Make a list of things that you wanted to do, but postponed. This could be because of other priorities or because of fear of hurting someone, or failing. Regardless of the reason, these are things that you still plan on doing.
The idea of writing this list is to forgive yourself for everything that you have not done in your life.
For each line on your list, write a text of forgiveness based on examples below:
* I, full name, forgive myself absolutely and lovingly for not graduating from university
* I, full name, forgive myself absolutely and lovingly that I did not show my vulnerability.
Write down everything you want, without limitation.
My inputs
Phrase:
* “Today I remember to be grateful” *
*Mantra:*
Om Vardhanam Nama
Om Vardhanam Nama
Have a wonderful and prosperous day!
Audio
Experiencing gratitude is one of most effective way to get in touch with soul
When you feel gratitude your Ego stems out of way enabling you to enjoy love compassion and understanding
Genuine gratitude is one of the most powerful ways to invite more goodness to life
It’s as if you r saying to universe pls bring me more of this
Gratitude is independent of situation circumstances personal experiences
When you Connect with this true inner joy you feel bliss for no reason
Simply being alive
Appreciate miracle of life itself
To feel gratitude consider all the wonderful gifts you enjoy in your life
Nurturing loving relationships
Connections You have with very special beings
Miracle of your body n fertile mind
Material Comfort
Appreciating your life in this manner sweeps away lack n limitation n reminds you of positive things that surrounds you
U realize that Anything you experience is a gift
As u move into that place of gratitude notice notice the warmth love compassion that enters your heart
Find peace knowing that there’s a divine plan moving you forward on your evolutionary path
Realize the seed of goodness in every situation
Embrace each moment of life as an opportunity to evolve into a more loving thankful being
Think of many things in life that you appreciate
Taking stock of life’s many gifts and expressing gratitude will pave way for attracting abundance
By giving thanks to all you have and committing to live life in deeper appreciation
Abundance is certain to flow to you
That is power of gratitude
* “Today I remember to be grateful” *
*Mantra:*
Om Vardhanam Nama
Om Vardhanam Nama
I nourish the universe and the universe nourishes me.
I saw this on a yoga group Bliss Within, it got me thinking :
“Our bodies are a wonderful communication tool – they are essentially the mediator between our inner souls and our mind informing us through pain, disease, rashes etc. when we are out of alignment with our true, loving inner selves. Hence, we are to be thankful to our bodies for whatever they manifest and always keep in mind they are simply trying to tell us something and miraculously when we listen, these issues often disappear.
Journaling with our bodies or specific body parts can be a wonderful tool to discover what it is trying to tell us. The next time you have a pain, ache, rash or annoying ailments, sit down and ask what it’s trying to tell you and then trust that what “it” writes you back is truth. Listen to its advice – you may just be surprised at the wisdom it has to offer you and how it can help you to heal yourself!”
I thought of the keloids and the inflammation I deal with
Each time it’s inflamed and I have to squeeze out pus and blood I clench my teeth
Every time so until I realize I clench my teeth really hard
It brought to mind a part of my experiences and time when I clenched my teeth really hard
These few nights I heard bf and QinZhi grind their teeth in sleep
Is it coincidence?
This thing about pressure stress and biting your teeth
In both English and Chinese literature, there’s an expression of biting the teeth to get through tough times
The keloids or body remember that time
That time I fought so hard ——suppressed myself my soul my everything so hard ——-to get out of the situation then
It was a time of challenge low darkness loneliness fear worry cold shiver cannot breathe holding back pulling back breaking down collapse
I sucked it all up and all in
Struggle. I struggled so hard to be alive
My body remembers all this
And now I m seeing it’s release and letting out all those suppressed repressed emotions
As I wrote this , it felt more and more like I was looking at it from a distance trying to recall a certain past
This distance is great . Oh! How wonderful
That was a tough time
Now how do I help this part heal
Fast, I m on a 10 day fast and I have seen it gone down
EFT tapping I heard myself say
Breathe. Breathe in fresh air to these areas
Visualize it dissolved
And is it any wonder that I saw Nick Ortner on Gaia and Instagram?
Write a letter of gratitude and recognition to a person who you think hurt you at some point in life.
Meditate so that the image of this person comes to you.
More than one person may appear. But today we write a letter to only one.
Before you sit down to write, cleanse yourself of negative emotions towards this person. If you still have resentment or anger, you can separately write down all these feelings for them on paper and then burn or tear the sheet to shreds.
It is important not to feel hostility towards a person when you write a letter of thanks to them.
Write this letter on a piece of paper. Writing by hand for this exercise is important!
