Month: June 2020

Dad

Dad

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Many years back I decided to celebrate mom’s birthday but that ended up to be her first and last

This year, because of realization and lots of mini awakening, I asked my siblings to order in for Father’s Day.

And, What coincidence

A few days later, dad had a pain in his heart area and went to A&E. X rays ruled out heart issues but a few days later , a CT scan showed blockages in his heart

Is it any more surprising?

No! Dad has been keeping too many things to himself and the blockage is as much an expression of his mental health

Yesterday dad called at evening time to say in a weak voice , obviously shocked, about what he has just heard

He said I will have to bring the kids these few days to n back from school

In that few moments I experienced crippling fear. Light and weightless all over, totally overwhelmed

No wonder I felt pricks in my chest area those few days too

I tried to be aware but the forces are too strong really

When dad went to A&E, a thought occurred to me : what would he be thinking of?

Mom —- was the answer.

And amazingly I had the WhatsApp conversation with Angie who pointed out that I needed to handle the fear that was trapped in my cyst

I was trying to, with awareness, with EFT tapping, it’s not easy , I tried to just observe them but I find my mind drifting away to look for other things

So I realized I didn’t really want to manage the difficult emotions

It’s hard work!

And each time I drifted to find something else I brought myself gently back

yesterday with all the fear, I was trying to keep sanity.

So much from the past

I tried to look at them.

I prayed. Thankful I have the reiki group and the sangha at Sasha and Ula’s end to reach out to

But there was still a lot to handle—— from the past! Why, ?!

So much from the past came flying back . They were what I blinked a blind eye to, not allowing not acknowledging not recognizing

Each time I observed fear I tell myself to use this time. Use it. Transform it to my advantage

Use it in support of meditation of my observing to sharpen my senses and to get to know my subtle body better

There’s so so much to know

I ask myself: what is the state or action I want to choose ? I can choose peace and stability over fear, an old reaction an old program

At the same time, there’s so much from the past! It sort of Wowed me. so much content that I m trying to observe and send my awareness to

I intend to use this opportunity to heal, to release all that have been cooped up in my cells in my system . I intend and release them

They can no longer serve me

I went for a long hug and bf patted me on the back. As usual, his advice is to take things matter of factly, without emotions and to be objective so as to solve problems . To accept reality of life.

The same advice from the past

But I think recognizing emotions and at least no shoving them away is so important

I tried to work internally on my own. I prayed to guru rinpoche to ask for blessings and healing and support to guide me every single moment

I used essential oils and they helped me greatly

I used releasing statements to support me

I asked the sun for support

I thought of all the things I learnt and tried to put them to use

I tell myself to choose a different reaction from what I used to. to set in a new program and have the power in my hands

What if I don’t have this past these experiences? How would I be now? I asked?

I remind myself as best I can: use this to transform and to release all the deep deep emotions stored away for these years

I see myself at dad’s bed when he has his spinal operation. That was perhaps my very first deep set fear, of losing of not being able to control

As the sun shone on me, I asked the sun to give me all the support all the awareness and wisdom I need , to heal my relationship with my father , to heal my cyst and all the fear and worry I have. To dissolve the cyst and all of the fear and old programs

I remember after putting down the phone with dad yesterday, the first thing that came to mind was, I want to forgive you . Please give me a chance to. I deeply regret all the ego all the strong feelings of anger and pushing him away and not letting him into my life all these years

I deeply regret this

What for? There’s no use no help to everyone around. There’s no help at all to my life but only detriment to it . I suffer the most bearing these grudges over the years

I promise myself I will try my utmost to practice awareness and to allow whatever rises in me. To not push away to observe to release

And Tsoknyi Rinpoche’s words helped me so much. Now I see why I had been given the opportunity to manage his instagram

I m reminded of the recent podcast Deepak Chopra shared. That all things events thoughts are rainbow bodies and an interaction of entangled light

If so let’s send light internally and also outwards even with this opportunity

And to learn to be space, to welcome experience without judgement

I journey with these thoughts on the bus to find dad. Trying my utmost to practice using this opportunity———I find the best is mingyur rinpoche or Tsoknyi rinpoche method . Relax mind , totally drop everything, just be aware . Whatever feelings that surface , just be aware , do not react . It will be released.

We all have been carrying the hurt the fear the burden far too long, since dad left us that very year and then mom .

The universe wants us to heal and to be loving to each other. Thank you universe. Please be with me, my dearest universe! to send me all the support awareness strength and magic I need.

What I saw at the ward gave me a shock. Wilting health and faces in dullness, dad’s face was rosy and pink I wonder why he is there

I spoke to Su, my reiki teacher who said to me:

There was a lot of golden healing light going through and surrounding both you and your dad last night and this morning.

