My dear Huaihao

You are my reminder to awareness, and to check out a new pathway

When i gave birth to you I did it by breathwork and without epidural. I had wanted you very much, I wanted a pregnancy to do all the things i did not do right in my first 

I prayed for a boy who would be light, and finally got pregnant with you.I gave birth without epidural and saw for myself the outcomes or at least how i felt differed. During confinement, I did all I didnt do in my first.

I raised you myself unlike my how I did with qinzhi, my first baby and saw for myself how different you are.

In daily life, and so many experiences in life, i have been given this opportunity to do again, what I did not or had not done so right. You remind me to.

You are my light and inspiration.

Like that day, because HuaiHao hugged and kissed me upon every awake, I feel so loved and blessed. Almost like an angel’s caress from the above to give me love and warmth, and battery. You taught me the importance of hugging and love.

That day I bought a new book, Huaihao immediately made me a bookmark!

And then I went to get you books I loved as a kid, and you did love them so very too. We read at bedtime and it was sacred, we giggled and laughed as we read and roamed our imaginary worlds

Huaihao drew lots, like this is huaihao with qinzhi and mommy in snowy land. Inside , are you yearning for a winter holiday? We have had a few, once in winter in Korea, and you were coughing so hard. Then in Japan. It snowed on Cradle mountain in Tasmania too.

And the Spider-Man you draw is so awwsome

Ah mei ah yi wanted a strawberry and this is what you had in mind. So cute!

This was that day at East Coast, you were enjoying the ride!

And you continued to make these awesome lego machines that could transform and played out stories

Yesterday we went to have mommy’s favourite dessert and you loved it too with fried dough sticks

May you be well and happy love!