My inputs:
As I wrote down my feelings of anger and resentment and inability to forgive my father, i begin to see how much I have followed or copied him energetically
How much of my life is a download and a copy of his
Such as when I m angry at him for thinking he is undeserving , unworthy and for not struggling or trying hard enough and just leaving it to fate
I see this in myself too
Such as how I feel he did not cherish or love my mother enough or how he chose to let his closest ones suffer or how he prioritizes himself over us but maybe he did that’s why he chose this path
or how he did not try a new path or how he felt shameful
I saw what high expectations I had of him and saw how I used these expectations on myself and others and suffered , bringing myself misery when I couldn’t or others couldn’t level up
I wrote how I disliked the way he has to hide in his room to earn a keep and slowly realized maybe this is his best, or what he thought is his best and I realized my judgment on him causing me the misery
Yes its what he did, but equally if not more, its my judgements and expectations of him that is causing the misery on myself
I wrote how he didn’t try hard enough for us but in another instant I realize maybe he did —- this is his way of loving us with what little capabilities he has and know
I wrote and I wrote and i realize how much influence he has over my life
way too much !
And the day before I realized I had a hand in playing this out too.
So—— How can I let these free and not be under the influence of these stories any longer?
What can I do ?
20 years is long enough of influence and I woke up and realized only now
I saw myself separating the emotions and more importantly my judgements or the meanings I attach to the event
I added these onto the event onto the individual and the lens I put on brought extra misery to myself
I wrote the letter of gratitude to dad and teared up. I just had to thank him for all the experiences he has given me and how these have, become a store of reserves or resource I can tap into and that which birthed and fuelled my need and right and desire to evolve spiritually.
Those dark times tested me through and through and forced to draw up every single inch of power , resolve, determination, might I have, and that which i might not know is in me, they brought me to my values my integrity my learning my soul.
And had it not been that time, those times, I might not have progressed so far on this soulful journey. They provided a basis from which I could work on—-WOW, i can see it like this now! Resources for practice.
I thanked him for loving me, and for giving me life.
Phrase:
* “As I live in present moment awareness I live the magic of synchrodestiny” *
* “Living in the awareness of the present moment, I live the magic of perfect synchronization with my fate” *
*Mantra:*
Aham Bramasmi
Aham Bramasmi
Audio
Reality of Abundance , source = universe and how we attract
7 Laws
This week: ways Abundance can manifest
Seemingly unrelated events coming together to bring fulfillment in our lives
This coincidence synchrodestiny
Recognizing and Celebrating this cosmic dance, trusting the rhythm to life, and when we live in harmony with rhythm and things, everything we desire come to us effortlessly
We can make miracles without limit and end
When things go right they seem to continue to go right
Aligned with universe
What seem like coincidence pop up daily
Opportunity support u out of the blue
That is synchrodestiny
Play of universe that spreads banquet of abundance before you
Once you Relax into rhythm of life it’s as if you floating in genre current of river
It’s where Everything u want awaits you
Like a powerful magnet
Attract well being
Spiritual fulfillment
Life’s true meaning and see purpose
Listen to messages they bring
Love in abundance of synchrodestiny
Explore experiences of synchrodestiny in life
Consciously recall to awareness recent coincidences you had
Or you had a thought and someone support you
See these coincidences and the universe at work on your life helping you realize your dreams
* “As I live in present moment awareness I live the magic of synchrodestiny” *
Aham Bramasmi
Aham Bramasmi
The core of my being is the ultimate reality
In my meditation I asked for an apology from my husband
I asked for an apology because this morning he flared up at me because he reached out for salt and the cover wasn’t properly done. Salt spilled out and he just threw the cover away and then stomped things then stomped and banged the door twice
I had to continue with my kids
I was calm too calm I questioned myself if there’s something wrong with me
Continue making pancake with my kids as if nothing is wrong
I didn’t put myself first again
I was worried how qinzhi who witnessed everything might think
And just yesterday I was listening to Philip Mckernan say: so you think you are doing a good job covering things up and protecting the others, no! You r doing a shitty job because your kids can feel it
And now I m angry at myself for choosing this path —— again
But what can I do?
