Going on to 9 years

December seemed to be about school. Even if it was the holidays.

Probably because Qinzhi is going on secondary and Huaihao transferred. On 8 December, we received news of Huaihao’s application for school transfer and Huaihao got into a school just below our flat.

We headed back to Alexandra primary for a withdrawal from school form and then headed to Ngee Ann for a submission of this form for a formal acceptance

Then we got books and uniform for Huaihao. Even at this age, he seemed fearless and unbothered by the new. There was no sense of trepidation or attachment to the old.

I could learn from that

Then Christmas came. Huaihao asked if Santa Claus would know our new address. And if Santa was daddy.

And this year, Santa didn’t. It was one of the first year Santa didn’t come. I felt sad and went on spend a day out to find something for huaihao and QinZhi .

I walked till my feet ached and finally found something nice and what I thought huaihao would like. A pencil case he would need.

I planted the present in his cupboard and he discovered it.

And he came to me for a hug and said I was the one who bought him the presents

Why!

He said because he could identify the handwriting and when he came to me o acknowledged immediately and didn’t seem surprised about the present

As usual, gengyan jiujiu and Karyn jie jie bought huaihao and qinzhi presents and they got to choose. such was the love that came out in the form of Lego!

On Christmas Eve, qinzhi and Hao did a staycation at Ah Mei Ah Yi’s and got a Macdonald’s breakfast!

Bedtime with Huaihao and I asked him if I should go for the jab. He says, “ no, why are you putting nonsense into your body?”

And “why is the government not caring for the people? They are so rude because they don’t respect god’s gift—— every life is god’s gift”

Wow

I felt small beside him

On another night I was in such a low I was on the verge of tears

He caressed my face and said, “ it’s okay you don’t have to pretend. I can hear it I can hear you crying. You don’t have to bottle it .”

Wow

Otherwise, days better device time was spent on building and creating Lego on his bed that could transform. And telling me about his every creation. I was his only audience and now writing it. I felt like I needed to make him feel like I m the only audience but the biggest most important. Writing this made me feel like I need to give it my all when I listen to huaihao and his explanation of his creations each time.

One evening we took grandpa out for hot pot. We had so much fun because it’s what huaihao and qinzhi loves —- huaihao especially liked the Yuzu sorbet that comes after dinner. We had to take away some food because we couldn’t finish and that was where the fun was too!

This day I took huaihao out to get a doctor’s letter to arrive at support for non vaccine . It was great one on one time with huaihao and he wanted a fish burger. So we had one!

Last year, I started getting the kids to pen down their intentions for the new year . And here it is this year for huaihao . While this may not be the whole thing, I hope he gets into the groove of setting intentions and aligning himself to arriving

Then we walked, as usual to MBS. O

n the first day of school, we walked qinzhi to school then headed off for another walk with huaihao that ended at a mall.

Huaihao says that this year he wants to try his hand at getting top marks for spelling. He got down to practicing and get full marks he did! Huaihao said that there are only 2 students who got full marks and he is one . While getting full marks isn’t what we are after, we definitely want huaihao to know that some kind of effort has to be put in to arrive at a point he is after. There has to be some energy exchange

And this is huaihao coming back from school. On the first day of school, huaihao threw a tantrum and didn’t want school because the uniform we got was too big. He was crying and said that even I can fit into the uniform. He said in crying, “ you just want to save money! But I don’t look nice! People will look at me!”

He is actually spot on even if he is in the midst of crying. How sharp! We all wore uniforms that are bigger. And we had to bear with this bigger than us look. But huaihao wouldn’t buy this! He is teaching me something!

At the least, don’t repeat!

On Fridays, qinzhi has extra curricular activities and would be home late. I take huaihao out for lunch after school for some precious time with him . This time, we headed off to a new mall where huaihao had quesadilla! Then we did some shopping at the supermarket. Huaihao helped of course!

Typically after school, Huaihao would run to play at the fitness corner before we pop up

And one day before Huaihao’s birthday, ah mei ah yi brought huaihao to the movies to watch spiderman and the treat was complete with popcorn of course ! ANd the present gengyan jiu jiu brought, huaihao kept it till his birthday to open it.

And jie has prepared a present for you. So has dad. And mom wrote you a card.

On your birthday morning, you woke up and came to me as usual. That is bliss. That is beauty. Then you headed to your room and saw the card I wrote. You brought it over and read it to me. We kiss and that ——- is beauty.

Then you discovered the present daddy bought on my bed and was overjoyed. You read the card and unwrapped the presents in happiness

We headed out for lunch and you had some really refined Japanese food. We bought a cake at Tarte then headed to yiyi and popo’s to have the cake.

Everyone sang happy birthday and you were showered with love . Then yiyi cooked you Mee Sua nng or longevity noodles .

After that we headed over to grandpa’s. Gengyan jiujiu and Karyn jie jie came over to wish you happy birthday then we had Italian food, as you asked for for dinner . Then we had another cookies and cream ice cream cake