Too uncomfortable to sleep

I made a vegan pulled pork burger , vegan mayo and a side dish of pumpkin and eggplant. Had some truffle chips and a new ingredient , cherry chilli bomb

And immediately after dinner I get horrible sensations. Thoroughly wrong.  Like a feeling of allergy or having eaten something that did not go well with me.

What was it that made it so wrong? I asked. There didnt seem to be any I can think of.

Like a headache of sorts and my energy is sucked out and I m slipping away without control. 

When I swallow there’s like something at my throat and I have to breathe doubly hard. I showered and got better

Then HuaiHao and Qinzhi said they noticed I didnt look well earlier, Huaihao offered to massage me

“ Mom your shoulders are so hard, you should learn to relax mom , probably you carried too heavy things “

WOW

I had my hands too full just before dinner and rushed back 

When I heard HuaiHao say this, I heard only—- you should learn to relax and I was like—- wow!

But now I totally see the wisdom as I put these down 

Everything’s too much for me. I am still living the old ways, but my body has changed, so the old ways find themselves in a body and consciousness that ‘s different. They are at odds and can no longer work together.

YAY

Which made me realise now how powerful the fast is.

After the one week fast, the body is responding so swiftly to food. Even if vegan , the body tells me immediately when it’s not good or good for me

I tried almond milk and granola; I tried veg noodle soup and it’s ok

I did a burger and the bread had some milk

I did vegan soup the first meal I stepped out of fast, probably too much and my body didn’t like it

Its a new phase of experimenting and finding out, and I m loving it! More than this, I m grateful for this opportunity!

It shows how much work the body has done in the week I stopped eating 

And it’s great in a way because in the past it would have taken me a long time to find out .

I was blocked and numbed.

But now —— reaction time is reduced I have become a better listener and responder to the body.

And I have to be ever more selective careful and mindful now with cooking and eating 

I think I m adjusting to a new body

I wrote 

And this was the aha moment for the day

I have done so much inner work on myself of late. I have cleaned my body.

In the past I might not know what this might mean or how this can feel, but these too-full-too-uncomfortable incidents let me know that I m at a different level

My mind my spirit my soul my energy my body

They are all different now

And the old ways of eating drinking living thinking feeling can no longer serve me

I have a new body and it is inviting me to work with it more mindfully with new practices and mindsets.

And now it is about putting into practice with each thing I do or not do, eat or not eat, how much i eat or not eat, how i eat or not eat, there’s so much to learning and experimentation ahead to work with it hear it, WOW I m excited!

In the midst of putting these thoughts together I listened to Deepak Chopra ‘s abundance program like I have for the past 18 days 

And immediately I felt better

Why?

It’s a shift I heard myself say. SO obvious. I felt it.

Shifted by voice, sound, positive content or meaning in the voice or sounds,

A shift that has been so, because of the intention the voice and the goodness it carries and, because I was open to it 

That’s how powerful it is

How can I be the shift then? WOW

And when shifts occur the challenges we face are automatically dissolved resolves effortlessly 

That’s why I felt better

And then a friend shared that the Dalai Lama would be giving the Avalokiteshvara Empowerment today. As I watched this amazing being in front of my eyes, I just warm up from the inside, even writing it now, warmed my eyes, as if to wash and purify me further. That is his power.

And how can I be this power to move others?

I have had the chance to see The Dalai Lama and more importantly, feel him in person. His presence still comes to me now n then to embrace me, to move me——–how wonderful is that. How blessed to be able to feel moved!

And that is another lesson in gratitude and abundance . I asked the universe for inspiration for healing, and this is it.

And seeing him and feeling this way made me discover yet another idea, could it have been that my system is cleaning up to prepare for this empowerment?!

WOW

Then another one sent a link on autophagy

Tells of the process of the body cells miraculously recycling waste body cells into goodness.

That was what I did or rather, what my body was busy with in the 1 week fast that has gone by.

Isnt that a miracle? How did the body know how to do that? How did nature have this idea?

And——isnt that just what I have been learning from the Tibetan teachers of buddhism in meditation and in awareness?The leading thoughts on transformation so important in Tibetan Buddhism——- that is what our miracle bodies have been doing all this while and all we need to is to create opportunities for the body to heal.

I have never experienced “coincidences” ring so loud and clear, what i m practicing to both my body and mind, learning about transformation and learning to practice it, they are in sync, never has my body and mind worked on the same front like this before. Amazing.