I need to make sure qinzhi who saw it all is good n not affected
And when I was making the pancakes all sorts of thoughts came up
From separating the incident from the individual to
But he’s angry at me
There’s something else he’s angry with me
How could he do this to me in front of the kids
I felt like time reversed and I witnessed my father chiding mother, and dad was not even as hot tempered but my mom had to suck it all in. Pretend like nothing has happened
I m mom like she was
But I remind myself that I don’t want to be so silly as to stake my precious life and feelings on this one like that going to extremities
I m so sick of the way he mismanaged his emotions
Does he even respect or love me
He who once cherished me like a pearl on a shell like a princess
How did we go so wrong
I cannot tolerate this kind of behavior
I m so sick of his tempers
I recall elders say he has his temperament of his father who is extremely bad tempered too
I thought of my dad say—- he’s a good man but his temper is too bad —- when I told dad I wanted to be with him
Another thought told me he’s up to his brim and he has pain that’s why this triggered him
I feel helpless . How long more must we tolerate and suffer fallout like this just because he has issues unsettled
HuaiHao just didn’t care he continued to play
Qinzhi must have learned my reaction of taking it down just like how I learned from my mother
Another thought said go into the room n tell him to apologize in front of the kids n to spin this into a learning experience for all for everyone to use this experience to learn , to find out how qinzhi n HuaiHao feel, use this to transform so that I do not fall into the usual mode of waiting for an apology in silence
Yet another thought said, he hurt me yet again, how many more times must this repeat? I feel like kicking him out of the house and my life
This is not how I want my husband to be
I asked for someone to wake him up to the fact that he has issues to settle and process otherwise we will all end up repeating cycles our previous generations had and we end up suffering
I asked for someone to help our family with healing
Universe , help me! NOW!
And is this the universe’s way of giving me an exercise to show me in abundance——- that I still have this thing to sort out in my relationship
That aside I m sincerely thankful of the abundance of tools I have in me, whether it’s tapping or release or meditation or this abundance challenge I m going thru now. It keeps me so much more balanced and unreactive I m liking myself so much now
As I keep focus on awareness and wisdom
At night when we played , I took the chance to talk about this when the game was played in awkward silence.
Qinzhi says we are not talking. So I took the chance and tried to sort out how we all feel about the incident. I m not sure how successful I m but this proactive step at resolving conflict aims to let everyone know that I intend that as a family we should move together forwards in conflict resolution, we shouldnt keep things inside but to talk it out calmly at the onset of an opportunity and to express how we really feel. To seek the apology we feel we deserve and to move on with these grudges released.
Congrats for making it 2 weeks!! We are heading into our last week together. Let’s keep doing the work and creating abundance!
*Message:*
Abundance and the Law of Dharma
Today we are completing the second week of the 21 day meditation program of the Chopra Center – KEY TO ABUNDANCE.
Over the past week, we have examined abundance in terms of the principles described in my book, The Seven Spiritual Laws of Success, from the Law of Pure Potentiality to the Dharma Law today.
When your life is full of true purpose, your dharma, or abundance, rushes toward you easily and effortlessly.
As the saying goes: “Do what you love, the money will be.”
It is not only about material wealth, but also about satisfaction, confidence, optimism, joy and abundance! And all of its manifestations that will come to you if you live your true purpose in life.
QUESTION N ° 1: What brings you the most joy?
QUESTION N ° 2: How do you feel this joy in your everyday life and in your current work?
QUESTION N ° 3: How can you approach a life full of joy, by living your Dharma or life’s dream?
My inputs
Q1: seeing others find resonance , even better—— lighted up, moved, inspired, discover or find a way because of my works my words ——-expression of my thoughts views experience. seeing others being delivered or soothed by my words, writing, videos, by me
Q2: By going into the silence
By using awareness and with it, diving deep into life and its experiences, as it is, and feeling the littlest moments, fetching out the truth the light the magic in it.
Not judging, but living the moments and observing with awareness
And using it or transforming it to something good for myself and
Sharing what I learnt with others
Q3. By addressing myself first
By tapping into silence
By entering pure consciousness
By not judging not imposing, as it is
Letting go of yesterday by using yesterday or changing/transforming my experiences
Also By the above intentions in Q2 and fulfilling them to the best of my ability every moment everyday I will be giving my intentions attention
Do the best I can
Be as authentic as I can
Fetch out or recover me for myself and the world
When I m me, I m powerful and full of infinite possibilities fearless
*Task:*
Enjoy this day, noticing the generous gifts of the world that surround us, seek us, and ask us to notice and accept them.
Seek, find, accept and give thanks for each of them.
At the end of the day, write down at least three paths / sources through which abundance has come to you today.
Even if it was something very small.
My inputs:
Organic Food
Spiritual wisdom
I have learnt to listen to the magic in the silence.
Health and Children
Watch this short video:
Write down 3 cases when you deprived someone of the opportunity to learn his/her lesson.