This morning was particularly intense. The sense I got for your dad is that it’s very much tied to emotions he has not resolved (exactly as you said – keeping too many things in his heart).
In particular, something happened (or he witnessed) to him (nothing to do with you directly – you may/may not have been present) when you were 2 months’ old. That one thing seems to be like the cover to this current episode.

In terms of physical blocks, I could not sense/see any that was significant. It was mostly emotional.”

I told Su about the reflections and she said, “letting go and forgiveness. This is really really important for both you and your dad. The letting go, and the forgiveness.

You’ve already started – the first step is recognising the need to forgive and let go.

Before you continue, forgive yourself first. Then your dad. Sometimes saying it out loud really helps. Saying it out loud to your dad and to yourself – very important.

You can share the Ho’Oponopono prayer with your dad. Both of you say it together. Excellent if you can use YL Forgiveness EO at the same.

“I’m sorry.
Please forgive me.
I love you.
And I thank you.”

The Hawaiian tribes used to say this prayer (I think they still do) before meeting any other tribes etc and they would successfully avoid conflict.

And you can repeat it over and over. Do it for yourself (your dad too – for himself), then for each other.”

Afterwards I took some time by the beach, to feel the sandy and the seawater washing at my feet

And I felt so good instantly . Mother Nature’s healing prowess. I felt more stable so much more at ease afterward.

If anything . I believe the universe is trying to crystallize my transformation and upgrade.

Give me all the support and all that I need then , universe.

“The Great 14th”

“The Great 14th”

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Had the opportunity to watch “The Great 14th”‘s Global Premiere and what the Dalai Lama said, touched me.

Seeing him always brought me back to the time when I listened to him felt his presence in dharmsala, it was pure magic.

These things he said, are awe inspiring, motivating one to become better, to get hold of oneself and be better.

To heal and work on oneself at a personal internal level. Dedicating to oneself first to make good this precious life, and then to others

Quotes from The Great 14th.

“I dedicate my body speech mind to limitless sentient beings, my existence to be some benefit to others, thats part of my main practice.

I myself everyday reading, but also thinking, and i link it with my daily life, daily emotions, then it becomes something living.

Map of the Mind: buddhist literature is richest source of information on emotions,

lacking of sense of others’ pain , and a sense of desire to do smthg to prevent

After I reached India, I really felt I was liberated from pretension. Since my childhood, I want to be just ordinary human being. One occasion i met a chinese friend and we talk about the communist system , because of fear, they hypocrisy i part of their life, so i told them, me too, since 1951- beginning of 1959, o was also compelled to practice hypocrisy . in april 1959 i liberated i became a refugee not no longer practice hypocrisy or pretension . so i think difficult experience was really helpful to break away from all this pretension. thats one important transformation.

so you become closer to reality. things are difficult , there’s no time to say nice words. you must accept reality and tell reality.

“There must be some education of warm heartedness”

“Courage and determination, you must keep. You shouldn’t not be discouraged. With a  healthy body determined mind, effort will succeed.”—–what Avalokitesvhara said to him

“One day, I analysed where’s I? where’s self? All of a sudden, I felt no self. During that moment, I had some kind of special feeling, pain, some kind of uncomfortable feeling, pain, lightning. Then I know these appearances are not reality. In real reality, its just interdependent, and no absolute identity.

I reported to my tutor, after he listened, he expressed, soon you will become a genuine practitioner of space. Yogi of space. Yogi of emptiness. I found the real unique teaching and foundation of buddhism is emptiness.”

Things do not exist as they appear

Altruism

“He gave me that vow infant of buddha statue and I cried a lot and often remember that and recharge my altruism “

Ling Rinpoche took every care of me, when I heard of news he got sick, i was very disturbed. When my tutor is no longer there, how can I live? As long as he remained there, i feel something like a solid rock, i can live, when he passed away, no longer that rock. That sadness brings more enthusiasm more determination, I myself should work hard, and fulfill my tutors wish, I MUST fulfil

If you utilise that unbearable feeling, can translate more constructive power.

One monk was in chinese gulag, n he experienced some danger. I asked him what danger, he say : Losing compassion towards chinese

wholistic view important to not develop anger

To have a healthy body, healthy mind, means calm mind is v important

Anger is destroyer of calm mind, you realised anger is no use, instead of solving problems, it creates more problems. Continuously think this way, become a habit.

Culture of Tibetan culture is culture of compassion, non violence, peace. Real culture is richness of thinking power, everything investigate, think of others as yourself, develop genuine sense of well being of other and yourself—useful and relevant to today’s world.

sheer faith that we have truth and truth will prevail

The Power of Inner Truth

Power, good or bad, depends on motivation. 

