a proper view, forgetting the images of Bohinj I saw online, we dropped Bohinj completely and headed to Savica Waterfall.

It’s about 560 steps and then you come face to face with the valley below, mist covering Bohinj.

The geography of the area is what makes this place special. It’s always shrouded and veiled in clouds of mist.

Sometimes we have to rise above it to see it.

And Savica was such a treat! The emerald green waters were such a sight.

By noon, we were back at sea level and by this time the veil had lifted and Bohinj showed up.

Many at times we want it too hard too easily. Letting it loose and go may be a way to finding. Bohinj always was and has been, my expectations played on me. There’s a divine time for everything.

And who’s to say that the images online are the right ones?

We then headed to Ljubljana and there was a party on the street as it’s Independence Day. And there was lots going on with a lot of stalls selling food and stuffs

We walked about the Old Town and hiked up to the Ljubljana castle where we had a Birds Eye view of the city below

Then had dinner and drove back to Bled

I found it amazing that I have come to Slovenia.

Like a dream. Surreal.

Magical Europe 22 (II)

Magical Europe 22 (II)

25 Dec

We checked out of Salzburg and got our car at the airport.

Bf did a quick familiarization of the BMW we were upgraded to and headed for Lake Bled

We arrived after close to 300 km of driving

And I must say- Bled is something else other than beauty. There were lots of people walking around the lake, appreciating it, living it loving it.

Magical Europe 22 (II)

Magical Europe 22 (II)

24 dec

On the eve of Christmas, we headed back to the Domquartier and visited the Salzburg Cathedral (where Mozart was baptized ) and visited St Peter’s Church. We lighted a candle here on bf’s initiative.

It felt lovely seeing the candle lighted – it is as if the light is warming up my heart

I pray. I ask for all to be always inspired and warmed. For all to always be guided and protected. By light.

Our own- light.

We had a vegan lunch before heading to the Schloss Concert at the Marble Hall Mirabell. The time here listening to the pieces made me aware- I came to Salzburg to come here to listen to this

So it was for this I came. I could have some connections with this place the music. And I have come again.

That was why Salzburg was picked. There was no accident

Magical Europe 22 (I)

Magical Europe 22 (I)

23 dec 2am: On the flight to Frankfurt

Lying down on Qatar and smiled to myself

It’s the feeling of a right decision

How about starting with making a right decision each day ?

It’s the feeling of gratitude, that I get to travel with my husband and to be with each other – here, now

I am grateful to everyone who made this possible, my dad who helped me take care of kids,

I am grateful to my kids who gave us their blessings

I am grateful to have the opportunity to see the world and get to new places I haven’t been to

I intend that the trip for wonderfully filled with love, light and magic

I intend that I connect back to TPY

I intend that I use my heart to feel

6am

Reiki-Ing myself and thoughts streamed in

I asked myself to come back

Come back to what?

To meeting the divine

Who is divine? Where? I asked.

Who are you meeting?

And the response was: the divine is me and in me

You are meeting TPY

Powerful beautiful awakened TPY

I ask my body to heal the cyst the keloids

I ask myself to become the healthy shiny energetic TPY- a version of me I haven’t really explored

I want to go there so that this TPY, healthy rosy energetic beautiful light filled being can help many others

And so it is

And I saw this

We spent the first day in Salzburg shopping in an outlet then headed to the Christmas markets in Salzburg

The markets were busy and there were lots of Christmassy things and food but it just wasn’t my kind of magic

We had schnitzel and a kale ravioli for dinner then headed back to the hotel to rest

I asked myself about the magic… I mean, I considered the itinerary that kind of settled us in——Austria Salzburg Slovenia Lake Bled Bern Annency Lyon Paris

What called me here

There are many new places I haven’t been to

And I ask myself to open up to the magic the trip is opening up to me