Think of examples such as helping a friend, showing your power over children, etc.
Always helped HuaiHao eat his food by scooping into spoons for him
I helped my husband too much in housework, I did whenever he didnt!
I stopped father from learning by giving him money
Phrase:
* “There is a way I can fulfill my true purpose in life” *
*Mantra: *
Om Varunam Nama
Om Varunam Nama
Audio
Law of Dharma on our ability to fulfill our desires
discover your true self
Express unique talents
Share gifts to bring happiness to yourself and others
Explore all things that make your heart sing
Not just living
Now can I help and serve?
When your creative expression meet needs of others, abundance flows to you
Pay attention to spirit that resides within u and how you can use these gifts to serve the world
* “There is a way I can fulfill my true purpose in life” *
* “There is a way I can fulfill my true purpose in life” *
Om Varunam Nama
Om Varunam Nama
My life is in harmony with cosmic law
My reflections
In the audio I thought about stopping myself from learning
As much as I have helped others, the person I stopped most was myself
By rejecting the past of my own experiences refusing to see refusing to accept
I lacked discipline and also courage and lived my life of refusal—— to face what truth was with me until things blow up big
Then before I could write I stopped myself, I wrote I stopped father from learning by helping him with money—— not mindfully giving —— just casually passing him what he needs like an atm
And then I realize it’s me!
Father can ask me for things but I m the one who decides my reaction
That was such a big discovery
While I felt victimized and sorry for myself and blaming others for the experiences I had, I failed to see that a large part of that experience is decided by me by my actions by my creative capacities
Had I been mindful, wise and knew how to deal with that situation I wouldn’t have created my experiences as I have
I saw that I had a part to play, the biggest part in determining my experiences my feelings my life, its what and how I choose
I also saw some judgement of myself
And I want to suffice that I understand I lacked the wisdom resources then to be able to rise up to have an overview —–probably overwhelmed and overcome by emotions to be able to be mindfully making choices then
And I was living my life and making choices with coloured lens
What a journey !!! Took me twenty years to discover I had a hand in this!!!!
And do I want to blame myself?
No, time is too precious to do that!
If not? How can I and why do I still place a grudge on father on circumstances ?Father also lived his life and made choices under those coloured lens
And he did not have resources like me now to be able to see reality or to make sense and he is still living in those shadows of yesterday so do I still have to add on ? He did not have so many opportunities as I had to open up my mind
I felt a rush of need to help him see how he got here
In the audio, what was bigger was this feeling
Feeling the feeling of
“Om Varunam Nama
Om Varunam Nama
My life is in harmony with cosmic law” in silence
It felt like things are in place and I felt being in the flow. WOW
It’s Peacefulness
Certainty
Stability
Power
Ability
Feels like spaces in my body is filled or imbued with some kind of information
The audio content speaks about using my gifts for myself and others and this is what I have found out for myself already before this
And I remember Stephan say, “ there is nothing you do not know”
I look back at the times magic happened-
Getting Nicholas Tse and Jolin Tsai to cook for the Michelin gala
Getting Curtis Duffy
Nespresso deal
Reversing the cyst
Or as simple as early as when I did a great write up with a great interview
Those times I was certainly in line with the universe or my calling
What did I do?
I expressed and wrote truthfully what I heard and learnt —- the things that called out to me and touched me—- I shared
I ate really simply and tapped into plant power and essential oils
I arranged my thoughts and listened to my intuition
I tell myself to go for it without fear
I used awareness
I reached out , used my experiences and what I knew and combined people networks creatively , learning new skills of negotiation in the midst-tying them in a formula different from the past , creating new circumstances and winning opportunities for all involved
With the manifestation of these magical events the universe tells me that I have touched on what works
Finding a part of myself —- gifts experiences all in—— that resonates with needs of others
Everything else will fall in place
Wow
I just lie and feel myself soaking up all these bits and pieces of information like repairing healing patching up 🙏
It’s big and magical silent and powerful
Wow wow wow I am just so thankful for this opportunity of learning.
Today we will learn how to abandon a desire to get a certain result.
We will learn the Law of Detachment.
Abundance comes in many forms. As long as you create through desires that benefit the whole world, you can get whatever you want.
Symbols of abundance: a big house, a new car or elaborate jewelry will bring waves of excitement into your life. But this does not mean sacrificing the ocean for the sake of several transient waves.
“Live, overflowing with an abundance of love, passion, creativity and significance, and then these symbols themselves will “chase” you.”
–Dr. David Simon, Co-Founder of the Chopra Center
QUESTION N ° 1: What symbols of abundance do you dream of?