Real meaning of religion is love. Power of sincerity, inner truth.

To be truthful, honest, transparent. 

A meaningful life: I had opportunity to help, serve pple, make awareness, ultimate source of happiness is within ourselves not power, not money 

Awareness helps makes life easier peaceful.

SO i really feel, as a human being, Serving on that field as much as I can, thats my purpose my meaning of life.

My energy is devoted to these 2 fields, awareness and religious harmony. SO i m very happy very good.

Infinite sentient beings want a happy life devoid of suffering. My happiness and their happiness some kind of connection, my suffering and their suffering also some kind of connection . Therefore i dedicate wholeheartedly my body speech and mind some benefit to others , then you get some kind of real satisfaction and inner strength, that gives me meaning of life.

On internal level, my courage is quite strong. Before I came to India, my life had some artificiality, some ceremony protocol, i came to india (I m liberated, no more pretension) become more realistic , to maintain peace of mind, that was immense help to sustain my healthy body.

For myself, not much time left, perhaps next few years i can be active, then I will go. If there’s a heaven I may go heaven. If not i will reborn on this planet, and try as much as I can make some contribution, for inner peace. Until space remains, thats my daily prayer so long space remains, so long sentient beings sufferings remain, I will remain. I try to make little contribution for peace of mind.

EFT Tapping

EFT Tapping

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Mr Ng first introduced me to EFT tapping, and i reacquainted with it a few months back after watching some documentaries on healing.

The key to EFT tapping is as explained below and is great for anyone who is keen to experiment with shifting one’s emotional states.

Nick Ortner is one great tapping expert and these are some points he has listed down:

If you are stuck—–Why isnt this changing?

Why do i have to do to stop running the patterns over and over again?

Why you keep sabotaging yourself?

The key is: patterns. 

Conscious Mind= logic and reasoning ie 23+48=?

Unconscious or subconscious mind= 1+1= 2, spitting out a rode answer. Making thousands of tiny decisions with unconscious mind

old patterns and limiting beliefs are controlling you on a daily basis, 

ingrained patterns fears anxiety that are keeping you stuck 

running these old patterns

what do you do about them?

had some awareness knowing the old was there, but what to do about them?

EFT Tapping: ancient chinese acupuncture and modern psychology

quickly in minutes offer incredible power to effect change

when we tap on end points  of meridians we are sending signals to amygdala 

where do these patterns come from?

all those fears are not u, not the essence of who u r at your core,, just old programs u have been running. its just the function of an old experience thats been coded in your brain.

places you r holding yourself back 

what if i let them go

what would my life look like if i get rid of this garbage

shift

shift emotional state

tapping is an evolving one: we start with one issue and tap and see what we uncover

get free of whatever kept you stuck for way too long

feel that excitement, appreciation for yourself, the time you took to create change, new possibilities’ the knowing that all is well

I honour you

I tried tapping again today. Dad called in the morning to say he felt pain at the heart area and went to A&E.

i felt all the crippling fear come back to me.

Then with awareness I told myself to observe it. But its not easy. These things, they are sticky and cling to you.

I started tapping to realise anxiety and fear, i needed to work on it. I told myself to work on this and using this as an opportunity to recognise what fear I have had accumulated in my system, after watching so many elders hospitalised , and remembering how i visited dad after his spinal surgery when I was only like 6 or 7.

I told myself to use awareness and use this as an opportunity to work on these.

And coincidentally i happened to speak to angie about my conditions.

and she said, “Wah, very good improvement lei. Honestly my intuition is that u need to release your negative or negative emotions from your body, and relax more perhaps. Then u will be good. Fasting is to hungry the cell thats why the cyst will reduce in size.

I do not know if you had experienced any trauma before.. But even if your ans is yes or no, living in present and embrace what we have now , u will live out from all the stress

The cyst that grows at your navel is actually representing the fear you have .. Which u unable to release . So its trapped there”

wow, spot on.

And I saw Nick Ortner’s video in my mailbox. Talk about the universe hearing me.

I know I m being supported.

Juan says for emotional clearing,”the best is mingyur rinpoche or Tsoknyi rinpoche’s method : Relax mind , totally drop everything, just be aware . Whatever feelings that surface , just be aware , do not react . It will be released. “

Its coming into contact with the subtle body and being aware of what is happening there. And its how much you want to tune in, everything you have experienced, is there.

Dear Universe, Give me all the tools all the expertise, all the experts, all the support that I need to heal myself thoroughly, completely, so that I can share my experience, and let people out there know that——–no one is alone,

THERE IS A WAY OUT.

That’s Why

That’s Why

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I was listening to the Dalai Lama a few days ago on FB. And I saw him speak with so much intonation conviction strength

I asked myself how he did this?

