I always intended before I started walking or running. To use the practice ahead to expand on my consciousness, to open my mind further . To reconnect with my body, my self——- seemingly brainless or basic things but really it’s not that easy after all.

But as always on me time, inklings always come about.

(I) Like

One day I asked TPY what does she like? And the responses came.

我喜欢被感动，然后去感动别人

我喜欢发现，喜欢新，喜欢去发掘新奇的东西

可能别人会错过的

我喜欢做别人的眼睛，帮别人去发现发掘出来美

In essence, I found out that it’s not so much writing that I liked but discovering the new and seeing how I act on it or react to it. I like to look ahead and watch out for new things and to find the connection with it

(II) Open Up Show Up

On another day, I asked myself why do I need my shield of keloids and it dawned on me that at a certain point in my life, when life rained on me, I felt like I was not able to receive or manage already and so I put up my hands to block

And block all of life I did. The keloids when dad left and mom passed on. Then when Qinzhi experienced epilepsy —— and now writing this made me understand how I put a shield on my navel with the cyst!

When I felt how life was throwing things at me and I was overwhelmed and how life isn’t working for me

I put things up as a shield

And H did send me Louise Hay’s interpretation of a cyst

“Cysts: Running the old painful movie. Nursing hurts. A false growth.
Cystic Fibrosis: A thick belief that life won’t work for you. “Poor me.”

And I took the chance to tell TPY – I do not need to shy away from life and it’s offerings anymore. I affirmed the circle of support I have and once again worked at feeling openness.

I need not hide from life- at all.

I affirm that I enjoy success prosperity vibrant great health and energy amazing fulfilling wholesome relationships

I affirm I am in the flow and always travelling in the best direction

I want to experience openness and success like never before

(III) Breathe

On another day when it rained as I was running, I was more desperate trying to anchor myself on my breath than escaping the rain. When it rained on, the voice in me grew louder : stay with the breath, stay. Move the body not the mind. Stay with the breath, feel it. And that was the gateway or link to the present. Not worries about the rain or getting rained on.

(IV) Yoga

I kind of am reconnecting back to yoga and is intrigued by the things the instructor says during the lesson

Such as- don’t do the pose let the pose do you.

Such as, let the yoga begin now

Such as, we see more when we feel more

The purpose of doing so much is to go in

As the pose gets a bit more intense, find a place to get comfortable . Adjust. Stay with the breath. Move the breath. Move the body not the mind

Find a place for the breath, where it hasn’t been before

And I see squirrels, eagles, birds and know – all is well.

If anything, find all ways to be connected with the self. And always , always come back to centering the self- or the breath.

No matter how hard it is raining. Ot what you see, hear, feel. Come back to the breath.