QUESTION N ° 2: How could they improve both your life and others?
QUESTION N ° 3: How else will such abundance positively affect your life?
My inputs
Q1.
Light
Wisdom
Awareness
Peace and harmony
Hope
Strength
Joyfulness
Happiness
Q2.
Like an inspiration or a guide or anchor to my life and others
Q3.
Bring me closer to beauty satisfaction purpose mission calling or truth of life, to pure consciousness and me
*Task:*
Think about your mom’s description from Day 11.
Consider your life and your returning patterns.
Do you see “copy-paste” situations in them or just some similarities between you and your mom?
What are they, how were they formed?
Write these reflections in your notebook.
My inputs
I married someone less educated than me like mom did
I m like the leader like mom did
I planned like mom did
From day 11, I wrote:
I learnt all of mom ‘s qualities the good and bad
I learnt to give of myself to others
I learnt not to prioritize myself
I didn’t take care of my physical my emotional my mental well being before
I learnt to be sacrificial to be the leader of the tribe like she did , to rise up to the occasion and to support my family in times of need
I believed and practicedthe principles of hard work and honesty in the way I worked and lived
I asked for fairness like mom did
I plan really well
I always did things myself as far as possible
I didn’t know or want to ask for help as far as possible
I saw myself small too
But increasingly and also mindfully , I also learned and choose to not be mom not to be her and the things she chose
I learned to be myself when i use awareness and recognize that she’s gone to the extreme of giving and devoting to herself, in putting others before her , in being sacrificial
I learned to prioritize myself my physical mental and emotional well being
I m trying to be respectful of authorities but not fearful
I learned to ask for help
I learned that I can choose not to take the lead
I learnt to ask for things from my husband such as for participation in the family, whether it be household chores or the kids
From her, I learned that responsibility can have limits and shouldn’t affect one’s well being
I saw myself as being small too undeserving in a way
I m meticulous and detailed
Listen to today’s meditation twice in a row.
Audio
Abundance is a state of mind in which you believe you r intrinsically creative
You recognize that universe is abundant and that you are an expression of universe
If you accept idea of an unlimited abundant universe, you relinquish the desire to manage circumstances enforce solutions to manifest desires
This is essence of Law of detachment
This law Teaches us to focus on what we desire, take necessary steps to achieve our dreams, then find security in wisdom of uncertainty, by letting go of attachment to outcome
An essential step in achieving our goals
Think of a time to recall a name with no success
Struggle and let go efforts
Then A name flashes in your consciousness
In same way, cast your intention in womb of creation without attachment to results
Ultimately fulfills your desires
In physical world there r perceived boundaries such as time space opportunities
But in the spiritual realm opportunities are limitless and there’s no space or time. What exists is pure possibilities pure potentiality which you activate through thoughts beliefs intentions
Abundance springs fr this unlimited source
Therefore release any thoughts of limitations
Go directly to this source
And Proclaim your intention
Today Practice law of detachment
Detach from all expectations of outcome
Allow everyone and everything the freedom to be exactly as they are
Accept uncertainty
And Witness solutions and opportunities that spontaneously spring from it
Then Step into field of possibilities remaining open to infinity of choices
“As I let go of the need to arrange my life, the Universe brings abundant good to me”
Have a wonderful day everyone, full of light and abundance! 💎
*Phrase:*
“As I let go of the need to arrange my life, the Universe brings abundant good to me”
“When I let go of the need to control and organize my life, the Universe brings in abundance for what I need”
*Mantra:*
Om Anadham Nama
Om Anadham Nama
My reflections : In my quiet space I saw the word Build. Start building TPY I heard.
Feels like I woke up after a sleep, yet,
40 is a great start and a great time to start building your life and shape it accordingly to what you believe in.
Build health- by building in plant power which has worked for me
Build joy happiness peace ease harmony by building up mindfulness and release of what doesn’t serve me
Build wealth and an abundant life for myself and loved ones by pursuing work I truly believe in and that which will benefit others too
In today’s meditation, we will look at the Law of Intent and Desire.
Whatever you want or need in life can be programmed in the space “computer.” It has unlimited organizing power to work for you, clearly articulating the intention and throwing its seeds in the field of all possibilities.
Thus, you will attract the right people, as well as favorable situations and circumstances; which will help you in the manifestation and implementation of your desires.
QUESTION N ° 1: What is your highest intention in life?
To realize myself. Me, Powerful, Limitless, Boundless, Abundant, after. Just be me, me not others.
QUESTION N ° 2: What can you do to make this happen?