SO strong, so sure, no fear. So charismatic. No fear

I compare it against myself

I was feeling low on energy weak and breathless

I looked at him again and thought of the time I was in dharamsala

How did the Dalai Lama do that? What is he made of? What makes him so sure? What makes him laugh like that? How can I do that? How do I translate what I see onto myself ?

And before I knew it, the universe sent the reply to my heart’s echo.

Look at this , look at him.

So so so beautiful

7 Yrs 5 Mths

7 Yrs 5 Mths

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My dearest Huaihao

You amaze me everyday, with the things you do and the things you say. Like when I needed to go to Qinzhi’s room to do raindrop massage for her, or when you wait for me to shower, you read on your own

and so mommy specially went to buy storybooks you love, and that I love, Enid Blyton’s Faraway Tree

I tried so hard to get the paperback ones with words, like those that accompanied me, at your age, but they couldn’t be found.

I found these, with lots of pictures inside, and i thought—why not? maybe it could delight you further and spur you on with lesser words.

and then there are the toys you made—– out of Lego, from cars, to transformer machines, robot and vehicle in one, to swords. you always took time to explain the concept behind.

Mommy firmly believes, you will be great builder in future, with your own stories ideas feelings.

In the 2 months you have stayed home, we did lots, we ate lots too.

ayi sent you braised pork with lots of quail eggs, dumplings and you lapped these all up

that was how much love you received, Ziyi and popo love you and miss you too much, and on jun 20 when you went over to pasir ris—-your first in 2months, yiyi specially went to get quail eggs for you

we did lots of baking, made ice cream you loved

Mommy let you taste waters, so you would know that not all waters are equal,

And you had rosewater too. These are things I love and I share them with you, leaving you to decide if you liked them as well.

you wrote notes when we shared food

We went back to school on the 2nd week of June. All masked up. Mommy carrying your bag and coming back to my practice of mindfulness and awareness.

There’s Chinese spelling every week and HuaiHao learnt by improvising

Adding horns to the Chinese character cow and eyes to the character sheep

Really nicely written!

You helped mommy too, such as stocktaking when the essential oils arrive

There were a few times when I feel totally low energy and knocked out. And that was when you started to massage me! You would say things like :

“Mommy, dont be so harsh on yourself”

“You are too hard on yourself, Mommy. “—-when the shoulders are hard.

You would say, “Relax, learn to relax Mommy”

And these words would make my heart warm and knock tears out of my eyes. Like how people would say the gift i have, i know now, this is the gift you have in you Huaihao.

And sometimes when you needed my attention, you would say, “why do you not like me mommy”

And that made me smile secretly

And you are so good with words, you would say things, like

“So Long!” when you mean “Bye”

“”I will be with you in a jiffy” when you mean “I will be quick”

You spoke about hypothesis

You coined “stranger danger” and things like Mommy’s the best, better than the rest

We discussed the galaxy and cosmos, and if Tsoknyi Rinpoche is a buddha, we listened to Vajra Sattva Mantra recited by Yongey Mingyur Rinpoche

Mommy bought biodynamic vegetables, oranges and lemons, to let you have an idea of how vegetables can be so different,

One day Mommy had to be away for a meeting and had to bring you to ah mei yiyi’s house and that was where you had your zoom. And yiyi said you are such a darling!

You continued to draw and they were lovely

We had so many beautiful conversations before bed, its when you asked me about things you didnt know about, or like we chat about dad and how you felt towards him.

Like just now, when we were on the bed, we talked about instant noodles!

Its Father’s Day today, you gave dad your handmade card. And even texted him yesterday to say Happy Father’s Day.

One day, I told you about your name, how it was about love and light.

My dear baby, wishing you lots of light and love. May you be well and happy always.

Correct View is Absence of View and other stories

Correct View is Absence of View and other stories

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One of those nights I chanced upon Deepak Chopra’s FB live and found lots of nourishment in there.

Sharing them here:

nourishing the quality of our attention and intention

all perspective is misleading

correct view is absence of view

transcend all perspective, then u see and is not perceiving

seeing is beyond perceptions and interpretations

seeing occurs when we transcend all perceptions

right view allows seeing instead of perceptions

when u see you become the original see-er

all points of view are wrong, because they are based on reality and is therefore misleading

realisation is when systems of thought go away

we explore reality thru assumptions eg matter is real is the first assumption. how do you know it exist?

