These few days traveling with dad made me see how real aging is.
Or how real life is, life that doesn’t wait for anyone .
There were so many instances or moments of negativity. And they made me aware of fear and doubt.
And they are opportunities to let me snap out and to choose a vibration or frequency that I want.
Lots of practice
And there is an emerging thought- to surrender and let it flow. Not control. To know that all is well. And to trust the divine.
I also have a lot of compassion for dad. A very simple man who has no tools or techniques or guidance on life or asking for life what he wants. He passively just takes everything in his stride. And to understand that life is destiny or fate controlled by the heavens.
I try to share with him what I learn on affirmations and manifestations as much I can.
I learned about capacity. And the capacity of myself that would be important. To build myself first —- and in such a way so I can help others.
When I did reiki for myself this morning, I heard myself say- The divine is flowing in me. In my hands and fingers. In and out through my eyes, my mouth my words, emanating from my heart.
My little precious helped me washed dishes, all of our plates and bowls we used for dinner. And he said, “I really wanted to help you mom”
awwwwwwwwww
All i did was point out during dinner that he and Qinzhi had lots of potential and are so very gifted and as parents, we will do what we can, the utmost we can to provide them with what they need to get to the spot they desire
And before bedtime, Huaihao prepared his diffuser without me saying.
Its amazing how praise works.
You want more from kids? Praise the good in them and let them see their good.
The thing is, everyone somehow feels good at the end.
On Fridays, we head over to ah yi’s for dinner and bonding with grandpa and Huaihao somehow loves to have ah yi trim his nails
And this is Huaihao prepping a birthday card for his daddy. And at 530am on his dad’s birthday he woke and did this piece of instruction paper in the living room and came in to paste it on our door. He had hid the card under his pillow the night before and told me, “probably dad would know, because that is what he always does—on our birthdays and during Chinese New Year when he hid the angbaos under the pillow”
It really explains in such a nice way, how children emulate and learn from their parents. And it becomes the way they know.
We celebrate dad’s birthday and Mother’s Day the same weekend and I had my treat too! Under the pillow!
I should have known!
On dad’s birthday we woke early and went out for our weekend walk and breakfast!
Dinner was at Summer Pavilion and Huaihao looked forward to this treat so much ! He kept asking me to check if chef is around and if he isn’t, he wouldn’t want to eat there.
And he is right because this is the way you get treated to proper food, with chef’s attention. Huaihao had all the soup to himself and had an abalone fish maw scallops alll. His favourite is the amuse bouche of egg and lobster bisque with vinegar caviar.
And he tried sweet and sour pork and declared this is the best. Chef gave us a dumpling to which Huaihao opened himself and obviously devoured, he opened up the steamed dumpling with spoons pretty much like a pro and asked “Can i have this all to myself ?”
And this is Huaihao, the precious one. I asked him what he would like for me to get back from the trip. He said, “I would like to try the food there.”
Like baguette? Croissants? Macarons?
He nodded and said, “But i like to try the meat there too,”
Like sausage hot-dogs kind?
“Yes, can you get them from sausage land?”
Another night on the bed, he said something like , “Just be yourself and don’t follow the herd “
I asked if he meant hurt. And he said, “like sheep and cow moving in a herd!”
I asked if he copied this somewhere and he said, “I pooped it out mommy”
So effortless so humorous. And really cool!
Another night.
I forgot what we spoke about that led to this.
HuaiHao: I want to help people when I grow up
TPY: oh how? Like erm, teach or share knowledge also helping, giving money also helping, how would you like to help.
HuaiHao: I like to help to make people happy.
TPY: would love to see what precious HuaiHao is going to do !
Another night:
HuaiHao: Mommy I love you
TPY: I love you too!
HuaiHao: So when you love someone, you got to appreciate his highs and lows?
TPY: What is it you mean by appreciate ?
HuaiHao: It means accept.
TPY: And what is highs and lows?
HuaiHao: It’s the things you do and not
TPY: Why must we accept or appreciate?
HuaiHao: Because what we are talking about —- is love, mommy.