Practice Awareness in life
Intend
Use every opportunity to try and realize this realize me
QUESTION N ° 3: How will this intention best serve you and others?
When I m me, others r them
There’s no acting out based on beliefs, culture system, history
When I m authentic others can be
The world is an expression of our true authenticity and that the world at its best with no bias no lens
*Task:*
Ask your mom what her biggest pain / disappointment has been in her life.
And, what is her dream –
and/or great desire that remains unfulfilled?
Write the answer in your notebook.
If your mother is no longer with you or you are unable to ask her personally, go into a state of meditation, ask and listen to the answer. Write it down.
My inputs: I think mom’s biggest pain and disappointment is love
Not getting enough love
at first I thought it’s dad – all the pain and disappointment she experienced with dad
She’s a good girl and all she did was love a man. How did it all go so wrong
Then I thought of grandmother
Her love and marriage also did not turn out great
Grandfather had a second wife and grandmother had a companion of sorts in her later life
How did mom feel
She must have wanted to be loved doubly hard
She wanted a shelter away from this all
Was her pain her parents too? The lack of love and communication and happiness in her parents’ marriage and somehow this became hers?
And as much as she wanted she couldn’t solve this
Her own marriage suffered as a result of not more
And at the end she gave it all up not knowing what to do how to do
Disappointment with people and the folks whom she thought loved her and whom she loves
Phrase:
* I place my intention into the vast ocean of all possibilities and allow the universe to work through me *
*Mantra: *
Om Mritham Nama
Om Mritham Nama
Audio
Having abundance consciousness allows us to view life as magical adventure where our needs are met with grace and ease
See beauty wherever we go
Have gratitude as primary emotion
Open hearts to all we meet
Trust cosmic plan
Law of intention and desire:
We recognize that at the deepest level of reality is a Field of energy that gives rise to all creations.
Beauty love prosperity
Attention energizes
Intention transforms
Once you clarify your intentions
Surrender them to universe
Visualization meditation
In my meditation, I put out a list of my deepest desires
⁃ to be always tuned into pure consciousness and pure potentiality
⁃ To be light and inspire
to be a producer of the world for the world renowned for works of light strength hope love and warmth
⁃ To be able to use essential oils to heal myself and others
⁃ To enjoy longevity with my partner
⁃ To have a loving relationship of respect communication with my husband
⁃ My kids are healthy and happy
– to live a fulfilling authentic life honestly and with no regrets
These are some beautiful thought provoking mind blowing things that has been said and that touched me deeply.
This is episode of Transcendence 2 and the end of it , right at the end caught me off guard.
“We are always looking for external recognition.
And there have been clients climbing the mountain of societal success and they climb to the top and feel emptiness
They keep repeating the same internal pattern and getting the same result
People work v v hard to present themselves they want the world to see
They get so busy run so fast just to not connect with what they are avoiding
You need to understand the cause of what you went through
My father did the best he could and maybe he did.
If you can isolate the trauma and how it affected you and the individual
It allows to find out who you really are what drives you and allows you to heal the relationship understand what treat person really went through at that time
Nothing in my opinion is more valuable more healing than, not downloading your story but sharing your story
When you share the parts of you that is scary, when you share a part of yourself that you are ashamed of , when you share a part of yourself that you deeply regret you allow the world to see all of you
I would encourage people to share the parts of themselves they have spent a lot of time and energy hiding and watch how free you feel and watch what you can do with that energy”———Philip Mckernan
The privilege of a lifetime is being who you are—- Joseph Campbell
“I think the negative comes from we haven’t dealt into who we are
It’s not acknowledging their lives r perfect but that You have put on lens that judges that perfection
The dichotomy of the human spirit the human being is we must endure and face adversity and challenges
It’s part of being human and part of what that drives our quest for enlightenment for spirituality true love
I believe it’s a gift. I believe in the throes of challenge. You have to feel it to heal it. You have to honour it. You have to endure. You have to find help find a way through it. You do have to get through it.
Or you become a victim of circumstance and there becomes a layer a shield to stop love coming in
You can use your circumstances as a weapon and you can use them as an excuse of not being a true reflection of the absolute beauty of you as a human
Or you can say wow that happened to me. What m I going to do with it?
How do I use it to become a better person how can I teach another person to get through the same experience”———Kim Morrison
“Your deepest wound is the source of your greatest gift
It’s your wound and throwing a penny into the deep end of the pool and for you to dive down in terms of fulfilling and finding out
You r out here for a reason. And your mission if you accept it is find that reason and fulfill it”————Artie Wu
You are having high fever and i feel its quite strong, daddy says you and qinzhi have been home, so if anything, either me or him could have passed it to you.