yogis dont have assumptions

Give up being right

because what you are defending is a point of view

its a point of view, its not complete, its not seeing

the point of arrival is right now

the journey is the destination itself

Right Thinking

right thinking= thinking leading u to a place of no thinking yet all knowing : knowing without thought or thinking =pure mind, spontaneous mind and leads to spontaneous actions right speech

not bound by experience or karma

understanding beyond rational thought, its before you r given a name and identity you are it

illusion feels real

therefore its a real experience even tho its not fundamentally true

life as we experience is a continuum of experiences

 experiences include everything thats happening in our awareness,  changing mind, changing world, 

all perceptions are unreliable

since body is a perception so what you think of the body is also unreliable

nothing that you experience can be reliable but seems v real

thought has 4 stages of development

para: unmanifest potential of speech word etc to be manifest

pashanti: ideas have not become concrete, intuition sensing and feeling

madhirma: internal speech of thought, internal dialogue after thought has concretised into ideas: experience of thought

bakeri: speech that can be articulated in writing, symbolically expressed 

ability to change dreamscape 

freedom to create

movement fr illusion to reality’

freedom fr dreamscape, illusion, reality, conditioned minds, freedom to create—ultimate freedom

moksha=liberation, liberation from binding of experience called karma, 

witness all levels of reality as one

evolution of consciousness does not cease but identity as person ends

when illusions end akasha disappear

the movie can only be switch on when u want

you r free fr drama and movie

no more stage, light n dark gd and evil disappear along with dualities

pure consciousness without outside references and evolve

heal world by healing yourself

healing of oneself and world is entangled

whatever that arises in nature of arising subsides

honour entanglement

Karma 

  • Action
  • Every time u act u create karma 
  • Can be physical or emotional action or getting enraged 
  • Any activity perceptual physical mental emotional etc of consciousness creates karma 
  • Creates a memory of the experience becomes basis of desire tension that recycles 
  • Software of soul as we journey thru cosmic time
  • Relationship between karma and any relationship 
  • Deep connection or entanglement of stories thought emotions, two advancing together 
  • Any relationship is karmic
  • The purpose is what we call love , love as direct experience of unity 

Well being

  • of body . emotionally , mentally , spiritually
  • What does well being Feel like ? What is the experience of well being? Does body feel joyful and energetic?
  • Emotional : feel love compassion joy empathy peace ? 
  • Quiet reflective intuitive creative alert
  • Lightness of being
  • Unlimited 

Relationship is unity consciousness 

If any relationship that does not bring these qualities is limiting you karmically 

That fatigues u causes you distress and interferes transcendence

Entanglement of toxic relationships that prevents us from experiencing unity consciousness 

If recycled it increases entanglement 

Addiction 

It’s about who m I 

Light

All existence is light

Light:

-essentially electromagnetic activity

-visible light= 7 colours of rainbow

-blue light: most energetic light in terms of frequency and vibration, synchronises with circadian, seasonal gravitational tidal rhythms syncing with universe,

low frequency lights: red end of spectrum, beyond red, invisible light infra red, radio waves, television waves, microwaves

at other end of spectrum, ultraviolet light is also invisible light , bees and insects navigate thru ultraviolet light

High frequency: peer thru matter: x rays, gamma rays, cosmic rays

All existence is light

the essence of everything is light

light makes all experience possible

the essence of all existence is light

the essence does not change, what changes is form, just like water becomes ice

transformation of form based on essence

upon death, physical body dissolves into mental body which ultimately dissolves into awareness body

Rainbow colours: entanglement of colours that ultimately shows up as in our physical world as objects of experience

everything u see visually is an entanglement of colours

entanglement is in consciousness, we do that with every sensation, entanglement of fragrance as in smell of strawberry, etc

everything u experience is an entanglement of vibrations of light, and nothing else. Even thoughts ! Is the interaction of light with light

Light Beings: beings that know they are entangled light, awareness brings them ability to be in charge of entanglement of light which creates this reality

interaction of light creates this universe

RED: appears red because wavelength of light coming to eyes and interacting with retinal cells is creating the experience we call the colour red. red strawberry you are seeing is a unified process, is you experiencing all that is,

you are both the absolute and relative reality

you r both the essence and the changing form n both are timeless and eternal

no experience is separated from us, from our essence, you only need be aware and embrace

you and all existence –there’s no death, there’s only transformation

this is liberation

dont forget you are a light being and has a rainbow body. everything you see has a rainbow body

Light Beings Healing Love & Psychic Phenomena

Be in the light

Healing ： elimination of all suffering

All experience is entanglement of photons, visible and invisible

humans give off all kinds of vibrations,

when given off in higher than normal orbit, from high to normal energy,

biophotons are light particles generated fr our bodies, can be measured as they emanate fr our skin,

can see aura, have premonition eg remote hearing or vision or smelling or tasting

when we are willing to embrace unknown and dive inward, we have encounter with fundamental reality which is our own being, that we recognise that awareness is what transforms

all cells emit biophotons , biophotons are energy coming fr DNA, the key to communication, biophotons move at the speed of light

our body’s forms are changing at the speed of light , right now in brain , in mind , in body etc takes place eternally timelessly incessantly and now

form and phenomena change at the speed of light

transformation changes at speed of light

interactions at the speed of light ,

you are only to recognise and embrace this

this is psychic phenomena , non local infinite joy love healing

Lamps of Awareness:

