It’s been close to one month since I stopped running , recovering from flu

The last week has been extremely tiring for me with foggy feelings fatigue breathlessness

When I ran all this while nothing of the sort plaqued me

It came to my understanding that the energy isn’t flowing or circulating in my body and there was a lot of stagnation

Probably also another nod to my professional life as I now look outwards and forward to starting out again

Yesterday while preparing dinner, I told myself to do every bit deliberately

Be in the moment and not be led away by the fogginess and the associated frustration and helpless feelings that came along

There was a lot of surrendering to that state I was in it trying to make sense or worry or find out what was not right

Not trying to get out of it desperately

To just be with that state and not being afraid of it not stopping it nor trying to force my way with it – and end up making things worse

But the sun came out this morning and I decided to head out

I ran somewhat slowly first

And I intended to open myself up to the now

And to listen in to whatever message or guidance the universe brings

And bring me messages it did

⁃ We are the very ones who close our doors to life. Really subtly this happens. We close up and we know this is true because or when we open up

⁃ Awareness can heal. I thought of the repeated bouts of fatigue and breathlessness. Each time worked my way with it using whatever awareness I have or have not- they were important practice sessions for me to wake up. Awareness of the situation can have immense healing powers

⁃ it doesn’t matter how slow you go so long as you are in the right direction, you are getting there

⁃ I thought of my keloids- thing is even though it has been inflamed so many times each time it healed. The body heals. The body is on my side

⁃ But how many times did we wreck our body by not taking care of it

⁃ The next thing that came: give thanks. Say thank you, thank you body for healing me each time

An eagle flew by as I completed my run

I also learnt that there is a lot of power in “I call my power back”