I was in a really normal conversation yesterday until I find myself gripped, by someone somewhere sometime ago

It happened because a friend wanted me and another to complement each other in work and I would do part a and she would continue

An opportunity came along yesterday in the course of a conversation if I wanted to take up more

I should have been happy and jump at every opportunity to

But instead, I froze

I really did feel myself at a loss for words. I was in a state of blank

And I heard myself reject that opportunity, aligning myself to a promise that I had been conditioned to by authorities- friends, ex bosses

It was then that I realized how and how much I had stopped myself listening to others or how easy one can just be influenced or affected

How your body and brain can be stopped and frozen so so easily without your knowing

Do I count myself a betrayal to friendship if I did more than what was previously said? But who was hanging on to what arrangement was being said other than me?

And how do I release this grip that I have been holding myself on to?

I don’t think it’s about sticking to or not sticking to any agreement- not hard and fast but at a deeper level how to ground and be mindfully steadfast in front of authorities and truly adapting to the requirements for a situation — with clarity on how to act

There should be no fear if the conscience is clear.

No need to overthink.

Keep it simple.