-universe pervading light

-space of heart chamber

-nadis: only with heart can you touch the sky; the path with heart is the sacred/healing path

-perceptual activity: with awareness every perception becomes sacred / holy

-space between all objects in external world: when we are aware, there is luminous quality

-between subtle states of experience: the bardos, when filled with awareness,

across seas of light of awareness, are new raw materials to create a new world: go within

Conscious Evolution Light Being and the Alchemy of Existence

Light Beings know they are made of light= body is made of light, we are a stardust being or a light being. evertyhing physical you see is made of stardust

Light Beings know they and universe are made of light= every interaction is the interaction of light

Light Beings know their body mind is a rainbow body, an entanglement of visible light, held together by electromagnetic fields

Light Beings know every event, object, thought (movement of ions and charges moving at the speed of light), feeling, emotion, image, sensation is/have a rainbow body

Light Beings know all transformation is alchemy of entangled rainbow bodies

Light Beings understand all existence is alchemical and rearrangement of rainbow bodies evolves thru intention and evolution of universe. Intention is trigger for transformation, entanglement is happening at speed of light

Conscious evolution is path to enlightenment: Meta cognition, transcendence =awareness of sensory experience and activity as it is happening. every vibration has a symbolic representation . All objects are symbols of rainbow bodies

Shape shift at the speed of light= when u are conscious of it, you become a conscious shape shifter. Once symbols change, experience of reality change. Body is a symbol. Rainbow bodies are entangled symbols

You are the Light of the Universe

You see less than 1% of electromagnetic spectrum , less than 1% of acoustic spectrum

as you listen to me, we r travelling 220km per second across the galaxy

>90% of cells in body carry own microDNA, the atoms in body are 99.9999999999% empty space, none are the ones you r born with

they are originated in the belly of a star, you r a stardust being, light of the universe

human beings have 46 chromosomes, 2 less than a potato so u have 2 less chromosomes than a potato,

existence of a rainbow depends on photo receptors in eyes. to animals the rainbows does not exist. you dont just look at a rainbow, you create the rainbow. you are the creator of every experience. all the beautiful colours u see are less than 1% of the electromagnetic spectrum

-you r the light of the world, every cell in the body emanates light (except red blood cells)

-light is emitted fr DNA

-DNA is the alphabet of life, the genetic code for existence

-biological microbiome in skin, guts, eyes everywhere, trillions of genes, fungi etc as biological organisms we are entangled codes

-genetic codes are entanglement of light

-entanglement of light is entanglement of awareness

-entangled awareness is differentiation of pure awareness

-wholeness is generated or grounded in pure awareness

-being is existence, we r organic beings

-love and beauty are ultimate truth

relationship with organic beings is love, with inorganic beings is beauty

-sat chit ananda, truth, beauty, unlimited bliss

You are visible , invisible and infinite simultaneously

you can see less than 1% of electromagnetic spectrum, includes all forces of nature , gravity and reality is not in this category

you hear less than 1% of the acoustic spectrum

all our hearing and seeing is 1% of reality

as we speak you are travelling 220km in intergalactic space, 90% of cells in body carry their own genetic info or microbiome DNA

we are all intergalactic travellers

99.999999% of our atoms carry empty space, so the visible part of you is less than 0.00000001 % of the real you. Non of atoms in body you have right now are not the ones you are born with

human beings have 46 chromosomes, housing 3billion human genes,

existence of a rainbow depend on receptors in your eyes, you dont just look at rainbow you create it, with every act of perception, you create the world, the body, stars , galaxy and you create your experiences

this physical body is a changing symbolic signature of you and your experiences. the body is a photo, a snapshot,

the changing inner world is you. body responds, you respond according to thoughts feelings, imaginations, intention, attention, intuition, creativity, vision, compassion, joy etc the complexity that is creating a story in your internal life and this body is the printout ,

the mind comes from infinite being, your soul.

matter is space; space is energy and information and light, and when tat settles down into source, that is infinite being, irreducible, formless, fundamental, acausal, spaceless

matter resolves into energy , which resolves into light and info in that light and light resolves into infinite being, omnipresent, omnipotent, omniscience

the visible you is a symbol, the invisible you is the pdf, the real you is infinite being, all three are working simultaneously to create reality.

nothing to do, only to be, every moment in time is spaceless timeless self organising self

you can change the appearance of the physical body

11 Years 4 Months

11 Years 4 Months

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My dear Qinzhi

I hear you sing and it is too precious. I texted daddy. Ah mei ayi, gengyan jiujiu, and said to them this: “Qinzhi’s singing is so precious ! I m so thankful we can bring her here from where she was! And it’s because of you all ”

It seems that you have really grown up.

