9 Yrs 3 Mths

9 Yrs 3 Mths

Huaihao asked me these questions the morning of Easter.

“Mommy, if you have 3 powers, what would they be?”

I said I wanted to be able to create what I want. (and in my mind, i heard myself say, I already have that power, in fact all of us do, we are powerful creators and we create our own reality.)

The second was to heal everything I touch. (and in my mind, i knew I or we already have that power.)

The third was to be where I want.

Huaihao added, “you mean the power of teleportation?”

I asked him in return what powers he wanted. To which he said, “I want the power of wisdom, so that I can make the right decisions, I want the power of health, so that i can clean up everything in the sea and it would be clean and the power of teleportation.”

We continued our conversation.

Then he asked, “Mommy, is there anything you want back in your life and anything that you want out of your life?”

I said, after a while of thinking , “maybe my mommy? then grandpa would have a companion and (he said, —your life would be more whole?) and you would have a grandmother.”

And i would want to have all the strong energies or emotions that bring me the cyst and the keloids out .

And I asked Huaihao, what then would he want in his life and out? He said he wanted papa to be not angry and wanted to be back again to younger days.

And i asked if he really wanted to be little again.

Then he asked me what the soul does.

I said the soul evolves and learns along the way. And shared with him some theories i have come across, such as us picking where we were going to be born in, what we are going to learn and who we are going to meet. But—What a question from the little one!

Another day, we spoke about his dad in his own cave. And we discussed what strategy we would employ to help dad?

I proposed 2 ways, to go in there and fetch him out. Or, to remain at a high and he matches our high. We discussed how easy it was for us to match him at his state or be affected by him doing or his non doing . And Huaihao said, “guys just be yourself and don’t follow the hurt!”

I m so amused by the wisdom of this little one, and I asked how this came out. Did he read this somewhere or copy ?

And he laughed, “I just pooped it out”

I love how he dishes and sends me these nuggets of inspiration in such a light way. It makes me realise that wisdom, love is always with me.

This day after school, qinzhi has CCA and I took Huaihao out to Tenjin for lunch. Like a little excursion of sorts for us. Me time.

On this weekend morning, we walked and headed to Jewel. When Huaihao saw this fountain and the rainbow that was reflected, he said, “seeing this gives you hope right, Mommy”

And there’s so much beauty in this appreciation and sharing. Seemingly little things that brighten you up.

Was getting qinzhi to say affirmations such as I love, approve and accept myself and HuaiHao was around and he said, “Happiness is me.” And when we were running he said “I m god”

Wow. He isn’t that far off from this truth- we are created in the likeness of god and we all have these wonderful amazing qualities.

This weekend, we did Duck Tours.

And this is Huaihao’s booklet recording his device time. Love his doodles!

Power does not come from saying, it comes from the heart!

And one day he popped out of the bath in this getup, and felt satisfied in me being so amused.

He also started to plate his dinner

This friday at ah yi’s, ah mei ah yi was trimming his nails.

One evening we went shopping for groceries and took the chance to ice cream

Another day, Huaihao wrote his own story and came up with a tongue twister

And bedtime with HuaiHao is always lovely. He said he still remembers how breast milk tasted 

“It’s sweet, a bit salty and not fishy like milk”

HuaiHao was tucking me in bed and I feel so loved

I said thank you and this makes me feel like a princess 

“ but you already are !”

But I m not pretty

“ why do you say that?!” He sulked

“ you are pretty and if you believe you are, you are!”

So well said 

Think thoughts that make you happy

Do things that make you feel good

Be with people who make you happy

Eat things that make your body feel good

Go at a pace that makes you feel good

Today I went for my third dose of vaccine and came home totally zapped of energy and I feel breathless.

HuaiHao offered to massage me and did it for so long after he raindrop me.

Amazingly his hands always pointed to the right spot where pain and soreness residedI

Asked him how he knew and he said, “ this part is softer and jiggly but here is stiff.”

I had sone pain in my right arm and elbow but HuaiHao said the stiffness is more pronounced in my left shoulder

Then he said, “ the left hand is connected to your right side of the brain and vice versa. And the left side is the logical brain and so it follows that you are stuck in the logical aspect. And mom, you are like a sponge soaking up all the oil . It’s like if you like it you soak it up but if you don’t you leave it all there.”

