Month: July 2021

Walking

Walking

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As I walked by myself —-with myself, the sea breeze said hello, the sun did too and the birds.

I cannot help but feel proud of myself

For achieving all I have. For letting go of what I have

So I could come to this path

Walking step by step with awareness

I thought of my early experiences, distant experiences and recent experiences. There were sounds, images, emotions coming up.

And I allowed them and liberated them with walking

I remembered the Vietnamese monk Thich Nhat Hanh . I remember a meditation he conducted and brought us to the point of inviting our ancestors our tribe to breathe with us w

And I, I just had to invite my ancestors my tribe my family my friends my colleagues and even people who have crossed paths with me in however minute moments whether happy or less happy ones—— to walk with me and to experience the present . And in that healing everything else that is not the present

I checked in with myself and felt lighter afterwards

The point is in awareness

And the intention the power and ability to heal is always there in each and every moment

So long as we will!

I had to say thank you to my husband, because amidst it all, he was the one to encourage me to pick and to do things I really enjoy

I thanked him for his support and the opportunity has given me , by supporting the family —- so I could walk at this time and to do the things that resonated with me

And walking is such a precious experience

I thank myself for the opportunity too, and to the universe and my guardian angels and dharma protectors who have always been with me around me

I want to become a better version of myself and I know I already have and is really for my next professional triumph

And that has come with honoring and acknowledging the experiences I have had with the people who have come my way

To walk each and every step with mindfulness , have the opportunity to free experiences and to experience freedom with no worries—- yes I have been tying myself to worry and fear for the longest time —- and walking with myself helped me see that freedom I could have without these all. Too precious!!!

Om ma ne pad me hum

8 Yrs 6 Mths

8 Yrs 6 Mths

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Father’s Day and Huaihao made these.

He hid it under the pillow or something and woke up early on Father’s Day, and he kept checking to see if Daddy has woken up and saw the card.

On another occasion, he saw that Daddy hasn’t seen his card and was upset. This is Huaihao, so precise so sensitive so emotional.

And we finally made our move, after staying in Marine Crescent since last October,the kids helped. IN the days preceding the move, I told Huaihao and Qinzhi at bedtime, that this room we are sleeping in, is where I slept in before I got married.

Huaihao recalled that when we moved from Redhill, he kissed the floor.

Over here, the kids settled into their own rooms, I continue to pop into Huaihao’s room at bedtime and would head out once he is falling asleep . Huaihao always knew and would hug me close and tight.

This is sunrise and night time views. Showed Huaihao the stars and planets pointing the sky app at the sky —how wonderful that is to see the planets above.

And Huaihao received a present from dad. Some days, Huaihao had the chance to head outside with Daddy to visit Muji , Ikea and get supplies. And he is happy with spending time with Papa.

At home, we continue to bringing in yummy treats for all to share and Huaihao is most in love with the Kunpoh durians from Bashing Durian Plantation.

On another day, I had the chance to take Huaihao out for a meal and to spend some two-some time. On another day, Huaihao had a tummy ache and skipped school, we headed out for his current fave of wanton noodles then checked out furniture at Tan Boon Liat.

And after moving in for about 3 weeks, we finally headed out for our epic walk to MBS. The kids were game enough to wake up at 6am like any school day and we marched towards MBS.

Daddy reciprocated with a nice breakfast treat and bought Qinzhi bubble tea and Huaihao his fave mango smoothie.

What is surprising is that Daddy not only offered a nice sunday breakfast on his own, but also apologised to Huaihao and Qinzhi.

Daddy shared a little about his story when he was a kid, how his father did not speak to him, and later on left the family when his business failed. And how as a child when he was performing superman on stage, he fell and people laughed, and there after he retreated into himself.

He then said sorry to Huaihao and asked for forgiveness.

Huaihao took it pretty well, but shortly after, says he wants to go to the toilet. And on the way, he said, “mommy, i didn’t really want to pee, but I wanted to give papa some space, because he is crying. “

I m so awed by Huaihao.

So So So awed and humbled by his reading on emotions.

I am beginning to enjoy bedtime with Huaihao a lot, because we talk a lot. He caresses my face and say how smooth and say this is like home.

One night we were talking about what, I cant really remember, and he blurted out, “What’s the point of being number one if you don’t have other numbers?” 

Another day, we thought of inviting folks into our new abode and then we thought of the advisories: 

Huaihao: you should do the right thing even when no one is watching 

Who said that? Teacher?

Huaihao: no— more like me, because my class is 2integrity!

Like his name, Huaihao is light.

12 Years 5 Months

12 Years 5 Months

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It felt as if we are moved by times. Late June saw us moved into our new flat.

We moved into Marine Crescent since last October and in the blinking of an eye, so many months have gone by. 2 school terms and 2 school holidays.

I told Qinzhi and Huaihao about Marine Crescent being my maiden home and how I have lived here before I had them. And then, we are on the move.

It feels sort of like an upgrade. With the space, the new environment, after moving, Qinzhi and Huaihao settled into their own rooms.

And the time in Marine Crescent , a little ride we had. So filled with emotions and experiences. And living next door to grandad and ah yee.

The kids did a stay over at ah yi’s on one of the saturdays and got treated to popcorn and late night movies.

We continued to fish out gems like these.

We moved on the day before school reopens and its like a new start. On fridays, I continue to bring Qinzhi home after school and treat her to a little something before we head home. This week, Qinzhi wanted to spend some time at the fitness corner and so we did.

Looking at Qinzhi, I know she needs her space and to move.

Each week, we continue to head over to granddad’s and ah yi’s to have dinner.

And then we are off into July.

Qinzhi is pushing herself for work this time, as PSLE is like 2 months plus away, with teachers motivating them and putting in extra hours to support the kids.

At this time, Qinzhi is extra motivated to do Chinese oral and chinese, presumably because she found a way to better marks and improvement.

I hope Qinzhi can find something to work for, for the other subjects and find joy working hard alongside her peers , cherishing the times together before she’s off to her secondary school.

There’s still joy and fun, amidst the challenge of PSLE! May you be well and happy dearest Qinzhi!

Staging

Staging

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When we do a new website, there’s often this phase called “staging”

Here’s when we put up what we want to put up, like real

And I saw this article

From Trinity Esoterics:

Dear Ones, it is really quite simple to shift your energy. If you are seeking to have more of the experience of something, rather than waiting for to show up externally, find ways to incorporate it into your life expression right now, in whatever ways are supported, no matter how small.

You might think of it as a tiny infusion or a microscopic dose. The power is not the size of the element but rather the holding of it, no matter how small. That is because you have switched it from being something you may or may not experience one day into something you already have. It is the planting of the seed meaning you now hold the full potential and it will grow from there. As it grows it will also draw more of the same energy to it.

So if you are seeking the experience of peace, look for ways you can experience peace right now. Breathe deeply. Meditate. Go walk in the beauty of nature. Acknowledge and appreciate the sense of peace that was there for you to find because you made the empowered choice to do so.

If you are looking for love seek out activities that open your heart chakra and acknowledge and appreciate the feeling of love when it flows. Meditate and imagine being the arms of your beloved and recognize that choice has shifted your relationship from being out there one day into happening right now. From there it is only a matter of time until it shows up in your physical reality.

What you consciously add into your present moment will set the stage for your tomorrows. You are your own beautiful cocktail! Add the ingredients that delight you as your own alchemist and the universe will meet those efforts every single time.

~Archangel Gabriel through Shelley Young