And what is this supposed to mean?

Because Huaihao succumbed to high fever, Qinzhi decided to sleep on your own in your bed in your pinky room, although it was subtle, I felt a greater gap which came about to signify your faster than ever growing up as an individual. As we stop sleeping on the same bed, I begin to think of the times, I had to wake up almost every night to pick up the bolster you kicked off the bed, I recalled the times I had to wake up when your legs slanted and came over to my side

On on hindsight, it was Qinzhi’s way of telling me she wanted me badly——even in sleep. Even in sleep she wanted me very badly. I thought of the times I had to wake up to cover her in blanket each time she kicked them off.

And I woke up in the middle of the night to now open the door of her room, to check on her.

And this is exactly how every parent feels I guess, not daring to let go.

Anyway, in the holidays we had, Mommy made lots for Qinzhi and Huaihao . A friend sent us a past and pizza package, to make it fun, Mommy made lots you two could on to draw to decide who does the pizza and who makes the pasta, but in the end, both got to work on both pizzas and pastas! So, Yay!

Qinzhi is now a young lady, of her own already. And I could subtly feel how our communication has evolved. These nights I popped over to see her more, now that she is in her own room. The time when I did raindrop on Qinzhi was extremely precious, we chat about school, work, teachers, rainbow forest, everything. And when Qinzhi is in the dome, and whenever I asked questions, Qinzhi would use her toes to answer me, and we would both break out in laughter! So happy!

And I couldn’t be more thankful. And I expressed my appreciation for John who showed us the way to healing Qinzhi, and I couldn’t be more happy and grateful, that I had the opportunity and the privilege to quit to be with Qinzhi.

And because Mommy bought Ziyi and popo organic vegetables, Davina brought you some honey jelly ——–that’s the energy exchange inherent and essential to life. there is always an equal and opposite reaction, an echo to your actions.

Then we baked cookies n made more ice cream !

And Yiyi and popo bought Qinzhi’s favourite ——the ang ku kueh

And dumplings home made!

Yiyi and popo missed Qinzhi, whenever they called, Qinzhi would exclaim in joy, yi! po! I want to go to Pasir ris ! I miss your curry, I want to eat curry!

And that was what yiyi cooked, she cooked curry for qinzhi and lor bak with lots of quail eggs for hao. She prepared all the frozen mince meat , fish and scallops and got ah hao gorgor to send it all over. There’s even bao for huaihao in the red bean flavour he likes.

And at home, mommy cooked lots too, mommy did vegan pulled pork burger using the oyster mushroom, and did a vegan mayo, paired it with a keto ciabatta, vegan cheese and truffle chips!

I panfried tempeh and made a satay dip. I roasted veg of all colours, hoping to find something you and huaihao would like.

And you and Huaihao continued to build amazing houses, train houses etc with peculiar functions and stories.

Then you exercised on zoom with Gengyan and Karyn

In June, you would go to school in weeks 1 and 3, while HuaiHao goes to school on weeks 2 and 4, and it gives me lots of good time with you even if you are busy on zoom.

And you would enjoy so much the time at home, because “Mommy can babysit me” and because it was pretty relaxing, I slept while you zoom-ed, and you remarked that you were babysitting me.

That was so adult a statement to make, and it made me feel like I am indeed growing old and could do with some pampering from you, determined to soak up all the goodness you would shower upon me.

My dear, May you be well and happy! SO in love with you!

Intimacy with Breath

Intimacy with Breath

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Its way past midnight but I see Deepak Chopra go live.

Technology is reducing distance to bareness, so long as you will. So long as you will, you can reach out, reach up.

Some lovely points i jotted down in the session :

  1. breathe only thru nose-make this an obsession
  2. become aware of your breath
  3. the breath is a mode of knowing, that knows itself, as the spirit both a sensation and a smell
  4. amazing things : breath arises and subsides so is this for every experience, every taste, desire, memory has the same evolution. But you, the knower of every experience does not disappear
  5. every particle contains space air fire water world, just smell gives you access to all realities
  6. breathing thru nose and being aware of breath there is intimacy of existence
  7. memory smell emotion desire are connected to olfactory—direct knowing thru smell
  8. atmosphere is your breath , my breath , breath of plants and microorganisms thats entangled that gives rise to universe, starts with entanglement of breath
  9. as you breathe thru nose, air gets purified. stimulation of the pineal gland involved with hormone and immune function, regulates heart rate, blood pressure
  10. Improve the experience of breath everyday
  11. true generosity comes from letting go of self importance
  12. breath has no boundaries
Measure Your Age In Miles

Measure Your Age In Miles

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I dont know how, but I came to see this video and its super amazing! I love how this lady speaks, her ideas give to you this ah-ha, WOW moment, and makes you want to think into her words and fetch out things that you know, if you work/think hard enough, can deliver you.

