My dearest Huaihao
You amaze me everyday, with the things you do and the things you say. Like when I needed to go to Qinzhi’s room to do raindrop massage for her, or when you wait for me to shower, you read on your own
and so mommy specially went to buy storybooks you love, and that I love, Enid Blyton’s Faraway Tree
I tried so hard to get the paperback ones with words, like those that accompanied me, at your age, but they couldn’t be found.
I found these, with lots of pictures inside, and i thought—why not? maybe it could delight you further and spur you on with lesser words.
and then there are the toys you made—– out of Lego, from cars, to transformer machines, robot and vehicle in one, to swords. you always took time to explain the concept behind.
Mommy firmly believes, you will be great builder in future, with your own stories ideas feelings.
In the 2 months you have stayed home, we did lots, we ate lots too.
ayi sent you braised pork with lots of quail eggs, dumplings and you lapped these all up
that was how much love you received, Ziyi and popo love you and miss you too much, and on jun 20 when you went over to pasir ris—-your first in 2months, yiyi specially went to get quail eggs for you
we did lots of baking, made ice cream you loved
Mommy let you taste waters, so you would know that not all waters are equal,
And you had rosewater too. These are things I love and I share them with you, leaving you to decide if you liked them as well.
you wrote notes when we shared food
We went back to school on the 2nd week of June. All masked up. Mommy carrying your bag and coming back to my practice of mindfulness and awareness.
There’s Chinese spelling every week and HuaiHao learnt by improvising
Adding horns to the Chinese character cow and eyes to the character sheep
Really nicely written!
You helped mommy too, such as stocktaking when the essential oils arrive
There were a few times when I feel totally low energy and knocked out. And that was when you started to massage me! You would say things like :
“Mommy, dont be so harsh on yourself”
“You are too hard on yourself, Mommy. “—-when the shoulders are hard.
You would say, “Relax, learn to relax Mommy”
And these words would make my heart warm and knock tears out of my eyes. Like how people would say the gift i have, i know now, this is the gift you have in you Huaihao.
And sometimes when you needed my attention, you would say, “why do you not like me mommy”
And that made me smile secretly
And you are so good with words, you would say things, like
“So Long!” when you mean “Bye”
“”I will be with you in a jiffy” when you mean “I will be quick”
You spoke about hypothesis
You coined “stranger danger” and things like Mommy’s the best, better than the rest
We discussed the galaxy and cosmos, and if Tsoknyi Rinpoche is a buddha, we listened to Vajra Sattva Mantra recited by Yongey Mingyur Rinpoche
Mommy bought biodynamic vegetables, oranges and lemons, to let you have an idea of how vegetables can be so different,
One day Mommy had to be away for a meeting and had to bring you to ah mei yiyi’s house and that was where you had your zoom. And yiyi said you are such a darling!
You continued to draw and they were lovely
We had so many beautiful conversations before bed, its when you asked me about things you didnt know about, or like we chat about dad and how you felt towards him.
Like just now, when we were on the bed, we talked about instant noodles!
Its Father’s Day today, you gave dad your handmade card. And even texted him yesterday to say Happy Father’s Day.
One day, I told you about your name, how it was about love and light.
My dear baby, wishing you lots of light and love. May you be well and happy always.
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