I m trying my best to get you well again.
We had such a lovely chat yesterday at bedtime, I thought you might remember this for life.
Would you, if I intend?
You came in earlier for bedtime and as usual we hugged and kissed. I asked, “what if mommy doesnt hug and kiss you?” And you say “I’ll feel lonely”
AWWWWWW
So I kissed and hugged doubly hard.
We spoke. I said, I didnt know why I say these things to a 7 year old, but I said anyway—-that if I had given birth one day earlier, or ten minutes later, the baby with me might not be you.
How lucky how blessed how grateful I m to have you by my side on my bed now, and that we can be hugging each other!
He nodded perceptively.
And I said, if I had not given birth at that very time to Qinzhi that day that time, then probably you might not meet her here.
How would a 7 year old take that?
He seemed to really enjoy the conversations we had, too adult-is at times, but I asked, “so if mommy is like 6 or 7 years old, would you want me as your girlfriend?”
He smiled affectionately, yes.
Why?
“Because I want to be with you. Mommy”
I gave birth to Huaihao when I was 32 years old, and I told him so, like Mommy is 32 years older.
And he says, “I feel a bit sad, because you are going to be like 50, 60, 70, 80, 90….”
I took the chance to tell him that this is probably the time we might meet and we did in time, so we should cherish every moment together and do good together and to uplift each other.
I teared up and he wiped my tears.
The next morning, he said to me, “what a wonderful conversation we have mommy”
Anyways, we are into lots of good food! I cooked and I cooked and I cooked!
We ordered in and ordered in and ordered in
The kids cooked and cooked and cooked. I felt that it would be good to have them feel food. Huaihao made dairy free ice cream. He cooked pasta one by one, and had so much fun!
On daddy’s birthday they made cards and we ordered food in
And Huaihao drew and drew and drew!
One day I asked what he enjoyed most about that day and he said it was making Mother’s Day card. Too sweet a talker this one! But I lap it all out. Yum
Love it when he shaves and he would poke fun!
Mommy discovered such a lovely biodynamic grape juice and of course we had to use the wine glass!
And continued to create transformers using Lego. I wonder why so many creations. He seemed to be echoing my path as I have been doing lots on the soul evolution end of late, discovering about bettering myself and inner work. We mirror each other!
Huaihao is also getting better and better at chess!
One day I tasked him to cleaning the floor and to be aware that he is cleaning the floor as he works
We tried new things, sprouting green beans and following how they grow seeing them grow roots!It was very much enriching for me as well, seeing the little thing grow roots. This seed and whatever in the water, just water and it grew?
Was it minerals in the water? Intention or love or just nature being like that?
There’s energy we cant see at work, doing so much work.
Nature is so fascinating!
One day, Mommy made lots and let Qinzhi and Huaihao draw and it was to make pizza and pasta!
On another day, Mommy decided to challenge the kids. Every night I would announce the challenge for the next day, such as 2 kind acts, 3 things you are grateful for and let the kids write or draw or do show n tell to express, there has to be rewards of course! And this is hao drawing out his win!
One day it was raining so heavily, I took the chance to experience rain again its Huaihao and asked him to put his hand out to feel the cool droplets. We used to do that, I sed to carry him as a baby and to hold out his hand whenever it rained.
And now, in the blink of an eye, he is already so tall and can do it himself
Dear Huaihao, like qinzhi, you are so precious to me, you are my reminder to throw out all of the old and to make new rules, try out a new pathway, and to discover the world , life and myself.
I wish you lots of love, light and beauty. May you always be a light upon yourself and others.
In today’s meditation, we will look at the Law of Least Effort and how it can support you in being unattached to the outcome of your deepest desires and intentions.
When your actions are motivated by love, your energy is multiplied and accumulated.
The release of this energy allows you to redirect it and use it to create everything that you want to create.
When your spirit is your inner point of reference, all the power of love is at your disposal. And you can use this energy creatively, moving toward abundance and evolution.
QUESTION N ° 1: According to your conviction, how hard should you work to enjoy true abundance?
QUESTION N ° 2: In what areas of your life would you like to get more abundance?
QUESTION N ° 3: What changes should you make to release your desires into the space of universal consciousness – the source of all abundance?
