Watching kpop drama <Shooting Stars> with HuaiHao, this episode spells of a budding love between a celebrity and the team lead of the PR department. And i turned to Huaihao and said, “Isn’t nice to to have someone you love?”

And HuaiHao turned to me and said, “mommy”

Awwwwwwwwww

This little one is beginning to appreciate vegetarian bee hoon his dad likes at a coffeeshop in an older estate in this part of this modern country. He was filled with hopes as he made his 45min journey on a bus to eat there. He said if the stall isn’t open he will cry. And the stall did not open. We took him there another day and look at him!

He said, “I m all blossoming now!”

And there were a few days Huaihao didn’t have to go to school so we went jogging at east coast beach soaked in some sun and sea breeze!

And with Huaihao, I kind of find my belonging

Every year on my birthday, Huaihao would be the first one to wake up in the morning and to hand me with two little hands, his handmade card. This year too! And he would kiss me kiss kiss kiss, he makes me feel very precious and appreciated.

On another day, we went to Uniqlo just to do a recce of what winter wear options they had and Huaihao took the chance to get on a ride

Just that he is little no more!

On the saturday before ah hui ah yi’s birthday, there was a last minute luncheon Huaihao could attend and this sincere little one made a card in quick time and coloured the cake with the colours of clothes ah hui ah yi would wear!

On another morning, Mommy took Huaihao to have eggs and toast.

Actually missed out on bedtime routines with HuaiHao in the last 2 weeks and we finally cuddled in bed one night.

HuaiHao : do you know how long I waited for this?

Me: wait? 

HuaiHao: We haven’t hugged like this for so long every second in the last 2 weeks felt like an eternity

On another day, it wasn’t quite the day I would ask for.

HuaiHao: so are you angry?

Me:… not really. It’s like, the feeling is——well done huh TPY 

HuaiHao: But life has its ups and downs what . It’s normal. Just breathe breathe and breathe… it’s ok. 

Is some angel speaking to me through this precious little one?

HuaiHao: How are you feeling now? You can feel your feelings mommy it’s ok. On the outside you are okay but on the inside you are hurt

Me: huh really ?

HuaiHao: You’ve got to be a sponge on the sea. 

Me: What’s that?

HuaiHao: It always rises up to the top. The sponge. Even if a hydraulic press presses on it, it always comes up. 100%

One night we were walking back home and HuaiHao saw a bright star

I said that it doesn’t sparkle do probably it’s not a star but a planet 

I fished my phone out and pointed an app at it

The star is Jupiter 

And HuaiHao said how wonderful is it to have an app like this that could show you something so far away

I said I don’t even know how to describe that distance from here to Jupiter 

HuaiHao said we are gazillions apart

I said that before HuaiHao came to me as a baby we are also that far apart

But something magical happened in the midst . Some kind of magic force or energy collapsed the distance in between and now we are here holding hands

Isn’t that wonderful?

Yes, wonderful isn’t enough to spell things out. As with everything in life, that we celebrate or not, it is a magical occurrence through and through.

More often than not, we do not see the beauty of something because of the preconceived notions that we have.

Dear Huaihao, I hope you will be open and wise to see life as it is, it is what mommy is learning now. I wish you lots of love and light.