Huaihao seems to procrastinate when it comes to learning spelling and there is chinese spelling which he didn’t really want to learn but eventually did and scored 100 marks and it is all in a day’s work. I love the doodles he did.
This is my precious boy, trying to smile the emoji smile
Its been a while since i travelled without the kids, and I asked for their support as always and got it. Huaihao says he is helping the sis and dad with raindrop, really thankful !
And I know, I just do, that the travel will be working miracles and love and joy for us all!
Dad woke and pooped with blood. We headed up to jungfraujoch and he had altitude sickness.
It really pushed me to waking up. And indeed helped me let go of my pride.
Throughout the day, I practiced and learn to trust the Divine in me and with me. Qinzhi sent me prayers like this :
Wednesday prayer.
In the name of the Father, and of the Son , and of the Holy Spirit.🙏🏻 it’s wednesday father God. It’s the middle of the week, and just want to thank you for bringing us safety this far. For all who are struggling financially, mentally and physically, we ask that you would lessen their burdens. Sincerely heal their bodies, mend broken hearts, and find and make a way out of no way for those trying to take care of themselves and their loved ones. May they stay safe and happy and healthy. We praise and thank you in advance! We pray also for travelling mercies and protection from all dangers seen and unseen. Thank you Jesus! May you please continue to keep us and our families and the many families in the world covered under the precious Blood of Jesus. In Jesus’ name, I pray. amen. In the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit. 🙏🏻Amen.
We were on the train to Chur and we need a more comfortable seat. I said to sis that the guys to our right are leaving next. I said it so casually.
And they did leave the seat when the next station arrived.
Is this coincidence ?
It brought me to knowing manifestation once more
And to be mindful to it because it all comes back to us
How can we be responsible ? I mean, we have to.
I was so tired I went to bed at around 9pm Swiss time. I woke up at around 330am and the thought came :
To shift to where you want.
Where or what do I want. Us this trip to shift to. And the people around you will not be the same too.
My family at home. My family around me.
They are no longer the same as well.
I heard myself say to consciously shift to a place of love, laughter, joy, happiness, forgiveness, understanding.
And I thought about what I thought about- that life needn’t be learnt the hard way. In the laughing is the healing. In the laughing is the learning.
Like how we were all laughing on the train about the passengers who left their seat for us. And I did think about the trip as a joyful journey.
We can learn easily, lovingly, joyously, beautifully! We can reverse all processes!
I watched Matrix 2 on the plane and there are so many meaningful quotes one of which is: you can’t go back there, you won’t.
And I watched Shang Chi and one of the quotes were Shang Chi ‘s mother telling him that he gets all of what his parents give him. And it is up to him to make his gifts his, in a way that is him.
Traveling these 2 days with sis and dad made me feel grateful and feel somewhat carefree. I told sis I m grateful and that we must have done something right.
Sis is the one who is more expressive. She cares for him so much and flows into everything like taking pictures for him while I m slightly still more laid back . Writing this made me know I m still holding back
I remember in my sessions- I know that both sis and I were versions of mom who care for dad. And in different ways.
And sis is doing the opposite and she has shown me how easy it is to just be and let go
And the point I reach is: I m dad’s princess once more. Nothing to do.
The highlight of today is Glacier Express and dad was seated opposite me. While I can see that he is tired and old, I took care not to see too
Dad did my opposite and remarked that I have a lot of white hair and sis said I m already past 40. To which dad replied: time, so fast.
I sort of felt or saw myself as a little girl in his eyes. Always has been .
On the other hand, Dad is always thinking of me as a priority. When sis asked what he wants for dinner, he would say: I love veggies so let’s do a veggie place. Or after dinner, and sis asked if he liked to go for a walk, he would say- I m tired so let’s head home.
I am reminded that he the hubby brother and HuaiHao are the same soul sets. With them, I m always the princess . And healing each one, heals all.
I just couldn’t be natural or at ease. Rather than asking what m I still holding on to, I m seeing this as- we are already at ease. Like a photo we took while we had the opportunity to get off glacier express . The mountain range as our backdrop, we smiled so nicely.
In that point : I m dad’s princess once more. Nothing to do.
I am reminded that me the sister and qinzhi are the same soul sets. Healing one heals all.
