On hindsight, I realised I didnt know enough then when I let my flat go.

Its now—when people ask me, that I realise the meaning of moving.

My HDB Flat . We got this flat and then got married and had Qinzhi and Huaihao. We have been here for 12 years.

Was it one month back? We let it go—–without even knowing where we will be next.

It came from a simple thought, that the kids were growing up and needing more space, we wanted an opportunity to set things that were not so right—-right. For example, a proper kitchen. A proper bedroom, everything in place at the right place. it seemed something basic, but pretty difficult to find in land scarce and expensive Singapore.

We wanted to upgrade. To a bigger space, a quieter spot with less disturbance of traffic, with a more pleasant environment, with proper space for the kitchen, the living area, and bedrooms.

But now—-as friends ask me—–it began to dawn on me that it is much much more.

As in, it’s precisely because we need—— and we have called out ——-that is why the universe, upon hearing us, have given us the opportunity to move, to shift.

It goes to show that what we have now cannot serve us any more, whether it be the space, or lifestyle or how we have lived.

It means it is timely or the time has come. It means we are ready. As if we have passed a certain test. And we are elevating together————-as a family unit.

But interestingly, the new hasn’t come yet

And I also think it’s because we havent firmed up or aligned as a family, we havent concretised together —-as a family, what we want enough yet.

And opportunities are there.

In fact, I m thankful for the time, we have been given as a family to ink our realities together. What do we want together? What are we looking out for —together? What can we learn and how can we grow together—-with ease and with joy and happiness everyday?

Up somewhere in the air, there’s a lot of space, and opportunities we can harness for creativity and cocreating together—–within ourselves, as a family, and with the universe.

I am just thankful for this opportunity but just dont really know how to go about it.

Going with the gut feel I guess, and with blessings and inspiration from the divine.

And more opportunities came.

A friend has asked me to start out a business in the line of my passion—-vegetables! Its a whole new realm, something I have not dabbled before. I asked John about it, because he once told me my path is spiritual, and is here to help people.

Just as I have done, settling back to myself , back onto the home front with my kids, and this opportunity came along to allow me room for growth and expansion. More so, to create. To build. To put my thoughts into reality.

All along, I have been holding back, I allow myself to be held back, I create situations to hold myself back.

John has this to say: “you are given a mission to educated chefs and food industry about conscious eating, everyone keeps talking about selection of ingredients. but do they really know about the selection of ingredients? the selection of ingredients starts from soil. if soil quality is not good, ingredients remain superficial. If your soul can channel this kind of work, there will be a lot of such opportunities coming to you, because you are really doing good for society and earth. I really want this to experience this for yourself, there will be a lot of benefit If you do good, If you take on this mission to educate people. People who eat in restaurants are also families, if you can help them eat well, you will have a lot of benefit in future.”

I asked him further: it seems i just started to go spiritual and healing on my own and now I m going back. How do I know if this abundance is for me or just to check my faith in going spiritual?

His reply is great as ever: “what makes you think spirituality is separated from business or business is opposite of spirituality. Its how you drive yourself in an area such that people benefit. Spirituality is not separating from day to day mundane things. Its not separating yourselves high up away from people”

What is stopping me?
I asked myself. Maybe just — not stepping up to it.

Thinking I cant, I am not deserving, I am not worthy.

I have been shying away all this while. The Michelin experience was great to position me a t a level befitting of my calling. But it is not what I really want or is good for me, and so the opportunity came for me to bye it away.

And I realised. In me telling myself I cant, doubting myself, giving excuses of being not enough, I have created all sorts of circumstances to stop myself from rising to the occasion.

In health, I created circumstances of lack. Sub par. Emotionally and in my marriage too, I created my own sub par reality. If anything, the person who would take responsibility for this reality is me.

Out of ignorance, speaking to my lower self, reinforcing habits and not having had the awareness to look beyond or deeper, i have circumstances reinforced my habits and belief system.

I brought myself here.

And all the recent changes opened me up to a new path, its like light at the end of a tunnel.

I just couldn’t see back then.

But now, i have been the one to create these realities. And I take full responsibility for all the emotional upheavals and rides I have been through.

Time and money or life that has been lost.

Is there regret?

No, because that’s the way I learnt. The path I chose.

And now I find myself standing at the end of the road. And given a priceless opportunity to choose my future.

And choose I will.

A departure from how we learned as a family in the past————-

I ask for a house so full of love , so perfect for all of us, that will allow us to learn and grow with ease together. We learn and grow in happiness and in joy. A house rich in abundance of well being, vitality, great energy, peace, joyful, harmony, wealth. We have all that we need to bask in our abundance so as to share our light and the truth of our being, so as to inspire change and make a meaningful difference to others.

Simply by living our truth and our abundance. By being the living example of what life really is or means.

What does it really mean to be in alignment with yourself? To be authentic?

The following videos have been pretty instrumental in culminating my thoughts.

In essence, once our vibration reaches a particular level we would be like messengers translating a higher wisdom using our own language to our fellow earthlings

Now I know why I had the chance to see the bashar video!