Qinzhi woke me up from the (prolonged?) slumber I had been in.

I motivated her to get up to run/walk with us. She woke up late as usual but I convinced her to do the walk slowly.

When we headed to the park, she was all the way behind us.

I asked the daddy to slow down and be with her while I ran. I didn’t want to leave her alone

But the daddy kind of asked where she is and threw a fit.

“If Qinzhi is going to walk like that don’t force her. Let’s just head back.“

He went all the way and Qinzhi obviously was shocked at this sudden onward of lecture

Frozen she stood where she was and took it all

I did kind of the same- with a few worthless- stop it .

Afterwards she walked kind of directionless lifelessly

Yet this all made sense to me. Because Qinzhi is mirroring who else but me.

She was reflecting back to me how I was walking living

So while I coaxed her motivated her coached her, I can’t help but feel like this is for me

Life IS happening for me, showing to me, talking to me.

And I m glad I heard .