Wow

Then he continued to massage me until his back is sore and I told him that I do not want that.

We lay down on our backs and he massaged my face.

It was so good I said many thanks to him. I bowed down to HuaiHao and thank his healing hands for saving me out of the lousy feeling.

To which he said, “you make me happy too.”

I took the opportunity to remind him of how magical and powerful his love was , pulling me out of the deep and reviving me.

Then I went on to caress his hands. And I felt myself teary for the warmth of the touch was good to me too

I asked HuaiHao how he felt.

“Makes me feel like crying.” He said.

I m grateful for HuaiHao . Thank you for healing Mommy precious one! Love you so much HuaiHao!

13 Years 2 Months

13 Years 2 Months

Gifted Qinzhi with a raw ruby and a raw emerald and these seem to be the things she needed. And I shared with her the power of saying affirmations.

“I am willing to change”

“I love approve and accept myself”

She went on to do “I m the best in math in class”

and the miracle is she did in a short span of time. Before she was really weak and registered resistance when it came to maths

And now, she’s the best for algebra in class.

How amazing is that. And she is providing me with a mirror to spur me on. Motivating me to do the same.

This weekend, Qinzhi said she wanted to do a staycay at ah yi and this would be the birthday present she wants. And ah yi made her a nice breakfast.

Then popo and ah hui ah yi made curry and we happened to have bread so we did the dip.

And Qinzhi’s hair is so long now.

Qinzhi showed me how she dealt with errant behaviour of her classmate who disturbed her in class. And the way she did it was amazing. She displayed such maturity in her words and thoughts. I told her she is super awesome

Be well and happy Qinzhi!

Missed the bus, but hey

Missed the bus, but hey

I did all I can at my best, prepared all the brews, breakfast and lunch for HuaiHao , did raindrop for him and headed out for my reiki 2 class.

Before I decided, the tired feeling came on.

Now that I journal, I just know—— it is not mine. But the husband is going thru his cycle. Unconscious to it .

All along when HuaiHao is not feeling well, he would stay clear and not be responsive. He would side step and I would handle.

This time too. But today as I was deliberating if I should stay at home or head for class, I decided the latter.

The hub has gone back to bed- a sign that he is switching off and going back into his old mode.

So I would make room, consciously for him to go through the process. What is different is that, as opposed to telling him what to do, letting him know what I prepared, instructing him as to how he should act ie to take responsible, I left after letting HuaiHao know what he can expect from what I have prepared.

I will leave my expectations somewhere there, with room for them to play it out. Rather, for the daddy to be guided by the son. Or rather, for the divine to set things in order.

For all that I need to know, will be revealed to me in divine order. And all that I need, is taken care of by the universe.

I see them breakthrough. And it will be different from the past.

And so it is.

I popped down and saw the drizzle and went back upwards to get an umbrella. When I went down the drizzle was somewhat gone. I feel light and reiki love outwards.

Then I saw the bus I was aiming for pass me by.

I shouldn’t have went back up for the umbrella! I thought.

But as I was nearing the bus stop, I saw the outline of another bus, and that is the bus for me. Less crowded. And I got the space and the feeling to journal this down.

Sometimes, missing a bus might not be that bad because a better one comes by.

Like what the Dalai Lama says, sometimes missing something is a blessing.

How Blessed I AM, How Blessed You Are

How Blessed I AM, How Blessed You Are

Dan Dennett: Collected Wisdom on Memes, Luck, Consciousness, and Existence

“Every living thing is, from the cosmic perspective, incredibly lucky simply to be alive. Most, 90 percent and more, of all the organisms that have ever lived have died without viable offspring, but not a single one of your ancestors, going back to the dawn of life on Earth, suffered that normal misfortune. You spring from an unbroken line of winners going back millions of generations, and those winners were, in every generation, the luckiest of the lucky, one out of a thousand or even a million. So however unlucky you may be on some occasion today, your presence on the planet testifies to the role luck has played in your past.”