I started jogging after moving.

The East Coast Park is just 5 min walk away. The morning breeze, the sounds the lapping waves make. And the road ahead.

I tell myself to just focus on moving ahead. Go. Go.

GO

But thoughts come in.

It’s a mindfulness training but thoughts come in.

I keep bringing myself back.

The present is here. Don’t exchange it for anything else. I hear myself say.

I hear chirping birds. And I absorb the music in.

I breathe in the fresh air and is thankful I m alive and breathing well.

I suck in the air. To the keloids the cyst and see the air work on them.

Blessed I m . To have the wisdom to do this.

I find myself hesitating in my path and realize how and why.

The mind is deliberating. Trying to decide and figure out.

Not sure.

And the body reflects the state of the mind or consciousness or intention.

So how did the keloids get there?

Some point in time, something translated into a formation such as the keloids.

Is it fear? Yes the big things that cropped up were dad’s spinal surgery, is having to move into grandmother’s. When we moved and had to change school! It made me think again about transferring Qinzhi and HuaiHao to a school nearby

Yes I think it contributed to the fear I had

Great dislike and worry of being looked at —- sort of like second class when you are new.

There’s intense and accumulated fear and dislike . There’s accumulation and also the inability to discharge these.

Whoa.

How nice to know.

And—— I tell myself, that’s the past , all done already. It’s not you now. It’s not there present.

Awareness is such a powerful thing. Like a knot let gone of in the whispers of the wind.

As I jogged the wind made this howling in my ears. I tapped into it. And I love it.

It’s a connection with nature. What is it trying to say?

And I find myself grateful for having the space to experience this moment.

While jogging, I find myself in the side only when I walk the middle path.

How many (times) people are not aware? That being on the side sometimes doesn’t let you see the full picture?

While jogging, I hear myself say- your heart is not with me, when it is, everything is natural, the appreciation the priority the care.

While jogging, I saw birds fly and is reminded not to forget the feeling of flight