My inputs
Q1. Not hard at all, as easy and instantaneous as a blink of an eye
Q2. Alignment with Universe/Nature: Intuitive Knowing, Increased awareness and mindfulness
Alignment with self : Physical emotional and mental well being
Alignment with others: relationships and communication with husband, family, harmony at home,
Alignment with society and wealth
Q3. Open myself up. Acknowledge and respect or honour the past and accept the past as part of my experiences
It’s not letting go, it’s accepting them no good no bad just they have been here n formed part of me and made me who I m
Practice awareness so as to be free of yesterday
Accept myself and every bit of my experience
Assert myself
Feel my power and infinite capabilities and possibilities
*Task:*
Please describe your mom in the notebook.
* positive aspects
* limitations
* what did you learn from her?
* What brought you together?
* What separated / distance you?
If your mother is no longer in this world, focus on her image, join her and write what rises in your memory and feelings.
For some, this will not be an easy task.
If this is the case – while doing it, try to distance yourself from the personal experiences you’ve had with your mom. See her as just a human, a woman living her own life.
My inputs
Mom is all giving, she devoted herself to giving and to others , always and puts others before herself.
But this is also where when the balance is tipped, she suffered.
She did not how to prioritize herself and see herself as being precious or important
She did not how to take care of her physical emotional and mental well being enough
At times, she did not respect and acknowledge her feelings or emotions
She is hardworking , not afraid of hard work and believes in working hard to strive for a better livelihood. She is honest and sincere with herself and others in the way she worked and lived
She believed in fairness
She is respectful of authorities
Mom is extremely responsible and is the super savior of the family. She sacrifices herself , leads and is the protector the educator the breadwinner everything
Mom was a really good planner who could plan really ahead and did everything well
It’s a pity Mom saw herself small, probably because she didn’t really have a chance to go further in education but being who she is, she excelled in what ways she could on her own
Mom always did things herself.
She didn’t know or want to ask for help as far as possible
She is grateful of help and sometimes find herself undeserving even if she really needed help
She is meticulous and watchful of details
I learnt all of mom ‘s qualities the good and bad
I learnt to give of myself to others
I learnt not to prioritize myself
I didn’t take care of my physical my emotional my mental well being before
I learnt to be sacrificial to be the leader of the tribe like she did , to rise up to the occasion and to support my family in times of need
I believed and practicedthe principles of hard work and honesty in the way I worked and lived
I asked for fairness like mom did
I plan really well
I always did things myself as far as possible
I didn’t know or want to ask for help as far as possible
I saw myself small too
But increasingly I also learned to not be mom not to be her and the things she chose
I learned to be myself when i use awareness and recognize that she’s gone to the extreme of giving and devoting to herself, in putting others before her , in being sacrificial
I learned to prioritize myself my physical mental and emotional well being
I m trying to be respectful of authorities but not fearful
I learned to ask for help
I learned that I can choose not to take the lead
From her, I learned that responsibility can have limits and shouldn’t affect one’s well being
I saw myself as being small too undeserving in a way
I m meticulous and detailed
Phrase
*”I expect and accept abundance to flow easily to me”*
*Mantra*
Om Daksham Nama
Audio
When our body mind is in concert with universe everything becomes spontaneous effortless
Exuberance of Universe flows to us in joy
Trust everything in universe as it should be
We dance to rhythm of cosmos
Law of least effort
We can do less and accomplish more
First Practice acceptance
The more readily you acceptance circumstances of life as they r the easier your life becomes
When you struggle this moment you r struggling against the entire universe
Accepting it as it is right now puts you in best position to attain your goals
When act in harmony
Motivated by love
Today practice law if least effort
Accept pple n circumstances as they r
Take responsibility for life without blaming yourself n everything is as it should be
Practice defenselessness
Relinquish need to persuade others to your point of view
I expect and accept abundance to flow easily to me
Where the meaning in this? What’s the future in this?
If you stereotype people against a very narrow view of ability then you automatically generate a very big conception of inability or disability
We just do because we think we have to but we don’t have to
Creativity isn’t some exotic by product that we happen to see in a few people. We have come to think of it that way. But it’s not true. Creativity is the pulse of human life.
Education should cultivate children’s creative capacities
Free play in afternoons
Learning is facts n figures things that you easily forget
Teach transformation : an expansion of your world view and your mind once expanded can never shrink back to its original size
Once you world view change you become more authentic empathetic like compassionate, you never lose that sense
When Sir Ken Robinson spoke about the dancer who grew to become the choreographer who designed Cats. Somehow it really resonated with me.
I thought of myself . I was fortunate that I could survive the mainstream educational system but still managed to find my love of expression and could use it to earn a method of sustenance.
I thought about my kids. What does QinZhi love and how can I release her from the system that is taking her creativity away?
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