This month we celebrate PSLE —-experiencing it and getting over it. And then it’s all play, eat, sleep.

I bought a popsicle mould and get Qinzhi and Huaihao to make their own in a bid to get away from sugary ones outside.

Then we picnicked by the beach and played the frisbee. And headed out on weekends to run and walk. And have Shake Shack!

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At home, Qinzhi and Huaihao did lots of device time. Sometimes stopping both was challenging.

So I went to Daiso and bought Qinzhi some handicraft materials hoping to get her to pen some thoughts for her friends and teachers before leaving the school she has spent 6 years of her childhood on. And thankfully, she put her hands to painting.

On my birthday Qinzhi wrote this for me. The best one could ever get….. I actually felt some elements of not living up to this. It was as if I couldn’t raise my head in front of her.

Because I once was shy being pregnant in my wedding dress. Those were thoughts I carried with me in my system even after so many years.

Looking back, I had so much fear of not knowing what to do. I guess I didn’t even know what to do with myself but now I have baby in me. And what do I do? How will I manage?

I feared responsibilities but now I have one I felt more precious and bigger than myself. I did not feel I was able to manage. But I did ! And Qinzhi was the one who helped me get to this I m today bit by bit.

Thankful to see this old me again and to feel how I felt to release this. Not needed now.

Time to let them go and really rise up to being the best mom Qinzhi ever gets.

I apologize unreservedly to you Qinzhi should I have been any lesser then what you thought, with what little wisdom I have in the circumstances I have been.

And thank you for showing up the way you did in my life, to give me strength whoever I was weak, to hug me whenever (i never knew) I needed. For loving me.

And the school had this commend your child initiative which asked parents to write letters to their graduating kids

Here’s what I have :

Caring , giving, gentle, generous, helpful, sensitive, determined. These very traits you exhibit will make you ever more wonderful. They will lift you out of anything and up to where you want to be. Be aware of them, use them in your everyday life to expand on them. Trust they will bring magic and more to you. And they will.