Qinzhi said she cant believe she is going to be 13 in a matter of days and asked if I could? I tried for a second and said, not really. In my mind, I saw her just out of my tummy, Dr Soon just got her and the nurse placed her me and she started to suckle.

It was the first time I felt life-force coming out of a baby, so strong. It saved me from whatever I was in and gave me the strength each time I needed.

This afternoon I asked Qinzhi for some help. And she replied, “say something to your awesomely spectacular and super guai daughter”

I took the opportunity to say , “I love you to the ends of the universe and beyond eternity”

And I felt I have gone there and back.

That said, February got the kids all happy and excited because it is Chinese New Year. We bought some new clothes, cleaned the house and prepared the tidbit box. And Qinzhi had it all done so nicely. She helped me with the oranges too.

And before we knew, the even of Chinese New Year is upon us. Its the first time she is celebrating it in her new school with her new friends.

And we had our closest most precious come over for the Reunion Dinner.

When we had leftovers, Gengyan jiujiu played with Qinzhi and Huaihao scissors paper stone, whoever lost would have to pick up the leftover food. And this is the first time Qinzhi tried braised goose feet and oysters.

And before we knew it, we are in the Year of the Tiger. Qinzhi and Huaihao wished us Happy New Year with oranges in hand. And Daddy always placed angbaos below the kids’ pillows and they would have fun and joy picking out angbaos when they awake.

Then we headed to grandpa’s and ah hui ah yi’s where we had popiah and ngoh heong, curry and steamboat.

We continued visiting on the second day of Chinese New Year and Gengyan jiujiu and Karyn jiejie prepared the same clothes for all to wear. And Qinzhi is so grown up she’s a lady now.

The biggest thing I learned in the last 2 months was that qinzhi me my mom and my grandmother and the lines of womenfolk up, we all belong to the same soul set. Which is to say, they are all me and I m all them. I m mommy and grandma and qinzhi

And so if I healed, all the women in the line healed.

And if I did not know how qinzhi would think, I could just ask how I thought. If I didn’t know how I felt, I could just rephrase the question and asked how would qinzhi feel or say.

That is how much we are alike.

And on the even of qinzhi ‘s birthday, I went shopping for steamboat items

Then headed home to prepare dinner and to wrap up qinzhi ‘s present

And daddy did too. He heard about qinzhi having to deal with stomach cramps during her period and went on to get this gift of an electric heat pad

Got Qinzhi a Le Matin strawberry shortcake composed of really beautiful layers but we were all baffled when it comes to eating this ! Most importantly, we had everyone dear to Qinzhi celebrating and singing her a birthday song

Then we headed o Marine Crescent and had steamboat. Gengyan jiujiu helped order a strawberry shortcake from Ami patisserie and collected it. The chef presented us with another burnt cheesecake with truffle !

And his is Qinzhi blessed by grandpa and all of us!

We headed home late and then Qinzhi had more presents to open up!

Happy birthday princess ! Continue to believe in yourself your dreams and your power. There is nothing you cannot do.

You are so loved!