You dont have to measure your age in years you can measure your age in miles

What you and I call a year is an orbit around the sun

One orbit around sun is 650 million miles 

When you start thinking about your life as your journey around the star it’s a v different experience then you think of time going by

Time doesn’t past we orbit through it

But when we realize we are orbiting life is a journey 

When we realize a year is an orbit and life is a journey and western world speak of life as a journey in metaphorical terms but it’s not a metaphor

It’s called a year

We are traveling around the sun 

And the whole time we r traveling around the sun sun is traveling in the middle of the galaxy and the galaxy is doing something it hasn’t tracked yet  

What fascinates me is that we r a journey not just metaphorically 

when we see our life as a journey on this journey rather than that time passes (and we r not participating in the journey)

As long as we think time or life is happening to us we r not participating or co creating

We haven’t incorporated this into our daily life yet

But it’s obvious we r on a journey because as we orbit the star scenery changes

As we orbit the star scenery goes by the star scenery we see in July goes and different stars come in August in the East 

But pple don’t look at the stars anymore 

In ancient times stars are the calendar the clock

The importance of the sun is we eat the sun

All the food you eat is sunlight downloaded by plants but the only thing we ever eat is the light of stars we are orbiting

Green plants take light and make it into nutrition and life giving substance 

Sun transmits info to photosynthesis- where light becomes life

What is the information coming from the sun that plants are blue to translate into the language of life

What r we made of who r we

It’s a scientific fact that the calcium in your bones the iron in your blood every element in your body except hydrogen has been created in the cosmic called stars that have exploded and ended up into our bodies

So we are on the earth but not made of earth

The spiritual teachers have been telling us this too not from a scientific way but that

You r on earth but not made of earth don’t get too attached you the earthy stuff

And this reminds me of the card I drawn that we r spiritual beings on earth 

It’s like an earth suit but it’s not who You are

And you have to wear this earth suit to have this earthy experience like the calcium in your body blood and all elements except hydrogen are made of stars and exploded and made earth 

And hydrogen was created in the big bang and nobody knew where it came from

So we r made of the Big Bang but the implications of this fact is not studied by science 

There  are a lot of things the scientist does not explore but the rest of us can and are eager to 

We r experiencing a huge change

This understanding of time we are talking about —- that it isn’t a straight line pressing relentlessly forward 

Time is the movement of our planet thru space 

If earth isn’t orbiting around the sun we wouldn’t have years and these things are cyclical 

If the moon wasn’t orbiting around us we wouldn’t have months or moons or if was originally pronounced 

A month is the time the moon takes to orbit around us

And when ancient pple talk abt the moon they r not talking abt the rock in the sky but the movement of the moon that is the cycle of a woman’s womb that is the tides

When we realize time isn’t this straight line we race against but that it’s cycles and rhythms like waves we can ride 

And you do not have to use a lot of effort energy the waves are propelling you forward

When we realize time isn’t this straight line we race against

This clock time we r racing against is you exhausting depleting deadening

Natural time is empowering and enliving

Before Christ in the 5th century Greek geometrist eucalid says that a straight line is the shortest distance between 2 points and this is the basis of the arrow of time

But this is only valid on a flat earth because they thought the earth was flat

And so the time we race against is flat earth time

But In fact the earth is round. And the earth is orbitting and what you call an orbit is a cycle and anything cyclical has this up and down quality to it

Waves you can ride

The entire natural world is riding this wave Eg reindeer eyes change colour with seasons 

Time is a powerful rhythm cycle you can ride

Anywave if you don’t ride it it’s going to crash on your head

That’s the choice we have

We all go thru these cycles and we know we are different once we go thru the cycles

Its amazing how man somehow or other find their way into the universe, trying to decode and understand the galaxy, reading stars and the night sky.

Its a step by step process. First you go through life’s experiences, then with awareness try to extract yourself out of life, and then you streamline and redefine your life, you cut out animals and go plant based, you learn yoga and energy related work, you get interested in qigong and spirituality and you investigate into the sky above.

Harriett Witt is a Maui astronomer and she’s started Passenger Planet https://harriet-witt.squarespace.com