In this month, i had lots of wonderful conversations with Qinzhi. There was really any chance to take photos when we had these conversations.
But it really made us best friends as we traversed the insides of our hearts.
For example, one day qinzhi was texting me to tell me how disappointed she was with her friends and I was sharing with her my experiences of doing my best for my friends and not asking for anything in return. And also, not to be attached to their moods so i do not invest myself overly.
And i am surprised at the level of maturity Qinzhi has when she messages her dad.
The daddy has not been speaking up and left for a diving trip quiet. And this is what Qinzhi wrote.
The kids also did handmade cards and shared heartfelt words with the dad and hid them so he could find. How beautiful!
And we were on our weekly sessions of walk once more, it felt good after so long that everyone is together. We then took 36 to Millenia Walk and had Meidiya’s sushi. On the breakfast table, I took the chance to sort out the unhappiness. And had everyone talking slightly.
With the unhappiness sorted, we had summer pavilion’s awesome dinner that night
And this is Qinzhi sharing her photos with me, she said she took these on her way home
Especially on the nights we have raindrop, we have lots of wonderful conversations where Qinzhi would tell me about school, her concerns and all. We have become good friends in a way.
Miraculously , Qinzhi’s math improved tremendously, it was as if she has found a way out. I remember myself finding out for Math in about sec 2 and before, it was all a blur,
But Qinzhi did it earlier than me. We ran the same themes of not knowing Math before.
Talk about same soul sets. Because I had it so hard, living my life as a child with rules and expectations in place, now that I am mommy, I really opened up lots of space for Qinzhi and Huaihao.
And because of this I am managing with a set of different behaviour and concerns that were quite different from what my mother and me experienced.
The kids are now so free we explored failure, low marks or grades, imperfection, really lax behaviour and pulling ——-rather than non failure and a state of non low grades or really high marks and perfection, beating, pushing
Almost like do re mi fa so la ti do on the piano, a different set of octaves beating to the melody of a theme, but at a different frequency or level.
Knowing Qinzhi and me are the same soul sets, and me, sis and mom and granny too, it makes things clearer and its brings a lot more clarity.
I wish you wisdom and lots of love and light. There is no doubt, Qinzhi is powerful and even more so than me. Go for it, Qinzhi!
And its been a long while since I travelled without the kids, Qinzhi is going to help take care of daddy and huaihao by prepping their supplements.
I hope this gives her a little surprise!
And i have prepared a recipe for her so she can cook for her dad and brother
Its going to be really therapeutic and full of love!
I woke up on 15/5 feeling tired and low on energy.
Then I understood: I had been seeing that everyone around me was experiencing some experience of a a physical event
Qinzhi was dizzy at school
HuaiHao was unwell and had a tummyache
Dad experienced dizziness and vomited
Bf had some kind of stomach flu that I didn’t know how to explain that turned him into soft jelly
the cleaning out everyone was experiencing was with me and for me and I had the understanding now
That I was cleaning myself these few months
I was doing it slow and gradual but everyone did theirs in an express module of sorts
Interesting enough , i drew this card
And qinzhi sent me this
And off I m with sis and dad on the business class trip of a lifetime
I remember thinking in the wee hours of the morning of 15/5 – I m so grateful for this trip so immensely thankful
It seemed even unimportant now what I want to say to dad
The most important thing is to have lots of fun happiness now and in the days ahead
I intend that this trip for us three will be so full of love, so happy, filled with so much laughter so much light and joy so much healthfulness all of us
Yes- ALL of us – are blessed so much any healing is automatic and complete or anything that is needed is healed
I saw the first—- well I would like to think it’s one of the very first rays of light when I drew up the shades
And it makes me know that it’s kind of silly we spent one month away doing anything but connecting
And why would we be at odds when we both have so much love for each other?
Looking out at the sky made me think this
I feel like laughing
And I want to and will be traveling with you very very soon, on business class to where we both will find and love each other so deeply again
Like when we are gf and bf
I love being in this seat looking at the fluffy whites and blue. It makes me feel really close to god, Buddha, or the divine and angels. I thank them all for the blessings and protection.
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