Its friday, as usual we went to dad’s place for dinner.

The kids had decided that they were going to do a staycay at grandpa’s the weekend, ah mei ayi had prepared popcorn and the kids wanted to watch “Finding Nemo”. They told me the last time they did a staycay, ah yi let them watch whatever they wanted when she showered, and then something educational.

We walked back home to collect sports shoes and some clothes as ah yi had wanted to bring them for a morning walk tomorrow and to bring them to breakfast. Its been a while since they popped into any shopping centre as we were not vaccinated and were not allowed to visit malls.

The kids were excited and were game enough to walk home to collect whatever they needed.

But after we did that, and walked more than halfway back to grandpa’s, I realised the kids had slippers on and forgot to wear their sports shoes. SO we had to walk back home again. And when we finally took all that we needed, Qinzhi forgot to get coins to take a bus and we had to walk all the way.

Dropped the kids and finally walked home my home. As the breeze caressed me, i felt the quiet happiness emanating from inside me. Its so quiet so subtle but so very real.

I am happy, even if we had to walk back and forth so many times. I am happy because I am so very contented and grateful for what I have.

The kids are really lovely, its a privilege to be able to mommy them. They are well and happy. I m grateful to be here with them. I am grateful I have my father, my sister and brother, my husband, people around me who love and appreciate me. I am grateful that I have the gift of writing and there are people who would be willing to pay me to write and produce videos.

I want to do my best to heal and once more, I am reminded that there is nothing to forgive.

I want to do my best at being healthy joyful, full of vitality and energy, I want to be here with them as long as I can —just to be with them.

I m ready. I’m available to more good than I’ve ever imagined. Let me co-create a way of life with God that allows me to hold the insights and revelations, the wisdom and the intelligence that are flowing all of the time.

Even if I m trying to explain why I am happy, it is not because of these reasons that I am happy.

I am happy. That is my birthright.